Angry, sad, depressed, miserable, feeling hopeless? Come here and lets help each other out!

[Blazed.I.Stay]

I'm currently having major trust issues with my gf while i go through this horrible withdrawal process. She can't even be there for me when i need her but i'd do anything in the world for her. Fuck my god damned fucking life. I'm about 80/20 on just buying 50mg of dilly and shooting it all at once.. Kill myself with pleasure. That sounds awesome. In fact im selling my computer just to make it happen. Time for stayblazed to come to and end. My life's pathetic now. I have nothing. Dating this girl made me lost contact with all my friends.. i have ONE friend.. But he's away for two months.. So now i got zero friends. All i got is this girl that i'm madly in love with but she doesn't give a fuck about how i feel. Fuck THIS SHIT. It's time to end it. I'm not here for sympathy or 'dont do it blazed!'. Troll me. Make me feel worse. Tell me to do it cuz i'm pathetic. Please. I deserve what I will receive. And i will achieve death. Life just aint worth it no more. I hope none of you fall into this lonely, miserable path i have. Stay in touch with your friends, never lose contact. Biggest mistake of my life. i used to go out and party, get on random chicks, get drunk as fuck and smoke weed and do blow.. Now what do i do? Sit in this room and cry like a little fucking bitch. This is pathetic. I want to die.

Anyways, I don't really expect replies. I just figured i'd try and help out anyone else feeling depressed while i'm still here. If you guys are feeling down, let me show you why it's not that bad. Because i've hit ROCK FUCKING BOTTOM. I got NOTHING! Let me help others before i do my deserved self-killing. Tell me whats bothering you.

[brianosaur]

[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOaXTg3nAuY[/media]

[Stormcharger]

Don't kill yourself bro, at least seek help if you really feel like you say you do. If you've hit rock bottom nothing can get worse then can it so what reason will there be not to get help?

[FreeHugs]

Bro. If you EVER need someone to talk to. Feel free to call/text me @ 480-648-3327 <3

[Blazed.I.Stay]

thx for the replies but i'd rather hear about your problems.. maybe i can solve them.. I'm pretty content on ending things.. I don't want any sympathy either, just accept it guys.. I'll leave a final thread when i do decide to do it.

[buttspoonce]

keep in mind that your thought process and decisions are probably distorted due to your withdrawal. wait it out till the withdrawal effects are gone before you make such a big decision. this is how every other pathetic drug addict ends up killing themselves, because they they are too weak to cope with withdrawal. just stay strong.

really i cannot see how ending your life i better than staying alive. tough times never last, and if you'd just stay sober and pull through i bet things will get brighter. but since you don't want any "don't do it bro" posts i'll cut this short.

also i'd probably just not got blazed for a while since it will just intensify your emotions. (not the case with everyone though)

keep your head up bro

[zach1193]

[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItQj6blPn4w[/media]

Seriously just listen to this song, the lyrics are perfect for these kind of situations, and I really agree with BuDSpooNce,

[hiimpaul123]

[QUOTE=Blazed.I.Stay;34875909]I'm currently having major trust issues with my gf while i go through this horrible withdrawal process. She can't even be there for me when i need her but i'd do anything in the world for her. Fuck my god damned fucking life. I'm about 80/20 on just buying 50mg of dilly and shooting it all at once.. Kill myself with pleasure. That sounds awesome. In fact im selling my computer just to make it happen. Time for stayblazed to come to and end. My life's pathetic now. I have nothing. Dating this girl made me lost contact with all my friends.. i have ONE friend.. But he's away for two months.. So now i got zero friends. All i got is this girl that i'm madly in love with but she doesn't give a fuck about how i feel. Fuck THIS SHIT. It's time to end it. I'm not here for sympathy or 'dont do it blazed!'. Troll me. Make me feel worse. Tell me to do it cuz i'm pathetic. Please. I deserve what I will receive. And i will achieve death. Life just aint worth it no more. I hope none of you fall into this lonely, miserable path i have. Stay in touch with your friends, never lose contact. Biggest mistake of my life.[B] i used to go out and party, get on random chicks, get drunk as fuck and smoke weed and do blow[/B].. Now what do i do? Sit in this room and cry like a little fucking bitch. This is pathetic. I want to die.

