One of my debit cards got denied when I went out to eat, fortunately I had another debit card for my bank account on-hand. It's an old card and I plan to move all the money on it to my bank account, so I'm not too concerned, but getting told your card was denied is just kind of one of those "URAGH!" moments, it's not something you like getting told in public, you know?
Other shit that gets me mad: This fad where people take pictures or gifs of people who are known to not speak English (like Hideo Kojima) and put fake subtitles on it. Whether it's blatantly fake or not, I still hate it. I don't even know why I hate it, I just do. It's pisses me off. Sometimes it's just trying to be funny, but I don't find it funny at all.
I can't tell anymore if how my girlfriend acts is actually feelings or just an act in order to make me think everything with her is okay.
All I know is I'm quickly getting fed up with it.
Going to class tonight was basically a waste, apparently my project was due next week and not this week. So since I was finished, I basically sat there bored the whole time, at least I got the book though.
Oh, and my dad keeps putting my headset on full volume because he's a deaf old fart, I'm worried that he will eventually damage it.
I can't even look up regular sites over my phone when I'm not logged into a router. Sites takes about 4 minutes until they are fully load up. Facepunch however takes like 10 second at max to load everything up. All I want to search up, is how to do null point calculations with extreme values, but all it loads up are advertisements and logos.
I'm not sure if I should blame my mobile Internet or the advertisements.
I really want to kill myself, but I don't want my parents to have to deal with the pain of losing a child. Not a day passes where I don't wish I was never born, but I simply can't bring myself to do something about it.
There's no escape that won't affect anyone negatively. It fucking sucks.
[QUOTE=Flubbman;47170210]I really want to kill myself, but I don't want my parents to have to deal with the pain of losing a child. Not a day passes where I don't wish I was never born, but I simply can't bring myself to do something about it.
There's no escape that won't affect anyone negatively. It fucking sucks.[/QUOTE]
thats certainly not a possitive mindset to be in, but at least you have one reason not to die. message me on steam man, i have something i want to say to you.
As i've said, suiciding is like opening a pandorian box.
[QUOTE={TFS} Rock Su;47170427]As i've said, suiciding is like opening a pandorian box.[/QUOTE]Care to elaborate?
[QUOTE=Flubbman;47170210]I really want to kill myself, but I don't want my parents to have to deal with the pain of losing a child. Not a day passes where I don't wish I was never born, but I simply can't bring myself to do something about it.
There's no escape that won't affect anyone negatively. It fucking sucks.[/QUOTE]
Dude, ive been there, many times. Just think you maybe in a shit place now, and it feels absolutely SHIT, but it can only get better. I know its easier said then done. But you've got to try. You have stuff to do on a mental bucketlist im sure, so aim for them. My current one is to aim for a job in Graphic Design. It will take me a while since there is fuck all around me and i don't have a degree, but i will try!
[QUOTE=Flubbman;47170210]I really want to kill myself, but I don't want my parents to have to deal with the pain of losing a child. Not a day passes where I don't wish I was never born, but I simply can't bring myself to do something about it.
There's no escape that won't affect anyone negatively. It fucking sucks.[/QUOTE]
I have felt same way long as I can remember, I don't really have nothing in life and only enjoyable thing that I know is sleeping which is pretty annoying because everyone sweet talks death as eternal sleep, I don't live for myself, I live for others so they don't need to suffer from losing someone they care and know, suicide won't be a thing I would recommend anyone and if you are not too selfish you should know that your death affects others than just you too.
[editline]19th February 2015[/editline]
Life just tends to feel pointless, maybe because it is or we just don't understand it.
Have not been able to sleep properly for a few days now.
I just can't grasp coding. Web coding.
I can read and edit coding quite easily, but i just can't seem to create it. i dont know where to start and ive been given a task to do that i have no idea what to do about it.
When I google a question [I]about[/I] Youtube, the results are nothing but Youtube videos.
[QUOTE=Talvy;47170841]When I google a question [I]about[/I] Youtube, the results are nothing but Youtube videos.[/QUOTE]
I'm guessing 3 questions
"How to get famous on youtube"
"How much do youtubers earn"
"How long can a youtube video be"
[QUOTE=Ax3l;47170754]Have not been able to sleep properly for a few days now.[/QUOTE]
same, idk what normal sleep is anymore :v:
I wake up at 9 at night and go to bed at 1 pm
I just got so stressed I burst into tears in front of my lecturer. I'm a fucking 20 year old, I should be over this kind of shit. I'm too scared to ask some really nice people to just fill in a form every now and again, and I hate myself because of it, it's not like I'm asking them to go murder a baby, it's just a very short form that I need to be filled in to prove I'm actually doing stuff, rather than appearing as the useless sack of shit that I am and holy run-on sentence man.
