So I've spent the last six weeks in a state rehab facility where I've been treated for alcohol and drug addiction. I've been using drugs for about 6 years now (I'm 22) and getting more and more out of control and my life quality in general had deteriorated significantly over the past year where I suffered addiction from opiates, benzodiazepines, cocaine and finally as of this summer, alcohol. I never really considered quitting drugs as a proper option before going into rehab, I just thought I'd stay there for a while to relax a bit and clean up some stuff in my life, but after last weekend (I had the weekend off since I had been clean for five weeks) I had a pretty severe OD from a mix of ridiculously high amounts of coke, speed, GHB, MDMA and about a liter of vodka over the course of 24 hours, which landed me in the hospital for three days in stimulant psychosis and with a minor heart attack, I've now sorta lost the urge to get as fucked up as possible. At least for now. Well, except for my lil bottle of scotch right here.
Uh anyhow I sorta lost my train of thought right there. But uh, I can share some of my experience from what rehab's like and stuff if anyone's interested. Here's a pic of the room I've been staying in, quite nice actually
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welcome home<3
So what's your plans now that you're out? Just go about and live life?
[QUOTE=Remi;46764337]So I've spent the last six weeks in a state rehab facility where I've been treated for alcohol and drug addiction. I've been using drugs for about 6 years now (I'm 22) and getting more and more out of control and my life quality in general had deteriorated significantly over the past year where I suffered addiction from opiates, benzodiazepines, cocaine and finally as of this summer, alcohol. I never really considered quitting drugs as a proper option before going into rehab, I just thought I'd stay there for a while to relax a bit and clean up some stuff in my life, but after last weekend (I had the weekend off since I had been clean for five weeks) I had a pretty severe OD from a mix of ridiculously high amounts of coke, speed, GHB, MDMA and about a liter of vodka over the course of 24 hours, which landed me in the hospital for three days in stimulant psychosis and with a minor heart attack, I've now sorta lost the urge to get as fucked up as possible. At least for now. Well, except for my lil bottle of scotch right here.
Uh anyhow I sorta lost my train of thought right there. But uh, I can share some of my experience from what rehab's like and stuff if anyone's interested. Here's a pic of the room I've been staying in, quite nice actually
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addiction changes things once you realize the depths it can take you too
coming out of addiction for a while and staying sober; it can be very hard to enjoy most drugs post, but be careful of those ones that landed you there in the first place, even if you don't enjoy the experience directly anymore, those mental habits are still very likely there and you can easily fall down the same rabbit hole
I hope you manage to maintain moderation from here on out at the very least; I'm sorry to hear about the OD but glad to hear you're still alive and kickin, don't waste your new found clarity by jumping back into things too soon, that mind state you're in is something you have to work to hold onto if you don't want to 'unlearn' the lessons you feel you've learned
stay vigilant and above all stay safe and smart about your intake of any and all substances
[editline]22nd December 2014[/editline]
feel free to share your experiences if you want, i'd gladly read
Well as of my first night "free", I totally didn't stay sober. Ended up doing meth and coke and drinking a shitload with a friend, but it was still different than the usual stuff. Cause usually my aim is to get as fucked up as physically possible, but tonight my only aim was to behave properly and get a good high. Which is quite the change from the norm, when it comes to me.
Anyway, though I might not accomplish to stay sober, I do feel like I'm going in the right direction. I'm still getting high and fucked up, but for different reasons than before. Cause I used to get fucked up cause life was too much to deal with, but now I see everything as a challenge that I need to conqueror, instead of everything being an excuse to use hard drugs and alcohol.
iduno i'm pretty fucked up atm and my ass is sore cause i'm gay and i've had plenty of sex in the butt, but i'm tired and i just wanted to check in with you lovely folk¨
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[QUOTE=Soukuw;46768580]So what's your plans now that you're out? Just go about and live life?[/QUOTE]
My plans are to reconnect with my social circle since I've lost touch with all my friends and relatives over the past year as my drug use got worse. And get a new apartment. And then take it from there I spose
Good luck on your next steps brother.
That sucks you relapsed. I myself have been in rehab and now have 130 days off heroin and all other substances. I don't wanna go back and been doing the AA program. I fucking hate AA but it keeps me sober and i'll do whatever it takes to stay sober. Hopefully you can find your way back brother! I've seen a lot of people relapse and a few people go back out and die. So don't shame yourself and don't quit till your fucking done you feel me. Stay positive.
[QUOTE=Remi;46764337]a mix of ridiculously high amounts of coke, speed, GHB, MDMA and about a liter of vodka over the course of 24 hours[/QUOTE]
God, how do you even achieve that?
[QUOTE=Remi;46768885]Well as of my first night "free", I totally didn't stay sober. Ended up doing meth and coke and drinking a shitload with a friend[/QUOTE]
Did you not tell your "friend" that you just came out of rehab?
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