Today has been the worst day I've had in a long time.
Computer broke, had to completely reset it. Spent the last four or five hours reinstalling drivers.
Realized my friend's demo tape recordings I was helping her with were lost in the reset process and are unretrievable; have to set up another recording session, but now I don't have ANY of the equipment available to me because the school's closed until september.
Threw my phone against the wall because I'm fed up with the world's shit. Broke that too, now I have no phone.
Still have no job. Except now if someone calls me with an offer I won't receive it because my fucking phone is broken.
I had the worst dream ever. Basically my grandparents on my dad's side are dead. My grandpa was murdered in his house about five or so years ago, and my grandma died in her sleep about 2 years ago. When I was a kid I loved the fuck out of them but as my dad stopped seeing me more and more, I saw them less because they lived right next to him. Eventually I never saw them again until I had to hear of my grandpa's shooting. Well in my dream, before they died, I got to see them again and it was torture because I knew it was a dream and was crying the whole time trying to get myself to wake up. THey ended up both dying the way my grandpa died right in front of my eyes. For fucks sake UGH
But in a good way, I got to see them again. That part isn't as sad as it used to be, but I'm glad I can see their faces even if they're a little blurry .v.
The amount of times i have beaten my younger sisters is frightening me.
Too bad i can't really control my anger issues as most of the people can.
I need a good night sleep.
^WTF
go get help, seriously
[QUOTE={TFS} Rock Su;47564643]The amount of times i have beaten my younger sisters is frightening me..[/QUOTE]
I'll take "What are things you should never admit?" for $1000
Really, see a doctor.
[QUOTE={TFS} Rock Su;47564643]The amount of times i have beaten my younger sisters is frightening me.
Too bad i can't really control my anger issues as most of the people can.
I need a good night sleep.[/QUOTE]
I feel you, I regretfully did the same when I lived with my step dad. It was always my little brother I targeted because he would piss me off purposefully, so I would slap him around because I was a troubled motherfucker. But we're on great terms now. Just take deep breaths when you get angry urges, and keep telling yourself it'll pass.
I just accidentally hit a little baby bunny rabbit driving up my road :(
[QUOTE={TFS} Rock Su;47564643]The amount of times i have beaten my younger sisters is frightening me.
Too bad i can't really control my anger issues as most of the people can.
I need a good night sleep.[/QUOTE]
Turn yourself in.
I hate how the vast majority of people's jobs, including what's [I]supposed[/I] to be mine, make you in to a cog in a machine. Spend your days working as hard as you can just to keep the house of cards standing for a while, teetering on the edge all the time. Got to get that money so it can immediately be sucked up by bills and shit. It's like the system's been entirely designed so that you're never comfortable and likely to be on the edge all the time, but you can [I]juuuuust[/I] afford to make it with what they pay you. You're supposed to be free, but you're a slave to your work. You're a resource. The government don't give a fuck about you, the business don't give a fuck about you. All they give a shit about is that you grind away like they want you to, and they're going to make it really fucked up for you if you don't. The relief is that you do get freedom in the sense of free trade, you get to get some goodies every now and then, new phone or tv or whatever, and it's all made possible and affordable by the horrid conditions that we keep people in other poorer countries working in. Granted, they have jobs and are probably better with them than if they didn't, but that's not very comforting.
Anyway, they keep you working on the false promise that maybe one day, you'll be one of those top millionaires or even billionaires yourself. You probably never will be but god damn do they want you to believe it. Why? Because who benefits most from the belief that one day you're going to magically turn in to a fuckin' millionaire by being a hard worker? Rich businessmen do. But they do let you feel important by letting you vote for president. Except, unlike when they let you pick out those 32 ice cream flavors, this time you only get a choice of 2, and both of them are shit anyway, just one of them is maybe [I]less[/I] shit.
Your real goal is to repeat this work cycle for them until you've gained a large enough income that you can have a family and make another few kids for the world before callin' it quits and dying. Something that really rubs me the wrong way. For some people that's all they want, and that's fine, but I'd like to be a little more significant than that, or at least spend my time doing something a little less bullshit. But the system isn't designed for that on the whole, it's designed for someone to go along on that one track.
Do I sound like an edgy teenager? [I]Probably.[/I] But does the world have to work that way? I think we think it does, but it really doesn't. I think we've just been fed this shit all our lives to the point that we can't imagine a world without it. Do I know how we should all be living instead? Absolutely not. But holy shit, I refuse to believe this is the best we can do.
I dunno, thinking about this kind of shit makes me want to fuck off to a forest somewhere and be a hermit.
yaaay capitalism
"Do we have any Maths homework?"
