Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

[B]Keep your chin up, things will get better.[/B] Feel free to share [I]anything[/I] that's causing you distress, most people in this thread are in the same(or similar) boat that you are. [B]Just be aware that Facepunch is no substitute for a Psychiatrist, but talking things out with other people can be cathartic and helpful. For diagnosis use a professional. WebMD and online diagnosis tools are bad, mmmkay? [/B][B][U]A Note About GoFundMe [/U][/B]Campaigns on GoFundMe may only be posted under dire/emergency circumstances and [B]must be pre-approved by Pascall[/B] to prevent scammers from taking advantage of members. [B]Some resources:[/B] [URL]https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety_disorder[/URL] [URL]https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mood_disorder[/URL] [URL]http://www.succeedsocially.com/[/URL] [URL]http://www.helpguide.org/articles/suicide-prevention/suicide-help-dealing-with-your-suicidal-thoughts-and-feelings.htm[/URL] [B]Stressed about using the phone for a suicide hotline, or more comfortable with text?[/B] [URL]https://www.imalive.org/[/URL] [URL]http://www.crisischat.org/chat[/URL] [URL]http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/gethelp/lifelinechat.aspx[/URL] [B]Many countries also have phone numbers you can text as well. Look around for the one relevant to your state, province, or country.[/B] [B]Relevant subreddits:[/B] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/depression[/URL] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/anxiety[/URL] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/suicidewatch[/URL] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/BipolarReddit/[/URL] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/adhd[/URL] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia[/URL] [URL]https://www.reddit.com/r/stopselfharm[/URL] Panicked I broke last thread. Which goes against purpose of this thread. Anyways just copied previous OP but I can think of a few repeat topics or issues that came up in last thread that I will add in a bit. Stay well :) [B]Types of Psychiatric Professionals:[/B] [QUOTE][B]The following mental health professionals can provide psychological assessments and therapy; however, cannot generally prescribe medications (although some states will allow it):[/B] Clinical Psychologist – A psychologist with a doctoral degree in psychology from an accredited/designated program in psychology. Psychologists are trained to make diagnoses and provide individual and group therapy. School Psychologist – A psychologist with an advanced degree in psychology from an accredited/designated program in School Psychology. School Psychologists are trained to make diagnoses, provide individual and group therapy, and work with school staff to maximize efficiency in the schools setting. [B]The following mental health professionals can provide counseling; however, cannot prescribe medication:[/B] Clinical Social Worker – A counselor with a masters degree in social work from an accredited graduate program. Trained to make diagnoses, provide individual and group counseling, and provide case management and advocacy; usually found in the hospital setting. Licensed Professional Counselor – A counselor with a masters degree in psychology, counseling or a related field. Trained to diagnose and provide individual and group counseling. Mental Health Counselor – A counselor with a masters degree and several years of supervised clinical work experience. Trained to diagnose and provide individual and group counseling. Certified Alcohol and Drug Abuse Counselor – Counselor with specific clinical training in alcohol and drug abuse. Trained to diagnose and provide individual and group counseling. Nurse Psychotherapist – registered nurse who is trained in the practice of psychiatric and mental health nursing. Trained to diagnose and provide individual and group counseling. Marital and Family Therapist – counselor with a masters degree, with special education and training in marital and family therapy. Trained to diagnose and provide individual and group counseling. Pastoral Counselor – clergy with training in clinical pastoral education Trained to diagnose and provide individual and group counseling. Peer Specialist– counselor with lived experience with mental health or substance use conditions. Assists clients with recovery by recognizing and developing strengths, and setting goals. Many peer support programs require several hours of training. Other Therapists – therapist with an advance degree trained in specialized forms of therapy. Examples include art therapist, music therapist. [B]The following mental health professionals can prescribe medication; however, they may not provide therapy:[/B] Psychiatrist – A medical doctor with special training in the diagnosis and treatment of mental and emotional illnesses. A psychiatrist can prescribe medication, but they often do not counsel patients. Child/Adolescent Psychiatrist – A medical doctor with special training in the diagnosis and treatment of emotional and behavioral problems in children. Child and Adolescent psychiatrists can also precribe medication; however, they may not provide psychotherapy. Psychiatric or Mental Health Nurse Practitioner – A registered nurse practitioner with a graduate degree and specialized training in the diagnosis and treatment of mental and emotional illness. Additionally, your Primary Care Physician, Physician’s Assistant or Nurse Practiotioner (depending on your state) are often qualified to provide