Anyways, I don't really expect replies. I just figured i'd try and help out anyone else feeling depressed while i'm still here. If you guys are feeling down, let me show you why it's not that bad. Because i've hit ROCK FUCKING BOTTOM. I got NOTHING! Let me help others before i do my deserved self-killing. Tell me whats bothering you.[/QUOTE]

Don't let the worst times bring you so far down. You can get your life back to where it used to be. There is so much more out there. Don't give up

[toastman]

Ok, so I feel like shit. Life is boring, and the only way for me to enjoy life and make something out of it is when I drink way too much alcohol, roll on E or be so far gone I dont even know what I am anymore.
Life seems so pointless. Eat, drink, do your work, sleep, repeat, repeat, weekend, relaxation, repeat. Still got my bro's but they are autistic as fucks. Feel misserable for not having a girlfriend or having a real good time in like 3 years or so. The only times I remember enjoying life is when I was high on something, and now I think fo those times it just feels like a gimmick. I have tried to take drugs to make this feeling go away, (K, alcohol and benzo's like valium) but it just makes me feel like a machine, it does not solve the problem. I just feel empty.

Also OP, don't kill yourself. Not worth it. If you dont care about being "alive" or dead, go do the things you have always wanted to do. Make life an advanture. After all you got nothing to lose. Just see how life forms after that, go with the flow.

I dont got the balls to do it because I cant and wont leave my family behind as I do not want other people to feel like me.

[2-d]

Shut up. you're not going to kill yourself. Every time I randomly browse this forum I see some post about you whining about being depressed. You can blame other people for your problems, but in the end it all comes down to you. [QUOTE=Blazed.I.Stay;34875909]Dating this girl made me lost contact with all my friends.. i have ONE friend.. But he's away for two months.. So now i got zero friends. All i got is this girl that i'm madly in love with but she doesn't give a fuck about how i feel. [/QUOTE]You made the choice to date this broad. You made the choice to become addicted to shooting your body full of poison. Whether you realize it or not, you are unconsciously choosing to be depressed. Although I'm sure your withdrawal isn't helping much either. So why don't you choose to live life and stop your self-loathing. Sure you might feel like dying, but you're not going to kill yourself. Me and you both know that living sure beats whatever the hell happens when you die. Nothingness? Reincarnation? Eternal damnation? All sound pretty shitty to me. Your problem is trying to find fulfillment through all of these various outlets. Chicks, partying, friends. Sure that's all fine and well, but it seems to me that's all you live for.
You need to realize that life is always worth living. I'm sure your situation is fucked up. But I know for a fact that there are millions of people who would trade places with you any day of the week. So why don't you take your own advice [QUOTE=Blazed.I.Stay;34875909] If you guys are feeling down, let me show you why it's not that bad[/quote]
So don't get pissed off at me for telling you to get the fuck over it, you asked for it explicitly.
Find a hobby, meditate, go masturbate, something. But constantly telling yourself you want to die is not going to do anything other than further depress you.

Read this shit. If you actually let yourself appreciate the message I think you can benefit from it greatly.
[url]https://umdrive.memphis.edu/amitsen/1101/general%20and%20miscellaneous/deMello-from%20AWARENESS%2C%20on%20gradual%20%26%20sudden%20awakening.pdf[/url]

[LoucoussBe]

If you have problems: drugs can't help you because it's temporary and you can be addict to some shit like benzos or opiates...

Try to find something to do: like sports, reading... Try to get a nice and enjoyable lifestyle and if you're "girl friend" still doesn't want to help you, try to think about something else like your family.

Stay with your mum, dad, bro or sister. Talk with your family: they are always here for you dude, even for any problems you have.

[SilverHammer]

I've given up on moping. The world sucks. Oh well

start enjoying No Trend :v:

[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iRNiiObX1f4[/media]

[steven688]

You need some medical marijuana for that depression bro.

Prozac is good too.

