Shit You'd Like To Confess V6: i don't actually eat as much ass as i say i do
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Every damn time someone here starts talking about how many times he faps a day my manhood is severely compromised
Mind is racing and now I'm questioning if I actually exist again
Once I got a loan phone when mine was broke. I took some 'pictures' with it to send to a friend, and then the phone stopped working and wouldnt charge, so I had to hand it back without being able to take the pictures off.
They were crossdressing pictures from like 6 years ago, so it was always funny imagining someone thinking 'oh yeah' and taking the pictures without realising. Thats more funny to me than embarrassing at this point looking back
I know sometimes couples have their spats rarely, but this one with my folks was the scariest. I felt very terrified of being in the middle of all this bitterness.
can relate, my parents don't often get into arguments, but they get very toxic when it occurs to the point everyone's silent afterwards, and it feels eerie
Why the fuck do I always have a crush on someone that will never want me
It may be because you have self worth issues, you mask them by striving towards a goal that is unattainable. All so, if you fail you tell yourself it would have never worked out to begin with. Success is a difficult thing, some of us wouldn't know what to do with it when we get it. Most of us are dogs chasing cars, we don't know what we'll do when we get it but we want it regardless.
This is just a theory, sorry if it offends you in any way.
You may very well be a stable individual. You may be able to see an entire life with this person planned out to a T. I don't know, I'm not a psychologist.
I mean I'm not worth shit so you're not wrong lmao
I suggest reaching out to someone. Take stock of your faults. Then think about the things you're good at, I'm sure there's something. Think of the cause of these feelings, try your best to understand that your past does not dictate your future.
I wish you luck, as I do to everyone in here.
After months of loneliness, I installed tinder a week ago, got a match 4 hours ago. Haven't wrote anything yet.
What's wrong with me?
A braver man than I to even get as far as you have.
I have only been on one date in my entire life and it ended in one of the worst ways I can imagine, in the emergency room.
It was setup by my older sister, with one of her long time friends who apparently had a crush on me. I was 15 years old and so was she.
We went to a movie theater and saw ?something? I don't remember the name of the movie so it was probably really boring.
We then walked a nearby mall, just checking out stores, she was pretty edgy (not that I really had a problem with it, I kinda found it cute) so we spent a lot of time inside spencers and hot topic.
I couldn't really make any conversation, we didn't share any interests so I just listened to her talk for a few hours which wasn't bad, she had a lot of jokes.
Stopped by a relatives house and had a barbecue. So it was a pretty okay day at that point but then I came down with some serious migraine.
One of the most vivid memories from that night was I was sitting in the back of my friends car while he was driving us to an arcade where we were gonna hang out with some other people, I yelled at him to pull over quick and
before he could slow down to pull over I had the window down and started throwing up.
Migraine intensified tenfold and got taken to an emergency room where they gave me some sort of pain reliever that put me to sleep nearly instantly. Docs didn't figure out what caused it.
Apparently she stayed with me the whole time, til I got dropped off at my house.
I honestly couldn't remember because by that point I was delirious.
and that's basically how it went, all in all it wasn't bad, except that last hour or so.
We talked quite a bit later by phone/text but I ended up finding out about a week later that I'd be moving from Louisiana to south Texas and neither of us wanted a long distance relationship.
So at least the date didn't go too well cause it would have sucked to lose my first girlfriend a week after getting with her.
I have not asked anyone to a date, nor accepted an invite (I have only been asked twice more in no unsure terms, and maybe a few more times vaguely like the "you wanna go eat somewhere" type.)
and I don't really think I ever will but that's for totally different reasons related to my fear of intimacy.
this post ended up longer than what I intended and I've been meaning to delete it because I didn't really feel like posting it but if I put this much effort in I might as well.