medication. [/QUOTE] Generally, if you go with someone like an ARNP you would be best served also working with a therapist. ARNP will diagnose and check in with you to manage medication. Therapist will help you learn coping strategies and work on other aspects of yourself you wish to improve. [B]Cognitive Behavioral Therapy[/B] [QUOTE][URL="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_behavioral_therapy"]Cognitive behavioral therapy[/URL] is commonly used by therapists, psychiatrists, and other -ists to teach the patient coping strategies and better thought habits (in general, counselors do it too. Anyone not prescribing medication likely knows how to use some of these techniques. CBT is not superior or inferior to medication, and must be evaluated on a patient-by-patient basis. It is another tool in the toolbox of mental health though, so it deserves consideration and acknowledgement. Its also a pretty broad term, covering a therapeutic approach (afaik) rather than a specific technique. [URL="http://psychcentral.com/lib/in-depth-cognitive-behavioral-therapy/"]Good read on CBT here[/URL][/QUOTE] [B]Medication Side Effects:[/B] [QUOTE]In the wise words of the Hitchhikers Guide, Don't Panic. If you can. Sometimes you can't help but panic, and in that case ride that one out. Something to understand with medication though is that any malaise or disorder that appears during the trial of a medication must be added to the warnings (essentially). Also, warnings and side effect labels commonly go into too much detail or can emphasize the extremely uncommon high-severity side effects instead of the usually mostly benign common ones. Combine that with our own tendency to focus on the worst-case scenario and a health distortion of perspective and it becomes easy to panic. Avoid webmd, drugs.com is a good resource for side effects as you can read a detailed background that will tell you how common a symptom is, as well as cite trials. With some medication side effects are split into demographics as well, covering varying ages and genders. It also includes an interactions checker and is pretty easy to sort through and read. Be careful though to not let this site, or other warning sites, lead you into too severe of worries. Sometimes a small thought or stressor can snowball into something much larger. If you are worried at all and the internet is not able to assuage your fears, [B]please do contact the professional who prescribed you the medication and be clear about your concerns.[/B] [B]Same applies if a new side effect suddenly shows up or something really gets to you. [/B] Their job is to help you, and by and large many of them will do their best ot help you and make you feel better. You can also contact hotlines belonging to the manufacturer or your medication, local poison control, non-emergency numbers for hospitals, or search around online (as mentioned). Consider looking for testimonials or forums that collect experiences and reading through those. [B]If you're still worried, ask for alternatives. If your doctor is being uncooperative, dismissive, or rude find a new one.[/B] Telling you something you don't want ot hear (but need to hear) is not the same as the former factors though. Keep that in mind. [/QUOTE] [B]Mindfulness Meditation:[/B] [QUOTE]Mindfullness meditation isn't some crazy hippy bullshit and it isn't going to solve all your problems, cure you of your issues, or make you buy a yoga mat and start "juicing". What mindfullness mediation can do is make you more mindful of your own thoughts and behaviors, and bring you into the present. Importantly, it is [B]NOT[/B] about stopping thinking all together. It can be used to detach yourself from thought snowballs running amok and causing you issues, identify items that trigger any of your mental health problems or worsen them, and recognize malign thought and behavior patterns. It does not require a large time commitment, a pose, music, or anything except yourself. It can be as long as you want or as short as 30 seconds. The key is to detach yourself from your thoughts, and simply observe them. If thoughts are birds, you are simply watching them and not chasing them, shooting them, or worrying about where they're flying oh god are they migrating what season is it did I forget an assignment for a class am i forgetting some important item man i always forget important things and dates speaking of dates i wonder if the stuff in my fridge is going bad what does "sell by" even [I]mean[/I] and so on and on and on. Observe your thoughts in this time period. You can also literally just make a mental note to step back from a situation and begin meditative breathing, which does have some physiological effects. Focus on breathing, slow deep breaths with a bit of a hold at the apex of each cycle (breathe out, light hold, breathe in, light hold, etc). Keep it slow and comfortable to you and try to relax tensed up muscles in your body bit by bit. Shoulders, arms, neck and the jaw are all common places to tense up when anxious. Here's a [URL="https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-courage-be-present/201001/how-practice-mindfulness-meditation"]link better at this than I am[/URL], except my psychologist stressed that rigorous adherence to posture and equipment is silly. Done consistently every day you can use it to help build routines and become more [I]mindful[/I] of your own, well, mind. Thats the key to the name. The goal really isn't to change you but to make you more mindful of the present instead of stressing about the past or the future. [/QUOTE] [IMG]http://i.imgur.com/xa1Zm3b.jpg[/IMG]

