• 3 years ago I drove a 13 year old girl to the brink of suicide and never told anyone
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[quote]Comment by: Slygirl12, 03:50 PM, January 7th, 2009 [Slygirl12] Hehehe..*plants a small kiss on your head while returning that tight hug*..so long, my friend. <:) Comment by: Slygirl12, 03:45 PM, January 7th, 2009 [Slygirl12] See, the fact that you're short and gay and just used the word "hawt" is what makes it so easy to be that way with you, hmhm..^-^ I love Phantom of the Opera! D:> ..o3o...is this some new power I have now? I demand that you call my friend, Sam, "HAWT, MEGA HAWT, STEAMY-SEXY-JUICY HAWT!!" TT3TT Comment by: Slygirl12, 03:36 PM, January 7th, 2009 [Slygirl12] Hmhm hm..you'll always be my best gay friend. x) I'll still be sad for a while..I'm gonna' miss this place and the fact that I've lost so much in just a short time..but soon I will be happy again..*crooked grin*.. And the Phantom of the Opera is my secret SUPERGAY lover to a STRAIGHT person like me. :D[/quote] So you're gay but you loved this girl. Apparently Supergay as well.
[QUOTE=Xen Tricks;26522424]So you're gay but you loved this girl. Apparently Supergay as well.[/QUOTE] I'm not gay and I've always denied that. She loved to call me gay, it was our little inside joke. The comments on our profiles correspond with one another if you look at the dates, you can make out a conversation with most of them.
...Damn.
[QUOTE=Doomish;26522434]I'm not gay and I've always denied that. She loved to call me gay, it was our little inside joke. The comments on our profiles correspond with one another if you look at the dates, you can make out a conversation with most of them.[/QUOTE] I know, just didn't bother to read your side. That's kind of an... odd inside joke too. Sure it was a joke to her?
there is a small hole on my back which is bleeding.
Wow. That takes a lot of guts.
After reading the OP I wish a bank robber would shoot me in the face.
[QUOTE=seattlegluepiss;26522445]there is a small hole on my back which is bleeding.[/QUOTE] And then wings came out through it, yes, I know, as unbelievable as it is, she took it all in, though looking back I've started to doubt that. [QUOTE=Xen Tricks;26522442]I know, just didn't bother to read your side. That's kind of an... odd inside joke too. Sure it was a joke to her?[/QUOTE] Believe me, she knew it was a joke. We were almost like real life friends, though I never met her in real life and didn't know what she looked like until just recently. I'd like to say I have no regrets but then I'd be lying to myself.
Glad you see your past mistakes and I hope it all goes well. :crying:
i actually couldnt read the end of this because it's such a horrible story
Holy shit that was so confusing.. From what I understood though, it must have been really tough for you to keep this inside for so long. Glad you finally got it all out.
[QUOTE=Tudd;26522400]Please go outside more.[/QUOTE] Just because he didn't say "I WENT OUTSIDE AT ABOUT THIS TIME AND AT THAT TIME" doesn't mean he didn't go outside a lot dude.
god you are fucking weird.
Both op and suicidal person are pretty silly, Op for driving a suicidal person to attempted suicide and the suicidal person for being suicidal and believing his horrible story. But yeah, it's not your fault.
[QUOTE=tehMuffinMan;26522494]Just because he didn't say "I WENT OUTSIDE AT ABOUT THIS TIME AND AT THAT TIME" doesn't mean he didn't go outside a lot dude.[/QUOTE] He's right though, I don't go outside a lot, but it's just because I enjoy the indoors more. I've never been much of an outdoorsy person, though I have gone camping a few times. [editline]6th December 2010[/editline] [QUOTE=Superbird;26522514]Both op and suicidal person are pretty silly, Op for driving a suicidal person to attempted suicide and the suicidal person for being suicidal and believing his horrible story. But yeah, it's not your fault.[/QUOTE] She wouldn't have attempted suicide if I hadn't been such a vile despicable person in the first place. I just wish she would have called me out on that first lie, said "hold on, who's this Josh, he's never been brought up before" and the whole thing would have been avoided. But I just kept going, waiting for her to call me out, and she never did, and it cost me.
....dude.