I finally managed to apologise to my ex for being a shitty boyfriend after a couple years of stewing
She didn't accept it, which I can hardly blame her for, but she acknowledged it and I feel immeasurably happier for myself
Each time I've had sex was a mistake that fucked up friendships and I wish I was still a virgin
i had some weird burnout a few years ago where I tried super hard to find dates, hurt myself over it, never found anything and then just... I dunno?
I haven't bothered since. I think I was so over it that it legitimately burned out in my head. I havent bothered to look for anyone in years and its been a passive thing, not an active thing. It's like I came to terms with being single indefinitely.
My dad's in the hospital, and I'm getting all my information secondhand from someone who has no idea what they're talking about so I'm playing a dangerous game of telephone with an idiot.
Something super bad with his heart, two arteries near/in his heart are at serious risk. Something something ?embolism?
Doctors said that he shouldn't even laugh or he'd risk death. They're gonna try lowering his blood pressure today then operating on him tomorrow.
He's been complaining that he got sores on his feet and a pain in his chest and I TOLD HIM FOUR FLIPPING DAYS AGO AND EVERY DAY SINCE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL.
What if he had died in his bed? His excuse was "I'm scared if they tell me it's something bad.", I'm so annoyed I don't know what to do.
He's gonna have heart surgery tomorrow and I'm disconcerted and nothing more, I can't afford the day off work to go see him today so I'm feeling disappointed in myself.
I don't know if I'm in shock or if I don't care though, and that kind of scares me.
I can't remember the last time I felt real happiness.
I have no idea what I want to do anymore. Adjusting to a full time 7am-3pm 40 hours a week job has drained me of almost all will to be social. I still try and make the effort to see my friends every few or other day but im so tired and I just want to stay at home.
I don't snip things I think were low quality posts in hindsight since it seems cheap or cowardly.
Update on dad hospital situation:
While I was at work today they finished doing most of their diagnosis, he's got an aneurysm affecting two arteries in his heart, if I understood him correctly.
They moved him to a different hospital where he'll be staying in the ICU until his operation around 2:30~ish tomorrow.
I visited him after work, seeing as how his new hospital allowed 24/7 visiting to the ICU, albeit only two at a time at the time I was able to make it.
I tried to keep him in good spirits but he just seemed so tired and out of it.
They're gonna try and do an arthroscopic surgery but if they can't it's not gonna be very good.
I just wanna unwind today but now I've got anxiety on top of anxiety piling up, gonna be behind on rent because not enough hours and gotta worry about taking care of my dad after he gets fucking heart surgery.
At least he's not six states away with these problems cause he'd have no one to help him.
I try not to get my hopes up. To be entirely honest I'm too different for anyone to actually love me and the more I fight it the more miserable am I.
It works the other way around too. The girl I've liked more than anyone in the world kind of just used me to vent about her ex she keeps getting back with. It took me a while to realise she's just hanging out with me because I'm the only person who listens to her problems. I could sit and get mad about it but why? That's more time wasted on it. I'm just going to move on.
Most of the time its really trivial reasons why someone doesnt 'want' you anyways. Girls dont even know what they want most of the time you see them post about 'goals' on social media. Unless youre a fit tall guy who likes dogs, you're probably not going to get a reaction from girls until you get to a certain point of getting to know them
At school i wanted to fit in so I drank piss even though i dont even like it.
i drunk messaged my ex, asked her out for drinks, she invited a friend. I feel immeasurably stupid right now
Bring along your own friend
Then hook up with your friend. Truly 1-up them
Is this a metaphor of sort or are we talking about an odd initiation rite of sort?
were you friends with bear grylls
Although I'm not as scared to go on planes unlike other people,I still get scared on flights thinking that my flight can be hijacked or that one of the pilots can be suicidal and kill everyone on board.
I'm a bit scared of traveling (not planes and such, just traveling itself) because I get immensely stressed about getting lost/being late from the places I need to be at, and ending up missing my flight/bus/etc. and running out of money. This is especially true when traveling to places I've never been at.
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