• Love Letter to a Girl That Left Me
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[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48788039]oh boy sabrah that is truly great[/QUOTE] Oh boy sabrah
[QUOTE=NightmareX91;48788183]Just remember [img]http://i62.tinypic.com/vrfz7m.jpg[/img] The face of a lunatic.[/QUOTE] [I]"i am a supreme gentleman"[/I]
If you really wanted this to stop, all you had to do was stop posting. It would have died out to inactivity. Now you're just digging yourself into a deeper grave.
You might as well post more chatlogs too see whats really going on here How many chats have you saved in a text file
Ban him to save him
[QUOTE=YourBreakfsat;48788273]Ban him to save him[/QUOTE] Whos side are you on? We want our cringe!
[QUOTE] Feb 01 8:52 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:the closest I have probably ever gotten to anyone is John Feb 01 8:52 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:And I'm still distant from him Feb 01 8:53 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:I'm sure that if he didn't need my support, we wouldn't have gotten so close Feb 01 8:53 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:I would have just faded away Feb 01 8:53 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:INto the background Feb 01 8:53 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:Like I always do Feb 01 8:53 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:When I met you it was strange Feb 01 8:53 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:No one has ever tried to help me solve my problems before Feb 01 8:54 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:You were the first person to do that Feb 01 8:54 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:Although your emails were a bit weird, they still made me happy Feb 01 8:56 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:When I first spoke to you on IM, i though I might actually become a good friend Feb 01 8:56 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:But only through normal talk Feb 01 8:56 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:I mean Feb 01 8:56 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:You cannot become close to someone with the stuff you send on ask.fm half the time Feb 01 8:58 PM sabrina_reptile_lover:If you were really nothing but entertainment to me, do you think I would really spend my time now saying these things to you? [/QUOTE] I'm not saying she was selfish. I'm saying she deserved better. I saved every single one of our chats. I like to view them and think of the fond memories. In order to write that horrific letter I had to google stories of pedos online. I've never babysat a child in my life. [QUOTE]1. I don't do "time flings." If I'm talking to you, it means you are an important person in my life. I am not bored of you either. I just have a lot to do with work/school/lionbridge right now. There will be times when I am very busy. That does not mean that I am disinterested, simply that I am preoccupied. I often call you even if my schedule is very tight. You are attractive in personality and many other things. I am not very appearance-inclined. You already make me happy. You are productive enough in your life. I don't say things I don't mean. Sent from my BLU Smartphone Device[/QUOTE] Last one: [QUOTE] I'm happy. Apparently last night there was a manager's meeting at Mcdonalds. Everyone there made a list of the top 3 best workers and the 3 bad workers. I was on every single list of good workers. :) Also, that probably means that I will get a raise soon. How is your day so far? I got off early because they didn't need me. I'm going to order a spare tire for my bike, and then I am going to look for scholarships. It would help me greatly, even I won a small one right now. [/QUOTE]
The backpedal is real
christ i just read through the whole thread it's like a fucking chore reading these chunks of text
Dude exactly how many text logs do you have saved Making you look even creepier tbh
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48788355]In order to write that horrific letter I had to google stories of pedos online. I've never babysat a child in my life.[/QUOTE] [I]What[/I] Why would you even [I]think[/I] of talking about pedophilia, what entered your head to say 'oh I better end this mail with a pedophile story'
[QUOTE=Lord Xenoyia;48788488][I]What[/I] Why would you even [I]think[/I] of talking about pedophilia, what entered your head to say 'oh I better end this mail with a pedophile story'[/QUOTE] Allow me to speculate; No filter between his brain and his mouth? [QUOTE=Mikenopa earlier in the thread;44571284]It shows honesty. And it shows that I am not insecure with who I am.[/QUOTE] [QUOTE=Mikenopa earlier in the thread;44571440]<Pissballoons> I thought it was appropriate to include that part.[/QUOTE] Like with the pissballoons, no thought entered his brain that said "STOP". [I]Why don't you come have a seat. . .[/I]
[QUOTE=Arc Nova;48788431]Dude exactly how many text logs do you have saved Making you look even creepier tbh[/QUOTE] All the conversations I have posted are what Yahoo automaticly saves. Most of our communication was through either text, or phone calls. I don't have any of those saved. [QUOTE=Lord Xenoyia;48788488][I]What[/I] Why would you even [I]think[/I] of talking about pedophilia, what entered your head to say 'oh I better end this mail with a pedophile story'[/QUOTE] My thought was: "What is the most horrific thing I can say so that she won't want anything to do with me, ever."
