[QUOTE=PandaJuggernaut;46404505]oh sweet baby jesus I've currently been up for 48 hours because shit keeps happening/exploding around me and I have a 16 hour shift that starts in....4 and a half hours.... kill me now[/QUOTE]
Hope things get better for you man!
I fucking swear, if I go in on Friday for this appointment, and the lady states that we are going to be doing more tests over the next few months, I'm just gonna hang myself or blow my brains out. I have been near suicidal and depressed for the past year, and started four to five months ago to get help for it. I have had roughly something in the range of ten to twelve appointment visits in those five months, and still they refuse to give me a solid diagnosis, or try to help me find a social case worker, who can be able to at the very least guide me along and give me a helping hand.
I don't want these paperback tests, I don't want to be lightly told that I'm schizophrenic and have aspergers, I don't want to be shuffled around for another three to five months because these fuckers want to play, "We cannot diagnose you without giving you fifty personality tests!" I have already done everything in my power to speed up the process. I have taken blood tests, spine taps, all sorts of shit in order to help them out to understand if their is anything wrong with my body. I plan on even going into a neuro-checkup in order to see if anything in my brain ain't ticking right. But for the love of all that is holy, these fuckers need to do their jobs, and give me a diagnosis already. I want to live a life, be able to work, and be able to start a family in peace.
The more they stall this shit, the more suicide is becoming a preferable option.
I should probably put myself out there and go meet some internet friends or something, but having horribly low self esteem makes that idea way more scary than it probably would be in reality
[QUOTE=azure 505;46404538]I should probably put myself out there and go meet some internet friends or something, but having horribly low self esteem makes that idea way more scary than it probably would be in reality[/QUOTE]
where do you live
[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;46404460]Devotch would just be bro times.[/QUOTE]
Represent.
[QUOTE=HWECQI;46404475]of course man
I collect the comics n shit[/QUOTE]
Hi hello i love comics and was the leader of a club in high school devoted to them can i come too
[QUOTE=HookerVomit;46404540]where do you live[/QUOTE]
maryland
have some friends up and down the east coast, but money is also an issue considering I don't have a job and I'm still in school (although I took autumn off because I'm almost certain I can't deal with the stress for now)
[QUOTE=DeVotchKa;46404558]Represent.
Hi hello i love comics and was the leader of a club in high school devoted to them can i come too[/QUOTE]
Sure
you can ogle my Spider-Man and Ultimate Spider-Man collection and stuff
[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;46404460]I could imagine jumping on a plane and meeting a few FPers myself actually.
Scratch would just be a pile of random things mixed in with some nerd and plinker.
Devotch would just be bro times.
Hwecqi would just be flat out lewd with some persona.
:v:[/QUOTE]
if you think HWEQI's lewd you should straight up see the last 10 things I've saved in SAI
[QUOTE=HWECQI;46404523]Hope things get better for you man![/QUOTE]
Thanks man I appreciate it. If I didn't REALLY need the money I'd call in but that is 288 before tax I cannot lose. after this shift I'll have worked 73 hours this week....
[QUOTE=HWECQI;46404569]Sure
you can ogle my Spider-Man and Ultimate Spider-Man collection and stuff[/QUOTE]
<3
[QUOTE=HWECQI;46404569]Sure
you can ogle my Spider-Man and Ultimate Spider-Man collection and stuff[/QUOTE]
I've been reading the Ultimate stuff lately and holy shit it all sucks except for Ultimate Spider-Man. Ultimate X-Men makes me wanna punch myself square in the face.
[QUOTE=Banned?;46404659]I've been reading the Ultimate stuff lately and holy shit it all sucks except for Ultimate Spider-Man. Ultimate X-Men makes me wanna punch myself square in the face.[/QUOTE]
Yeah pretty much, Ultimate Spider-Man's the only thing that's really worth caring about from there. Probably has something to do with Brian Michael Bendis being the writer, he's solid as hell.
Ultimate is actually my favorite Spider-Man series cuz of him, he knows the character so well
[QUOTE=HWECQI;46404667]Yeah pretty much, Ultimate Spider-Man's the only thing that's really worth caring about from there. Probably has something to do with [B]Brian Michael Bendis being the writer, he's solid as hell.[/B]
Ultimate is actually my favorite Spider-Man series cuz of him, he knows the character so well[/QUOTE]
Kat gon' be maaaaad.
[QUOTE=DeVotchKa;46404671]Kat gon' be maaaaad.[/QUOTE]
I don't really care what he thinks frankly.
