The Addicts' Lounge V. Peanut butter and marijuana sandwiches
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[QUOTE=Appellation;41619837]You're a great bud dude. But our debts to one another are mutual, and being an ass while asking to borrow a car is pushing it. I don't want to spend a day at your brother's place so you can go on your mandate. I like having a little base set up if I'm just going to spend an entire goddamn day just chill in. Not just be a random guest for a day.[/QUOTE]
In no way is this SMS. I'll just leave that unsaid
[editline]27th July 2013[/editline]
I want to maintain actually friendships, not just the occasional joint venture or sex based stuff with women. Dear god, I have enough trouble I'm daily life, how deeply where my parents in denial when they tried to just yell the crazy out of me? I can't exactly bring it up to a shrimk without looking like I was just some ass playing the terrible parents bullshit, whoa, why don't I believe a psych would ever believe me when I talk about myself. Because I was too dumb to get honesty just being what you sounded like as a kid so I got stuck with the blame for my brothers shit and unrelated accidents.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;41618837]Biked home in the middle of the night as my high was wearing off and it was very pretty, biking on dirt roads through fields and forests with no street lights and only the moon to light my way. Then a tiresomely long downhill path.[/QUOTE]
biking while high is fucking perfect
though I've fucked up my bike about 3 times doing it
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also here's some retarded shit I've done while high recently so you can laugh at me:
was riding my bicycle around yesterday while high and slightly drunk, all the gears got caught in the spokes of the wheel and I flew off and landed on my face, woke up with cuts and black marks on one side though it didn't hurt by then
and today me and a few people got kicked out of a pub's smoking area because we (somewhat rashly) decided to blaze it up there. done the walk of shame there twice now, although I'm less embarassed this time since the other time was when I mixed wine, beer, tequila and vodka then stumbled around until someone tapped me on the shoulder and said it was time for me to leave
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
i injure/embarass myself so many times people must think i'm an alcoholic retard but honestly i'm just a clumsy fucker with no common sense
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Man, I'm (mildly) autistic, like a dude that was diagnosed with aspergers when he was a kid (I heard stories, it took some serious work to get him close to normal in terms of behavior) pushed me in high school about my diagnosis. Then eventually, going to a shrimp to get t one.
I need help, I find day to day things to be amazing difficult. My brain despises switching tasks. Even when I'm hating doing something. I forget to eat because I actually need to manage my intake, food is fuel, regular hunger being a common thing would be great. I brush my teeth until they bleed. Because I can't switch to something else. I do projects and studying in a single sitting (putting stuff of actually helps me as a Colin mechanism, so that I can remember what I studied for the test, but I loathe every second of it.
I love heavily scheduled things.
They make me happy, but ai hate switching, and knowing when it's coming is horrible, but I'm so much happier and healthier if I do.c
Games. Homework. Going to a friends. Starting something, stopping something. Knowing when a chance is coming. I actually loved doing at least some of my homework...but I could only actually fully enjoy it in study hall. Socializing is something I can do, but just acting normal takes up so much ofy brain when I do that I get stupid. Like find it hard to read study anything in the same room as friends (strangers are fine, any socialization can be made brief, it can even be enjoyable because of this. I like people. I just can't take too much of them, which is often a lot less than them (except.if I pop on pop out, that's fine, but when to leave/leaving rarely leaves my mind, in part because I hate it too for the same reasons, but usually I'm glad to get away when I do, early or late.
Starting stopping. Doing is easy enough, can even be enjoyable, but I can't stand switching, it drive me up the wall
I can compensate just fine some of the time, but I can never balance out a sustainable life. The books I asked to be read to me as a kid were science ones. I randomly feel compelled to learn the shit out of a subject, but I hate pointless things, I hate waste, and for some reason from an early age I became absolutely convinced that arbitrary (unexplained) lists and dates were wasteful..which doesnt make much sense from an abstraction level.
[editline]27th July 2013[/editline]
God, I still have trouble telling the truth so it doesn't sound like lies, yet as a coping mechanism I can lie like a goddamn rug. I play roles. Each piece of each facade takes or took (but still kind of takes) careful planning and implementation. But I'm tired I'm sad, I I want people to not be angry with me understand me or at least just leave me alone. I'm only fully comftorable behind a locked door. Otherwise I'm still in a full role, even outside of it I have trouble figuring out what I actually want and what I do or do the way I do because I should do it. I used to lunch myself in the quads? For crying (alone) I just remembered being yelled at for crying at least once and it was therefore forbidden.
