[QUOTE=Headhumpy;48778062]He tried to kill himself many times but set himself up for failure every time. It's obvious that he doesn't want to die, he just wants attention. This guy has some kind of extreme personality disorder and is completely unable to see the world from any point of view other than his own. All of his interpersonal interactions are formulated exclusively in the framework of how they benefit him: he doesn't care about the well-being of others, he only cares about how he can make them like him more.[/QUOTE]
You shouldn't belittle repeated failed suicide attempts, every time it's one step closer to actually completing it.
[QUOTE=Lordgeorge16;48786672]Conductors are the dudes that check people's tickets and pretend like nothing is wrong when the train gets delayed or breaks down. Engineers are the ones who make the train move. :downs:[/QUOTE]
I wouldn't trust him checking my ticket though. Or getting my food order right. Or doing anything at all.
Like a poster above said, I've had my own experiences in the past with a retarded friend like this. Being the sabrah in the relationship was shit and it took way too long to realise it. He later tried to have a go at our friend group and it blew up in his fat face. Felt good seeing Sab wreck this fucker publicly.
a conductor is a safety critical role
Mikenooa, your best bet would be creating a blog and writing in it like a diary. Daily. I would read said blog.
[QUOTE=Lordgeorge16;48786672]Conductors are the dudes that check people's tickets and pretend like nothing is wrong when the train gets delayed or breaks down. Engineers are the ones who make the train move. :downs:[/QUOTE]
Oooooooh! In that case, conduct away.
[QUOTE=Big Dumb American;48787216]Oooooooh! In that case, conduct away.[/QUOTE]
No he shouldn't he will end up falling in love with a random woman on the train then stalk her and write a shitty poem about here that goes something like this:
Amy, my ass is grass and these pills stink like a coloured mans dick
Come on girl, I want to fuck you in the wormhole of your groin, ill dig you with my pick
I'll light sweet scented candles and invite you in and we shall smoke opium lit by a flame over a whimpy candle whick
Then he will post about it here and we will have another confused lady joining our forum just to partake in the tragic hilarity this man is.
You guys are being very critical about a relationship that you know very little about. From the very beginning I told Sabrah that I was infatuated with her, and that she should stop talking to me. Sure I was an asshole, I'm not denying that, but there were many times in which I told her we were done. A few weeks would go by and she would contact me. That is why I decided to say something so awful that she would never want anything to do with me. I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25.
A lot of you are suggesting I get help, and if you read what I wrote you would see that I am. I'm not a good guy. I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar. I don't want pity or sympathy. I want this thread to die. It hurts a lot when some of you say, "if you really wanted to kill yourself you would have already done it." There is nothing I can say to defend myself. It hurts a lot because the doctor said that. My own mother says that. You guys don't know me. I'm not some lunatic. I'm a very normal guy who just suffers from mental illness.
I probably should not be replying, because I know that you guys are going to just continue to enjoy mocking a weak man... You guys have nothing better to do than look my pictures up and call me names? I'm doing my best. I donate blood every 8 weeks. I volunteer at my pet shelter. I'm vegan. I help my family in many ways. Sabrah tried to say I was a pedophile to my family, but they know me. They know I have a good heart.
My writings may look absurd, and they are. I'm sure most of us can admit to thinking stupid things. I just made the mistake of saying it publicly.
I'll answer a few questions. The wall was about 20 feet high. I do have a blog, but it is a private thing. You can read my public plog, though. Positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com I don't want any contact with Sabrah anymore. I think she needs to talk to someone, though. She obviously isn't over what I did to her. I don't know what she hoped to accomplish by bringing up this dead topic. Bored with life? Immaturity?
Sabrah I'm sorry. We are not good for eachother. Don't reply to this thread. I was a thorn in your life. I don't know why you kept coming back, but it's over now. Let this be the end.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]You guys are being very critical about a relationship that you know very little about. From the very beginning I told Sabrah that I was infatuated with her, and that she should stop talking to me. Sure I was an asshole, I'm not denying that, but there were many times in which I told her we were done. A few weeks would go by and she would contact me. That is why I decided to say something so awful that she would never want anything to do with me. I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25.
