• 3 years ago I drove a 13 year old girl to the brink of suicide and never told anyone
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[QUOTE=Asrue2;26531715]Fucking hell, man. I've known you for a long while now, but I never expected something like [B]this to have happened to you.[/B] Holy shit.[/QUOTE] uhhhh
I can sympathise I guess, when I was in middle school there was this kid named John, but we all called him Bob the builder. Some of us were real assholes and did other things to patronise him. Some of the stuff I've said specifically would incite more taunts from everyone else. I kept on doing it until one day I saw him and his father at the mall, and his father was such an asshole, calling retarded, pushing him around and all this other shit, I felt seriously bad at that point, and decided that I would keep my mouth shut and not join in with the rest of everyone else. Eventually someone told me he killed himself when I was in my junior year of highschool, I wasn't even sure if it was true or not, but I still felt extremely terrible even though this was when I wasn't as much of a conceited bastard I used to be. At that point I vowed never to patronise anyone again no matter what their difference is. I realised in the end even though I stopped i still feel that I had a part in his suicide.
More emails. I wanted her to curse at me, in all honesty. I deserved it. her: [img]http://i54.tinypic.com/2myb6yp.png[/img] me: [img]http://i52.tinypic.com/ndldhv.png[/img] her response: [img]http://i56.tinypic.com/2uruk3l.png[/img] I talked to my parents a while ago. They think I probably have some kind of compulsive lying disorder from my story. I wouldn't doubt that one bit at this point.
[QUOTE=sonicrjk;26531737]uhhhh[/QUOTE] the severe emotional turmoil this must have been killing you, man.
Is she online on facebook?
[QUOTE=Doomish;26531772]More emails. I wanted her to curse at me, in all honesty. I deserved it. her: [img_thumb]http://i54.tinypic.com/2myb6yp.png[/img_thumb] me: [img_thumb]http://i52.tinypic.com/ndldhv.png[/img_thumb] her response: [img_thumb]http://i56.tinypic.com/2uruk3l.png[/img_thumb] I talked to my parents a while ago. They think I probably have some kind of compulsive lying disorder from my story. I wouldn't doubt that one bit at this point.[/QUOTE] Stop embarrassing her, she is going to feel stupid if she actually does read this.
[QUOTE=sonicrjk;26531840]Stop embarrassing her, she is going to feel stupid if she actually does read this.[/QUOTE] I'm just trying to get the whole story out to those who are sincerely interested, but okay, I'll leave it alone for now until she responds. No, she's not online on FB, she hasn't posted since yesterday.
[QUOTE=sonicrjk;26531840]Stop embarrassing her, she is going to feel stupid if she actually does read this.[/QUOTE] I'm pretty sure she'll already be embarassed.
[QUOTE=Ninja_Blue;26531613]He fucked with someone's feelings for an extended period, he showed no self control over a matter he knew he shouldn't have done in the first place. I'm sorry that you think I'm being "insensitive", but I honestly think of the OP as a douchebag. I was was in her place, I would never forgive you. I would most likely have pure hatred towards you.[/QUOTE] Right, but he's clearly upset now about what he's done. He wants to get it off his chest. It probably isn't pleasant for him if we repeat the same things he's been telling himself for the last 3 years.
I don't get why you acted like you died and were in heaven and had multiple personalities and shit.
I'm sorry if I get banned for flaming (which this mostly is), and I haven't read the last four pages of the thread, but wow. How the fuck could you do that? You must have been a fucking dumbass. Really. At lesat now you're trying to make up for it, but it was still an insanely stupid thing to do.
[QUOTE=insane taco;26531895]I don't get why you acted like you died and were in heaven and had multiple personalities and shit.[/QUOTE] I couldn't avoid the impulse to lie, no matter how hard I tried, it was just there, looming over me. Once I got away with that first lie about having multiple personalities, I realized I could lie about anything, and that piqued my curiosity far too much than it should have. [editline]6th December 2010[/editline] [QUOTE=Collin665;26531984]I'm sorry if I get banned for flaming (which this mostly is), and I haven't read the last four pages of the thread, but wow. How the fuck could you do that? You must have been a fucking dumbass. Really. At lesat now you're trying to make up for it, but it was still an insanely stupid thing to do.[/QUOTE] You won't get banned for flaming, you aren't the first and you certainly won't be the last to say how moronic I was. I urge you to keep in mind that I was just a kid. I know I've already said age had little to do with it, but I watched a little too much TV for my own good when I was a kid I guess.