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]You guys are being very critical about a relationship that you know very little about. From the very beginning I told Sabrah that I was infatuated with her, and that she should stop talking to me. Sure I was an asshole, I'm not denying that, but there were many times in which I told her we were done. A few weeks would go by and she would contact me. That is why I decided to say something so awful that she would never want anything to do with me. I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25. A lot of you are suggesting I get help, and if you read what I wrote you would see that I am. I'm not a good guy. I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar. I don't want pity or sympathy. I want this thread to die. It hurts a lot when some of you say, "if you really wanted to kill yourself you would have already done it." There is nothing I can say to defend myself. It hurts a lot because the doctor said that. My own mother says that. You guys don't know me. I'm not some lunatic. I'm a very normal guy who just suffers from mental illness. I probably should not be replying, because I know that you guys are going to just continue to enjoy mocking a weak man... You guys have nothing better to do than look my pictures up and call me names? I'm doing my best. I donate blood every 8 weeks. I volunteer at my pet shelter. I'm vegan. I help my family in many ways. Sabrah tried to say I was a pedophile to my family, but they know me. They know I have a good heart. My writings may look absurd, and they are. I'm sure most of us can admit to thinking stupid things. I just made the mistake of saying it publicly. I'll answer a few questions. The wall was about 20 feet high. I do have a blog, but it is a private thing. You can read my public plog, though. Positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com I don't want any contact with Sabrah anymore. I think she needs to talk to someone, though. She obviously isn't over what I did to her. I don't know what she hoped to accomplish by bringing up this dead topic. Bored with life? Immaturity? Sabrah I'm sorry. We are not good for eachother. Don't reply to this thread. I was a thorn in your life. I don't know why you kept coming back, but it's over now. Let this be the end.[/QUOTE] I really wanted this to be the last post of this thread before it got locked. Would've been the perfect ending to a perfect fucked up story.
thank god you saved Sabrina from a live of loneliness, OP, your kindness is legendary.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]I donate blood every 8 weeks. I volunteer at my pet shelter. I'm vegan. I help my family in many ways.[/QUOTE] Being vegan is not some form of charity. It's just a lifestyle choice. OP, honestly, you have a fucked up life and a fucked up mind. But you should keep trying to fight with depression. Try to find a hobby, something which you like to do and don't mind spending time on it. Reflect on your life, but finally, find a reason to fight depression. It sounds like you went into the therapy without any hope, without wishing for success, without you wanting to stop being depressed. That's why nothing worked - because [B]no therapy is going to help you unless you want to.[/B] I believe that rarely ever people can't reform. The same applies to you. From looking at your photos, you seem like an okay guy. Realize that you have a chance, and once you want to reform without a shadow of doubt, then you'll be on your way to fighting depression, and picking up your life. I wish you luck.
Wow, this is amazing. (I was talking about the GF talking about him, but okay. :v:)
Just remember Mikenopa, if you ever think about writing pissballoon romantic love letters again, please post it to facepunch first so we can all bust our guts all over the place about it. I'm going to give this 10 for creativity, 10 for creepiness, and 1 for execution.
Kids. Don't do drugs.
if there was a definition for two people NOT meant to meet
OP, I really, really wanted to try to sympathize with you since I was kind of in a similar place as far as the depression and using suicide for attention went. I had an internet friend that I pulled that shit on back during highschool and it ended with us breaking contact because I had my head up my ass and didn't want help. It sucks, but it happened and I used that whole thing as a way to pick myself back up. I want to say that your situation is fixable the way mine was, but then all of this other shit involving Israel, pedophilia, a million suicide attempts, and your repeated posts here just makes it kind of hard to do that. Krosos8 pretty much said what I wanted to: [QUOTE=krosos8;48788718] OP, honestly, you have a fucked up life and a fucked up mind. But you should keep trying to fight with depression. Try to find a hobby, something which you like to do and don't mind spending time on it. Reflect on your life, but finally, find a reason to fight depression. It sounds like you went into the therapy without any hope, without wishing for success, without you wanting to stop being depressed. That's why nothing worked - because [B]no therapy is going to help you unless you want to.[/B][/QUOTE] The only way you're ever going to climb out of the pit you've bulldozed into the ground and swan-dove into is by wanting to get out of it. Find some way to distract yourself from being upset. Spend time listening to music, pick up a hobby like Magic: The Gathering, take classes, do anything like that to keep your mind off of everything happening here. Log off of facepunch too. There's honestly nothing else you could do to repair this situation and by commenting more, you're just making things even worse.
