I lost the woman I love, and don't know where to go from here. Whatever shall I do, FP? - General

There's this one girl I know, this one girl who gets my blood pumping. I don't know what it is about her, we've only known each other for two and a half months. I wouldn't call it infatuation, since I've experienced infatuation plenty of times before, but this is far deeper and far better than infatuation, plus when you're infatuation you only really want her for her, and don't think of both of you. Her name is Victoria and she's 21 years old. I wouldn't call her hot, but she's certainly not ugly. To me she's beautiful and everything about her is beautiful. She has a 16 month old daughter, who she had with her unemployed deadbeat ex-boyfriend, who she stayed with for some time after high school. Everyone seems to think that us young guys (I'm 18) shouldn't go after women who have children, since it completely ruins your life and your freedom, but I don't feel that way. In fact, I believe that her baby daughter is a wonderful child and that, despite being a lot of work to take care of and love, I not only don't mind, but am proud. I don't know what's come over me. I was always an introverted loner who kept to himself, but with his girl, who I just met a few months ago, everything is different. Everything was so perfect and everything was perfect. I felt like I could be myself around her and I actually cared about her, as opposed to practically everyone else who I feel mostly apathetic towards. I don't care about her imperfections, I just know that I want to be with her, no matter what. These feelings started out small, but as we saw each other every day, we never ran out of things to talk about and the conversation just flowed. It was a normal two-way conversation with both of us participating and we were so happy during the time we spent together. We even went out on a date once. We would talk every day and it was amazing, she would go out of her way and risk getting in fired just to talk to me. But then I had a horrible idea of paying her to tutor me, since she's vastly more intelligent than me when it comes to academics. But I grew impatient, I was on a tight schedule and I took out my frustration on her. Eventually I loosened up and apologized, she said it was no big deal. Well, then I quit my job due to racism, as I was the only white male who worked there, I was constantly being harassed by one of my African American co-workers, and the company refused to settle the issue. After I quit, we still talked on Facebook for the next couple of days, since both of us lack cell phones. But then all of she didn't reply and she hasn't logged into Facebook for a while. I don't know why or what happened to her, neither I, nor anyone I know has heard from her since May 28, 2011. She also hasn't logged into her online forum, which she created and is the administrator of, since May 5, 2011. At first I thought maybe I did something wrong and maybe she just didn't want to talk anymore. But now it's been quite some time and she still hasn't even signed into Facebook or talked to myself or anyone else. I'm beginning to think that she may have lost internet again, since she could barely afford it, being a single mother who is renting an apartment by herself and working a part-time job (or at least she used to work a part time job). She was just about to move from the city to one of the outlying counties. I'm worried about her and now I lost her. I know this sounds crazy, but she's the only person I ever truly felt this way with, and I'm not sure if I would call it love or not, but I've known for while now that she's the one for me, and to this day, she's all I can think about. I just wish I could start over with her and do things right, instead of coming across as so awkward and clueless. She's the one girl I ever wanted, and now she's just out of reach. I that both her and her daughter are happy and safe, wherever they may be and wherever their lives take them. I want to see her again and tell her how I really feel, the feelings I have kept to myself all this time. And then I'll either win her over or have closure and be able to move on. Does anyone have any advice on where I should go from here? [highlight](User was permabanned for this post ("Facepunch isn't your thread dump, or blog. - Take it to another forum" - Craptasket))[/highlight]

1) Make a post on Facepunch. 2) Get off the computer.

No-ones seen her since May 28th? That's a long time. find out where she lives and go check up on her - if she's there then great! Ask her out while you're there and enjoy how you used to be together! [QUOTE=areolop;30314439]1) Make a post on Facepunch. 2) Get off the computer.[/QUOTE] Get out

[QUOTE=LewyJudge12;30314447]No-ones seen her since May 28th? That's a long time. find out where she lives and go check up on her - if she's there then great! Ask her out while you're there and enjoy how to used to be together! Get out[/QUOTE] That's the thing, right before we stopped talking, she said she was moving to an apartment in a different town. And a rather large town at that, so I have no idea where to stop looking, she still hasn't gotten on her Facebook or her online forum for a while.

You make amazing threads, ask a mod to put this in GD where it belongs.

