• The 'Get Stuff Off Your Chest' Thread V.2
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Been feeling unimportant/worthless/low priority for the past week and I don't know why. Trying to find things to make me feel better but they've only been temporary (6 hours at the most, discounting sleeping).
Put blind faith into myself. Hopefully it works out for the best.
I'm so sick of being let down by everyone. Girlfriends, parents, friends always seem to find new ways to disappoint me. My mom hates me, nothing has changed between us since my last post near the beginning of this thread. She still won't talk to me or see me. She just wants nothing to do with me. My dad only talks to me if he wants me to do something for him. I do so much to help him out, but he still acts like I'm lazy. I take care of my 92 year old grandma, my dog, my house. Whenever something is broken I'm the one dealing with repair men, when my dad needs to chase down a client for money I'm the one calling, when my dad got an accident I was the one who dealt with the paper work, when animals knock over our garbage cans overnight and make a mess all over the driveway I'm the one cleaning it up, if my dad breaks something I have to fix and pay for it. I don't mind helping him out, that's not the problem. He just never appreciates what I do. He's always calling me lazy and selfish and he insults me and calls me stupid if I don't understand his often vague directions. Today I found out two of my friends are upset with me for going over to another friend's house yesterday. Apparently they made plans involving me but no one told me this, even when I was making plans with my other friend right in front of them. Even though I apologized and told them it was a mistake they were still upset, saying that there's "no way to know for sure" if I meant what I said. I feel disrespected, undervalued and used up. Saturday morning I woke up crying hysterically. I kept sobbing and the tears kept coming for another ten minutes before I could finally calm down and go back to sleep. The only other time this has ever happened to me before was the night my (now ex) girlfriend was spent the night with me last summer a couple days after my mom ran out. I don't know what's going on anymore. I'm starting to get ready to head off to college next year and I'm not even excited. I'm just fed up with everything. I have also started to really hate women. Every woman that's been in my life has hurt me once given the chance.
[QUOTE=Dank Dave;29750186] Every woman that's been in my life has hurt me once given the chance.[/QUOTE] Intentionally?
Some of the best friends I've had were from Runescape.
The Best friends I've had are from Facepunch.
I'm not really an asshole, it's just a facade.
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;29751045]Intentionally?[/QUOTE] Some yes, others no.
My life isn't exactly good and it's getting on my nerves.
[QUOTE=Dank Dave;29761443]Some yes, others no.[/QUOTE] Then I don't see how you can blame them all if some weren't on purpose. Keep trying buddy.
[QUOTE=Xenoyia v2;29652449]I look back at how I used to act on the internet and it makes me feel depressed how much of an idiot I was. I made some enemies for no reason, who could've been good friends if I wasn't such a fucktard.[/QUOTE] Same here. I was passing quite some time on server in french, my primary language. Then when english people came we bashed most of them. Then one came and didn't want to go out. Then we talked some logic between me and him and how we were kind of jerks. He seemed awesome and I was the only one not talking shit to him for a big chunk of time. I said "Touché" Or something of the sort then he aidsomething like "Well, now that I wasn't talked to like an idiot, I'll go.". I would really like to find this guy and to be friend with him, but it's been so long ago and he might think him a douche. Sometime I wish I could be cool to persons I've been mean to on the internet :smithicide:
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;29765585]Then I don't see how you can blame them all if some weren't on purpose. Keep trying buddy.[/QUOTE] I understand what you're saying but it's not something I do consciously. I've just noticed myself being a lot colder towards woman now. Whether it's my mother, girlfriends or friends women always seem to be causing me problems. I used to have a lot of close friends who were women and now I'm only close with one (maybe two, but that's stretching it). I don't trust them anymore. It's stupid but I can't help it.
Wow I've fucked up. If I could go back to Friday and undo that whole event I would make it proper, but I can't. What a fucking mess I've made for myself. There's definitely no way I can live that off until I fix it and soon. To sound cliche - fuck my life.
[QUOTE=Dank Dave;29767503]I understand what you're saying but it's not something I do consciously. I've just noticed myself being a lot colder towards woman now. Whether it's my mother, girlfriends or friends women always seem to be causing me problems. I used to have a lot of close friends who were women and now I'm only close with one (maybe two, but that's stretching it). I don't trust them anymore. It's stupid but I can't help it.[/QUOTE] Ah, well in that case I suppose there's not a lot you can do besides trying to catch yourself whenever you're being particularly distant to ladies. [QUOTE=HellSoldier;29767537]Wow I've fucked up. If I could go back to Friday and undo that whole event I would make it proper, but I can't. What a fucking mess I've made for myself. There's definitely no way I can live that off until I fix it and soon. To sound cliche - fuck my life.[/QUOTE] Could you elaborate? Perhaps tell us what has ruined your life? It's cruel to just leave us wondering.
[QUOTE=Sgt. Lulz;29761781]My life isn't exactly good and it's getting on my nerves.[/QUOTE] You're probably better off then most people though
I'm mad. And for a good reason too. What a cunt.
I've been feeling really good recently. Wonder how long I'll last before I crash again.
