Who's Proud Of Their Sobriety From (Insert Drug Here)?
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I just wrote this poem, and was curious if you guys and anything to chip in as to how long you've been clean... I used to do meth and heroin, and I'm so proud of myself that I no longer do so..
There were days where I'd stay up for eternity
Twirling and blowing that icy smoke day and night
I was lost, hopeless and hurt
It's been a week, I begin to question why I'm living
I lay down, trying to sleep, but I lay wide awake
Why have I done this to myself?
I said I never would
Parents and friends becoming more distant
Delusional thoughts got me thinking
Growing cold on the inside, emotions turn to frost
Cheeks have finally sunken in, or have they always been?
I can no longer count the days, but the time seems so slow
How did I end up in this twisted dark world?
I just wanted to escape, but I was scarred inside and out
Tina had me in her grasp, she took everything I loved away
She filled me with emptiness, left me fiending for crystals
I tried to cover her physical abuse, but nothing seemed to work
My eyes lost their glimmer, and turned to black stone
Walking around in daylight, I felt like a vampire
I sensed people starting right through me
They could see that I was empty
I never want to feel like that again
Thats why I'm clean, to this day!
Congratz, those are two of the much more difficult drugs to beat. Poem is really cool too, really enjoyed it. For me, I can't really think of any, since I am a careful recreational user (if there is such a thing.) I have never been hooked on anything before besides, ironically, a methylphenidate perscription which really sucked because withdrawl caused me to pretty much stop eating and I just felt exhausted and depressed for a few weeks. Glad I am off that shit though, it never helped fuck all.
I have "ADHD" (and with my meth usage, it felt more or less reassuring with how I never had a euphoric high) but I was on adderall and concerta, you name it... but I tell you what, when I'd go a day without my medicine, it was the worst come down ever.. I didn't realize that's what it was at the time, but damn I was so lathargic I didn't want to do SHIT.. not walk or ANYTHING.... I never really had a come down from meth, more so I wanted to feel normal but for some reason I wanted more.
Girlfriend's dad died of a heroin addiction.
Meth and Heroin are just awful.
[editline]6th July 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=jonnymad;45304773]Congratz, those are two of the much more difficult drugs to beat. Poem is really cool too, really enjoyed it. For me, I can't really think of any, since I am a careful recreational user (if there is such a thing.) I have never been hooked on anything before besides, ironically, a methylphenidate perscription which really sucked because withdrawl caused me to pretty much stop eating and I just felt exhausted and depressed for a few weeks. Glad I am off that shit though, it never helped fuck all.[/QUOTE]
Methylphenidates never help shit.
I remember you from my concerta thread.
It's been 24 hours and I still can't sleep :,(
Just chiming in to offer some words of support
methylamphetamine (what you guys call meth, but there's lots of drugs with the methyl group so speaking amphetamine specifically here) is a real bitch of a drug to kick
congrats on beating it and heroin, but really
the most important thing you can do is take responsibility for your own action, don't blame the drug for your addiction, be real with yourself, and keep pushing forward with what you know is best.
will power is your best friend, and the temptation may arise from time to time but it's far easier on you to NOT go through with those temptations
you gotta remember all the downsides of these drugs. I couldn't recommend methylamphetamine to anyone, staying up for days and getting multiple psychosis is not worth the addictive draw that this substance offers in terms of effect.
[editline]6th July 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=Space Man;45306521]Girlfriend's dad died of a heroin addiction.
Meth and Heroin are just awful.
[editline]6th July 2014[/editline]
Methylphenidates never help shit.
I remember you from my concerta thread.
It's been 24 hours and I still can't sleep :,([/QUOTE]
just don't fuck with stimulants, I saw that concerta thread and you seem to have a very naive perspective on what these drugs are actually about right now (seriously, methylphenidates never help? and what authority do you have on this matter? they're prescribed for ADHD at quite low doses, and if you look around you'll find that for every post that says they suck ass there's also someone that says they've been extremely beneficial to their lifestyle when used as prescribed, obviously mileage will vary between person and person, but god damn. you hit up concerta at irresponsible dosages cause you ran out of weed then say methylphenidates never help lol just makes me question your stance)
can't believe there was users telling you to go fuck with adderall with that attitude you hold towards this family of drugs atm, I don't mean to make you down on yourself but please just don't, it's really not worth it if you're /just/ chasing a high. these are powerful substances which can be extremely addictive, I know this full well and i'm only saying this out of respect for you as a human being dude.
these drugs are powerful tools and can be useful aids when used in the right context, but can also destroy lives when people start using it as a substitute for a bitta weed on a night in (and that's just one of the MANY contexts in which addictive habits can form around them)
that's not to say you can't use em for a high, they're a powerful tool for that purpose as well, but with that kind of approach... set and setting, there's a time and a place for everything etc.
sorry to be the resident hard cat on stimulants, but I fucked myself over with them with that exact approach.
now, back on topic
it's been just over 2 weeks and counting since my last meth use, prior to that it was 2 months clean, I plan on well and truly beating that figure.
I have my ways of tracking how it was bad for me, including photos that in all honesty are quite shocking... transition from hating myself and using meth to being genuinely happy and ~clean of most drugs now is astounding
i mean, I still smoke weed occasionally, and fuck knows that there could be lapses in the future (as much as I don't plan on it, the temptation is creeping and at times overwhelming) but i say clean in the context of my day to day basis
24 hours, day one's over, but that's the easy day, here goes day 2.
I used to get high on life.....
Then I quit.....
Now I'm a ghost....
[QUOTE=mushroompizza;45559150]I used to get high on life.....
Then I quit.....
Now I'm a ghost....[/QUOTE]
I heard withdrawals from that can be pretty deadly.
Seriously though I've been clean off of everything for 2 and a half months now, though not by choice. Then again I never had a real addiction anyways, but sobriety is sobriety no matter what the circumstances right?
I've been clean of all drugs for 2 months, until yesterday, where I was forced to smoke spice by a stranger who threatened violence. It's all cool though, I liked it :v:
[QUOTE=geogzm;45571189]I've been clean of all drugs for 2 months, until yesterday, where I was forced to smoke spice by a stranger who threatened violence. It's all cool though, I liked it :v:[/QUOTE]
Please detail the story; sounds interesting.
[QUOTE=bs8814;45571293]Please detail the story; sounds interesting.[/QUOTE]
short version is in addict's lounge somewhere
shorter version: sat with friend, got threatened by a guy who pretended to be police (without uniform so i knew he was a fake instantly but he physically stole my money) and then left with my german friend
v:v:v
i haven't been to DD in a very, very long time. i remember posting here when i was 15, doing coke and shit. doubt anyone remembers me but i'm a year clean from opiates now.
[QUOTE=polarbear.;45572681]i haven't been to DD in a very, very long time. i remember posting here when i was 15, doing coke and shit. doubt anyone remembers me but i'm a year clean from opiates now.[/QUOTE]
How can we not remember you, haha. Good to see you're doing alright man, was a little worried after you disappeared considering all of the stuff you did and your age.
i use to do a lot of meth and hash, I'm glad I've quit now, feel much better :)
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