Hate and love same person. What do. Besides shoot her/myself

[The Mudcrab]

I was dating this girl, Maddy. I was totally in love. The whole nine yards. She loved me back. Problem is, she was totally immature. I wouldn't call her a party girl exactly, but compared to like Taylor Swift and girls like that, I'd say she was a party girl. The reason we didn't get along in the end was because she thought I was too controlling. I mean, she had her heart in the right place, and when she said she loved me I really believe she meant it, but fuck, she was really immature. She'd always have these stupid ideas involving going to some dustup show in the city or signing me up to work security for some dumb bitches party, or doing acid at some concert. Shit like that. Shit that'd probably get you in trouble. Dumb shit. She'd always want to do dumb shit. Me, I know what NOT to do. That's why I'd tell her when she was being dumb, and that's when I'd be accused of being controlling. I'm not some asshole who's trying to run her shit, but I learned from experience. I have two years on her.

I've done the coke, smoked the weed, fucked the whores, ran away to Miami in high school, I've pretty much done everything their is to do besides die. So I know better. Better than her, at least. But she acted like she knew everything and that meeting a guy from Craiglist at his house to pick up concert tickets was a smart thing to do, instead of meeting in a public place or something. Common knowledge shit like that, even. I've lived my life learning what NOT to do. I'm not the kind of guy who does something that works and then learns WHAT to do. It's unfortunate, and I'm sure if I had enough motivation I could even change it. But anyway. Like, why wouldn't someone listen to the expert of "what not do do." I know when somethings sketchy, I know when something doesn't seem right, I know the right people to hang out with. It not that I wanted to control her, it's just that she was kind of an idiot and made really bad choices, and I tried to guide her. I didn't want her to have to learn from experience like I did. But in the end, she thought she knew more than me, and she dumped me.

The worst part is, I still love her. I fucking hate her as a person, but I can't help it. It's pretty fucked. I know I can't make it work with her, we're too different. The things she enjoys doing the most stress me the fuck out. How could it ? I seriously wish I didn't love her, it's like a disease. I wish I could get rid of it. I wish I could take back the time I spent with her and dated a more mature girl instead, but I can't do that. I'm stuck with the memories. I know I can't change her into a version of herself that will work with me. The thing that really bothers me the most is that she just never got it, she never understood why I told her not to do shit. I never understood why she wouldn't just fucking listen. Now, I don't know what the fuck to do. She's been calling me, we've been talking. She says she wants to settle down and get off all the drugs and just be normal. She admitted that she's still young and has a lot of growing to do, "but so do I." She actually said that she's just going through a phase. WELL IF ITS THAT EASY JUST DROP THE FUCKING PHASE WQLUGLWEBLVL KASLND<C <

[B]tldr; I love a girl and I hate her at the same time. Chaos ensues. [/B]

What am I supposed to do?

[Chickens!]

You should ask in the Love advice thread.

[url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1089242[/url]

I seriously doubt very many serious replies in Fast Threads.

[BloodFox1222]

Don't do drugs, Don't date this crazy chick. Get a good education. Meet someone decent. Its not that hard.