Never really posted in these threads before, I have depression. Probably anxiety too but I'm not sure yet. What exactly is anxiety :v:

[QUOTE=kijji;48578238]Never really posted in these threads before, I have depression. Probably anxiety too but I'm not sure yet. What exactly is anxiety :v:[/QUOTE] Well, everyone has anxiety from time to time. Anxiety becomes a problem when it begins to alter your behaviors, habits, or long-term thought processes. Or if it starts exhibiting physiological symptoms. being scared shitless the night before a college final- that's normal. Having to leave said final early to be physically ill in the restroom and having the next few days spent worrying constantly about your score and feeling mysteriously fatigued (with wicked headaches?). Yeah, not so normal. If it worries you, talk to someone. Having one mental disorder means the chances of comorbidities are ridiculously high, so its not out of the question for you to have anxiety too. Speak to a professional if you feel its negatively affecting you. And keep that decision based on your own thoughts, don't let others opinions effect you too much on that. Sometimes mental disorders can turn into a pissing contest with people insisting that clearly your anxiety is not as bad as theirs is and therefore you shouldn't seek help. Or, "you don't seem anxious" "you don't seem depressed" "just relax/be happy" "its a pharmaceutical company conspiracy" etc. [editline]30th August 2015[/editline] I am not informed on this subject btw. I am not a doctor in the slightest, so please take what I say with a grain of salt. My background of study in college so far could not be further from mental health, and none of my parents medical textbooks go into mental health topics. So I can't even pull the "my parents are doctors" card with even the slightest touch of truth. [editline]30th August 2015[/editline] Only thing I know about is general anxiety stuff, a bit of depression, and tons of ADHD shit. Because I read two books on ADHD before seeking treatment, and to verify I needed to seek treatment.

Luckily I have mental health books! The boons of being a psych graduate. Basically put, anxiety is being generally tense about some kind of future-oriented event, to the point where you expect the worst. A lot of people have anxiety, but it's not the same level as having GAD (General Anxiety Disorder), which basically says that your anxiety is so bad that it interferes with daily life rituals. Test anxiety is something we suffer from quite often. Interview anxiety as well. General anxiety about people you've never met talking shit about you and having it ruin your sleep so you only get a few hours of rest because you think this will repeat in the future is not. That said, you should speak to a doctor that has some mental health background. Won't do you much good to tell a chiropractor or a surgeon (unless they're neurosurgery). [editline]31st August 2015[/editline] Also in response to Wolfgirl: Seek out the prescribing doctor and talk to them about it. If you're very afraid of Xanax, try getting the doc to prescribe something else. Always ask about the medications you receive and the side effects that may be a red flag. This is a PSA to everyone else that takes medications. You have a right to know what you're putting into your mouth, ask for alternatives if you feel unsure with the current doctor's order. Even get a second opinion. Its totally up to you, I am not a profession, I merely advise.

