• The 'Get Stuff Off Your Chest' Thread V.2
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I expect too much from my life. Like I look at a TV show or something and think, "Wow, I wish something exciting like that would happen," or, "I wish I hung out with people like that." I dunno, maybe I'm hoping for some drama in my life that will never happen. Or maybe I wish my life was more exciting. I have no clue, it just feels like something is missing.
[QUOTE=BlueFlash;30838750]I have a few things. I hate my dad and my oldest brother. Not just like the normal "teenage rage" hate. I honestly get a headache whenever my dad talks to me, he yells at me for completely pointless stuff like him misplacing something, the cat being in his way (how that's my problem I'll never know), and I've gotten to the point where I've walked out of the house for several hours until he cools off. And my oldest brother's pretty similar, except he feels the need to pick fights with me. I always win, but it makes me sick that he thinks he can get away with all the stuff he does, or rather doesn't do, like never helping out around the house, despite being out of college and having no job. He's picked fights with my brother who's a year older than me too, and lost those as well. Also, I'm gonna be a senior in high school next year, and I like a girl that's gonna be a freshman next year. She's 14 and I'm 17. I'm almost positive she likes me back, but it just seems weird. A lot of seniors date freshmen, but the age difference just makes me feel uneasy. Is it normal in other schools?[/QUOTE] Where I'm from seniors who date freshmen are looked down upon. It's creepy, don't do it.
[QUOTE=AmericanInfantry;30859736]I liked this girl I met at a camp. Like, a big-ass crush on this girl. Now it's a week later, I'm back home and I didn't make a move on her. Now I miss her. And she lives two hours away. :([/QUOTE] That's four hours round trip. You'll be better off forgetting her. You don't even know if she likes you. Do you intend to go on dates that take a minor road trip just to arrive? [editline]3rd July 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=UntouchedShadow;30864271]I expect too much from my life. Like I look at a TV show or something and think, "Wow, I wish something exciting like that would happen," or, "I wish I hung out with people like that." I dunno, maybe I'm hoping for some drama in my life that will never happen. Or maybe I wish my life was more exciting. I have no clue, it just feels like something is missing.[/QUOTE] You're the only one that can make that happen for sure. You can always start hanging out with random people. Just do some balls-out activities and it'll probably come a little more naturally. If you're bored and you feel like you need to do something fun, go gather a whole bunch of cardboard boxes from a recycling dumpster (behind most restaurants) and build a fort out of them in some public place. You can shout at passerbys that you are their new master and that they should get to work like any good serf. You'll certainly attract attention.
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;30874514]That's four hours round trip. You'll be better off forgetting her. You don't even know if she likes you. Do you intend to go on dates that take a minor road trip just to arrive?[/QUOTE] So you're saying a long-distance relationship with this girl isn't possible at all? :(
I have a real problem with knowing what people think about me. My friends are all generally friendly to me, and I'm probably over-analysing massively, but it's small things I always notice - people seem to be much more proactive in talking to eachother than they are to me. I guess this makes me an attention whore for worrying about that, but what is it? Do I not give out enough attention and seem boring? Do I give out too much attention to single people and alienate them? I've probably made it easy enough so far in this thread to see that I don't have a very social character. I'm trying to be someone people like to spend time with, but I just feel like that's not the case yet. Maybe I'm wrong.
I have to go pee but its too dark!!!
I just fapped to furry porn :tinfoil:
[QUOTE=MegaJohnny;30902048]I have a real problem with knowing what people think about me. My friends are all generally friendly to me, and I'm probably over-analysing massively, but it's small things I always notice - people seem to be much more proactive in talking to eachother than they are to me. I guess this makes me an attention whore for worrying about that, but what is it? Do I not give out enough attention and seem boring? Do I give out too much attention to single people and alienate them? I've probably made it easy enough so far in this thread to see that I don't have a very social character. I'm trying to be someone people like to spend time with, but I just feel like that's not the case yet. Maybe I'm wrong.[/QUOTE] I can be a lot like this, so I can help! First, it's important to remember that some people may be very actively talking to others because they already have a former relationship with them. That relationship might not appear apparent, because they seem to not talk that often, but it might actually exist and you just aren't aware of it. Good examples are two people who have known each other since elementary school or middle school, two friends who use to date, etc. Also, the perception that others seem more open talking with others than yourself isn't necessarily true. Although some people may seem to avoid conversation, that usually isn't the case. If you observe the mannerisms others talk to you with, and compare them to the mannerisms others exhibit with others (that are at an equal relationship stance as you), those mannerisms are often very similar. You may just look negatively on your own conversations. Are you a little self-conscious about yourself in public? Many people are also self-conscious about themselves in public, or may be shy towards people they don't know so well. If you're still in school, make sure to communicate in class a lot with both kids and the teacher. It's a good way of breaking the ice as long as you don't come off as a geek. As someone who's been in the same position in the past, being a social character is good. It opens the door to a lot of friends and opportunities that you wouldn't have otherwise. But, it can be tiring and really stretches you out if you try to befriend a lot of people. Instead of having strong relationships with a few, you might have very weak relationships with many. When I went to Prom this past Spring, it was both rewarding and a little awkward to see many people from various groups come up to me to shake hands, while most of my closer friends kept to themselves. Being social is good, but if you have a group of friends who like to pal around with you, you're set :D.
