Wow is it raining hard here. Too hot to go outside during the day, but as soon as it cools down at night, either bugs come out or RAIN UP THE ARSE.
I feel like a third wheel with my family. They are all English, including my parents, but I was born in America, so I'm the yank, which my extended family constantly reminds me of.
I blew my first chance with the woman I loved.
It scares me that 85% of my memory is filled with things that never happened thanks to a childhood of video games.
I love to draw, but I can only draw one thing, and I'm beginning to forget how to draw that.
When ever I try to write down a story that I've had in my head for weeks I immediately forget it and can only remember that it was 'good'.
Get shit off my chest? Time for fun.
I have this friend of mine, thought he was awesome. We used to hang out together at school because no one else had no idea what on earth we were talking about. Games, Computers etc. And come today, he is being a right cunt to me just because I posted on here that I'm fat a few times just to get my point across and now he is constantly bitching and shouting at me just because of that. Some fucking friend he turned out to be...
Over the past few months I've never left home after getting back from school right after it ends. I have not one friend, everyone hates me after they found out I'm gay and I sit 9hrs on PC a day, 12 on weekends with no enthusiasm to socialize after all the random bullying :smithicide:
I need to poop right now but the internet is so interesting.
[quote=McMurphy]Over the past few months I've never left home after getting back from school right after it ends. I have not one friend, everyone hates me after they found out I'm gay and I sit 9hrs on PC a day, 12 on weekends with no enthusiasm to socialize after all the random bullying:smithicide:[/quote]
I'm sorry to hear that. I hope life turns around for you. Believe me, I've been in a situation not unlike yours for most of my life. I'm sure those people wouldn't make good friends anyway if they hate you for being gay and spending time on the Internet.
Had a minor surgery to remove a mole to get checked for cancer. My best friend is moving back to Minnesota. tomorrow. A co-worker of mine just watched a guy die on Tuesday. Another coworker had to quit because his sister was in car wreck and he has to stay home to basically to help her relearn how to walk. My ex girlfriend wants me to keep her updated as to when I get my cancer test results back. I work every day from 10 to 6:30 except Thursday and Sunday. Every time I try to talk to someone about relationships and girls they all say the same things that have been spoon fed to them though romantic movies. I find myself getting more and more pissed off at terrible drives, just hoping that someone cuts me off so I can flip them the bird and honk my horn. A lot of shit is going on. I don't know when I will find out if I have cancer.
[QUOTE=Sherpa_Rage;30672320]Had a minor surgery to remove a mole to get checked for cancer. My best friend is moving back to Minnesota. tomorrow. A co-worker of mine just watched a guy die on Tuesday. Another coworker had to quit because his sister was in car wreck and he has to stay home to basically to help her relearn how to walk. My ex girlfriend wants me to keep her updated as to when I get my cancer test results back. I work every day from 10 to 6:30 except Thursday and Sunday. Every time I try to talk to someone about relationships and girls they all say the same things that have been spoon fed to them though romantic movies. I find myself getting more and more pissed off at terrible drives, just hoping that someone cuts me off so I can flip them the bird and honk my horn. A lot of shit is going on. I don't know when I will find out if I have cancer.[/QUOTE]
While it's not really something that you can control, try to be a little less angry at everything.
The romantic crap people are fed from movies is stupid and if you talk through it with people, they generally understand that. That or they aren't worth talking about that topic with.
[QUOTE=McMurphy;30655979]Over the past few months I've never left home after getting back from school right after it ends. I have not one friend, everyone hates me after they found out I'm gay and I sit 9hrs on PC a day, 12 on weekends with no enthusiasm to socialize after all the random bullying :smithicide:[/QUOTE]
I'd feel more sympathy if you didn't spend nine hours on the internet consistently on weekdays and twelve on weekends...
The internet is great. Don't let it completely replace the real world though. If you did things other than the internet, your self confidence would probably improve by leaps and bounds and people wouldn't have so much of a basis for making fun of you.
If people hate you for finding out that you're gay, they're stupid. Incredibly stupid insensitive human beings. They can hate that you're gay all they want, but hating you as a person doesn't even have some pseudo-moral basis. That's just retarded.
While it sucks that you have no friends, I'm sure that [i]everyone[/i] does not hate you. You just don't spend any time doing anything that makes you interesting to people, and you don't spend any time doing things that would facilitate meeting new people. You will find that it's much harder to find fulfilling friends on the internet the replace the ones in real life than it is to just get some friends in real life.
to this day i still regret the day i popped 60mg of adderall
I can't tell whether people are serious or not when they say things. For example, I can't detect sarcasm too well. The short version is: I'm a twat.
