[b]This certainly isn't anything new, but it's my first experience,[/b] I've smoked for about a year.
This past weekend, I decided to go on a little trip while under the influence of marijuana. My goal was to honestly just get high, and then do what I normally do sober, and meditate. Here's how the story went down...
It's midnight, and me and my friend decide to go to waffle house to get some coffee seeing as we were going to be pulling an all-nighter. Luckily you pay a dollar for as many refills as you'd like, and I eventually drank a good fifteen cups of coffee before leaving to pick up some milk from the store. Well, we return home and decide to call up a friend and buy a nick off him, since all we had was five bucks.
We make our way to his friend and talk for a few moments before finally leaving and making our way home. Seeing as he was one of his friends, he gave up a little over a dime for only five. We instantly throw ourselves in the living room upon returning and begin preparing, well I was, my friend only smokes for fun, while I have more serious intentions.
He throws himself onto the couch and plays a movie... Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas, which I later wind up watching four times in a row later that morning. He falls asleep and I'm sitting there watching Fear and Loathing... this is where things begin to come to me. The movie is actually causing me to feel unsettled and disturbed, but I continue. During scenes I tend to go off into meditation and empty my mind, and then either suddenly jam thoughts into my head, or watch a little of the movie while in a state of clarity. It continues to disturb me.
Eventually I put the movie on repeat and just put my attention on meditation and clearing my mind. After eventually sitting in deep concentration for what felt like hours I open my eyes to see the atmosphere around me completely clear and vivid. I feel empty of all previously learned emotion and feeling, and it's amazing... and I realized, that this is what reality is. Reality is living without a mind clouded by incredibly petty and unnecessary bullshit. I have reached a state similar to this by simply just meditating, but doing it while smoking is different.
Even now, some time after losing my high, I still feel as though I'm stuck in this wave of euphoria and clarity. I've been happy all day, and even though there were a few moments where something would get to me and upset me, within seconds it would disappear. Simply because when I'm in this state, even having bad thoughts don't bring me down, because when I'm in this state and bad thoughts enter, I begin thinking constructively on how to fix it, unlike when I'm sober and my anxiety tends to take control.
ITT: What we know as being 'high' is actually what should be considered normal, due to the clarity that is obtained, where as what we know as 'sober' is just another way of saying, a mind full of clutter.
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Edit: But seriously, thinking about stuff like that while high is amazing fun. Especially when done with friends. :D
To start off, I have to say that that is a pretty fucking cool story man. I'm going to have to practice my meditation now and get into that shit. Great idea.
Next I wanna talk about your euphoria and clarity, and things not bothering you. From the sound of it you were able to release enough endorphins and dopamine to trigger the feeling I have only ever gotten when I was tripping on shrooms. It was such a peaceful, "nothing can go wrong" feeling, that I thought to myself "Wow... this is how life should be" and figured that the real meaning of life was to try to be content with what you have, and to just accept the bad with the good, as everything will be alright in the end. It was life changing.
I don't think that being high is normal, and sober is a damnation to a cluttered mind, but rather that we should learn to be naturally high, that is, to be as accepting and optimistic as possible, even when it's hardest to do so.
But isn't that the greatest feeling in the world? No exaggeration, just the most fantastic, peaceful feeling I have ever had in my life. It's what I imagine I will feel when I die, just peace.
I'm not saying I should spend my whole life stoned, but I was saying it has caused me to see everything in a much different way.
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Edit: But seriously, thinking about stuff like that while high is amazing fun. Especially when done with friends. :D[/QUOTE]
helpful hint for you, if you post something and then post again, the second post is merged and an edit line is added
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With time I could achieve this state with only meditation.
The whole soberness is nothing more than a cluttered mess of thoughts, is more just me saying that I want to be able to get into this state and keep hold of it through my own power, and eventually be able to keep it.
[QUOTE=Aaronn;20928254]helpful hint for you, if you post something and then post again, the second post is merged and an edit line is added
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It's just a habit from browsing several other forums frequently. Usually forums don't have automerge, and you gotta keep in mind my account is still pretty fresh here. :P
Edit: [quote]Also I had posted before you could auto-merge. My bad. [/quote]
I wouldn't have automerged anyhoo. It's a habit, and I usually don't catch myself hitting the edit button.
Also I had posted before you could auto-merge. My bad.
It's not like I want to use weed as a crutch in order to live a life of peace, but it certainly will be a tool in my arsenal to experiment.
[QUOTE=The Pale Lotus;20928355]It's not like I want to use weed as a crutch in order to live a life of peace, but it certainly will be a tool in my arsenal to experiment.[/QUOTE]
I usually use it for one of three reasons:
1.) Social situation / party. I'm a pretty non-social person, so it helps me branch out and relax. It also adds to the fun, and gives me something in common with other people. Good way to just chill.
2.) Medical. If I'm unable to eat, feel sick, or need to sleep and my mind won't STFU, I just smoke a bowl or two and my symptoms go away. Fantastic utilization.
3.) Figure out a problem. I think this is what you're talking about, just being able to clear your mind and think on just one thing, and really get to see all sides of it, not just the easy ones to spot. It makes problems simpler, and makes figuring them out much easier.
My main reason for smoking is for exploring my mind, whether through mediation, music, movies, books, or poetry. Each one has different effects.
Also to control my anxiety.
I use it to keep my depression down and just to chill out.
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