• Journal entry I wrote that I feel like sharing with you guys.
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Alright. Basically, the reason I'm posting this is because for some reason I get the feeling it might help at least one person here. I found this entry when I was looking through my journal, it's from March 28th, 2009. [quote=Journal Entry March 28th, 2009] Over the past few weeks I've realized a couple of things about life that I seem to have forgotten, and a couple things that I never knew. Anger and sadness last for however YOU let them last. You can hold on to the sadness and think “Why did she leave me, why was I not good enough” or you can pick yourself up and keep going. Life WILL kick you while your down. So get up and punch the fucker in the face before it even hits you. Yeah, I got my heart broken. But time heals all wounds. If you sit around and mope about what happened than nothings going to get fixed. Don't just sit in your house and cry all day, it's not healthy, and it just makes you a loser. It really does. Next, SUICIDE! Wooo! I wanted to kill myself. I almost did. Got really, really drunk, and had the pistol in my hand. I put the pistol up to my head and closed my eyes and clenched my jaw, ready to pull the trigger. But I didn't. I don't know what stopped me, because it wasn't fear. I wasn't afraid to die, nobody was around to stop me, maybe it's because even though the pain would be gone...it'd only be gone for me. The pain I had, would be spread to the people that care about me tenfold. And, if you think about it...suicide solves nothing. It's not getting revenge. It's not the act of being strong. Suicide is weakness...it makes you a fucking pussy who has no respect for anyone. If you kill yourself all you're going to get is a little article in the newspaper that will be recycled the next day. You'll be gone, life will go on without you, nothing will change. It's much easier to blow your brains out than it is to live on and prove yourself. If you want your revenge, get revenge by making life your bitch. Next, happiness. Happiness depends on you. You're the only one that can make yourself happy. You can't depend on people or material items to make you happy. You have to keep your mind open. You have to embrace life. The only way you'll ever be happy is if you realize that life is beautiful. There are so many things worth living for. So many things you'll never see if you kill yourself. You might never go to college, never make more friends, never meet the girl that you'll spend the rest of your life with. If you kill yourself you're throwing everything that is and ever could have been right down the drain. You can't just think that since you're in a shitty place in life that you'll never be happy again. And if you don't think that, you still have to make an effort to be happy. You can't just sit at home and wait for the happiness to magically appear. It doesn't work that way. Make an effort to get out of the house, hang out with friends, get a job, go for a walk while listening to music. The most little things can help more than you could imagine. I write poetry or music to express my feelings. Or, sometimes, journals such as this one. Try writing all of your thoughts down, because regardless of whether you're going to disagree with me or not, there's always SOMETHING you hold back from telling your friends. And you don't have to hold back from writing it on paper. Paper can't think, it can't judge you, you don't need to be worried if it'll think any less of you. You just need to remember that there are so many things in life worth living for. Everybody falls down. But not everybody picks themselves up. Be one of the people who are strong enough to pick themselves back up and dust themselves off. [/quote] For some reason I get a bad feeling about posting this here...OH WELL! :350:
Dude I can realy feel it thankyou for posting this.
[QUOTE=jgerm529;28062326]Dude I can realy feel it thankyou for posting this.[/QUOTE] Absolutely man. I'm glad you liked it.
I read this while listening to this masterpiece of music: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rw9fsAP9GkQ&feature=related[/media]
Awesome, you wrote that on my birthday :smile:
[QUOTE=Tarzy;28079369]I read this while listening to this masterpiece of music: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rw9fsAP9GkQ&feature=related[/media][/QUOTE] I just re read it while listening to this. It...made...sense o_o
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