• The Addicts' Lounge V. Peanut butter and marijuana sandwiches
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[QUOTE=Joseph Smith;41604344]I kinda get the breathing feeling with things or they just sligthly move. Is visual snow annoying by any chance? [editline]26th July 2013[/editline] May i ask you which symptoms have you got?[/QUOTE] I have visual snow, and yeah it's annoying, but I don't really notice it unless I'm lying there in the dark or something. It's just like a static field over everything, although a rather light one. I don't think that's my HPPD though. I've always had that. My HPPD would be, I think, a light breathing as well sometimes, things seem to sway if I think about it, and sometimes like in the bathroom with all white walls, the walls seem to have very light changes going across them like a small change in color or an almost undetectable pattern floating across it. The white background of Facepunch is just... different a lot of the time, can't really describe it. It's not really counter-productive to me, if anything it keeps me entertained. Some people could consider it negative, but I hardly even notice it. If anything I consider it gifts from the unknown to keep me interested in psychedelics and appreciative of their effects. Also, after I did acid, there was one OEV/CEV that stayed with me. At times, like when I'm feeling happy or emotional, the green blinking light in the bottom of my left eye comes back. It's comforting and I like to think it's acid's way of reminding me that it'll always be there for me. It's most noticeable at night when I try to sleep, but I can conjure it up almost at will. Edit: There's also one more very small hallucination, which is a sort of "zipper", or a sort of straight-ish lightning bolt of faint light going up one of my eye's vision, sort of where the connection to the nose would be. That probably doesn't make sense. It only lasts a second or so and comes and goes randomly, and I'm not even sure if it's HPPD or a natural issue with one of my eyes (as I've had surgeries on them before and have always had horrible vision issues) but I felt the need to note it none-the-less. I wish I could describe these things in a way that didn't sound silly, but our forms of communication are pretty primitive, honestly. I hope this helps you in some way. HPPD in most cases seems to be mild and not distracting at all (from my knowledge) but of course there are cases where it's a little more extreme and obstructive. Thankfully I'm not one of those few.
[QUOTE=Nifae;41604822]Also, after I did acid, there was one OEV/CEV that stayed with me. At times, like when I'm feeling happy or emotional, the green blinking light in the bottom of my left eye comes back. It's comforting and I like to think it's acid's way of reminding me that it'll always be there for me. It's most noticeable at night when I try to sleep, but I can conjure it up almost at will.[/QUOTE] that's a very interesting hallucination you have there
[QUOTE=TamTamJam;41604939]that's a very interesting hallucination you have there[/QUOTE] I sometimes wonder if it's a part of something bigger that I have yet to discover, and I've got my whole life ahead of me to see about that.
Ordered the Extreme Q Vape by Arizer yesterday. Hoping it's worth it but it's the best vape I could find next to the Volcano. Gotta give a shout out to [url]http://torontovaporizer.ca/[/url] as-well for their amazing customer service. My order didn't go through the first time so I emailed them about it and the next morning they phoned me in response to my email, they called me as soon as they mailed the vape. They have stats/performance evaluations so you can compare different aspects of vapes like speed, portability, manufacturing quality, etc. Overall awesome website for vapes.
what the fuck i have the stupidest dreams, i dont want to even describe them thats how fucking bizzare they are
[QUOTE=polarbear.;41605083]what the fuck i have the stupidest dreams, i dont want to even describe them thats how fucking bizzare they are[/QUOTE] A few nights ago I had a dream that I was Neo and me and Trinity were making our way across the country to a safe haven. We were faking being motorcycle cops, and we even had the actual cop bikes. It was so intense soaring down the highway so fast at night and I turned my sirens on and it was awesome. We were being chased by two agents, and I think it was because Trinity had some sort of super important child in her, like the next One or something. Also, I took a nap earlier and had a dream that these gangsters were trying to force me to sell weed for them or they'd come back and kill me. It seemed a bit extreme for a little weed. :v:
Anyone know anything about medical marijuana cards? I was thinking of trying to get one but I didn't know if my injuries would qualify me for one, seeing as how i need a doctors note with them actually noting marijuana would be suitable. I smoked last night and, after a week of popping painkillers, it's the first thing that's actually taken the pain away. And seeing as how i cracked two vertebrae in my lower back I'm probably gonna have even more back pain than i already did for quite a while, it's just a matter of getting a doctor convinced enough to write me one...And that's behind every ones back, parents would never approve. So basically, tips? How should i go about trying to get one? I go back in for a checkup on the 30'th to the trauma center where i was kept, do i talk to them about it? Or do i need to see something more of a personal doctor? Who? I'm in New Mexico if that helps. Internet held some basic info such as what i already know, my only problem is finding a doctor that will approve me for it. Is that hard to do? Sorry if this information has already been written somewhere, i can't seem to find any real information on someone going through the process and successfully getting it.
baked as fuck, my vision does what it wants, its like my computer tries to eat me
toasted like toast
wr0nt thread
alt because some friends spy on me :v:. anyway im gonna get toasteed [editline]26th July 2013[/editline] oh wow its my first post I didn't even realize
Round a mates just throwing up random YouTube videos and this came up. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R-PFT2m0Q0M[/media] Scared.
friend sent me this [img]http://i.imgur.com/3vTgWMz.jpg[/img]
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;41607044]friend sent me this [img]http://i.imgur.com/3vTgWMz.jpg[/img][/QUOTE] hahaha wow, that's awful
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just got paid $100 to pull weeds and trim trees and drink beer all day probably going to go back and make another $100 tomorrow [editline]26th July 2013[/editline] did i mention it was free beer?