A lot of you are suggesting I get help, and if you read what I wrote you would see that I am. I'm not a good guy. I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar. I don't want pity or sympathy. I want this thread to die. It hurts a lot when some of you say, "if you really wanted to kill yourself you would have already done it." There is nothing I can say to defend myself. It hurts a lot because the doctor said that. My own mother says that. You guys don't know me. I'm not some lunatic. I'm a very normal guy who just suffers from mental illness.
I probably should not be replying, because I know that you guys are going to just continue to enjoy mocking a weak man... You guys have nothing better to do than look my pictures up and call me names? I'm doing my best. I donate blood every 8 weeks. I volunteer at my pet shelter. I'm vegan. I help my family in many ways. Sabrah tried to say I was a pedophile to my family, but they know me. They know I have a good heart.
My writings may look absurd, and they are. I'm sure most of us can admit to thinking stupid things. I just made the mistake of saying it publicly.
I'll answer a few questions. The wall was about 20 feet high. I do have a blog, but it is a private thing. You can read my public plog, though. Positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com I don't want any contact with Sabrah anymore. I think she needs to talk to someone, though. She obviously isn't over what I did to her. I don't know what she hoped to accomplish by bringing up this dead topic. Bored with life? Immaturity?
Sabrah I'm sorry. We are not good for eachother. Don't reply to this thread. I was a thorn in your life. I don't know why you kept coming back, but it's over now. Let this be the end.[/QUOTE]
If you truly want this thread to die then stop posting in it, you are just giving extra ammo to everyone in here.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337] I'm not some lunatic. I'm a very normal guy who just suffers from mental illness. [/QUOTE]
That's what lunatic means though
[QUOTE=maeZtro;48787392]If you truly want this thread to die then stop posting in it, you are just giving extra ammo to everyone in here.[/QUOTE]
Such as this:
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337] I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25.[/QUOTE]
Overcompensation much? I mean 25?????
I'm so glad I found this thread. This has been nothing but pure joy for me this morning. The landmark events that have occurred in this thread shall go down in FP history.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]That is why I decided to say something so awful that she would never want anything to do with me.[/QUOTE]
Why not just ignore her? Mind you, then we wouldn't have this goldmine.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]You can read my public plog, though. [URL="http://positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com"]Positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com[/URL][/QUOTE]
[t]http://i.imgur.com/XgKnECy.png[/t]
Is. Is that a dick? That looks like a dick.
[QUOTE=DiBBs27;48787447]Such as this:
Overcompensation much? I mean 25?????
I'm so glad I found this thread. This has been nothing but pure joy for me this morning. The landmark events that have occurred in this thread shall go down in FP history.[/QUOTE]
first there was dan of boobies; then came a phantom of mike from the depths of the past to summon mike to this thread once again.
I expected mike to be the one bringing this thread back from the dead, oh boy was I wrong
[editline]29th September 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]You guys are being very critical about a relationship that you know very little about. From the very beginning I told Sabrah that I was infatuated with her, and that she should stop talking to me. Sure I was an asshole, I'm not denying that, but there were many times in which I told her we were done. A few weeks would go by and she would contact me. That is why I decided to say something so awful that she would never want anything to do with me. I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25.
A lot of you are suggesting I get help, and if you read what I wrote you would see that I am. I'm not a good guy. I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar. I don't want pity or sympathy. I want this thread to die. It hurts a lot when some of you say, "if you really wanted to kill yourself you would have already done it." There is nothing I can say to defend myself. It hurts a lot because the doctor said that. My own mother says that. You guys don't know me. I'm not some lunatic. I'm a very normal guy who just suffers from mental illness.
I probably should not be replying, because I know that you guys are going to just continue to enjoy mocking a weak man... You guys have nothing better to do than look my pictures up and call me names? I'm doing my best. I donate blood every 8 weeks. I volunteer at my pet shelter. I'm vegan. I help my family in many ways. Sabrah tried to say I was a pedophile to my family, but they know me. They know I have a good heart.