[QUOTE=Mikenopa;48787337]You guys are being very critical about a relationship that you know very little about. From the very beginning I told Sabrah that I was infatuated with her, and that she should stop talking to me. Sure I was an asshole, I'm not denying that, but there were many times in which I told her we were done. A few weeks would go by and she would contact me. That is why I decided to say something so awful that she would never want anything to do with me. I am not a pedophile. I think the age pf consent should be at least 25. A lot of you are suggesting I get help, and if you read what I wrote you would see that I am. I'm not a good guy. I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar. I don't want pity or sympathy. I want this thread to die. It hurts a lot when some of you say, "if you really wanted to kill yourself you would have already done it." There is nothing I can say to defend myself. It hurts a lot because the doctor said that. My own mother says that. You guys don't know me. I'm not some lunatic. I'm a very normal guy who just suffers from mental illness. I probably should not be replying, because I know that you guys are going to just continue to enjoy mocking a weak man... You guys have nothing better to do than look my pictures up and call me names? I'm doing my best. I donate blood every 8 weeks. I volunteer at my pet shelter. I'm vegan. I help my family in many ways. Sabrah tried to say I was a pedophile to my family, but they know me. They know I have a good heart. My writings may look absurd, and they are. I'm sure most of us can admit to thinking stupid things. I just made the mistake of saying it publicly. I'll answer a few questions. The wall was about 20 feet high. I do have a blog, but it is a private thing. You can read my public plog, though. Positivepartsoflife.blogspot.com I don't want any contact with Sabrah anymore. I think she needs to talk to someone, though. She obviously isn't over what I did to her. I don't know what she hoped to accomplish by bringing up this dead topic. Bored with life? Immaturity? Sabrah I'm sorry. We are not good for eachother. Don't reply to this thread. I was a thorn in your life. I don't know why you kept coming back, but it's over now. Let this be the end.[/QUOTE] You don't get it, do you? Your problem is that you think too highly of yourself. You think you are a good person for being a vegan, for donating blood, for volunteering at a pet shelter. The fact is that you're not. You're a horrible person. You want friends, but you are incapable of being genuinely nice to them. All you can think about is how they can benefit you, not how you can benefit them. You seek their affection, but since you are unable to do this by being a nice person, you resort to attention-seeking behaviours like threatening suicide and lying about molesting your relatives. You think of yourself as some kind of saviour for Sabrah, but in reality all you did to her was manipulate her to feed your own ego. Now you claim that you're trying to shut yourself from her, for her own good, yet you keep posting in this thread. It's clear to me that all you want is for people to think of you as some kind of knight-in-shining-armour swooping in to save the damsel-in-distress that was Sabrah, that you could have helped her if not for your own failings. You have problems. Massive ones. At some level, you are aware of them, but you keep looking at your lesser problems and you convince yourself that those are all the problems you have, and if only they could go away then you'd be a perfect person. That's not how it works. I suggest you take a long, hard look at yourself and pick out all your deepest flaws, and work on them. I'm telling you this because I went through a similar phase 5 years ago. Granted, I didn't fly to Israel to try and enlist while cancelling my ticket home, but the thought processes I had were similar. You can fix yourself, but you have to be willing to [I]try[/I].
The fact that he comes back is amazing. Facepunch is what makes me nauseus and happy at the same time.
This thread is painful to read OP please I beg you
this thread is just the gift that keeps giving, isn't it?
[QUOTE=Zaex;48787201]Mikenooa, your best bet would be creating a blog and writing in it like a diary. Daily. I would read said blog.[/QUOTE] He has a blog. Blog-pals.com
Ok now I genuinely think that we are being terrible people toward a man with the brain of a child. [sp]or we are being gloriously trolled[/sp] [img]http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-3b_WmV6_rro/Va1cIJbCZ3I/AAAAAAAAAOk/g7zARHx1C2U/s320/talking.PNG[/img]
[QUOTE=SabrinaS;48789516]He has a blog. Blog-pals.com[/QUOTE] Can we be BlogPals. Its so quirky that you use Android & Safari at the same time. [IMG]http://blog-pals.com/trap/logo.gif[/IMG] Holy fuck that banner is OP. I'm talking with my companies CEO right now and we'll see if we can hire him on as a Graphic designer. [quote=BlagPels]On grindr one of the trans women said that she browsed /r9k/, so I used her picture as the header image in the thread I created. Somehow she recognized herself and found my thread. She posted saying that I should message her on grindr. For the next week I spent all day talking to her. I would sit around and literally stare at the ceiling until I would get a message from her. I started to develop fantasy scenarios about her. I imagined the two of us dating and I paid for a nice dinner with her. I imagined working for the railroad and renting an apartment with her. She would stay home and do whatever she wanted, while I worked as a conductor full time. All this because a man decided to dress up like a woman.[/quote] What the fuck is going on in this kids head? Someone?? Can we get a PsyD in this place???
why are you all trying to lecture him or something he's mentally ill, for christ's sake he needs professional help, not you
this is one of those golden threads that pop up once in a while
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