Cause the first thing you do when you go to heaven is get on your laptop amirite?
[QUOTE=:v:;26532050]Cause the first thing you do when you go to heaven is get on your laptop amirite?[/QUOTE] because the first thing you do when you go to a thread like this is whore funnies amirite?
[QUOTE=PrusseluskenV2;26531595]Fuck, I've got something I need to get off my chest as well. I just don't want the people to find the thread without me apologizing first.. :frown:[/QUOTE] Agreed. Just went back to an old forum I used to go to and sent messages to people I knew. I don't think they'll ever see them, but anyways...thanks OP for giving me the idea.
[QUOTE=:v:;26532050]Cause the first thing you do when you go to heaven is get on your laptop amirite?[/QUOTE] I made up an excuse for that, actually. At first I was just communicating with her somehow telepathically, but then I found a laptop. I remember it like I just came up with it yesterday, it makes my stomach twist to think of it.
[img]http://forum.cheatengine.org/files/brofist3536544_113.jpg[/img] You deserve this. You did the right thing, it takes a lot of guts to take responsibility for your actions and apologize.
[QUOTE=Doomish;26531617][img_thumb]http://i52.tinypic.com/140dwxv.png[/img_thumb] Here is an email I salvaged from right after she tried to do it. She kept telling me she was going to grab life and never let go, and she claimed to have never said it. She tried to deny it and I can't blame her, she was angry at me and this was one of the last times I ever talked to her. [editline]6th December 2010[/editline] I was a douchebag. I'm not anymore. I wouldn't be apologizing if I were still the same person I was when this all took place. You have to take my word when I say I've changed, and now I'm asking for forgiveness.[/QUOTE] You don't seem to get what I'm saying. What you did was [i]inexcusable[/i]. This wasn't some simple act of bullying some high school kid and you come to terms with insecurity or something. You emotionally damaged a young woman. That shit is on par with rape. Good that you feel bad. Does that really make up for anything? No. I'm sorry if I'm being over-zealous about this, but this is some fucked up shit.
[QUOTE=Ninja_Blue;26532662]That shit is on par with rape.[/QUOTE] Aaaaaand you're done talking.
It does make it a lot better that you are trying to repair your relationship with her.
Seems like you went on a power trip after you found out that she was easy to manipulate. What the fuck is wrong with you?
[QUOTE=sonicrjk;26532699]Aaaaaand you're done talking.[/QUOTE] Really? Destroying someone emotionally is almost as bad of an act as rape.
Good lord...
[QUOTE=DONUT KING;26532742]Seems like you went on a power trip after you found out that she was easy to manipulate. What the fuck is wrong with you?[/QUOTE] I wouldn't put it that way. I wasn't trying to manipulate her. It was not my intention at all to exploit her feelings at any point. You could construe it that way if you want to, and I've probably confirmed it at some point, but I'm telling the truth when I say that after I fake-died, I saw the results of what I did and I was ashamed. Cried for days. I claimed I was ill and didn't go to school. [QUOTE=Ninja_Blue;26532662]You don't seem to get what I'm saying. What you did was [i]inexcusable[/i]. This wasn't some simple act of bullying some high school kid and you come to terms with insecurity or something. You emotionally damaged a young woman. That shit is on par with rape. Good that you feel bad. Does that really make up for anything? No. I'm sorry if I'm being over-zealous about this, but this is some fucked up shit.[/QUOTE] I know I'm a horrible person. I know feeling bad about it may not make up for it, but I'm trying as hard as I can to make amends. That's all I can do, honestly.
what a prick, you dont get any sympathy, and these comments laster over a month what is wrong with you man
[highlight]LEGENDARY THREAD.[/highlight] Just wow. But dude, seriously, you both have some twisted social issues to work out man. That ain't all normal.
This is going to be so funny if she was roleplaying all along.
Well mental
I know what you mean by not trying to exploit her or do anything with bad intent. My parents claim that I do bad things like scribble down random shit on a piece of paper for an assignment that is checked for completion to "deceive the teacher" but really, I wasn't thinking about it or doing it purposefully.
[QUOTE=The Gambler;26532892]This is going to be so funny if she was roleplaying all along.[/QUOTE] I would be so upest that I think my sanity would completely fall apart. I hope to god that's not what ends up being the truth.
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