My writings may look absurd, and they are. I'm sure most of us can admit to thinking stupid things. I just made the mistake of saying it publicly.
I'll answer a few questions. The wall was about 20 feet high. I do have a blog, but it is a private thing. You can read my public plog, though. Positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com I don't want any contact with Sabrah anymore. I think she needs to talk to someone, though. She obviously isn't over what I did to her. I don't know what she hoped to accomplish by bringing up this dead topic. Bored with life? Immaturity?
Sabrah I'm sorry. We are not good for eachother. Don't reply to this thread. I was a thorn in your life. I don't know why you kept coming back, but it's over now. Let this be the end.[/QUOTE]
I just wonder how you thought telling someone you want nothing to do with them by describing pedophile-like acts in detail was a good idea;
instead of flatout saying something like "screw off with my life, etc, I don't want anything to do with you, stop talking to me"
or better yet, just blocking her in all forms of contact since you didn't even live close. Why pedophilia of all things? That's what makes it hard to try and believe
Fuck you guys im vegan
[editline]29th September 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=helifreak;48787474][t]http://i.imgur.com/XgKnECy.png[/t]
Is. Is that a dick? That looks like a dick.[/QUOTE]
These drawings from this blog are hilarious
"Cooking"
[Img]http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-61y6hPXrdXg/Va6p2FJdkYI/AAAAAAAAAO8/DDziioa6ZKE/s1600/cookinf.PNG[/img]
"Being at work"
[Img]http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-MSmvLGgp5pA/Vate4At_wuI/AAAAAAAAAOE/iD0xG86jjko/s1600/work.PNG[/img]
"Opening a door" (wtf)
[Img]http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-PNKcRcm5bPc/Vap9B0f_sYI/AAAAAAAAANs/TBTE4WQlU0A/s1600/door.PNG[/img]
This is everything I'd hoped his blog would be.
[IMG]https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-lVzpDTpiI78/UYV1nZ9z7-I/AAAAAAAAAB8/njlChyyg8Ig/s647-fcrop64=1,16dd0846d8fd991f/mikehefner.jpg[/IMG]
Nice job Mikey
EDIT: What I assume to be his youtube channel is there too, which has a video of him rapping.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25.[/QUOTE]
then why did you hump a little girl in her sleep
Ok think im missing parts now
[QUOTE=Kahgarak;48787820]then why did you hump a little girl in her sleep[/QUOTE]
ive just been skimming but where did this happen
[QUOTE=Kahgarak;48787820]then why did you hump a little girl in her sleep[/QUOTE]
I didn't. It was all a lie. A stupid lie, but a lie. I have nothing more to say. You either believe me, or you don't.
I told her many times to "screw off." I did block her, too. She would find a way to contact me. I was too weak and desperate for attention to ignore her when she contacted me after a gap. I was Sabrahs first friend. I don't know for sure, but I think somewhere in her mind she enjoyed talking to me. It wasn't as much of a pityfest as she might lead you to believe. She would cry sometimes to me because of how awful her father had treated her. I would help her find motivation to stay at her job. We were good friends for the most part. I just, because of bipolar, would get very low sometimes. This was hard for her. She wanted to help, but couldn't. I refused to get treatment, and she encouraged that behavior. I'm in a much better state than I was a year ago. Like I said earlier, this is a process. I have hope that I will be more manageable in the future.
Post chatlogs
[QUOTE=Arc Nova;48787607]
These drawings from this blog are hilarious
"Being at work"
[Img]http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-MSmvLGgp5pA/Vate4At_wuI/AAAAAAAAAOE/iD0xG86jjko/s1600/work.PNG[/IMG][/QUOTE]
Took me five minutes to figure out that was the back of a chair. I thought it was a crude drawing of a censor bar.
[QUOTE=Wingz;48787956]ive just been skimming but where did this happen[/QUOTE]
page 4
[QUOTE=SabrinaS;48775694]Here is the email that made me stop talking to him. I sent it to some of his family members.
