Crossdressing/Transgender Megathread v. There is an unicorn under my dress.
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I don't know if I even want to continue.
I'm certain that I couldn't live as a man, but if I continue HRT what CAN I live as..? A man with some drug-induced feminine features telling everyone calling him sir "NO!! I'M A WOMAN!!" ?
I'd never be able to find a partner. Straight men wouldn't like me because I would have a penis (before SRS) or used to have been a man (after SRS), straight women and gay men wouldn't like me because of my feminine features, and lesbian women wouldn't like me for the same reason as straight men.
I'm terrified that I would never pass, and never be able to live a normal life. My life is already hard enough being in this country, being a 179cm manly tranny would be even worse. I'd never be able to find a job either.
[editline]29th June 2012[/editline]
My feet are size 10 too.
[QUOTE=el Che;36551922]I don't know if I even want to continue.
I'm certain that I couldn't live as a man, but if I continue HRT what CAN I live as..? A man with some drug-induced feminine features telling everyone calling him sir "NO!! I'M A WOMAN!!" ?
I'd never be able to find a partner. Straight men wouldn't like me because I would have a penis (before SRS) or used to have been a man (after SRS), straight women and gay men wouldn't like me because of my feminine features, and lesbian women wouldn't like me for the same reason as straight men.
I'm terrified that I would never pass, and never be able to live a normal life. My life is already hard enough being in this country, being a 179cm manly tranny would be even worse. I'd never be able to find a job either.
[editline]29th June 2012[/editline]
My feet are size 10 too.[/QUOTE]
With HRT and some attention to how you conduct yourself and dress and all that, you'll pass a hell of a lot better than you think now.
As for looking for a partner, there are still plenty of people who will happily be in a relationship with a transgendered person, you'll just have to look a bit harder is all. My boyfriend is trans, and I'm fine with that! :P
[QUOTE=Chris220;36551999]With HRT and some attention to how you conduct yourself and dress and all that, you'll pass a hell of a lot better than you think now.
As for looking for a partner, there are still plenty of people who will happily be in a relationship with a transgendered person, you'll just have to look a bit harder is all. My boyfriend is trans, and I'm fine with that! :P[/QUOTE]
But I still wouldn't be able to find any shoes that fit. Although, could HRT and weight loss make my feet 2 sizes smaller, to size 8? I'm 65lbs overweight.
[QUOTE=el Che;36552029]But I still wouldn't be able to find any shoes that fit. Although, could HRT and weight loss make my feet 2 sizes smaller, to size 8? I'm 65lbs overweight.[/QUOTE]
I'm no expert, so I take anything I say with a pinch of salt; but I'd say that it depends if the size of your feet is mostly based on bone structure or soft tissue. To my knowledge your bones won't change too much with HRT.
But eh, I'm probably wrong so I'll let someone who actually knows what they're talking about step in for me!
Weight loss will help a lot with your self-confidence levels. Get started on that immediately. Bones won't change if you've finished male puberty, but sometimes that doesn't really matter. And lots of women have huge feet. Women come in every shape and size, and people don't assume that someone is transgendered without REALLY studying it.
[QUOTE=Riodoku;36552212]Weight loss will help a lot with your self-confidence levels. Get started on that immediately. Bones won't change if you've finished male puberty, but sometimes that doesn't really matter. And lots of women have huge feet. Women come in every shape and size, and people don't assume that someone is transgendered without REALLY studying it.[/QUOTE]
I don't think I have finished male puberty.To what extent could bones change?
And I am, I already have gone from 94kg to 87kg in 2 weeks.
How old are you? That's mostly the deciding factor. Don't lose weight too fast. Focus on becoming healthy, not becoming skinny.
18, but I think I started puberty late or slow. I have very little facial/body hair and my face isn't really masculinized.
Then don't worry about it. You're on hormone blockers and estrogen, just give it time. Focus on your attire and stuff for now.
I will just wait and lose weight then. I also started drinking spearmint tea since I was 14 years old, if it makes a difference. 6 cups each day.
That's probably what has been stunting your puberty process then. There's a bit of anti-androgen in Spearmint, 6 cups a day for four years has probably effected that somehow. That wouldn't matter now, though, since you're on an anti-androgen medication.
I'm not sure about the nutritional properties of that, but I'd try to at least cut back on it. Just drink water.
I did stop the spearmint tea when I got the cyproterone acetate. I used spearmint tea while I still lived with my parents because if I bought hormones/antiandrogens online they would find out and probably kick me out.
[QUOTE=el Che;36552494]I did stop the spearmint tea when I got the cyproterone acetate. I used spearmint tea while I still lived with my parents because if I bought hormones/antiandrogens online they would find out and probably kick me out.[/QUOTE]
Wait, are you self-medding? Also, out of curiosity, what country are you in?
[QUOTE=Riodoku;36552543]Wait, are you self-medding? Also, out of curiosity, what country are you in?[/QUOTE]
Belarus, and yes, I am.
Belarus is not a good place to be in general. Even Russia is better, especially with LGBT issues. Blah, do you have plans to emigrate?
I am going to visit Amsterdam or London in September, I would like to stay in one of those places. But I don't kn ow how easy it is to do that yet. Especially since I'm a tranny and not inEU.