[QUOTE=Terminutter;47171187]I just got so stressed I burst into tears in front of my lecturer. I'm a fucking 20 year old, I should be over this kind of shit. I'm too scared to ask some really nice people to just fill in a form every now and again, and I hate myself because of it, it's not like I'm asking them to go murder a baby, it's just a very short form that I need to be filled in to prove I'm actually doing stuff, rather than appearing as the useless sack of shit that I am and holy run-on sentence man.[/QUOTE]
I'm 19 and I still get a little sensitive, but I don't really hate myself because of that.
It kinda is nerve-wracking when you ask someone for something, but what you could do is next time it happens, just remember what it was like before. You won't get upset this way, and remembering how it went before might help you to relax.
Don't beat yourself up about it, it's stressful, yeah but it won't be bad the next time.
Issue is that I've done this exact same thing so many times in the past.
I managed to kinda get it sorted in this case now and made an appointment or two to talk about it to someone, but it's just a case of I need to man up and ask for feedback every week or so.
The lecturer is so nice and understanding but I kinda feel I made her do so much work, she's literally rearranged so much on short notice to help with it because I was panicking over something caused by my own insecurity, plus other bothers.
I stick my head in the sand, which is kinda embarrassing. I'm supposed to be perfectly capable of practising properly in a year and a half if I am to pass my course, but I just can't see myself as an independent practitioner, which is worrying.
It's like I just need to get feedback signed by some perfectly lovely individuals, and they would be more than willing to do it if I bit the bullet and was more assertive.
Thanks though, it really does make me feel better to know I'm not the only one who worries so much about some things, I just wish I could have a few days a week to just lie down and do nothing to relax, but things like washing, cooking, cleaning and such all take up the spare time!
[QUOTE=greeley;47170906]I'm guessing 3 questions
"How to get famous on youtube"
"How much do youtubers earn"
"How long can a youtube video be"[/QUOTE]
*
"Why is Youtube full of children"
"Why are Youtube comments cancer"
I'm searching for feels.
Imgur is now deciding not to load any images on Chrome for some reason
[editline]19th February 2015[/editline]
Apparently it fixed itself
[QUOTE=Terminutter;47171187]I just got so stressed I burst into tears in front of my lecturer. I'm a fucking 20 year old, I should be over this kind of shit. I'm too scared to ask some really nice people to just fill in a form every now and again, and I hate myself because of it, it's not like I'm asking them to go murder a baby, it's just a very short form that I need to be filled in to prove I'm actually doing stuff, rather than appearing as the useless sack of shit that I am and holy run-on sentence man.[/QUOTE]
I was 18 and then 22 when I ended up crying infront of my D&D group because I got SUPER UPSET about how jerky other players were being. This toxic aura of masculinity that says that being visibly emotional is bad needs to go away already.
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Bloody fucken hell, Going outside right now is a nightmare without gloves
My sister quit her first ever REAL job after only two weeks.
This on top of the fact that she refused to graduate early from high school, and the fact that she might not even graduate on time, I'm not sure she's gonna go very far without some motivation from my apathetic dad.
A limited time thing has a limited stock with 5 left. I can't by that item because money.
There are 7 days left until I have money, so I can only hope
[QUOTE=gokiyono;47173069]A limited time thing has a limited stock with 5 left. I can't by that item because money.
There are 7 days left until I have money, so I can only hope[/QUOTE]
What is the thing
[QUOTE=Mr. Zombie;47173089]What is the thing[/QUOTE]
Special edition comic book with figure
holy shit im pretty sure one of my good mates just got an ear stretcher because his girlfriend wanted him to, i knew he was whipped af, but really?
[QUOTE=Richardroth;47166831]My dads computer is still on XP and he refuses to upgrade. He keeps asking me for help cause his programs stop working.[/QUOTE]
My stepdad refuses the use anything isn't Linux, blames Microsoft for any issues he has with his computer/our network and blames any issue I have with my computer on the fact that I use Windows 7.
[editline]19th February 2015[/editline]
When my Granddad asked him to make his computer better he decided to install Linux on it, now my Granddad is always asking for someone to fix x and y because he has no idea how to use Linux. Plus he has to do installations and stuff to do anything, he has problems just watching BBC iPlayer because it uses Flash and Adobe don't properly support Linux.
[QUOTE=absolalone111;47173147]holy shit im pretty sure one of my good mates just got an ear stretcher because his girlfriend wanted him to, i knew he was whipped af, but really?[/QUOTE]
slap him for me thx
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