tl;dr? Man leaves behind 1,905-page suicide note - Polidicks

[URL="http://www.thecrimson.com/article/2010/9/22/heisman-harvard-mother-death/"]Source[/URL] [release]The man who shot himself on the steps of Memorial Church Saturday morning had published online a 1,905-page document entitled “Suicide Note,” according to his mother. The death of Mitchell L. Heisman, a 35-year-old Somerville resident, on campus was met with shock, and University officials described the incident as “tragic.” “It’s really sad, it was horrible, and these kinds of incidents affect all of us really negatively,” Dean of the College Evelynn M. Hammonds said in an interview yesterday. “This campus is situated in an urban context, and we can’t control these kinds of things.” Born in New York City in 1975, Heisman attended elementary school in Monroe Township, N.J., and graduated with a bachelor’s in psychology from the University of Albany. While living in a Craigie Street apartment, Heisman wrote “Suicide Note,” a sprawling series of arguments that touch upon historical, religious, and nihilist themes, his mother said. “He didn’t show me that this was at all what he had in his mind. All I knew was he was finishing his book and he was happy about that,” said his mother Lonni Heisman, 76. Heisman said she supported publishing her son’s name in The Crimson to let people know of his work “because that’s what he wanted.” An avid reader interested in mathematics and science, Heisman visited Harvard libraries and may have contacted professors while writing the document, his mother said. A University spokesman was unable to confirm whether Heisman had reached out to Harvard faculty last night. The document references Harvard and research done by Harvard faculty—such as Law School professor Alan M. Dershowitz, government professor Harvey C. Mansfield ’53, and psychology professor Steven Pinker—more than half a dozen times. Heisman discusses death at length in the piece, which is publicly available online. Heisman committed suicide on the top step of Memorial Church Saturday in front of a tour group of more than 20 people, according to a Cambridge Police Department report. His death took place during Yom Kippur services that morning and resulted in campus security shutting down the eastern half of Harvard Yard for much of the day. Jared L. Nathanson, a 37-year-old singer who described himself as Heisman’s acquaintance, said he had had conversations with Heisman about art, music, and movies. Nathanson received a copy of “Suicide Note” in an e-mail that day. “From what I understood of him, his book was very important to him,” Nathanson said. Heisman worked in several bookstores in the area and relied on an inheritance from his father Alvin Heisman—who passed away while Mitchell Heisman was still an adolescent—to support his writing, according to his mother. But he was reluctant to talk to her about its contents, she said. “I’m devastated. I just can’t believe it,” she said. “I don’t think I ever will.” She spoke with Heisman just two days before his death, she said. “I expected him to come here to help me move, which I am in the process of,” she said. “I expected him to come back in October. He really was non-committal.”[/release] Said suicide note can be found [URL="http://www.suicidenote.info/ebook/suicide_note.pdf"]right here[/URL] (4.2Mb PDF)... Anyhow, I'm sure the tl;dr goes like this: "[I]After all these pages I forgot why am I going to kill myself... oh well :v: kthxbye[/I] :emo:"

You think that by the time he'd get done he would get over whatever it was.

[QUOTE=Jad Hinto;25031843]You think that by the time he'd get done he would get over whatever it is.[/QUOTE] That is not how it works.

:20bux: says he was writing the book as a joke and eventually convinced himself in his writing to kill himself.

I would've just offed myself before I finished half of that.

[QUOTE=Henry Townshend;25031849]That is not how it works.[/QUOTE] Care to elaborate, please?

The note included a TL:DR "gonna kill myself"

“I expected him to come here to help me move, which I am in the process of,” she said. “I expected him to come back in October. He really was non-committal.” Yeah, I guess he can't really commit when he's dead.

gonna read it

wait maybe its some awesome national treasure-style scavenger hunt - quick, start looking for famous suicides in 1905!

I didn't even bother to dl the PDF, it's retarded I'm not reading that note...

[QUOTE=Henry Townshend;25031849]That is not how it works.[/QUOTE] Seasoned suicide contemplative person right here.

[release]a sprawling series of arguments that touch upon historical, religious, and nihilist themes,[/release] Sounds like ramblings.

bad-ass

They should publish this as a book. [highlight](User was banned for this post ("'Desu_Kawaii~123' main account" - Dragon))[/highlight]

[QUOTE=PeanutTHENINJA;25031929]They should publish this as a book.[/QUOTE] That'd be publishing suicide!

Lol jesus did that except jews killed him before the bible was published :v:

[QUOTE=Levithan;25031957]That'd be publishing suicide![/QUOTE] so

[QUOTE=PeanutTHENINJA;25031929]They should publish this as a book.[/QUOTE] Yup... he probably [del]expects[/del] expected "postmortem success" by doing this

I think you'd want to commit suicide after doing something like that

He was killed when the suicide note fell off a shelf, crushing him.

badass, if for whatever reason I committed suicide (which I wont, situations can always be modified.) , I would SO write a 2k page book detailing my life, and all sorts of stuff.

Quick fact: This guy's suicide note is [URL="http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_many_pages_are_all_of_the_Lord_of_the_Rings_books"]longer than all 3 books of "The Lord of the Rings" together (1137 pages total)[/URL]... This also reminded me of Se7en's John Doe...

[QUOTE=PyromanDan;25032071]badass, if for whatever reason I committed suicide (which I wont, situations can always be modified.) , I would SO write a 2k page book detailing my life, and all sorts of stuff.[/QUOTE] my life isn't interesting enough to write 100 pages on

fuck note wont load

[QUOTE=Pretiacruento;25031874]Care to elaborate, please?[/QUOTE] Suicide usually isn't the result of a one-off event, it's a culmination of years of mental problems.

Suicide Novel

What are the last words in said note? too lazy to dl

[QUOTE=lum1naire;25032138]my life isn't interesting enough to write 100 pages on[/QUOTE] Neither was his, which is why most of the ranting isn't even about his life [editline]10:37PM[/editline] [QUOTE=zeldar;25032725]What are the last words in said note? too lazy to dl[/QUOTE] It begins with a socrates quote, and ends with a fucking 10 page bibliography. Because citing your sources is the most important part of a suicide note. The last line before the bibliography is: [I]"But I can't understand myself", said the master.[/I] Basically to sum up the last few pages, and I would assume, the note as a whole, he thinks nihilism and scientific advances are destroying all of our values, and that understanding everything to be the product of chemical reactions in the brain diminishes their meaning, and if life is meaningless, then there's no reason not to kill yourself.

He posted it on a fucking website he created: [url]http://www.suicidenote.info/[/url] fuck man he's just whoring the publicity! source: [url]http://ken_ashford.typepad.com/blog/2010/09/the-1905-page-suicide-note.html[/url]