How I smoked marijuana and got temporary psychosis - General

So as college started up, and I moved into my dorms, I had many opportunities to smoke pot. My roommate pretty much always had access to the best stuff, and I ended up smoking with him. Eventually got some myself, and we both smoked it together, pretty much every night of the week, at least 2 bowls each (a fair amount for one person). A few weeks went by and everything was all fine and dandy. That is until one fateful day. In order to understand why the following event caused mental trauma, you must know my past history. I have seasonal affected disorder, or S.A.D. It is a form of bipolar disorder where the down feeling occurs during the winter and fall seasons. The beginning of the S.A.D is usually caused by a traumatizing trigger, something that causes great distress. In other words, my brain is already fucked up. The one fateful day, I got retarded like a mofo. I smoke 2 bowls in one sitting pretty much. About a half hour later, the munchies kicked in. I grabbed some doughnuts I had and ate one. I then gave my roommate one. He noticed it was kinda discolored. I looked at the box and it turned out they were all moldy. I just ate a moldy doughnut. I was sick with a bad stomach flu earlier that week, so I was freaked the fuck out I was going to get sick again, and being high did not help much. It exacerbated my anxiety to the point where I was heavily convulsing and sweating. No matter how much my roommate tried to calm me down, it did not work, and laying down made it worse because I thought about it more. I attempted to induce vomiting to get it out, but no matter how hard I tried, I could not vomit. Syrup of Ipecac did not do anything either because I am guessing the weed prevents it, or at least for me. As my high wore off, so did my anxiety, and I finally went to sleep. I looked up in the morning what mold it was, and it was penicillin, the antibiotic. A common mold that grows on breads. But the damage was still done. Anyways, this event triggered a downward spiral into what I am now considering a mild psychosis, which is on top of my anxiety and depression. Now before anyone says to get medical help or see a shrink, well I have. I voluntarily admitted myself into the psych ward at a local hospital over night in hopes to speak with a shrink on an emergency basis and get some meds to start me up before I start out-patiently therapy. Well, that did not go so well. I had to wait there longer than I thought, and got no meds out of it. I went back to the ER with my step father who has some connections there, and he was able to get me with a shrink to get me some meds. Well, he did prescribe me meds, but I had no time to pick them up and make it to work because the pharmacy where I am covered (Walter Reed) is a piece of shit, and I can't transfer any prescriptions to CVS or anywhere like that because they are not covered by my insurance. So that night I got back from work, I started having a massive anxiety attack. I also had the crazy idea to jump from my 11th story window of my apartment, not to kill myself, but just for the act of doing it. I am not suicidal by any means. This thought scared the hell out of me because I am incredibly impulsive and normally do what first thought comes to mind: good idea or bad, where in this case, this would be my last bad idea ever. I called my mom who calmed me down pretty well, but I was still terrified. I had to move myself away from the window by sleeping on the floor (more comfortable than you'd think). I finally fell asleep after a stressful hour or so of laying there controlling my impulses and hope I don't sleep walk into doing anything stupid. The next day I woke up and got my meds first thing in the morning, and went to my fathers where there is literally nothing stupid I could do there. After that, I went with my father to buy some epoxy to glue my window shut (my idea). So I am sitting here now back at my apartment, feeling pretty well on the anti-anxiety meds with a completely sealed window behind me, and explaining to you all about the repercussions of doing things you may not think will harm you in the long run. For the longest time, I was pro-legalization of weed, I had all these scientific facts and studies proving it's harmless and I was even encouraging people to give it a try. Now I am sitting here with my entire life flipped upside-down. I knew marijuana did have a chance of causing psychosis in those [I]who had a disposition to it[/I] and no one else. I never thought I had a disposition to it, but I guess I did, and now I am suffering the consequences Big time. It is hard to explain how terrible it feels to have depression, anxiety, and mild psychosis. They are all in the process of being treated, and none are permanent, but for the time being, I am living in hell. The goal of me writing this is not to be sympathetic with me, but for me to educate you. I want you to understand that drugs effect people in many different ways. I know a person who uses caffeine as a sleep aid. Yes, a powerful stimulant knocks them out cold. Be careful what you put into your body, and if you respect your body and mind, it will respect you back and help you succeed. [B]EDIT:[/B] To clear up any confusion, I did know I had S.A.D. However, during the times I was smoking it before, I had no symptoms, so I thought I was in the clear. I also have no past history of anxiety problems. What I failed to realized, however, is that even when the disorder is not showing symptoms, my brain is still not chemically balanced, meaning it's easy to flip a switch or two and seriously fuck shit up. I just learned the hard way. As for my opinion on legalization, I still say yes. The reason being is that any substance, legal or not legal could have done this to me. Excessive drinking could have done it too, or an OD on OTC meds (neither of which I would ever do anyway).

marijuana kills, man.