I think about my thoughts as I'm thinking them and I think about that and that and related things...how the hell am I supposed to speak while doing that about that. I have one mouth. I know I'm all me, I just can look at some of the parts kind of.......I'm feel as they I am consciously aware of things that I shouldn't be. I didn't smoke until I was eighteen, this l bullshit to s back as long as I can remember, like five, a goddamn suicidal five year old standing on a chair that just can't stand living, and I'm pretty sure the depression was just a symptom of the incurable. Weed only helps me take of the mask, it makes me feel wonderful when alone, but act like an idiot with people/outside (seriously, it takes me next to nothing to get very very very stupid...or unadept...its horrible with people, I can keep it together, I can't keep on the bike, I can't keep the moving castle together etc etc. I don't even like being sleepy/waking up/going to sleep around people. I hate having to run scripts while lying in bed or sleeping for gods sake.
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Sorry, it just started coming out, and part of me really wanted to be able to copy it for my shrink...thatll be a fight against myself.q
[editline]27th July 2013[/editline]
Of course. I'm not sure mentioning a forum would help my case. Why can't I stop thinking of it as a case or blahnlablahbobloblaw
Wow, I had a seizure in my dream. It was very vivid.
Anyways, just smoked. ~high~
[QUOTE=ScoobyV2;41620327]Wow, I had a seizure in my dream. It was very vivid.
Anyways, just smoked. ~high~[/QUOTE]
You probably shouldn't just casually brush a seizure off, go talk to your doctor or some shit
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[QUOTE=SuperNatural;41618070]Keep working at getting clean man I believe in you, it's a long and challenging battle, you're going to lose hope in it a lot but if you stick with it you'll start noticing the results and you'll see how much hope there is for yourself. When I became clean I wanted to become a substance abuse counsellor or something along those lines to help others but I discovered I'm not the man for the job. I still spread the message of safe and responsible drug use whenever I can and I think it's something a lot more people need to do but I fear those of us who haven't been addicts won't understand our message. I don't hear much music that tells people the negatives of drugs or warns them of the dangers normally it's music that promotes drug use so I applaud you for wanting to apply your message to your dream. I'm not sure if you will enjoy this song but it has a pretty great message about meth imo. [video=youtube;Vuv2mvfO_mg]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vuv2mvfO_mg[/video]
Also I went to detox 452 days ago and have been clean for 139 days. :smile:[/QUOTE]
Man its funny that you use that Hopsin song as an example, because Ive been listening to it a bit the last couple days haha. Thanks for the encouragement tho, buddy :smile:
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
[QUOTE=/B/rother;41617771]i've seen a lot of your posts describing your addiction, and i just want to say that i truly believe that you can kick it once and for all.
i'm looking forward to the day where you're posting about how you used to have a pill habbit and about how you've beaten it.[/QUOTE]
Thanks bro, that means a lot to me, it really does.
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;41614989]Man im so drunk i woke up the taxi driver yelling for money i dint have
I didnt even ready to say nothing[/QUOTE]
Man this shit is so annoying, he has my phone and wallet as collaterall
70mg of morphine up my butt
feels real good
hopsin made a new video? oh shit no one told me
i remember going to his channel and it hasnt been updated in months, thought he died
[editline]27th July 2013[/editline]
man, hopsin's a great rapper but it feels a bit wrong listening to him
its funny, the biggest slut and pot smoker i know posted the lyrics to ill mind 5 on her fb wall
[QUOTE]Saying "Fuck school" and dropping out like a miscarriage
I'm embarrassed
And I'm ashamed I played a part in this devilish game
Making your common sense perish
But I ain't taking the full blame
Cause most of you chumps running around here ain't never had strict parents
All of your brain cells rotting from weed
You feeling like if you ain't got it, life's not as complete
You having sex with every-motherfuckin'-body you see
With a past so dark that Satan'd jump out of his seat
But still you out in these streets thinking you hot as can be
Without the knowledge to lead so you just follow the sheep
Making sure your lame swag is all polished and clean
While your favorite rapper's like "Yeah, he got it from me"
You been brainwashed by a fake life that you're used to livin'
When I say the word "fun", what do you envision?
Probably drinking and smoking out with your crew
And chilling with clueless women you trying to bang, bumping New Edition
Is that all you think life really is
Well if so, then you're a fucking idiot
I honestly feel like grabbing your head and hitting it
Matter of fact, you don't even deserve a brain; GIMME IT!
