• Things that you dislike about yourself
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Ok, so there's been many times where i've wanted to post stuff about what i dislike about my looks, personality, characteristics, life etc.... but i felt like it wasn't big enough to put it in the Depression thread or the Shit that makes you Mad thread or the WAYT thread.... etc. So here's a thread specifically for that. Rules: [B]NO[/B] shitposting (obviously) [B]NO[/B] shitting on other peoples issues - come on, be nice [B]NO [/B]being a dick in general. [B]DO[/B] help each other out with their posts [B]BE[/B] kind and helpful as much as you can
I seriously hate my ego. You see, ever since I was 7 (around the time I began school) my grandfather caused this need of always being right and winning a whole bunch, blaming my losses on others to grow in me. It was probably so I would not fail my tests or something, but it started effecting other people around me as well. I keep on getting in arguments with decent points, but turning them into much more stupid and blaming ones while repeating earlier points if the guy I am arguing with refuses to stop after a hour or so. If they just ignored me after that, I would shame them for it. I lost [B][I]6 FUCKING FRIENDS IN A DAY[/I][/B] cause I kept on screaming at them about how me calling one of them a "weeb" as a joke was a fine thing and he had no reason to get so angry about it, later realizing that he did want to explain why he removed me for it, but was about to send me a message about it while I started shouting at them about it. Going further with my ego, I wrote down an entire journal on Deviantart, shaming 3 of those guys (While keeping their names vague expect for the guy that removed me for calling him a weeb.) and caused the guy to [B][I]outright fucking cry.[/I][/B] You know what I said? "He deserved it." Do I want to go back to them? No, not at all. Because they have been big piece of shits before it (mainly the three on my journal, the others hardly talked to me), and I do not really respect them that much right now anyways. But DAMN, I feel ashamed of myself for making the guy cry. I just really wish I did not let my ego control me there, I feel so bad about it.
Everything. :v: [sp]Even if I know they're joking, it always hurts when someone says something like "this is why you have no friends."[/sp] [editline]a[/editline] Like it upsets me for no reason and it's kind of annoying.
I have minor anger issues, usually they never flare but when they do, they get bad. I've had to buy some seriously good cases for my phone because that's the first thing that's flung. I've controlled them a lot better, but it's gotten me in some bad places when I was younger, especially in school(being with the wrong crowd of people cause I fought a lot). I also have this problem where I think someone might not like me even though that's not the case. Like I'm really vulnerable, and it's annoying because I can't help but be really vulnerable. It's also a good thing, because it's made me nicer as I'm a lot more apologetic and kind because of it since I try to be as nice as I can with people.
1. ugly / sexually unattractive 2. really bad hearing 3. REALLY bad memory 4. I suck, I wish I could get hit by a car almost every day
I have no idea how to have fun
My teeth. They're not super jacked up, but I failed to take care of my teeth as a child and now I'm paying the price for it. It's more of a self-confidence killer if anything.
[QUOTE=greeley;50561108]Ok, so there's been many times where i've wanted to post stuff about what i dislike about my looks, personality, characteristics, life etc.... [/QUOTE] But you are one of the few users here who actually look attractive! I guess even attractive people hate themselves sometimes.
1. Difficulty finishing things I start. 2. Low/Easily toppled self esteem. 3. Pot-belly and man boobs that repel any woman in a mile radius. 4. Anxiety. 5. Rare but embarrassing self pity episodes. 6. I take shit too seriously.
I just hate how lazy I am, along with a huge lack of work ethic. As much as I try to shake it it won't go away.
My laziness pretty much holds my entire being down [editline]22nd June 2016[/editline] I also lack a good deal of foresight and that scares me to the point of preferring inaction over action in some cases.
My chubby body and my stupid procrastination/laziness that prevents me from losing weight and also getting important work done
I have extreme procrastination
I can only find validation in other people
1. Ugly and unattractive 2. Not smooth or charming 3. I say the wrong things at the wrong times - I occasionally don't know when to shut up or speak out 4. I'm sometimes too passive - I've let some many thing just slip out of my fingers because I wasn't brave enough to fight against losing it/ I didn't care about it enough when I had the opportunity
while I'm at it -crippling anxiety disorder that has ruined most of my life -inability to let go of the past and move forward -too dependant on other people -can't grow a beard
nothing, i'm great! [sp]i lie too much[/sp]
I automated my job too much
That i'm somewhat chubby, am a complete dipshit when it comes to learning/remembering and am pretty much useless.
I think ultimately my worst quality is my self-defeating attitude.
I make up random stories like they are real quite often. I don't make them sound too extreme but i just keep on making up random shit. I have no reason too. I guess i just think my life is so uninteresting that i feel the need to make shit up.
I keep on finding what people find unattractive dangerously attractive and people keep on thinking I am either a serious loner or a huge pervert. God dammit.
Unmotivated, which leads to me being unable to muster up any energy. That is one of the things I most hate about myself, I always say I'm going to do something (e.g. get a job, do homework) but I always never have the energy to do anything. I can only truly do something if I'm stressed, like last minute homework or something. But since I'm unmotivated I just say "fuck it" to anything, which sucks.
I'm rather forgetful and tend to only remember certain important things or things I'm really interested in. It really drives me up the walls that sometimes when I sit down in my car to go to work I start to wonder if I closed the door and locked it properly. It makes me feel incompetent and I hate it. I'm also very short-sighted and tend to live more in the present than planing for a structured future. I don't know if this is something I hate per-say but sometimes I wished I'd take more of an initiative to plan things better than to just let them happen and deal with it then.
Unmotivated. Social Anxiety, which results in further unmotivation. Lack of focus on anything that matters. Overweight, which is going to be hard to get rid of given the above. Lack of ability to do things alone. I won't leave the house unless I absolutely need to or plan on meeting up with someone. The synergy of the 5 things also results in self loathing.
Complete and utter laziness. About 8 or more years ago I kept telling myself, "I'm gonna have my own comic fully made soon!" and here I am, still just drawing and not doing comics. I give up so easily when I get frustrated with trying to figure out how to start, or just thinking about all the work that it needs. I also rely on my brother, who also draws, too much. I need to stop being lazy and waiting on him and start doing my own thing.
My laziness. Like shit, the last time I actually put remote [I]effort[/I] into something was my last year's finals and I did pretty damn well with it. But of fucking course, my laziness kicks in and whenever I tell myself, "Fuck, I need to take over dad when I grow up, better study my ass off." in the car/bus, I instead just end up on the computer or just straight up take a day long nap or just fuck around in FP, reddit and the like. Fuck my laziness.
everything
Where do I start I don't talk to people, not my friends, not my co-workers, not my family. I just don't feel the urge to. Not many people like me as a person I don't like how in my last relationship that she loved me but I only liked her for sex. I don't want to take advantage of people like that again. I don't like how my resume has nothing of interest on it. No extra-curricular activities, no exemplary marks except back in high school etc. Yes I have a current job just not in my desired career path, and I can't even get a foot in the door for a damn trainee role that pays less than my current job. I don't like how I have these weird neck twitches, how I struggle to put on muscle without putting on too much fat, how I can't grow decent facial hair etc.
I'm an Internet Nazi
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