I dunno how he is with other stuff he writes, but he does great with Spider-Man and that's what I like from him
I'm a big Marvel fan in general but Spider-Man's pretty much the thing I care about most, and out of all the current writers for him, Bendis is the best there is. Slott kinda shit the bed awhile ago
I heard Ultimate Namor is a super badass though. Haven't read it yet because I was trying to read it all chronologically. Everything but Ultimate Spider-Man feels insanely hollow though.
[QUOTE=Banned?;46404692]I heard Ultimate Namor is a super badass though. Haven't read it yet because I was trying to read it all chronologically. Everything but Ultimate Spider-Man feels insanely hollow though.[/QUOTE]
I haven't read Namor, but yeah there isn't a whole lot of care put into the others it doesn't seem like. Most of the elements the movies took from the Ultimate Universe came from what's been in Spider-Man, like Nick Fury's appearance and stuff
I wanna learn to draw the good draws.
I would, without any hesitation, kill a baby if I could wake up and draw like a fucking pro tomorrow.
That is probably not a good thing to admit, but I could go without doing a lot of things I do now for hobbies if I knew how to draw.
this is my draws:
[img]http://scontent-a-mia.cdninstagram.com/hphotos-xaf1/t51.2885-15/10727740_292365824304612_506814302_n.jpg[/img]
[img]http://photos-f.ak.instagram.com/hphotos-ak-xfa1/10731734_1516375898600445_1922687365_n.jpg[/img]
i don't draw much...
That's pretty cute though
You have a pretty good style, i dig it.
Thanks. My best friend has been taking me to live sketch groups where we sketch live models. Its really fun and i like connecting with other artists.
Theres this guy i met whose drawings are incredible.
He wants to hang out with us and draw.
He even draws a bunch of Akira stuff.
Idk if he'd want me to post about his stuff, but heres one thing he drew:
[img]http://scontent-b-mia.cdninstagram.com/hphotos-xaf1/t51.2885-15/10546624_1448117395456364_992587399_n.jpg[/img]
[QUOTE=Banned?;46404764]I would, without any hesitation, kill a baby if I could wake up and draw like a fucking pro tomorrow.
That is probably not a good thing to admit, but I could go without doing a lot of things I do now for hobbies if I knew how to draw.[/QUOTE]
instead of killing a baby, why dont you just practice drawing? you cant get good at shit overnight
a guy I follow on twitter posted [url=https://twitter.com/ItsWolfshirt/status/529517238664327168]this[/url] which is kind of amazing because I woke up at noon and wore sweat pants all day and am about to go to bed in jeans
also I realize sweat pants are p terrible but they're warm and comfortable so I wear them around the house when it's cold
[QUOTE=sloppy_joes;46404810]instead of killing a baby, why dont you just practice drawing? you cant get good at shit overnight[/QUOTE]
I don't really think that's his point. We all have things we try to do that we wish we were automatically good at.
Hell, i've been playing bass for like eight years now and i'm still just mediocre at it but i'd kill to be as good as Flea or Les Claypool.
[QUOTE=sloppy_joes;46404810]instead of killing a baby, why dont you just practice drawing? you cant get good at shit overnight[/QUOTE]
I have a really big fear of creative endeavors for some reason.
[editline]3rd November 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=DeVotchKa;46404847]I don't really think that's his point. We all have things we try to do that we wish we were automatically good at.
Hell, i've been playing bass for like eight years now and i'm still just mediocre at it but i'd kill to be as good as Flea or Les Claypool.[/QUOTE]
As a fellow bass player, amen.
for drawing, practice one hour a day, try out new things etc etc
[QUOTE=Banned?;46404858]As a fellow bass player, amen.[/QUOTE]
Mah nigga.
[QUOTE=DeVotchKa;46404867]Mah nigga.[/QUOTE]
What kinda bass? I bought a Peavey T-40 a few years ago and I've literally sold everything else because it's so nice. :v:
[QUOTE=DeVotchKa;46404847]I don't really think that's his point. We all have things we try to do that we wish we were automatically good at.
[/QUOTE]
yeah but why wish, why not do? personally i wish i was a millionare, but instead of wishing i could be a millionare im going to try to make that dream a reality.
dont talk about about what you wish you could do, and fucking sulk that youre not good enough, just fucking do it.
[quote]Hell, i've been playing bass for like eight years now and i'm still just mediocre at it but i'd kill to be as good as Flea or Les Claypool.[/quote]
just keep practicing mate, good luck.
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