If things keep going like they are now I'm going to explode. Hope they don't! [editline]16th May 2011[/editline] Also, I think my lumbar region is damaged. I've been having random spells of pain and today is the worst it's ever been.
Since I found out my girlfriend cheated on me with two girls and my best friend my life has been boring, repetitive, depressing and shit. Again it's pretty cliché and i'm sure i'll feel happier in a week or two, but it's really pissing me off because my friends are acting pretty distant towards me when I need them most too :saddowns:
Today's been pretty stressful for me. I don't know if I'll snap but fuck man, I hate this day right now [editline]17th May 2011[/editline] Looks like FP's going to be my only source of consolation for the night :unsmith:
[QUOTE=Psychopath12;29805997]I've been feeling really good recently. Wonder how long I'll last before I crash again.[/QUOTE] Hm, 4 days. Well, I hope something cheers me up soon, I can be a bit of an ass when I'm feeling down.
I have no motivation. I can't go to sleep at night to save my life, I usually end up sleeping when I get home from school. It's 5:30 right now and I have to be up in an hour, probably just gonna stay home again since I am failing this year and there is no point to going with less than 2 weeks of school left.
I'm lonely as fuck, and the pain of always feeling unwanted, uninvited, and unattractive is eating me alive. I have like 1 friend I sometimes visit, he's basically the only friend who I can visit in my spare time, and even then I often feel we're still not that close. I'm the one who needs him, never the other way around. He doesn't like going out much, so we're often just stuck at his home separately playing videogames (rarely with eachother) and talking. This along with having lunch and going to the store, is the most social we usually ever get. I've spent 3 years with my classmates, and I have never spent time with any of them outside of school, I'm always the guy sitting alone in the class or lunch room, and I'm never invited to anything they do. Everyone else in my class sees eachother out of school, invite eachother to parties, or generally just do things together. I was invited only once to a class party, and that party was canceled. They always team up on me in class if they disagree with me, and they rarely if ever ask for my opinion on anything. I have only been to 2 parties in my entire life, the first one when I was 16, and the other one when I was 18. Although I'm legally able to drink and buy alcohol I never know where I would go if I wanted to do anything since I am always alone, and I'm afraid that if I'd end up drinking alone it could easily become a dangerous habit. I have not had any female friends since I was 11, the only female I've ever hanged out with moved away. Similarly, my best friend moved away when I was 12. I became new friends with a guy after that, and we were separated when we started high school. High school was better, I got some friends at least although I was still never invited to any parties or anything, then of course 3 years later I lost all those friends again. 2 years later I became REALLY good friends with a guy again and I finally had hope of knowing a social and fun guy that could make my life less miserable, and about 3 months later he moves away again. I've always felt awfully unattractive. Some people have told me I'm above average, but none the less I have spent my life feeling like Frankenstein's Monster. People don't hang out with me, they move away from me, they don't invite me to anything, they don't ask me how I feel, they don't bloody talk to me. I'm haunted by this terrible loneliness and the feeling of being something grotesque that nobody wants to be around. If this wasn't quite enough, I've got adhd as well. I easily slack behind in subjects, not because of laziness, but because of slow comprehension. I've failed several subjects, and I'm just barely managing to graduate with all the things I have to work up. I really don't like my life, often I wish I had just been born as someone else more normal. In art class I am working on a mask. I am hoping that when this mask is finished, at times I will then be able to put it so I won't have to see my own miserable face in the mirror anymore, and that I can pretend that I'm someone else. [editline]18th May 2011[/editline] I've thoughts about suicide several times, but I've come to the conclusion that I'm too cowardly and that it would be too harsh on my relatives. I've always wanted to try weed as a way to relax and feel good, forget about all the stress, unhappiness, and loneliness... but I don't have any friends at all who has done weed, I have never been offered it by anyone, never seen someone under the effects by it, and generally have no bloody idea where it could be obtained... so I'm out of luck there too.
I made a thread about my ADHD yesterday, prety impulsive move I have to say. I feel really bad because of it, not only I lost in FPers eyes, but it shows how impulsive I can be sometimes. I'm really sorry guys.
All hope is lost in telling my parents i'm bisexual, My brother was kicked out of the house because he told them he was gay. They disowned him. And I hate lying to my parents about a girl that is actually a guy. Anyone have any advice so I can tell my parents without them over reacting?
[QUOTE=leetcaek;29908194]Whats The best way to tell your parents your bisexual.[/QUOTE] You are 14 years old man, you should wait a "bit" more before stating you are bisexual. Maturation isn't finished in this age, lots of things can change.
[QUOTE=Raptor_S;29908259]You are 14 years old man, you should wait a "bit" more before stating you are bisexual. Maturation isn't finished in this age, lots of things can change.[/QUOTE] I know i'm 14, Almost 15. I just feel I should tell someone that I've been bisexual sence I was 12.
[QUOTE=leetcaek;29908297]I know i'm 14, Almost 15. I just feel I should tell someone that I've been bisexual sence I was 12.[/QUOTE] So your parents are homophobic, right? Well, that's not good.
[QUOTE=Raptor_S;29908321]So your parents are homophobic, right? Well, that's not good.[/QUOTE] No, its not good. I'm just afraid if I tell them, they'll kick me out of the house like my older brother.
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