I've come to the realization that if I don't end up joining the army, and get a normal job my life is going to revolve around drug use in my spare time on weekends, not to the point where it interferes with my life. I'm getting sick of being around other people, and now I prefer to be alone and avoid doing stuff with everyone except one or two friends. I've become pessimistic and I've realized that I'm wasting my life because I'm so lazy. I'm not really close with my family, and I couldn't give two shits about my sister who at the beginning of this year went to a different state to work or something with a friend for a year. She calls and says she misses us and I just don't give a fuck that she left, I couldn't care less, it hasn't affected my life. So when she calls, she just talks to my parents and I haven't talked to her in over 3 months. I turn 18 next month and despite encouragement from my parents to have an 18th with all my friends, instead I'm just going to get really high and drunk in a room by myself. Once I get my own place I think I'll stop socializing all together, I just don't see the point anymore. I'm not a nerd, I have plenty of friends and relationship opportunities I just don't give a fuck anymore. I'd rather be alone. [editline]5th July 2011[/editline] I think for the first time in my life I just want to be left alone, I just want to be by myself.
I really really dislike my friend's mom. I can tell you guys plenty of stories as to why I don't like her.
[QUOTE=Snake Devil;30909840]I really really dislike my friend's mom. I can tell you guys plenty of stories as to why I don't like her.[/QUOTE] Please do.
[QUOTE=Oicani Gonzales;30788973]parents divorcing asking where i want to live this sucks[/QUOTE] Go to Connecticut
I fucking hate it when gold members strut around like they own the damn place.
[QUOTE=Samiam22;30910163]Please do.[/QUOTE] Well for one, she's just a bitch. My friend is bisexual and I'm one of the very few people who know. Her mom knows and really does not like her for it. I absolutely can't stand homophobic people. And she does a bunch of stupid stuff.
[QUOTE=fenom_;30902235]I have to go pee but its too dark!!![/QUOTE] I hate it when you're lying in bed, half asleep, and you sorta have to pee, but don't know if its worth getting up.
I am a drug fucked loser who wants nothing more than to be alone and left with drugs to keep me company in my spare time [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] even as I read this I am drinking. what have I become
Why doesn't anyone notice when I'm not okay?
because it's merely a superficial appearance and you don't tell anyone how you actually feel I do the same thing
[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;30909687]I've come to the realization that if I don't end up joining the army, and get a normal job my life is going to revolve around drug use in my spare time on weekends, not to the point where it interferes with my life. I'm getting sick of being around other people, and now I prefer to be alone and avoid doing stuff with everyone except one or two friends. I've become pessimistic and I've realized that I'm wasting my life because I'm so lazy. I'm not really close with my family, and I couldn't give two shits about my sister who at the beginning of this year went to a different state to work or something with a friend for a year. She calls and says she misses us and I just don't give a fuck that she left, I couldn't care less, it hasn't affected my life. So when she calls, she just talks to my parents and I haven't talked to her in over 3 months. I turn 18 next month and despite encouragement from my parents to have an 18th with all my friends, instead I'm just going to get really high and drunk in a room by myself. Once I get my own place I think I'll stop socializing all together, I just don't see the point anymore. I'm not a nerd, I have plenty of friends and relationship opportunities I just don't give a fuck anymore. I'd rather be alone. I think for the first time in my life I just want to be left alone, I just want to be by myself.[/QUOTE] You sound like a really unpleasant person. I'd tell you to at least include someone else in you're celebrations on your birthday, but you said that you don't care, so I guess that's that. Hope you have fun with everyone giving up on you because you're not an engaging human being. Perhaps this isn't the cause so much as a symptom, but maybe if you used your freetime for something besides getting fucked up every now and then, you might have a little more motivation to do things again. [QUOTE=Dank Dave;30933524]Why doesn't anyone notice when I'm not okay?[/QUOTE] Tell people that you're not okay. Don't expect them to go out on a limb and say "Are you feeling okay man". That risks you saying "Nope, I'm fine" and them looking like a creep. People don't take those kinds of risks even though they don't actually lose anything. [QUOTE=AmericanInfantry;30875045]So you're saying a long-distance relationship with this girl isn't possible at all? :([/QUOTE] I'm saying that, for all intents and purposes, you should take that stance, yes. [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] I feel a little bit pretentious giving people advice that they didn't ask for. Like I'm truly qualified? Ha.