[Mac2468]

prozac is terrible
relevant: [url]http://ssristories.com/[/url]

[editline]26th February 2012[/editline]

stay off those terrible fucking drugs

[l l]

[QUOTE=Mac2468;34889168]prozac is terrible
relevant: [url]http://ssristories.com/[/url]

[editline]26th February 2012[/editline]

stay off those terrible fucking drugs[/QUOTE]ugh

I was going to maybe start taking alprazolam for depression and now I'm scared of it, I'm not all that sure if it even is an SSRI but ...

[toastman]

alprazolam and diazepam are good to go. (And terribly addictive)

[l l]

Oh phew, yeah I was told they're addictive, but apparently you only take them when you feel like you need them, not regularly like zoloft or something.

[fartparty]

I used to watch a lot more porn than I do now, but I slowed down when I realized it was just a constant reminder of how much sex I'm not having

[Mac2468]

[QUOTE=l l;34890373]Oh phew, yeah I was told they're addictive, but apparently you only take them when you feel like you need them, not regularly like zoloft or something.[/QUOTE]

wont stop you from getting addicted

[editline]27th February 2012[/editline]

and no legitimate doctor will prescribe you a benzodiazepine for depression

[toastman]

They will for severe headaches though.

[l l]

Well shit man, what else can you do for depression other than taking medicine?

[Ghosevil]

What would happiness be if there was no sadness?

[video=youtube;O5grhuvcSes]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5grhuvcSes[/video]

Why are you planning to help others when you cannot first help yourself?

[acer8]

[QUOTE=l l;34891313]Well shit man, what else can you do for depression other than taking medicine?[/QUOTE]

Hiking, jogging/running, riding a bike, sky diving, anything really that gets you active I think

[Mac2468]

[QUOTE=toastman;34891288]They will for severe headaches though.[/QUOTE]

Theyll give you opiates for that too.

[editline]27th February 2012[/editline]

[QUOTE=l l;34891313]Well shit man, what else can you do for depression other than taking medicine?[/QUOTE]

See a therapist.

[acer8]

[QUOTE=Mac2468;34891544]

See a therapist.[/QUOTE]

^ This to.

[SilverHammer]

Therapists are just a overpayed confession booth. Try to find a friend who will listen and you'll save yourself quite a bit of money

[LoucoussBe]

Fuck benzos and other shit. Just smoke weed and stay with people you love.

[Ghosevil]

[QUOTE=SilverHammer;34894473]Therapists are just a overpayed confession booth. Try to find a friend who will listen and you'll save yourself quite a bit of money[/QUOTE]

Or go to an actual confession booth- talk about suicide or murder as much as you like!

[Mac2468]

[QUOTE=SilverHammer;34894473]Therapists are just a overpayed confession booth. Try to find a friend who will listen and you'll save yourself quite a bit of money[/QUOTE]

Not if you have actual problems.

[polarbear]

I've heard a lot of people say therapists are a waste of money.

IMO, I think one of the best ways to get through a problem is talk to someone about it. Someone who cares and is willing to listen. I love talking and meeting new people all the time, but it's really hard to find people you're willing to open up to. Often I have trouble telling things to my closest friends - Due to shit happening in the past, I have so many trust issues that I can't say I'll ever call someone my "best friend".

I think DD is a great place to talk, people here have been through a lot of shit, and it's awesome to talk to people who are properly educated about drugs and understand the stuff you're dealing with. Got to admit, I'd be somewhere much worse if I haven't stumbled upon DD.

Chin up, man. Life is going to throw shit at you, and if you hit rock-bottom, you have to be a strong motherfucker and work your way back up. I've seen it happen. I'm 15 and I'm still growing up, struggling with a dysfunctional family, drug addiction and the other fucked up things you encounter when you're a kid doing wacky shit in a world surrounded with wacky people.

I don't ever look at any of my past decisions and encounters as things I would regret, they provide so much understanding and experience. Knowing I'm still young and there's so much shit ahead of the road, things I'm going to love, things I'm going to hate - It's exciting. There are some really bad times where you want to just stop, everything is shit, simply reading something like this isn't going to do much for you, and you can't just jump in to a "TAKE ON THE WORLD" feeling, but things [I]will[/I] get better.

Man I didn't expect to write that much.
Like I said, you should always talk to someone. If you need anything, we're here bro.