• The 'Get Stuff Off Your Chest' Thread V.2
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I just ate two pizzas. I feel fat.
Go running for half an hour and feel not fat.
[QUOTE=Chekko;28297757]I just ate two pizzas. I feel fat.[/QUOTE] Chekko yourself out after your run. [editline]26th February 2011[/editline] Also, San Andreas finally finished downloading. Hurrah!
[QUOTE=Pascall;28297434]You and I need to go visit the new cooking subforum more often.[/QUOTE] Oh wow, you're right, lots of ideas in there.
Maybe we should all pick up cooking. At least every once in a while it'd be nice. Besides, since my mom died, I don't eat baked goods almost at all. Be great to eat some cookies fresh out of the oven again... [QUOTE=Wish I wasn't an 09er;28292716]Probably my last post in this thread. It's just nice to see my thoughts explained, even if it's just for my benefit. It's funny how being so rejected and so thrown out by the one person I ever really acted myself around has made me see just how much of a puppet I've been, really. My best friends - my closest friends - all think I'm something I'm not. Oh, lord knows they care for me, but they don't know me. And really, the only person who ever really did had to get rid of me. So I feel pretty shitty for having made dozens of relationships with these friends based on just trying to make them happy, not myself. I guess I've never really met someone I've connected with - someone I'm comfortable enough to just meet and act like myself with. Instead, no, I become this... Mirror. Like the only way I'll ever get approval from them is by pretending we're identical when really-... -really, I don't really give a shit. I love my friends, and it appears they love me back, but if I just dropped this guise of trying to please them, I'd probably get disregarded, or they'd think I was acting that way because something's wrong. The problem is the girl I fell for told me to cut these relationships. And for the most part, I did. I got rid of a lot of people from my life, and I'm not even sure that's fair. I got rid of them because I could never be myself around them, and yet I keep these friends I still don't act like myself around purely because they have the balls to occasionally ask me "Dude, you okay?" I'm not depressed right now, I'm not even really thinking about anything. I'm just kind of sitting here wondering how I got this far not being me. How I managed to reach this point and still not know who the fuck I am. I know I sound like your generic teenager right now, but it is just so utterly shocking to me that there's only ever been one person who I said "Y'see, you get me" to. And she's gone. I might sound like I'm just pissy at a break up, but really it just goes to show I could only keep a friendship running by bending over backwards and pretending I'm some guy I'm not. And that really, really worries me. Am I going to keep doing it? Am I going to become some jaded, pissy individual because of it? Would that be me? So I think, honest to God, this is the first time in my life I've had the confront the question "Who the fuck am I?" I feel shallow. [b]Edit:[/b] Wall of text because I'm a miserable cunt.[/QUOTE] You're not shallow, first off. If you feel like you are, then you need to get that straightened out first. Second, I'm sure that you won't lose all of your friends if you start acting like yourself, unless you're some sort of masochistic emotional storm all the time. I know that probably doesn't help, because just because I've said something nice or even sensible, doesn't mean it will quell the negative emotions you have about yourself. Perhaps you need a new hobby. Maybe you'll find out who you really are by baking. That's only halfway sarcastic, since a new hobby would do you well. Don't take yourself as seriously.
I used to cook quite alot for my family but I haven't done it in weeks now, I think I will at some point though. I'm a awful at cooking and I don't really like it that much but it's really interesting and it's awesome to know you have made the food.
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;28298644]I used to cook quite alot for my family but I haven't done it in weeks now, I think I will at some point though. I'm a awful at cooking and I don't really like it that much but it's really interesting and it's awesome to know you have made the food.[/QUOTE] You can't be that bad, with the practice you've been getting.
I'll just take this moment to say that I've never cooked anything in my life.
