• xanax.. the only drug that can make you not feel like shit and depressed
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Fuckin had the worst 3 weeks of my life lately.. So many fuckin problems, so many fuckin stresses, bitch problems, bro problems, self esteem problems.. i never used to be like this, i've been miserable for the past 6 months when i was diagnosed for severe depression and almost was put on suicide watch.. fuckin just depressed as shit right now.. (btw i know suicide isn't the answer and its cowardly and selfish to those who care about me but once you hit a certain point in your life when you realize you feel way more shitty all the time compared to normal people it seems like the only option.. then i take 6mg of xanax and i stop caring. Like holy shit miracle drug. However in terms of which makes you feel better, hydro > xanax.. nothing bothers me on a high dose of hydromorphone... fuck i wish i had some.. but atleast im on a bunch of xanax.. I suggest trying to get a script if anyone else gets like this sometimes. Also i know theres millions worse off than me, and just knowing that fact i get depressed and bi-polar all the time and still cant keep my shit together means im mentally weak... I never used to be like this, it's like my whole world is coming down. Life sucks (even though it doesn't i guess im just a pussy) If anyone ever gets this feeling just know you're not the only one <3 hope all you dd'ers are happy and more mentally stable than i am. [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] i should start making some mega threads on all my knowledge of drugs in case i leave DD so i can help some noobs out.. maybe its something to do
I used to be like the way you are but then i started to not give a fuck and that's how I stand today
ps i dont want sympathy you can troll me if you want.. atleast the internet is the one thing that doesn't bother me... I just wish i learned how to cope with shit better. im on so many pills it's ridiculous.. and i'm a full blown xanax addict now, and im gonna ask if i can get klonopin too.. anxiety disorders suck fucking balls [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] so i took alot and now im drinkin.. will let u know if i black out
[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31857299]ps i dont want sympathy you can troll me if you want.. atleast the internet is the one thing that doesn't bother me... I just wish i learned how to cope with shit better. im on so many pills it's ridiculous.. and i'm a full blown xanax addict now, and im gonna ask if i can get klonopin too.. anxiety disorders suck fucking balls [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] so i took alot and now im drinkin.. will let u know if i black out[/QUOTE] just say fuck everything and move to something else after a while you start to naturally do it and shit doesn't bother you as much
Not when you are actually depressed man
suicidal thoughts are a daily thought in my mind... sometimes for hours ill ponder whether i wanna do it.. i have 100mg xanax.. sounds like a perfect way to go. fall asleep and not wake up... so peaceful [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] actually i got 240mg =D
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;31857551]Not when you are actually depressed man[/QUOTE] you kidding manic depression runs in my family I get depression at time but when it comes around I tell myself fuck off with the feeling and I feel better [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31857606]suicidal thoughts are a daily thought in my mind... sometimes for hours ill ponder whether i wanna do it.. i have 100mg xanax.. sounds like a perfect way to go. fall asleep and not wake up... so peaceful [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] actually i got 240mg =D[/QUOTE] Don't be so stupid man just relax and let the feeling of the xanax take you on a road to a greater feeling
i think ill take 30 more (15*mg) if i wake up ill def let u know otherwise RIP(yea rite) [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] HOLY SHIT. weed + xanax is crazy. somedays i need 2mg but sometimes i only need 1.0 so i ended up with extra mg and i took my last mg (holy i cant think right niw im pretty sure im bkacjed oyt cyz u cant even look at the screen cyz u have duzzy vusuin like i was drunk but i can look at the keyboard and m pretty sure im pressin the right buyt==ttins ... wait what the fuck dwas i talkin aboyt?? jesus christ i have no short tern memory at all holy shit i dunno what tos say this is fucked this shit be intense you im just zonin out and lookin around the room without even know ,,,gid damnit i forgot wjat i was talkin about again shit! k wellanyway dont o lots of xanax and smoke some good sit... uts a fucked up feelin not a stoner or baked feeeling.. its cool tho.. i havent jept my eyes ioen for so long Edit: I think i closed my eyes while writing this?
Dude, try to avoid xanax addiction, because it can be quite devastating... I hope your life will get better soon.
could have just got a subscription for prozac, not only would your anxiety troubles be gone so would your depression! and you wouldn't be an addict to xanax which is gonna fuck you up more than depression if you let it. doesnt have many side effects at all either everyone whos never done it makes ADs out to be some weird pills that get rid of depression but make enable the government to hack into your brain and command you to spread propaganda
Shit man Xanaxxxxxx. I am craving half a bar to get me started for the day... Me and you can talk Xanax all day stayblazed <3
Also OP, look on gabapentin/pregabalin, it may be worth a try.