"Yes."
"Oh my god, that teacher is so gay."
Um no. Assigning homework does not make a teacher homosexual. I say this and people try to defend themselves by saying "i meant gay as in weird."
[QUOTE=Potaji;47565454]"Do we have any Maths homework?"
"Yes."
"Oh my god, that teacher is so gay."
Um no. Assigning homework does not make a teacher homosexual. I say this and people try to defend themselves by saying "i meant gay as in weird."[/QUOTE]
I mean yeah I thought this was obvious. People have used gay as a slang for weird or stupid for a while now. It doesn't excuse the fact, but you should know that by now.
[QUOTE=Mr. Zombie;47565467]I mean yeah I thought this was obvious. People have used gay as a slang for weird or stupid for a while now. It doesn't excuse the fact, but you should know that by now.[/QUOTE]
Maybe I should be clearer. The most annoying thing about this that people do it all through school, never see the issue with it, excuse it and pointing it out makes you a homosexual because "lol teen logic". The fact people have done it for a while shouldn't mean anything.
Torchwood has returned to the Screenshot section.
[QUOTE=Potaji;47565512]Maybe I should be clearer. The most annoying thing about this that people do it all through school, never see the issue with it, excuse it and pointing it out makes you a homosexual because "lol teen logic". The fact people have done it for a while shouldn't mean anything.[/QUOTE]
You sound surprised that the majority of sub-college students are immature
I hate how my parents rag on the games of this generation. It doesn't happen often, but whenever it does I find myself being unable to defend any game because they completely dismiss my arguments on why that game is enjoyable to play.
Example: We were talking at the dinner table about space and a bit of physics and I mention Kerbal Space Program. My dad immediately bashes it for being too easy and simple. I try to show him some amazingly complicated things that people have made, and try to explain how the game is teaching basic rocket physics to its players. He still disses the game for being too easy, and tells me about a space sim he played when he was a kid. This was in the time of punch card programming, no graphics, just a punch card with a whole bunch of numbers on it. I acknowledged that it was in fact a pretty cool game for its era. I tried to mention KSP again, but this time he just switched on the TV and ignored me for the rest of the meal.
I dunno, he just rags on today's games for having good graphics and too much simplicity, without really knowing much about the variety of games out there. Graphics and simplicity are a good thing for games- a game that you can't see is interesting to a point, but if you don't have enough imagination it's going to be boring. Simplicity means that new players can easily get into a game, and that's good as well- the punch card space sim game he mentioned required previous programming knowledge to play, which means that only a select group of people would be able to enjoy it.
I just wish that he and my mom could try to play games- then they'd understand how being deeply engrossed in a game is whats supposed to happen, and not the product of some "video game addiction" that I supposedly have. They don't like the fact that that games shut me out from the outside world, but I don't have any friends near me that are close enough to invite over. I get enough social interaction every day at school. I ride my bike every week, and I go outside, just in the early AM's (its so quiet and peaceful). They hate the fact that I'm "stuck" in my games. That belief stems from a constant problem we have- we eat dinner somewhere from 9:00 to 9:30 each day, and it constantly changes. Of course I'm gonna get annoyed when I was about to go do an AI mission in DayZ, thinking I had half an hour to do it, and suddenly I have to go to dinner without any previous warning. I just asked them to tell me when dinner's gonna be every day so I can plan ahead, but my mom misinterpreted that as anger at them for disturbing my playtime. And of course, whenever my grades fall, they blame it on games, whenever I get a headache, they blame it on games, fucking everything is the computer or games' fault. I've gotten headaches before I got my computer. My grades wavered before I got my computer. And I wasn't very socially active before I got my computer- actually, getting on mumble with some friends I met on a Minecraft server helped find good friends in real life and online, and also got me over my fear of talking on the telephone.
TL,DR: Parents can't understand video games, so they demonize them.
[QUOTE={TFS} Rock Su;47564643]The amount of times i have beaten my younger sisters is frightening me.
Too bad i can't really control my anger issues as most of the people can.
I need a good night sleep.[/QUOTE]
What the fuck.
Dude, you need help. What you need isn't a good night sleep. You need to see a doctor.
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;47566642]So uh
I'm kinda moving out of my stepfather's house for good within 50 days.
[B]*heavy breathing*[/B][/QUOTE]
I can't believe it. It took 12,000 years, but the day has finally come.
I wish I could give you a damn hug right now, man. I'm so proud of you! Where you moving to? And with who?