[QUOTE=Vaught;48578424]Luckily I have mental health books! The boons of being a psych graduate. Basically put, anxiety is being generally tense about some kind of future-oriented event, to the point where you expect the worst. A lot of people have anxiety, but it's not the same level as having GAD (General Anxiety Disorder), which basically says that your anxiety is so bad that it interferes with daily life rituals. Test anxiety is something we suffer from quite often. Interview anxiety as well. General anxiety about people you've never met talking shit about you and having it ruin your sleep so you only get a few hours of rest because you think this will repeat in the future is not. That said, you should speak to a doctor that has some mental health background. Won't do you much good to tell a chiropractor or a surgeon (unless they're neurosurgery). [editline]31st August 2015[/editline] Also in response to Wolfgirl: Seek out the prescribing doctor and talk to them about it. If you're very afraid of Xanax, try getting the doc to prescribe something else. Always ask about the medications you receive and the side effects that may be a red flag. This is a PSA to everyone else that takes medications. You have a right to know what you're putting into your mouth, ask for alternatives if you feel unsure with the current doctor's order. Even get a second opinion. Its totally up to you, I am not a profession, I merely advise.[/QUOTE] Good points about asking for alternatives or seeking new doctors. added to OP. Also added mindfullness mediation, feel free to try it or don't. Its helped me a bunch with my anxiety and racing thoughts that hit when medication wears off. Just another coping strategy, and thought I'd share it.

Good call! Coping strategies come in multiple formats, but people can modify them to fit their schedules or environments. Offtopic: That said, my neuropsych book finally came in. Can't wait to finally get cracking into that.

[QUOTE=Vaught;48578536]Good call! Coping strategies come in multiple formats, but people can modify them to fit their schedules or environments. Offtopic: That said, my neuropsych book finally came in. Can't wait to finally get cracking into that.[/QUOTE] Should have given you keys to the thread. Do let me know if you think anything needs to be added or I'm wrong anywhere (which is highly likely).

There are better qualified folk than I. That said, while a lot can be added to OP, it'd be too much. Things like MedlinePlus, National Institutes of (Mental) Health or NIMH, Mayo Clinic can be good places to look at if you're very interested in getting some basics about mental health specifics, like Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar Personality Disorder, so forth.

I'm pretty sure my wife has bi Polar disorder. I feel alienated all the time now. She makes me uncomfortable when she's manic

Oh fuck, forgot to mention. The websites can be helpful, but do not mistake it as a replacement for a proper diagnoses. You can easily trip yourself up and think you have rumination disorder when you only have a few symptoms that wouldn't really qualify you for such. Get an accredited/licensed doctor to give you the diagnoses, should they arise. Think of the websites as helpful guides. Also rumination disorder is throwing up food and eating it again. Yeah, its yucky. Yeah, its not a very good example but tis an example. [editline]31st August 2015[/editline] Can't believe I forgot this one: apa.org - American Psychological Association website. Covers a lot of hot topics of the mental health department, links to articles that cover mental health in specific fields, and currently has a topic on suicide prevention for some reading. Unfortunately a lot of their literature ends up linking to books that need to be bought or are supplementary readings. I've acquired some of their books, but they're more for personal gain or class room readings than self-help.

Just a rehash from the old thread about my mother being on Xanax. We honestly do not speak much to each other. During my four years at uni, I seldom go back home and even then we just don't really have much of a conversation. I managed to shift my life to focus on uni-friends and literally turned a back to the small and broken family that I had. I doubt me leaving the state for a while again is going to do her any better, or the fact that I'm off the continent living in another country 12 months from now.

I found out recently that I physically can't eat in front of other people, I feel too sick from the stress. I didn't want to think I have anxiety but hey, here I am.