Get stuff off my chest?
Alright then.
KA,
I love you, I know that all I will ever be to you is a close friend, and it sucks having to watch you go through shitty relationship after relationship, with person after person, and seeing them go down the drain, sometimes in a month or two, sometimes in 12 fucking hours.
However, I feel that even though you rejected me, good came out of it.
1. I learned how to deal with rejection, hooray me.
2. I learned how to move on.
3. I learned Im bad at #2
And now,
KK,
Go die in a fire you abusing fuckwit.
Hm, I thought KK's would be longer.
Oh well.
What exactly does KA and KK mean?
[QUOTE=McMurphy;30655979]Over the past few months I've never left home after getting back from school right after it ends. I have not one friend, everyone hates me after they found out I'm gay and I sit 9hrs on PC a day, 12 on weekends with no enthusiasm to socialize after all the random bullying :smithicide:[/QUOTE]
Don't worry, everything gets better when you get older and you're out in the real world. It may seem like everybody in the world is against you, and that people in general are just shit, but trust me, the world is filled with great folks, you just have to find them.
Best of luck. Remember, when you're going through hell, keep going.
[QUOTE=Samiam22;30695097]What exactly does KA and KK mean?[/QUOTE]
i hope KK doesn't mean what i think it does
i never laid hands on a girl (well i mean not with violent force)
I once heard my sister have sex with her boyfriend
I heard moaning (it sounded like a fake orgasm) and slapping sounds
I'm worried that they made a porn
[QUOTE=KingKombat;30696369]i hope KK doesn't mean what i think it does
i never laid hands on a girl (well i mean not with violent force)[/QUOTE]
Nah, two people I know in real life, first name letter, last name letter.
Funny part is KK also has a crush on KA, and thinks being a complete ass will help him.
One smooth man he is.
I have a whole bunch of furry porn hidden in the depthy dungeons of my laptop's hard drive.
Saturday night, almost 1 in the morning, all by my self, finished my bottle of whisky and my birthday is tomorrow. Happy birthday to me. :toot:
[QUOTE=confinedUser;30680416]to this day i still regret the day i popped 60mg of adderall[/QUOTE]
Why? To my knowledge it's not addictive or extremely harmful.
[QUOTE=Lufttygger306;30696683]
I heard moaning (it sounded like a fake orgasm) and slapping sounds
I'm worried that they made a porn[/QUOTE]
They probably didn't.
Feel better now?
[QUOTE=Camp er Joe;30700288]Saturday night, almost 1 in the morning, all by my self, finished my bottle of whisky and my birthday is tomorrow. Happy birthday to me. :toot:[/QUOTE]
You should attempt to spend your birthday with someone, or multiple someones if at all possible.
My best friend is nine weeks pregnant and she's only 17. I took her to Planned Parenthood multiple times and helped put together money so she could afford an abortion just for her to tell her mom she's pregnant literally days before her appointment. Now it looks like she's going to be keeping the baby and I just feel sick to my stomach.
I've had a whole bunch of shit going on for the last few months and I've been really upset but somehow the only person who seems to notice/care is my english teacher. None of my friends have asked me if anything's wrong or if I'm okay, neither has my dad. My teacher actually waited until a few days after I graduated from high school before calling my dad to ask if I'm okay. That only made him freak out for a couple of hours before pretending like the call never happened. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not happy and I haven't been since December.
[editline]26th June 2011[/editline]
Really though, what's wrong with me? I'm always there for my friends whenever they need me and if I'm ever worried about them I always make sure to ask but no one seems to notice when I'm not alright. If I try and talk to people about it they're just not interested and start talking about their problems instead. For years I've helped my friends through all sorts of shit but no one wants to help me.
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;30715536]They probably didn't.
Feel better now?[/QUOTE]
No
I'm still pretty convinced they made one
Im a bi sexual. There! I said it!
-snip-
thanks for the support for those who read though!
Reimu, you go girl.
Thanks Flameliker!
(but i'm a guy :( )
I just want to remove my past memories ala Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind :p
I was a really cynical asshole a couple months ago. I've gotten most of it out, but bits and pieces show up every now and again.
I'm in love with my best friend. Since i almost had cancer i want to get it out but don't know how.
Of course my post is ignored.
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