[QUOTE=confinedUser;31857074]I used to be like the way you are but then i started to not give a fuck and that's how I stand today[/QUOTE] I used to not give a fuck then I realized I was almost 18 with little to no social connections and no girlfriend. Now I'm realizing where not giving a fuck got me and I feel depressed.
Not giving a fuck. Best way of life. Haha.
weed and xanax feels like sober to me which is why i prefer klonopin
[QUOTE=SeanL;31862683]Not giving a fuck. Best way of life. Haha.[/QUOTE] eh idk, in some areas it works out. For me i use it in religion. I dont know and dont care. But i still need to care about school work, getting a job and shit. When it comes to drama, not giving a fuck is good but you need to set goals otherwise you are going to accomplish nothing and feel like a waste.
[QUOTE=Gareth;31860751]could have just got a subscription for prozac, not only would your anxiety troubles be gone so would your depression! and you wouldn't be an addict to xanax which is gonna fuck you up more than depression if you let it. doesnt have many side effects at all either everyone whos never done it makes ADs out to be some weird pills that get rid of depression but make enable the government to hack into your brain and command you to spread propaganda[/QUOTE]the effects of antidepressants vary wildly between people. What worked fine for you may cause somebody else to turn into a braindead zombie and lose all feeling in their nether regions. Stayblazed, I know shit's been crazy for you, but megadoses of xanax are only gonna help you for so long...I mean you of all people should know about tolerance. And the dependency is gonna bite you in the ass if you aren't careful. Drugs can certainly be helpful in times like these, but ultimately you must learn better ways of coping, or risk the pillz becoming your only way of coping with anything and everything. A lifetime of fragmented memories, waiting for your next bottle and digging between the couch cushions for a bar you may have dropped really isn't as fun as it sounds.
i've been on benzos for half a year, i've been addicted for months.. if i dont dose i could have seizures... don't even remember making any posts other than the OP. just goes to show you what it does to your memory. [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] looks like i was havin fun, i wish i remembered it [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] i had two facepunch tabs open and in the other one i typed out this but never sent it: 'uhh aparrently i sent a text 6 minutes ago saying: ghughg i saw some thqt after i said 'i forgot wher i was' holy shit guys i think i needa sleep somethins pree screwed up.......................................................................... ' [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Mac2468;31864680]weed and xanax feels like sober to me which is why i prefer klonopin[/QUOTE] i've been on clonazepam and it sucks compared to xanax. also do more xanax and smoke more weed
man. you need some help for real. don't fucking kill yourself. get off the xanax, that shit will fuck you up and not in a good way also how old are you? because if you are a teenager I can understand the depression thing but if you are older I suggest you get your act together man!
i didnt try to kill myself, shit, i just wanted to forget my troubles
have you considered slowly weaning yourself off of it?
no because i've been getting more and more stressed. i had my script increased yesterday [editline]21st August 2011[/editline] also fuck, i have lost 8 pounds because i havent eaten anything in like 3 weeks... i just force whatever i can down, whenever i'm able
please, friend.. consider: is it the drug itself letting you cope or is it you (in the form of a finite pill)?
[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31866023] i've been on clonazepam and it sucks compared to xanax. also do more xanax and smoke more weed[/QUOTE] gets me into the feels good zone with much less and it tastes minty not like ass
I lived near a kid that took 4mg of xanax then smoked 3g of bud through a vaporizer he was on a level beyond retarded
[QUOTE=Mac2468;31864680]weed and xanax feels like sober to me which is why i prefer klonopin[/QUOTE] this man speaks many truths. xanax is so short and tolerance building it's not even worth it, I don't even fool with mine. i need a hook up for k-pin but pharms aren't a big thing in my school.
[QUOTE=Mac2468;31864680]weed and xanax feels like sober to me which is why i prefer klonopin[/QUOTE] heeeellll yeaaah klonopin is fucking excellent only good benzo
[QUOTE=ghosevil;31868867]please, friend.. consider: is it the drug itself letting you cope or is it you (in the form of a finite pill)?[/QUOTE] sometimes its a straight up biological problem and drugs are the only way to fix it or force it to a level where the behavioral model will work .
I don't want you to die man, please do something to get yourself together, it'll suck, but still.
Yeah i don't necessarily want to die, i just don't/didn't really care. Xanax just increased this feeling by 10x by it's overwhelming high and incoherent thoughts and mind numbingly calmness. Nothing bothers you. 'Yes sure i want to live', or 'nah i don't need to' were just equally applicable to me and neither decision seemed to have a bad reason... It's hard to describe, but basically what i'm saying is it doesn't make you give a fuck about anything
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