[QUOTE=MegaJohnny;28298867]You can't be that bad, with the practice you've been getting.[/QUOTE] Well first of all I've mainly just made ordinary stuff like spaghetti, meatballs, pancakes, potatosoup etc, and I'm just not a natural cook :v:
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;28298514]You're not shallow, first off. If you feel like you are, then you need to get that straightened out first. Second, I'm sure that you won't lose all of your friends if you start acting like yourself, unless you're some sort of masochistic emotional storm all the time. I know that probably doesn't help, because just because I've said something nice or even sensible, doesn't mean it will quell the negative emotions you have about yourself. Perhaps you need a new hobby. Maybe you'll find out who you really are by baking. That's only halfway sarcastic, since a new hobby would do you well. Don't take yourself as seriously.[/QUOTE] Cheers for the advice, man. Straight after that post, however, I just reread it, stood up, and slapped myself across the face. I stopped to realize all I need to really do is stop casing the issues and actively think about what move I want to make from then on. No use crying over spilled milk. I mean I claim temporary insanity on some of the bullshit I pulled in and after that relationship. All the same, I have a life after that, and I need to pull myself up and work all that out. But yes, I will find out who I really am via cooking pastries. Then I will become the greatest chef in all the lands. :buddy:
Today I decided I won't watch Big Bang Theory anymore. After watching 3 episodes in a row I found they are trying too hard now to be funny. It's all a big gimmick now.
I fucking hate the blockland forums. They're arrogant assholes who scare off any new person. And they fucking wonder why there are only under 30,000 registered players.
I'm not in the right place at all. Whenever I imagined my college years, I imagined them being someplace fun with people I might learn to trust. I never imagined hanging out in some small town in Missouri with a bunch of homophobes. Shit, I'm not even learning what i came here to learn. My programming teacher is awful. What's the point of staying here if nothing good is happening? I think I should just transfer. Even if it does mean leaving my high school friends behind potentially forever. I probably sound like a spoiled brat, but hey. There's only one life to live. Why waste it somewhere I hate?
Ah man I tried baking some simple cookies, I failed so hard, now I've tried to improvise it into a breadlimp and Ima put it in the oven soon and see what makes out of it. God damnit!
I've been dying of boredom all weekend.
The weekend isn't over yet.
[QUOTE=Makol;28301677]The weekend isn't over yet.[/QUOTE] Wait what day is it? OH, it's Saturday. I thought it was Sunday. :v: Either way, I've been dying of boredom since Friday.
~snipppp~
ah maan, look at these, god damnit, atleast they taste somewhat good :v: [img_thumb]http://img689.imageshack.us/img689/2870/dsc00883gx.jpg[/img_thumb]
They don't look half bad to me. Like brownies without the brown.
[QUOTE=MegaJohnny;28302618]They don't look half bad to me. Like brownies without the brown.[/QUOTE] Blondies. [QUOTE=Wish I wasn't an 09er;28299505] But yes, I will find out who I really am via cooking pastries. Then I will become the greatest chef in all the lands. :buddy:[/QUOTE] [i]"They taste so delicious because I baked my soul into this batch!"[/i]
Got laid last night.. I feel like less of a loser. We both came from it too. :v:
I've never actually played a Pokemon game nor have I ever watched an episode.
Ugh... Today started off much better than I expected. Ran errands with my dad, got my TV replaced and I bought myself some new speakers. But now it's starting to suck, hopefully it will get better tonight...
It seems like my work ethic has improved since the last semester. I'd like to be able to credit myself for it but I feel like I cheated because I didn't start working harder deliberately, I just haven't bothered playing games much recently, so I often do work just because I have nothing else to do.
I am content.
Today sucked. It was boring. I hate not having my PC, I play Minecraft all of the fucking time, and this shitty laptop can't run it. and I'm falling for a girl, again, god damnit.
I hung out with my best friend all day today, we haven't hung out in forever. It was fun.
There was this one time this popular girl was making fun of me in class. She did the old pull chair from under you joke, causing me to reach for something to grab onto. This caused me to grab her boob while falling. I sure showed her.
[QUOTE=lolracoon;28312406]There was this one time this popular girl was making fun of me in class. She did the old pull chair from under you joke, causing me to reach for something to grab onto. This caused me to grab her boob while falling. I sure showed her.[/QUOTE] Classic :v:
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