[QUOTE=Doomish;26522515]He's right though, I don't go outside a lot, but it's just because I enjoy the indoors more. I've never been much of an outdoorsy person, though I have gone camping a few times. [editline]6th December 2010[/editline] She wouldn't have attempted suicide if I hadn't been such a vile despicable person in the first place. I just wish she would have called me out on that first lie, said "hold on, who's this Josh, he's never been brought up before" and the whole thing would have been avoided. But I just kept going, waiting for her to call me out, and she never did, and it cost me.[/QUOTE] She wouldn't have attempted suicide if she wasn't suicidal in the first place.
I hate the way she *looks at the OP as if he was right in front of me and pats him on the head*
The brink of suicide? Fucking lazy kids these days, doing everything half-assed.
[QUOTE=Superbird;26522542]She wouldn't have attempted suicide if she wasn't suicidal in the first place.[/QUOTE] That's true. I think it was a combination of what I did to her and the real, actual deaths going on around her. I was more of a contributor than the direct cause, but I was the only thing keeping her from going over the edge, and well, I lost her because of my own stupidity. [editline]6th December 2010[/editline] [QUOTE=geel9;26522548]I hate the way she *looks at the OP as if he was right in front of me and pats him on the head*[/QUOTE] She still does it today, see here: [IMG]http://i52.tinypic.com/nvupns.png[/IMG] It takes some getting used to.
It's not your fault. Rarely people try to kill themselves because of what appeared to happen in her eyes, let alone without evidence over the Internet. What you did was probably equivalent to scaring somebody who was standing at the edge of a rooftop. They were probably already there due to other issues. But on the off chance that you somehow were the ultimate cause of her demise, I'm sorry. You know what fuck it I was ninja'd. By everybody. You're a jerk OP. Stop blaming yourself.
[QUOTE=Jookia;26522559] You know what fuck it I was ninja'd. You're a jerk OP. Stop blaming yourself.[/QUOTE] I know I'm a jerk, and I know I should stop blaming the [i]whole[/i] thing on myself (part of it is well deserved though), but I just can't. I have to settle this once and for all because I'll never be able to live with myself if I don't. I've been getting better about it, of late, but it still pains me to remember how naive and stupid I was to think this was normal human behavior when I was younger.
[QUOTE=Jookia;26522559]What you did was probably equivalent to scaring somebody who was standing at the edge of a rooftop. They were probably already there due to other issues. [/QUOTE] Yeah like poor life decisions ultimately resulting in them getting a job as a window washer. er wait, I think I missed the point there.
Woah, that's pretty fucked up
Drama! Wohoo!
I'll admit, i'm shocked at what you did, but i'm glad you're trying to make amends. After all, trying to make amends is the first step on the road to redemption. Hopefully, as time passes and you reclaim the broken shards of your past, you can rest easy, and focus on the future... Hopefully she'll be able to accept your apologies, although not every cloud has a silver lining. Y'gotta work to regain her trust and respect.
[QUOTE=ironman17;26522603]I'll admit, i'm shocked at what you did, but i'm glad you're trying to make amends. After all, trying to make amends is the first step on the road to redemption. Hopefully, as time passes and you reclaim the broken shards of your past, you can rest easy, and focus on the future... Hopefully she'll be able to accept your apologies, although not every cloud has a silver lining. Y'gotta work to regain her trust and respect.[/QUOTE] Thanks for the kind words, but I'm not too sure I want or deserve her trust and respect. At this point, really, I just want to let her know really badly that I am truly sorry and that I want to be able to forget her if she doesn't forgive me, move on with my life, y'know?
I still think it's *looks up* strange why *tilts head* she writes down all the *fidgets in seat* movements she is doing *scratches head* in the *blinks* real world. [editline]6th December 2010[/editline] But in all seriousness I'm glad you got that off your chest.
I hope all goes well with her and she forgives you. It sounds like what you did has fucked you up and torn you apart these past few years and I hope she realizes you are truly sorry.
[QUOTE=Doomish;26522434]I'm not gay and I've always denied that. She loved to call me gay, it was our little inside joke. The comments on our profiles correspond with one another if you look at the dates, you can make out a conversation with most of them.[/QUOTE] The freaky thing as this sort thing happened to me except the other way around she did it too me... And yes she used to call me gay as an inside joke, i know what its like.
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