My girlfriend is taking a trip to Disney World some time on the 15th, due to her brother going on some orchestra trip or something I don't know. The important part is, she'll be gone from then to the 21st or so, which is halfway, or at the very end of the second week of the school year. That will give her little time to make up whatever assignments need to be made up, write down notes that she missed, and study for final exams. She said her parents told her she'll have "plenty of time" to review once they get back.
I'm not...sure it's that easy? I don't know if I'm being too paranoid or silly about this but I really don't want to see her fail and have to retake the grade or move on and still be stuck taking Algebra in Junior year. That and it just won't be the same without her around, fuck.
Homework is mehhhhhhhhhh.....
Also tomorrow is my long work day and I hate that because it's always slower than ass on tuesdays.
Oh, and I have to drop an entire paycheck because my mom refuses to help me pay for clothes.
[QUOTE=Metherat;47566242]-snip-[/QUOTE]
At least your parents know something about games. If I asked my mum to name a game, she'd just run off saying she was busy. As for my Dad, he would just name some obscure phone game that only he knows exists. And that would it. Actually no, that or say "timerwatch" which was some really old stopclock app on the phone that doesn't exist anymore.
Fuck people who stare at you in restaurants. Friends and I just wanted to have a nice meal and this one fuckin druggie-cowboy looking dude kept staring us down as if we were space aliens
For whatever reason I also dislike dealing with super hyper girls who just wanna come up and hug everyone and tickle you and shit. Esp. when they're always high or drunk or whatever. It's like oil and water with me. Like fuck off you're 22
Thinking about my & my family's life situation and how we're bordering on poverty, losing our home and a grand majority of our possessions because mom's stuck at a dead-end job at Wal-Mart, dad can't work due to his back, I've been sending in a shitload of applications to various jobs and haven't gotten a call back on a singular one, and my brother continues to suck all of us dry because he's a 30+ year old manchild who refuses to search for another job, and to legally eject him out of the home we gave him (title's still in our name) and he's absolutely trashed would only ruin us financially even further.
We're fucking stuck.
Edit: To be honest I just wish my brother would fucking hang himself already or something. I hate him with every inch of my body. He's been torturing my parents for a very long time because he thinks they abuse and mistreat him oh so badly him when they DON'T. I would feel no remorse, only joy because it means we'd finally be FREE OF HIS BULLSHIT. My parents would finally be able to move to Florida like they've been dreaming about for many years, we'd actually be able to have nice things again and not worry about becoming homeless.
Ugh. My mom just came here and randomly said to me "IS YOUR BOYFRIEND SEXUALLY AGRESSIVE?? I NEED TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR SEX LIFE IT'S IMPORTANT DID YOU TASTE ANY PILLS IN YOUR FOOD?????????????????"
Like what the fuck mom...
FUCK I hate it when people message me on steam first with something like 'ugh' or 'ergh' or what not
for fucks sake just tell me what the fucks the matter instead of forcing me to ask first
[QUOTE=TheFilmSlacker;47566642]So uh
I'm kinda moving out of my stepfather's house for good within 50 days.
[B]*heavy breathing*[/B][/QUOTE]
Godspeed dude.
-snip-
Too hungry to fall asleep right now, too tired to make food. UUUUUUuGHGgh It's been like this for the past week almost every night. I wish we had something good around here that didn't require me to cook it.
[QUOTE=Katska;47568663]Too hungry to fall asleep right now, too tired to make food. UUUUUUuGHGgh It's been like this for the past week almost every night. I wish we had something good around here that didn't require me to cook it.[/QUOTE]
Go to the store and buy stuff for sandwiches?
[QUOTE=SuperDuperScoot;47567398]Thinking about my & my family's life situation and how we're bordering on poverty, losing our home and a grand majority of our possessions because mom's stuck at a dead-end job at Wal-Mart, dad can't work due to his back, I've been sending in a shitload of applications to various jobs and haven't gotten a call back on a singular one, and my brother continues to suck all of us dry because he's a 30+ year old manchild who refuses to search for another job, and to legally eject him out of the home we gave him (title's still in our name) and he's absolutely trashed would only ruin us financially even further.
We're fucking stuck.
Edit: To be honest I just wish my brother would fucking hang himself already or something. I hate him with every inch of my body. He's been torturing my parents for a very long time because he thinks they abuse and mistreat him oh so badly him when they DON'T. I would feel no remorse, only joy because it means we'd finally be FREE OF HIS BULLSHIT. My parents would finally be able to move to Florida like they've been dreaming about for many years, we'd actually be able to have nice things again and not worry about becoming homeless.[/QUOTE]
this makes me appreciate my relatively un-shitty brother
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