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;41584243]The allnighter didn't work, it's 2 am and I'm still up, couldn't sleep so I had a smoke (cigarette) and watched a film, mom walked in on me smelled the smoke and saw I was still awake and took the piss out on me. I guess the life I'm living isn't a life but it's so hard to change - what am I supposed to do, go up at 8 am, eat properly, stop smoking, starting to exercise? Why? Where is the motivation? I'm gonna go outside now in the middle of the night with the last of my smokes and sit by a lake now, chain smoke them and just think, just be alone - then perhaps I can make a change tomorrow. Probably not.[/QUOTE] I know how you feel man. The more I try to reach out and change, the more I find I was correct in my previous thoughts and humanity just rears its ugly head again, and I can't stand to be involved in such a society. [editline]26th July 2013[/editline] Listening to some old Alt and Grunge from the 90's on the Youtube. [editline]26th July 2013[/editline] Is it rude that when a girl starts complaining that they've had the worst day and have been crying, that I go and check today's date?
Working my way through the 'Music to listen to while high' thread and my god are there some gems on here, I can't believe the kinda music that's in there that I've never heard. And I'm only page 1.
Blasted BHO today, good experience just have to do step 2 of the purge tomorrow. Blasted some low grade bud from my shake and the BHO looks a lot better than I was planning for my test run, I was expecting some shitty results.
[QUOTE=Cureless;41608264]Working my way through the 'Music to listen to while high' thread and my god are there some gems on here, I can't believe the kinda music that's in there that I've never heard. And I'm only page 1.[/QUOTE] i cant look at that thread without my browser crashing
[QUOTE=Mac2468;41608020]just got paid $100 to pull weeds and trim trees and drink beer all day probably going to go back and make another $100 tomorrow [editline]26th July 2013[/editline] did i mention it was free beer?[/QUOTE] speaking of, i scored my first job I'm going to some warehouse to weld shit with my dad. It's only for a week, but apparently I'm getting paid a lot better than minimum wage.
high with my girl
I had my first Window in my SSRI discontinuation withdrawal cycle. My mind was so clear that it was unreal. My thoughts were vivid, sensible and i felt like i had just woke up from a nightmare, except it was real. Emotions have been flooding back in my mind, for more than a year i've been just a shell of my old self and all my emotion has been on a "intellectual level". What i mean is that i even though i felt nothing in heavy situations, i decided to respond with a faked emotion just because i knew it was socially excpected and appropriate. Even though the withdrawals are still going strong, i have found true motivation and hope that maybe this world is afterall a place worth living in. I've tasted freedom of mind and i'm not giving up until i achieve it completely, even if it kills me!
[QUOTE=TTauski;41609334]I had my first Window in my SSRI discontinuation withdrawal cycle. My mind was so clear that it was unreal. My thoughts were vivid, sensible and i felt like i had just woke up from a nightmare, except it was real. Emotions have been flooding back in my mind, for more than a year i've been just a shell of my old self and all my emotion has been on a "intellectual level". What i mean is that i even though i felt nothing in heavy situations, i decided to respond with a faked emotion just because i knew it was socially excpected and appropriate. Even though the withdrawals are still going strong, i have found true motivation and hope that maybe this world is afterall a place worth living in. I've tasted freedom of mind and i'm not giving up until i achieve it completely, even if it kills me![/QUOTE] That's great! Keep putting your mind to it, it seems to be working for you.
this must be some dirt ass weed because i'm pissed off to high fuckin hell
[QUOTE=Furioso;41609359]That's great! Keep putting your mind to it, it seems to be working for you.[/QUOTE] Will do. I am really motivated that i can do this now even on my own. I want to be myself again and not that psychotic robot copy anymore. Luckily i have my friends at my side. One of my friends especially showed his true colors few days ago. He had my back when i was at my weakest while my "best friend" has been really pessimistic and cold towards me.
i just got ultra-pissed over something on the internet and this is the point where i wonder maybe do i have some kind of anger issues but then i'm afraid to seek help in case i'm just an easily pissed off asshole [editline]27th July 2013[/editline] i don't even fucking have anyone to confide in about this bullshit i really just can't hack this hsit [editline]27th July 2013[/editline] and now alicia's leaving for the USA i'm fucking done
Think any of us would ever be able to run for public office? Our would they dredge all this shit up
[QUOTE=Lick;41609756]Think any of us would ever be able to run for public office? Our would they dredge all this shit up[/QUOTE] Do it and find out. Worst that could happen is that you don't get elected :v: [editline]27th July 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=geogzm;41609575]i just got ultra-pissed over something on the internet and this is the point where i wonder maybe do i have some kind of anger issues but then i'm afraid to seek help in case i'm just an easily pissed off asshole [editline]27th July 2013[/editline] i don't even fucking have anyone to confide in about this bullshit i really just can't hack this hsit [editline]27th July 2013[/editline] and now alicia's leaving for the USA i'm fucking done[/QUOTE] Ay niggest, if you need to talk you can hit me up on steam. My name is Infuriating Bondage Zebra.
[QUOTE=Lick;41609756]Think any of us would ever be able to run for public office? Our would they dredge all this shit up[/QUOTE] Hunter S. Thompson did and almost won. I wish people could really be open with each other. MDMA could do so much good for so many people if administered responsibly I feel.
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