Man Kills marijuana

[QUOTE=Master117;18100647]In order to understand why the following event caused mental trauma, you must know my past history. I have seasonal affected disorder, or S.A.D.[/QUOTE] :frown:

Marijuana is for people who cant afford cocaine. :cool::hf::smug:

I can't take smoking...only eating.

Yikes. Have a heart.

[QUOTE=TH89;18100695]:frown:[/QUOTE] Well aren't you clever?

Finally - now what do you say pro-legalizers?

You consider 2 bowls a lot? :lol: Also, blaming weed is a fallacy, you over reacted, learn to chill out man, smoke more. [b]edit[/b] Okay, evidently there's a lot of presumptions and miss-interpretation about marijuana in this thread, so lets all stop waving dicks around and imbibe some knowledge, courtesy of Woody Harrelson [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sknoKWsVlAA[/media]

[QUOTE=whenisitover;18100760]Well aren't you clever?[/QUOTE] yes

[QUOTE=snuwoods;18100775]Finally - now what do you say pro-legalizers?[/QUOTE] As scary as this is, people have much worse experiences with legal drugs like alcohol and tobacco, and much more often. Besides, the guy already had a mental condition, and it's been shown that weed can trigger psychosis in these individuals. Then again, I haven't actually ever smoked weed, so I guess that makes me a hypocrite.

I know how you feel bro, I have anxiety and depression all the time, and I smoke weed on the basis but I have never had pyshcosis.

[QUOTE=snuwoods;18100775]Finally - now what do you say pro-legalizers?[/QUOTE] I think they would say something along the lines of "you shouldn't be experimenting with psychoactive compounds if you have a pre-existing mental health condition"

Nice story. Thanks god, I never tried smoking and I never will. Can't see a meaning to smoke though.

Drugs are bad. [editline]12:24AM[/editline] Mmmkay?

Lightweight.

To be entirely honest, similar effects can be created with the use of alcohol. Thanks for the read though, was quite interesting.

Weed is still okay to smoke this guy already had problems so he had a really bad trip.

[QUOTE=snuwoods;18100775]Finally - now what do you say pro-legalizers?[/QUOTE]Basically, OP took drugs with pre-existing medical conditions, some bad stuff went down, and he ended up going insane. Therefore, he is no longer pro-weed due to the unique effects canibus had induced on him.

Is this anti-weed, or anti-doughnuts?

Man, that sucks. Sorry to hear that everything got so damn crazy. :(

[QUOTE=snuwoods;18100775]Finally - now what do you say pro-legalizers?[/QUOTE] that you're an idiot and the OP should take caution in experimenting with drugs while he has mental conditions

Wow that sucks. Makes me not want to try weed now as opposed to before.. [editline]10:46PM[/editline] [QUOTE=Conscript;18101212]that you're an idiot and the OP should take caution in experimenting with drugs while he has mental conditions[/QUOTE] He didn't know he had any sort of mental condition it seems, so he assumed it was safe. That didn't save him.

[QUOTE=lum1naire;18101258] He didn't know he had any sort of mental condition it seems, so he assumed it was safe. That didn't save him.[/QUOTE] Correct me if I'm wrong, but it sounds like he already knew he had S.A.D., he just didn't expect to experience an anxiety attack on weed which acted as a traumatizing trigger, apparently.

[QUOTE=lum1naire;18101258]He didn't know he had any sort of mental condition it seems, so he assumed it was safe. That didn't save him.[/QUOTE] Just don't sketch the fuck out after eating a doughnut.

[QUOTE=Conscript;18101304]Correct me if I'm wrong, but it sounds like he already knew he had S.A.D., he just didn't expect to experience an anxiety attack on weed which acted as a traumatizing trigger, apparently.[/QUOTE] Oh well yeah I guess so then. But it might still be possible for weed to trigger some sort of condition without you knowing anything was wrong with you prior. I can't think of an example so that sort of ruins what I'm saying, but I've heard it's rare that it ever occurs.

Blame it on the marijuana man. When I have the munchies, I am still perfectly capable of seeing whether or not the food I am about to eat is actually edible..

[QUOTE=lum1naire;18101333]Oh well yeah I guess so then. But it might still be possible for weed to trigger some sort of condition without you knowing anything was wrong with you prior. I can't think of an example so that sort of ruins what I'm saying, but I've heard it's rare that it ever occurs.[/QUOTE] You mean like some undiagnosed mental condition that gets flared by a high? Eh, I guess it could happen if for some reason a doctor never diagnosed you with it.

Weed not working for you? Try crack