A strange thing happens to me every time I smoke weed and searching the internet I have found nobody sharing my experiences.. When I get high and go about my business and I'll have what feels like random thoughts pop into my head, just completely uncalled for and out of the blue. It'll often point out my past shortcomings. I might be watching TV, thinking, "Oh this show's enterta- [i]are you really wasting your day again?[/i]-ining." It's hard to give good examples because every good and important bit of this happening I always forget, even when I try REALLY REALLY hard to remember. In every instance the way this 'voice' of sorts talks to me is in the manner of an internet troll, almost as if it's just trying to make me RAGE at it. (It isn't actually a voice but more of a line of thought that doesn't feel like my own and communicates in almost vivid sentences.) 'Listening' to it and closing my eyes I once vividly pictured trollface in my mind. It doesn't end at pointing out my social awkwardness and correcting my shortcomings, it tells me what I and other people are thinking. The 'mind reading' bit of it, as you might call it, always comes completely out of the blue like the 'voice' thoughts. [I]"When will he go?!,"[/I] would pop up in a situation where someone thinking that would make perfect sense. It doesn't feel like telepathy as much as it does subconscious empathy. Every time I try to communicate with it, it always goes away. Eventually after being aware of it for awhile I started getting, "UR TELEPATHIC LOLS" and shit like, "U HAV SPECIAL POWERZ!!!" in the matter that seems like it's trying to IRL troll me into becoming insane. If I try too hard to speak to it I end up making shit up.
It is NEVER auditory, always in my own head. It isn't any actual voice but it speaks to me as if it were. It has emotion to it, tone, pitch, all the elements of a person speaking.. It just isn't.
I was wondering, does anyone else experience anything like this. There's more to it, but trying to recollect this on a timeline is hard to me as some memories seem unreasonably stronger than others
schizophreniaaa
I can't even right a legit response to this guy. Hes fucking RICK ROSS.
[QUOTE=Twitch;27533969]schizophreniaaa[/QUOTE]
That's what I thought but It's not like I'm hallucinating or delusional though. It's just like my alter-ego.
[i]It doesn't have to be.[/i]
I grew up pretty hooked to the internet and trolling people constantly, IRL or not, has always been my nature. Compulsive lying, stealing useless shit other people will need, arguing against my own politics just to piss people off.. I've always loved the whole deception of it and I think this is my old and still present habit 'programmed' into my subconscious as a fat person might be programmed to eat by parents keeping him at the table until dinner's done. It is not a voice, it's more of a feeling manifesting itself in the form of a sentence.
Everyone gets it, its how you take it that could make it cause damage to you, be a strong minded person and switch it off.
That's what i tend to do.
[QUOTE=Rick Ross;27534838]That's what I thought but It's not like I'm hallucinating or delusional though. It's just like my alter-ego.
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Exact same shit happens to me, and i've been confirmed to have a mild form of schizophrenia.
It doesn't have to be a real voice, nor a hallucination or anything like that, just a feeling that can manifest as a voice if you look at it the right (or wrong) way.
I don't get this when i'm high though, i get it when i'm sober, and being high helps the voice/feeling be shushed.
You should probably stop smoking if it starts getting worse
[QUOTE=Goofa;27535352]You should probably stop smoking if it starts getting worse[/QUOTE]
Yeah that would be a good idea, his sounds pretty extreme.
Years of internet use have trained your subconscious to be critical of everything. I can't go as far as saying you have schizophrenia, because I'm not a psychologist, but you really need to train your "inner voice" (which everyone has by the way) to think more positively, because otherwise you'll end up one of those grumpy old men who just constantly talk rude and abusively, which results in you being a loner later down the track.
Maybe see a psychiatrist if it gets any worse. Schizophrenia's pretty serious.
I can relate to that.. Especially if I try to read while baked, like the news section
It might also be the high fondling with your initiation or something..
[QUOTE=Bat-shit;27542234]I can relate to that.. Especially if I try to read while baked, like the news section
[b]It might also be the high fondling with your initiation or something..[/b][/QUOTE]
Dude... What?
[QUOTE=BloodStream;27543004]Dude... What?[/QUOTE]
You know, slappin the monkey.
I get this when I drink. Sometimes I get stuck in the bathroom and just talks and yells at myself in the mirror. My mirror self is a fucking douchebag, he's one of the reasons I've started to drink less.
I never get this when I've been baked though, I love myself when I'm baked, and my mirror self too.
[QUOTE=Rastaboy;27544363]You know, slappin the monkey.[/QUOTE]
im 12 whats is this
[QUOTE=HiddenMyst;27535705][B]Years of internet use have trained your subconscious to be critical of everything.[/B] I can't go as far as saying you have schizophrenia, because I'm not a psychologist, but you really need to train your "inner voice" (which everyone has by the way) to think more positively, because otherwise you'll end up one of those grumpy old men who just constantly talk rude and abusively, which results in you being a loner later down the track.[/QUOTE]
Made me have an epiphany.
[QUOTE=BloodStream;27543004]Dude... What?[/QUOTE]
Or something? I might have spelled it wrong, but the voice of your mind + the high stirring shit up?
Don't quote on me.. I'm just speculating
[QUOTE=Gurant;27544616]I get this when I drink. Sometimes I get stuck in the bathroom and just talks and yells at myself in the mirror. My mirror self is a fucking douchebag, he's one of the reasons I've started to drink less.
I never get this when I've been baked though, I love myself when I'm baked, and my mirror self too.[/QUOTE]
I get exactly this. Look into a mirror drunk and just hear "you look like a fucking mess" etc but it's in my own voice so it could just be me being so drunk i just think random shit in my head without meaning to.
When I'm stoned, maybe because of the anxiety, those thoughts don't feel my own.
mother fuck
just....
fuck
whoa. dude tehre probably contorlling you id stop living ASAP. you could infect us or just sabatoge everything bro.. sorry, youre out
I hope you guys are all joking when you say schizophrenia because I get shit like this all the time.
[QUOTE=bu5hman;27563351]I hope you guys are all joking when you say schizophrenia because I get shit like this all the time.[/QUOTE]
its not schizophrenia :P unless it gives you great paranoia
When I'm baked and browsing the internets I comment out loud.
[QUOTE=Doozle;27565048]When I'm baked and browsing the internets I comment out loud.[/QUOTE]
I always make remarks to myself.
-snip- :/
Schizophrenia is simply your subconscious crossing/taking over your conscious mind. If you're having these symptoms I would strongly recommend quiting your usage. It can be extremely damaging to your psyche depending on how you look at it.
Talking to yourself in the mirror while under the influence is not a healthy activity if you care about your mental health (can lead to depersonalization/split personality).
I talk to myself in the mirror occasionally but that isn't abnormal
It's the idea of his subconcious taking over that's bad. Talking to yourself doesn't mean you're mentally unstable... Right?
[QUOTE=newbs;27632851]
Talking to yourself in the mirror while under the influence is not a healthy activity if you care about your mental health (can lead to depersonalization/split personality).[/QUOTE]
I really REALLY don't believe this...You can voluntarily talk to yourself in the mirror, you know? It's called practicing a speech, or something of the likes.
[QUOTE=rnate;27633291]I really REALLY don't believe this...You can voluntarily talk to yourself in the mirror, you know? It's called practicing a speech, or something of the likes.[/QUOTE]
I was speaking to Gurant. You don't know what I'm talking about obviously.
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