"You heartless witch. This is the response you give me? I type all that to you. I unravel the entirety of what makes me vile. You give that response to a man who claims to be ready to throw himself off of a wall and die in less than 48 hours? To me, nonetheless. Your only friend. You brush off everything I say and reply saying that I thought you were someone different at first. On top of that you request more information about my sick acts. You are evil. You claim to be otherwise, but I see the truth.
I'm going to address the first mistake you made. "How do you know there aren't other people you could let into your life if you just have them a chance?" Grammar mistakes aside, what you are saying to me here is completely wrong. How do I know there are not others? Let me set this straight: You are not special. Broads like you are a dime a dozen. You are nothing more than a simple farm girl who is slightly more self aware than her peers. I could go to any city and pluck up a girl just as bright and talented as you. 70% of your personality you got from me. I am not worried about "my special Sabrah-kinz" disappearing into the void that is life. I haven't been waiting my entire life for Sabrah. I'm not depressed about not seeing Sabrah again. I created Sabrah. I could form many women into Sabrah. Sabrah is for me. Sabrah protects me.
No. I've been waiting my entire life for a reason to live. In a sense, that was you. You gave me purpose. I went to college for you. I worked out for you. I lived for you. But it wasn't actually for you, missy. I mean, literally it was, but you could have been replaced with anybody: Katie, Karly, McKenzie, etc. You are not the apple of my eye. You just happened to fit the position. Now that you are gone I am not saddened because I will not meet another Sabrah. I'm sad because I have no purpose. "It's a hard life without a soft woman." I 100% believe that anybody can fall in love with anybody. It just can take an eternity for some matches. On one hand I wish we could be together, on the other it doesn't matter because after Sunday none of this will bother me. Nothing will.
Your second question is about Eliza. I'm not sure why you are so insensitive as to ask that, when there are so many other things you SHOULD be addressing, but I will oblige you nonetheless. I'm sexually attracted to little girls. Not all girls. Some girls are ugly. I would probably end up molesting a girl if I lived into my thirties. I couldn't imagine living that long and staying sane alone. There are several occasions in which I did sexual acts towards Lizzy. She only questioned me once. I regret all of them.
The biggest offense was when I slept with her. We slept in the same bed together and I grinded my clothed crotch against her behind. She was asleep. I eventually orgasmed and joined her.
Another occasion was when she was sitting on my lap. I began to get an erection. I started hopping her up and down on my crotch. She eventually said to me " what are you doing, weirdo?" I said "nothing."
Another time was when we were on the trampoline. We were playing leapfrog. I had an erection and would rub my crotch against her behind slightly too long
I'm a monster. Those are all my times with her, sexually. She has always been friendly to me. We go on walks and talk and jump and play. Something in my brain is broken. It makes it so I see girls like her as sexual partners... Or something.
Another memory that pops into my head is my cousin Ariela. You asked for this.
Ariela is hotter than Lizzy. She is younger, but that isn't why. She is shy at first. She eventually warms up to certain people. She then becomes very loud and playful. She loves to tell stories and play with toys. Everything has to be just right though. She smiles a lot and hides her face sometimes. I'm a sick freak.... She really likes me. She likes when I pick her up and wrestle her. She likes when I draw with her. She especially likes when I read to her. I've seen her naked a few times, but not intentionally.
I'm not attracted to the naked body. I'm not attracted to naked women either.
My one sexual experience with Ariela was when we were watching the movie Frozen together. She was sitting on my lap and I got erection. I didn't want to violate her so I moved her. I also had two other female cousins on me, but I'm not attracted to them. Ariela kept sitting back onto my erection. Eventually I stopped the movie and said we should do something else.
Another hot girl was this little blonde girl. I don't remember her name. I babysat her. She loved to hang from my arm and hug me. I would take her to the park and just play with her. I never did anything sexual, except when she hugged me I had to push her mouth away from my erection....
I'm sick. I'm awful. I hate pedophilis. Kids can not give sexual consent, especially prepubescent....