I am an unpleasant person that's how I roll It's why I prefer to be alone. I'd prefer to not be understood, and to present a different social facade in the way I show myself in social situations. Here however, I am invincible, I am a name in a group of thousands. [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] That's how I like to spend my time, I have no animosity to that response because it's good to hear someone's true opinion for once. Thanks for replying though, I bet that's how everyone I know feels and it's great to actually hear that in reality. [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] Just on top of that thanks, fuck you. I do have motivation to do things. Don't generalize in areas you don't understand. I bet people will give up on me, and I'm fine with that. You don't understand the actual self contemplation I do in my times of being 'fucked up'. It's all I do. So yeah, thanks for your reply though it was very thought provoking. I'm an asshole but it's always nice to get responses from people. Thanks man, and I don't have any sarcasm in this post.
[quote=En-Gauge V2]Just on top of that thanks, fuck you. I do have motivation to do things. Don't generalize in areas you don't understand. I bet people will give up on me, and I'm fine with that. You don't understand the actual self contemplation I do in my times of being 'fucked up'. It's all I do.[/quote] He probably just said that because you didn't give a reason why you stopped caring. Not like you really need one. I understand where you're coming from. I actually think a lot like you. Except I have failed miserably in disconnecting myself from everyone and I've had several visits to the therapist for mental instability. However, when I'm around people they say I'm a nice person to be around with and I do enjoy being around close friends so I'm starting to think my decision was not a very wise one for my personality. Anyways, I hope you find contempt in your little disclosed world.
[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;30931870]I am a drug fucked loser who wants nothing more than to be alone and left with drugs to keep me company in my spare time [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] even as I read this I am drinking. what have I become[/QUOTE] I was like you man. I stopped the drinking as I knew it wasn't good for me. You need to stop the drugs.
I've had the chance to experience both, and I've made my choice I like being around people, really. I just prefer to be alone. I'll still hang out with my bros but I like being by myself better.
[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;30909687] I've become pessimistic and I've realized that I'm wasting my life because I'm so lazy. [/QUOTE] That made me believe that you don't seem to have a lot of motivation to do things. Self contemplation is hardly valid if you do it while inebriated. I highly suggest sharing your drugs and drinks with a couple people for your birthday.
That's a good suggestion I have got my life in order, I finish yr 12 next year and have a bunch of things lined up that I plan to do next year. I'm not going to sit around idle. [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] also upon that realization I made a conscious effort to do things to overcome it
I'm afraid of the dark but I act like I'm not.
[QUOTE=Camp er Joe;30934000]I was like you man. I stopped the drinking as I knew it wasn't good for me. You need to stop the drugs.[/QUOTE] feels good though man [editline]6th July 2011[/editline] [QUOTE='[Slender Man];30933911']He probably just said that because you didn't give a reason why you stopped caring. Not like you really need one. I understand where you're coming from. I actually think a lot like you. Except I have failed miserably in disconnecting myself from everyone and I've had several visits to the therapist for mental instability. However, when I'm around people they say I'm a nice person to be around with and I do enjoy being around close friends so I'm starting to think my decision was not a very wise one for my personality. Anyways, I hope you find contempt in your little disclosed world.[/QUOTE] I'm sorry to read through that man Problem is though, I'm happy in my little world. :(
[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;30934392]feels good though man[/QUOTE] You feel even better when you stop. I was drinking friday, saturday, sunday and monday nights. By the fourth week I was drinking on a thursday night as well. I was doing it because I felt like I needed it. I stopped for a week and I felt a lot better than I did before. I would of made more than a week but I was having trouble coping with my grandma dying so I drank that night. Then I drank 2 nights after that (which brings us to 2 days ago). If you can stop the drugs you will feel a lot better I guantee. I felt like shit until I stopped.
Well, lets start with a bump because this is a great thread and people start to make pointless thread if this isn't on top. I've just had a fight with a friend, a long, serious one. It ended up me telling her to say every thing thing about what she thinks of me. Well, she's right, actually. I have problems with showing emotion sometimes, I say the wrong thing at the wrong time... and so on. Oh well, but we cleared that, and I guess I'm going to change. But I guess I am like that because Germans aren't getting a necessarily warm welcome in Poland, oh well. What a night.
Alright, I've been incredibly lazy this summer. But with 12 days left I finally got the book I need for summer reading. It's 512 pages long, and my plan is to read 75 pages a day(or more, I have no idea if it's remotely good). I have a good deal of things to write, but I plan to take notes as I'm reading... Even though Junior year is suppose to be your most important, I fucked up. I have all real classes this year(senior year), and plan to show my parents I'm not some lazy computer addict. I also told my parents how I dislike my medical therapist so I'm getting a new one. Big step there, happy with myself about that.
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