[QUOTE=LewyJudge12;30314447] Get out[/QUOTE] I was dead serious by getting off the computer. Also @OP, just gotta find another girl that you can get along with, there are a million fish in the sea, dont let one get you all caught up.

[QUOTE=McNab;30314517]You make amazing threads, ask a mod to put this in GD where it belongs.[/QUOTE] Thank you, but I didn't want to trouble the GD members by having them move a thread regarding my own personal problems, so I posted here (since it's also a question). When I do post a thread in the GD, I like to post it for everyone, not just so I can share my own personal story and hopefully get advice from my fellow Facepunchers, but to have an enthralling discussion, though I suppose since you and a few others seem to be so keen on your friendly suggestion that I have this moved, I have taken your advice into consideration and contacted the moderating team. Again, thank you for your compliment and suggestion.

squall i think you just make this shit up, all of this shit in a short space of time, it's like you are creating a character for yourself so we know who you are i've seen this behaviour before

[QUOTE=Anteep2;30314955]squall i think you just make this shit up, all of this shit in a short space of time, it's like you are creating a character for yourself so we know who you are i've seen this behaviour before[/QUOTE] What makes you say that? My life really isn't exciting. I know it's like one day I quit my job due to racism, then about a week later I announce my acceptance into a humanitarian aid mission to Costa Rica, and then a few days after that I make a thread about how I lost the woman I love, all within a month. It can seem relatively hard to believe, but trust me, it's all true.

You could send a letter to her old address, the letter probably will get forwarded to her new one.

[QUOTE=nnoah95;30315152]You could send a letter to her old address, the letter probably will get forwarded to her new one.[/QUOTE] I don't know her old address. I know she lived in an apartment in the city, but I don't know the exact address or apartment number.

If, on the unfortunate down side you never get to see her again. It'd probably be best to find a hobby you really enjoy doing to get your mind off of things. Time will heal everything.

She's dead yo.

[QUOTE=0v3rkill2;30315910]She's dead yo.[/QUOTE] [img]http://www.lifepunch.net/images/smilies/frog.gif[/img] Get out.

[url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1094284-Just-drank-half-a-bottle-of-wine-in-a-short-period-of-time-how-fast-until-it-affects-me?highlight=[/url] Get hammered on half a bottle of wine.

[QUOTE=Jasun;30316251][url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1094284-Just-drank-half-a-bottle-of-wine-in-a-short-period-of-time-how-fast-until-it-affects-me?highlight=[/url] Get hammered on half a bottle of wine.[/QUOTE]That works

Or, you know, go fap over pictures of Pokémon characters [url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1093788-The-Misty-Appreciation-Thread?highlight=[/url] Seriously, stop making threads.

Jesus your life is trivial, racist co-workers now this.

If you know her last name and first name, you can look up on intellius or those intelligence gathering websites, they can give you addresses and all for free as public information depending on the state that you reside in. Here's what i mean [url]http://www.intelius.com/people-search.html?=&gclid=CP_WrrHppKkCFQImbAodZXuqug[/url]

do sleuth work get a picture off her facebook or a forum and go to the cafes and bookshops or shit related to what she likes and ask the clerks if they've seen her

Aren't you 13-14

You probably lost the girl you had a crush on, not the "woman" you were "in love" with.

I see that cosmic duck moved this from Fast Threads to GD. What a kind old chap, now please excuse my humble adobe. [QUOTE=0v3rkill2;30315910]She's dead yo.[/QUOTE] I seriously hate you.

Grow some fucking balls and get over it. There's more fish in the sea.

Sing her this song: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7AZIvDD5Lw[/media] [editline]7th June 2011[/editline] But, maybe in your range (if you have one) Or, hire people to, it's a really beautiful song

Jesus christ your life seems to be insane dude. I mean what racist co workers and then this.

There's always suicide, OP. Swift bloody death is the best death? I'm trolling though. Hope you feel better in the future.

[QUOTE=HeavyGuy;30317716]Jesus christ your life seems to be insane dude. I mean what racist co workers and then this.[/QUOTE] I thought everyone's life had this much shit going on in it...

[QUOTE=Squall;30317779]I thought everyone's life had this much shit going on in it...[/QUOTE] It does, and good for you for openly talking about it and asking for help.

Fap And find a hobby