I think the Netherlands is fairly tolerant about those issues. I haven't been in ages, so I can't really pass judgement on that society. I know Denmark is mostly great about it though. Just try to find work within the country, and start the process. Transgender status shouldn't matter when going through the immigration process.
I would still be male though. that really sucks. I can take hormones and have surgeries and I can look female, but every cell is still going to be XY and I am still actually going to be male
[QUOTE=el Che;36554574]I would still be male though. that really sucks. I can take hormones and have surgeries and I can look female, but every cell is still going to be XY and I am still actually going to be [B]male[/B][/QUOTE]
Are you sure that you are transgender? You shouldn't be thinking yourself as a male. It is ok to look male so early in your transition. Being a woman isn't just about looks, if you act and talk like a man people will see the difference as soon as you start moving or open your mouth. It is the attitude how you try to present yourself.
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You should also understand that all these changes will take a long time. As you wait for your body to change you have to start practicing the other parts of being a woman. PATIENCE AND DETERMINATION
[QUOTE=Inufin;36554625]Are you sure that you are transgender? You shouldn't be thinking yourself as a male. It is ok to look male so early in your transition. Being a woman isn't just about looks, if you act and talk like a man people will see the difference as soon as you start moving or open your mouth. It is the attitude how you try to present yourself.
[editline]30th June 2012[/editline]
You should also understand that all these changes will take a long time. As you wait for your body to change you have to start practicing the other parts of being a woman. PATIENCE AND DETERMINATION[/QUOTE]
I know that my body will change. But, it will still be a male body. It will be feminized but I will still be male.
It's also very hard not to think of myself as male when I look in the mirror and see a "man" (well I started taking antiandrogen at 14 so not really a man, maybe just male).
I don't know if I think of myself as being female inside. It's hard to think like that.
I feel that I would rather be female than male. I'm not interested in masculine activities, I hate the masculine features of my body, my voice, etc, and I would love to be a woman. I do act more female than male and seem to think that way too. But am I..? I don't know. i don't even know if it's possible.
[QUOTE=el Che;36554760]I know that my body will change. But, it will still be a male body. It will be feminized but I will still be male.
It's also very hard not to think of myself as male when I look in the mirror and see a "man" (well I started taking antiandrogen at 14 so not really a man, maybe just male).
I don't know if I think of myself as being female inside. It's hard to think like that.
I feel that I would rather be female than male. I'm not interested in masculine activities, I hate the masculine features of my body, my voice, etc, and I would love to be a woman. I do act more female than male and seem to think that way too. But am I..? I don't know. i don't even know if it's possible.[/QUOTE]
A lot of trans people would say they felt like their preffered gender from as early as they remember, but I for one know that's not ALWAYS the case because it wasn't for me. You certainly sound pretty genderqueer and if you believe inside that you are transgender, then that's the way it is. Not every trans person is as steriotypical as others.
Only you can know if your trans, and it may take a while before you know for sure :)
[QUOTE=LonelyTimeLord;36554986]A lot of trans people would say they felt like their preffered gender from as early as they remember, but I for one know that's not ALWAYS the case because it wasn't for me. You certainly sound pretty genderqueer and if you believe inside that you are transgender, then that's the way it is. Not every trans person is as steriotypical as others.
Only you can know if your trans, and it may take a while before you know for sure :)[/QUOTE]
Well I actually didn't have any gender problems until I was 13. When puberty came and I started to masculinize, it all started. I started to have this deep feeling inside that I would hate to be a man, that I would be much happier if I was female. I started having dreams where I was a girl, and then I woke up wishing I could go back to sleep and back into the dream. I was depressed all the time and suicidal, and whenever I saw girls my age I felt very envious and sad.
holy shit this place exploded in more posts than i expected it to
UGH I'm gonna say something about my trans feelings to my counselor next time I see her (in three weeks), and I'm already dying of nervousness.
[QUOTE=el Che;36555071]Well I actually didn't have any gender problems until I was 13. When puberty came and I started to masculinize, it all started. I started to have this deep feeling inside that I would hate to be a man, that I would be much happier if I was female. I started having dreams where I was a girl, and then I woke up wishing I could go back to sleep and back into the dream. I was depressed all the time and suicidal, and whenever I saw girls my age I felt very envious and sad.[/QUOTE]
That feel...
[editline]30th June 2012[/editline]
Shitty pagequeen, have a cute raccoon.
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raccoons are evil motherfuckers
[QUOTE=Cotroxy;36555650]raccoons are evil motherfuckers[/QUOTE]
Raccoons are awesome, what are you on about?
[QUOTE=wingless;36555661]Raccoons are awesome, what are you on about?[/QUOTE]
they dig through your garbage, bite you, give you rabies and kill you
[QUOTE=Cotroxy;36555679]they dig through your garbage, bite you, give you rabies and kill you[/QUOTE]
They dig through your garbage because they're hungry and can't get food otherwise, help them next time. They only bite you because they're scared, same with snakes and bears and stuff. Not their fault they have rabies.
Also, I go to visit my parents and other family every couple of weeks. How many more months can I hide the fact that I'm taking hormones? No one has noticed yet, since it's only been 2 months.
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