Do you even have any goals
Aside from bagging these hoes and packing a bowl
Well let me guess- No
You're only in school because your parents make you go
When all you do is play beer pong and hang out with your bros
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and
[QUOTE]Girls, stop acting like you want a guy with traits like Romeo
Bitch that's a fucking lie
You always talk about how every man's fake
And you can't take it and you want something real
Shut up tramp, save it
Twice a week you put on your makeup and damn bracelets
And head to the club half-naked with your ass shaking
Pulling a lowlife nigga who claim he cash making
Til you let him hit and find out he work at the gas station
One of them niggas got you pregnant and you can't raise it
But you caused it, your actions made a fat statement
You want Romeo, then act patient
And stop fronting like he in the club posted in the back waitin'
It's the club, where guys put on a new persona
After they get loaded with a few coronas
They always shouting and wild out with habits that very few condone of
Then they look for beautiful brainless bitches like you to bone 'em
Then when they leave you, you cry and cry
Talking 'bout, "Oh my god I can't find a guy
I've spent so many years and I've tried and tried
Why am I even on Earth? I should die"
You want Romeo, you're not worthy
You're cock-thirsty
You're nasty and probably got herpes
Sometimes the secret to find is to stop searching
Try a new formula, cause your last one's not working[/QUOTE]
it was really ironic. All this girl does is skip school, smoke weed, and get a new boyfriend every two weeks.
Damn son, I feel good.
Invited a girl and a few friends to my home. We all smoked and I took cough syrup.
Then I played guitar for them, a bunch of songs I wrote, and oh my god they loved it, and my faith in my musical abilities is restored.
[QUOTE=cheetahben;41620535]You probably shouldn't just casually brush a seizure off, go talk to your doctor or some shit[/QUOTE]
I'm pretty sure they mean they dreamed they had a seizure :v:
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bongripswithmymom
Dropped the last of my DXM, smoked the last of my weed. Been listening to stellardrone in the dark.
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
Flying through space over here.
I got afghan Kush, took 3 big hits. Fuck, i feel perfect
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
nice mac, i wanna do dxm again but itd be too soon, i still have an afterglow from doing it last night tho
today I received my medical card, along with two grams of free buds thanks to my dispensary's poor boy special
heck yeah
What Are You Thinking over in Fast Threads used to be my chat thread haunt; that position is now taken by this thread I think.
Bump, chillin' at a buddies place listenin to some funkadelic shiznet.
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebjXsc0UjdQ[/media]
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[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUX4OMkSRpI[/media]
So psyched to get kinda high off the weed I have left!
[QUOTE=GhetoGeek;41622017]So psyched to get kinda high off the weed I have left![/QUOTE]
Resin hits bro, unless you dont smoke regularly.
I volcano vaped and took a train ride last week. I'd never vaped that much, and I gotta say the high was really wonderful.
also fuck butane. I need to get some hemp wick or something
about 600mg of extended release dxm, 1g meth, and several high gravity pints later, i am already wondering which chemicals will end up overpowering the others. i feel pretty drunk, but also pretty amped. idk how the dxm fits it but somewhere in there is some form of disassociation, i'm sure.
What is with everyone and meth these days, jeez
It's my birthday and I was feeling really lonely with my parents not being here, then my ex hits me up and we do a bunch of oxy together. I drop her off and my friend gives me a hit of acid for free and I go to this party. It's 6am and I just got home and still tripping.\
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
I think Im gonna smoke a blunt and eat a pound of bacon because I can
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
Oh my god pink floyd in 5.1
Marijuana.
Smoked some amount of green yesterday. Got the muchies so bad, my stomach hurts today, I feel like puking.
Oh also, we were watching Cheech and Chong's Next Movie for the first time. My friends got dejavu attacks, they were all like "DUDE WE HAVE SEEN THIS FILM BEFORE YOU SHIT, PUT ON THE ONE WE HAVEN'T SEEN". They then went on to "predict" what would happen in the film. Not one thing they said was correct haha. Somehow they thought they were watching "Nice Dreams".
Good evening.
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
Oh hey I'm gonna go out on a boat trip with some other friends today. Really looking forward to it as it's really hot outside now.
[editline]28th July 2013[/editline]
There came the puke. Feeling better now.
I could have swore I had seen the film for the first half of it atleast, it was odd.
19 pieces of bacon because I'm 19 today.
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