I think I let other people's opinions get the best of me and I feel kinda worried and glum about my future. Eventually I want to move to Sweden, which my therapist approves of, but I dunno, my family doesn't seem to like the idea. I also need to get back to college. why does my future seem so doomed :scream:

[QUOTE=kijji;48580452]I think I let other people's opinions get the best of me and I feel kinda worried and glum about my future.[/QUOTE] I used to have the exact same problem (and I still kinda have, but i'm dealing with it in a different way now). You are on this world to make [B]yourself[/B] happy, not anyone else. This doesn't mean that you have to be a careless asshole, but nobody should stand between you and your goals. If someone does that, you should take distance from their opinions. You don't want to be this guy who gave up his life goals because of ~reasons~. You and you alone are responsible for how your own life goes. It's sad that we have to hurt people sometimes, but its even more sad to be depressed. Also, never question yourself as a person and the decisions you've made. Everyone makes mistakes. No matter how big/stupid they are, there is no point in getting depressed by them. You as a person want to move forward. You want to be happy and succesful through your whole life. Nobody expect yourself can make that happen. Don't hesitate to do the things which make you happy. You want to be in an upward spiral, not a downward. This doesn't mean that you shouldn't think about your decisions and do whatever you like, but there is always a middle way. Life is all about decisions my friends. Think about them, never say yes or no before you've thought about it and it's consequences. But, don't be scared to make mistakes. Everyone makes them. Your life is yours, your hapiness is yours. Make sure to take good care of them. Because folks, essentially, that's the only real goal you have in life: to become happy.

[QUOTE=CabooseRvB;48579130]Just a rehash from the old thread about my mother being on Xanax. We honestly do not speak much to each other. During my four years at uni, I seldom go back home and even then we just don't really have much of a conversation. I managed to shift my life to focus on uni-friends and literally turned a back to the small and broken family that I had. I doubt me leaving the state for a while again is going to do her any better, or the fact that I'm off the continent living in another country 12 months from now.[/QUOTE] From the sounds of things, you don't seem to have much connection or desire to be connected to your family. Have you spoken to your mother about it? More specifically, if she is feeling well or the sort. It's hard to get others to open up in a state of unhappiness. Better off fighting an M1 Abram tank with a toothpick. Stop me if I'm wrong! I don't want to insult anyone with my assumptions. [editline]31st August 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=AtomicSans;48579398]I found out recently that I physically can't eat in front of other people, I feel too sick from the stress. I didn't want to think I have anxiety but hey, here I am.[/QUOTE] Are you anxious around people in general or just when eating? Do you feel people are judging your eating habits? Sometimes the littlest things can fester into huge issues, like stress from work or school. If it helps any, do you have any coping strategies that you can work on in this scenario? Anxiety is a bastard to combat and not simple to just put down.

This is probably the first time I've posted in a successor thread after the previous one auto-locked. :v: I'll post a bit more later.

Rum on sale! Now I can actually stand going home!

[QUOTE=Vaught;48582137]From the sounds of things, you don't seem to have much connection or desire to be connected to your family. Have you spoken to your mother about it? More specifically, if she is feeling well or the sort. It's hard to get others to open up in a state of unhappiness. Better off fighting an M1 Abram tank with a toothpick. Stop me if I'm wrong! I don't want to insult anyone with my assumptions.[/QUOTE] You're pretty much spot on honestly. I have a very small and broken family. The household experienced two nasty divorces when I was a child, the latter has put my family in a tough financial bind on the house mortgage. I have relatives in several distant states that I only see once every few years and with my grandmother's passing earlier this March opened up some old, old wounds that I was never aware of with in my relatives. I share this state with my mother and one Godmother whom I seldom see. They wanted to shield me a lot from the stuff that happens, I never found out about the shit mortgage deal until I turned 18 and apparently a trust I had got bombed or whatever. At times I understand why they kept things from me, but at the same time I just don't like it when they cover things up and that just eats away at my ability to place trust in others. I mean, fuck, it's bad enough to have had two fathers in your life that essentially quit on you and the family. As I get older I'm starting to see more and more of what a tangled mess my family is and I guess that is what drove me to try to start a fresh 'slate' in college and value many of my friends much more.