I'm a horrible human being.
You are a horrible human being for asking about that instead of anything else. You will no longer be able to speak with me soon and instead of saying anything else, you choose that.
I'll be dead. I hoped that you could save my life. Not you specifically. Just whoever I chose to put in your position.
It's not your fault that you failed. I never gave you enough power to save me."[/QUOTE]
[QUOTE=Arc Nova;48788000]Post chatlogs[/QUOTE]
[QUOTE] Apr 09 6:46 PM
mikenopa:but i forced you into it aswell
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You did not
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:I think you made a good impact on my life
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:and I had as much to do with it as you did
Apr 09 6:46 PM
mikenopa:that makes no sence
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:why?
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:for two reasons
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:hwo did i make a good impact
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:and
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:hwo did you have anything to do
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:with me using you as a false motivation
Apr 09 6:48 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:First
Apr 09 6:48 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:I am not even half as strong as I seem. There are times when I just cry and cry and think about being alone forever because I don't think I can face the world or anything
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:Talking to you has given me inner strength at some points
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:It has always made me smile
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:when I talk to you and think back to our conversations
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You have inspired my art work
Apr 09 6:50 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You have inspired me to be more original
Apr 09 6:50 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:Talking to you has even helped me understand my feelings better
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:oh boy sabrah
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:that is truly great
Apr 09 6:50 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:and awknowledge them
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:but my life has gotten worse ive made you into something you arnt
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:and now im broken
Apr 09 6:51 PM
mikenopa:im not even strong enough to cry last night i wanted to cry but only tear came out i only ever cry whenever i am % emotionally exasted.
Apr 09 6:51 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You always had so much belief in me
Apr 09 6:51 PM
mikenopa:you are better than me [/QUOTE]
You can call it a lie all you want but there are only a few possibilities.
1) It's true and you're backpedalling, in which case you're fucked up and should not be near children
2) It's false which is equally fucked up because you had to sit there and come up with that disgusting story, which means you obviously have [I]some[/I] pedophile tendencies to think like that
Holy fuck is this even real
[QUOTE=Hakita;48788018]page 4[/QUOTE]
Ok ban this sick fuck
[editline]29th September 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48788039]Apr 09 6:46 PM
mikenopa:but i forced you into it aswell
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You did not
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:I think you made a good impact on my life
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:and I had as much to do with it as you did
Apr 09 6:46 PM
mikenopa:that makes no sence
Apr 09 6:46 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:why?
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:for two reasons
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:hwo did i make a good impact
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:and
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:hwo did you have anything to do
Apr 09 6:47 PM
mikenopa:with me using you as a false motivation
Apr 09 6:48 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:First
Apr 09 6:48 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:I am not even half as strong as I seem. There are times when I just cry and cry and think about being alone forever because I don't think I can face the world or anything
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:Talking to you has given me inner strength at some points
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:It has always made me smile
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:when I talk to you and think back to our conversations
Apr 09 6:49 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You have inspired my art work
Apr 09 6:50 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You have inspired me to be more original
Apr 09 6:50 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:Talking to you has even helped me understand my feelings better
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:oh boy sabrah
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:that is truly great
Apr 09 6:50 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:and awknowledge them
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:but my life has gotten worse ive made you into something you arnt
Apr 09 6:50 PM
mikenopa:and now im broken
Apr 09 6:51 PM
mikenopa:im not even strong enough to cry last night i wanted to cry but only tear came out i only ever cry whenever i am % emotionally exasted.
Apr 09 6:51 PM
sabrina_reptile_lover:You always had so much belief in me
Apr 09 6:51 PM
mikenopa:you are better than me[/QUOTE]
Lmao wow dude
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48788039][/QUOTE]
Yes, clearly this is all her fault, for saying nice things to you, having totally normal fears and insecurities, and looking to you as a friend. Talk about selfish, am I right?
Just remember
[img]http://i62.tinypic.com/vrfz7m.jpg[/img]
The face of a lunatic.
Why not just say you are a gay misogynist???
Nope had to jump to pedophile.
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