[QUOTE=CabooseRvB;48585557]You're pretty much spot on honestly. I have a very small and broken family. The household experienced two nasty divorces when I was a child, the latter has put my family in a tough financial bind on the house mortgage. I have relatives in several distant states that I only see once every few years and with my grandmother's passing earlier this March opened up some old, old wounds that I was never aware of with in my relatives. I share this state with my mother and one Godmother whom I seldom see. They wanted to shield me a lot from the stuff that happens, I never found out about the shit mortgage deal until I turned 18 and apparently a trust I had got bombed or whatever. At times I understand why they kept things from me, but at the same time I just don't like it when they cover things up and that just eats away at my ability to place trust in others. I mean, fuck, it's bad enough to have had two fathers in your life that essentially quit on you and the family. As I get older I'm starting to see more and more of what a tangled mess my family is and I guess that is what drove me to try to start a fresh 'slate' in college and value many of my friends much more.[/QUOTE] You feel some dissonance after finding out your mother is taking Xanax. Perhaps its simply just that kind of change you would not have expected from someone you knew closely or perhaps a part of you still cares about the livelihood of your mother. You want to distance yourself from the chaos of your childhood and start clean, which is admirable. Not many stay on that trail long enough to reap its benefits, usually going back on old habits. If you feel a level of concern that's just itching away at you, you could have a small chat with your mother. It's your choice, your life, I merely advise. Personally, I'd advise staying away from the maelstrom. You're likely to be sucked back in one way or another. [editline]1st September 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=D0C H.;48585108]Rum on sale! Now I can actually stand going home![/QUOTE] While you have made up your mind, I advise this: Alcoholism is not a suitable alternative to a broken relationship..or to anything. Working things out, even to the point of breaking it off, is a far smoother, albeit longer, process than drinking your sorrows away and either hurting yourself or someone you love and regretting it forever. I can't change your mind, merely offer a alternate view.

I know. But I'm very good at controlling these types of things. But for right now, it's a heck of a lot easier than dealing with her sober. I'm not ready to deal with the pain of a divorce yet. This is easier. 7$ bottle at a time.

[QUOTE=D0C H.;48587445]I know. But I'm very good at controlling these types of things. But for right now, it's a heck of a lot easier than dealing with her sober. I'm not ready to deal with the pain of a divorce yet. This is easier. 7$ bottle at a time.[/QUOTE] If you're drinking to avoid problems that's just another problem.

Does anybody here have any experience or knowledge of taking [B]BOTH[/B] Xanax and Mirtazapine at the same time? This is something that is starting to become a concern since I noticed these two medications together on my mother's nightstand, in addition to a near-empty bottle of wine and a shot glass. These meds aren't under her name either. The perscription for the Mirtazapine was back in early June and near-empty, so this has been going on for a while. I just know that these meds can also act a very powerful depressant if abused and seeing these together doesn't really display a promising sign for me. Sad to say that this revelation came up on my birthday. Nice way to end this all.

Exactly, but it makes all my other problems feel better. [editline]31st August 2015[/editline] Don't worry though. I am channeling most of my frustration and sadness into my art. So it's predominantly healthy management. I just have a couple drinks in order to stand being home.

Everything feels more vivid and alive in my dreams than it does in real life. Dreams feel like a lie to me. I wonder if they are? I have dreams about this girl I liked from last semester. I dream about the mutual affection we would have for each other, and how great it would feel. Of course, in real life, I reject these thoughts because they aren't logical. Why worry about a girl who already has a boyfriend? Nonetheless, these dreams illustrate that something is missing in my life. However, I feel that even if I have this thing, it won't feel as great as it does in my dreams.

[QUOTE=elevate;48592167]Everything feels more vivid and alive in my dreams than it does in real life. Dreams feel like a lie to me. I wonder if they are?[/QUOTE] Your dreams are mostly based on impressions you've had during the day or things that have occupied your mind consciously or subconsciously. They are not true or false by any means, just reflections.

[QUOTE=Vaught;4977]That usually happens during a down-phase of depression: you sorta become numb to a number of sensations. Have you had an episode of depression or something that really set your anxiety off lately?[/QUOTE] Last night I slept well for who knows in how long since (7 hours as opposed to 5). I don't feel as tired as usual, but still am as worn out and lethargic. And still feeling that emotional numbness. Only notable thing was that I was feeling a tad agitated yesterday, noticed it when playing L4D2 with my friends and had to apologize to them. A friend of mine is celebrating his birthday in a few days. I think that I'll go, though I don't know on which level to participate. I haven't touched the sauce with the exception of cleaning my thumb with some moonshine this morning, though I read that alcohol should be OK with Bipolar. And that friend probably has weed. I would not mind the somber sleep, but it could well trigger a hypomaniac episode, followed by an episode of major depression. One positive note is that my mood has been stable recently, fluctuating around dysthymia. If one can call that positive :v:

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[QUOTE=greeley;48592374]words![/QUOTE] Extremely out of place.

Hey, I don't even know why I'm posting here but I was told to do it. I have had suicidal thoughts in one form or another for as long as I can remember (at least since I was like 9) and it hasn't exactly gotten any better. I never go outside unless I have to (school, buying food, taking out the trash), I hate myself for who I am, I am pretty damn out of shape and have no motivation to do anything about it and I can't talk to anyone because of my social anxiety. I also have a mild stutter (used to be way worse) which makes me afraid of speaking to anyone, because like what if I fuck up jesus christ how horrifying etc. I don't know what to do about all of shit shit, my only real "solution" is ending my life, thinking of just going to a remote location and... do it. I don't know how or anything, but whatever I guess. Right now I'm low on money because I'm unemployed, I also messed up in school and might not be able to finish my education the normal way (have no grades). Been thinking of working weekends but really what skills do I have? None. I can't talk to people and I have no education, what fucking use am I? What god damn use am I to this world, really? Sorry for messy text layout n shit, but just FUCK I don't even care, I just want this out, don't know what I'm expecting for replies, whatever.

[QUOTE=CabooseRvB;48590790]Does anybody here have any experience or knowledge of taking [B]BOTH[/B] Xanax and Mirtazapine at the same time? This is something that is starting to become a concern since I noticed these two medications together on my mother's nightstand, in addition to a near-empty bottle of wine and a shot glass. These meds aren't under her name either. The perscription for the Mirtazapine was back in early June and near-empty, so this has been going on for a while. I just know that these meds can also act a very powerful depressant if abused and seeing these together doesn't really display a promising sign for me. Sad to say that this revelation came up on my birthday. Nice way to end this all.[/QUOTE] I think that you should talk to her about it. You might not be able to change her behavior, but at the very least, it would show her that you care and that you worry about her. That can be very powerful to a mother if her child says it. [editline]1st September 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=DerpishCat;48593902]Hey, I don't even know why I'm posting here but I was told to do it. I have had suicidal thoughts in one form or another for as long as I can remember (at least since I was like 9) and it hasn't exactly gotten any better. I never go outside unless I have to (school, buying food, taking out the trash), I hate myself for who I am, I am pretty damn out of shape and have no motivation to do anything about it and I can't talk to anyone because of my social anxiety. I also have a mild stutter (used to be way worse) which makes me afraid of speaking to anyone, because like what if I fuck up jesus christ how horrifying etc. I don't know what to do about all of shit shit, my only real "solution" is ending my life, thinking of just going to a remote location and... do it. I don't know how or anything, but whatever I guess. Right now I'm low on money because I'm unemployed, I also messed up in school and might not be able to finish my education the normal way (have no grades). Been thinking of working weekends but really what skills do I have? None. I can't talk to people and I have no education, what fucking use am I? What god damn use am I to this world, really? Sorry for messy text layout n shit, but just FUCK I don't even care, I just want this out, don't know what I'm expecting for replies, whatever.[/QUOTE] I think maybe you could benefit from seeking therapy.