[QUOTE=Consciousness;41649275]life IS fucking awesome, you just fail to see it when you're too caught up thinking about problems
[editline]30th July 2013[/editline]
but sadly I know how difficult it is to get out that kind of mind frame, let alone if you suffer actual mental illness. Depression itself is a cunt that a huge amount of people can't relate too[/QUOTE]
Every week or so for a few days I'll be in the mindset to enjoy the little things in life; otherwise I'm so detached from everything I may as well perceive it in tones of sepia and muddled gray.
[QUOTE=Dan The Man;41652253]Life is only awesome if you can share it with people. I haven't been able to connect with anybody my whole life. I feel like an alien a lot of the time.[/QUOTE]
You will, you just gotta put yourself out there, and easier said than done I know, but it's possible.
[QUOTE=Dan The Man;41652253]Life is only awesome if you can share it with people. I haven't been able to connect with anybody my whole life. I feel like an alien a lot of the time.[/QUOTE]
I've felt that way most of my life dude, it's like being stuck in a shell. I think it's a form of social anxiety, you don't really feel "Scared" of connecting with people (though some people get the kind where you do get actual phobia, depends how bad it is I guess) but you have certain things built up in your mind, like images of yourself that you adhere too because that's how you see your self in certain aspects. The problem is you know you see yourself that way, but you don't realize that seeing your self that way is part of what gets you caught up. It becomes an insecurity essentially and it's crazy how many things can cause it. It could be something vain like your appearance or something deep from your childhood, and it's super hard to get over. I get it on multiple levels (stuff from childhood runs deep)
what helps me get past it is having at least one close friend i'm naturally open with (took me a while to find some in the first place, even though apparently everyone liked me) then we go to parties and stuff. I go and actually develop reference points of positive social interaction to remind myself that i'm a likeable person, so far so good but it's tricky to get out of that shell around people, even with a close friend there.
as I type this shit out I realize THIS is probably what I should have talked to a psych about >.> I just used one to get through my last year of high school more or less (not even by improving myself, just to make it easier because of said anxieties)
Well, turns out I'm a pretty severe case. Bi-Polar..
Im fucking losing it
Dude you're a cool guy, stick through it man we all love you
being clinically diagnosed with a mental illness is not the end-all-be-all
it's how you start getting onto the road of recovery and management
you'll be able to pull through man, especially if a nutcase like me was
its like chronic illness, the sooner you catch it the better. Good luck on your recovery dude.
Keep strong.
I was maniacal, hallucinating and suicidally depressed for the ENTIRE year of 2012.
I'd cut myself, put cigarrettes out on myself, bash my head into the wall till I bled and overdosed on sleeping medication.
I'm back to who I was, thanks to therapy and medication. I pray you can do the same.
stay strong brother!
They narrowed it down to "Cyclothymia" upon further testing.
[editline]5th August 2013[/editline]
Thanks for the support guys :)
[editline]5th August 2013[/editline]
Got prescribed 25mg of seroquel a day. Just to start off.
What's Cyclothymia?
There's always light at the end of the tunnel.
[QUOTE=zach1193;41720899]What's Cyclothymia?[/QUOTE]
[url]http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyclothymia[/url]
I Googled it when I read his post in the lounge.
[QUOTE=zach1193;41720899]What's Cyclothymia?[/QUOTE]here's a step by step guide:
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[img]https://dl.dropbox.com/u/1439918/Pics/2013-08-05_18-37-09.png[/img]
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snip fuck it
[QUOTE=TehWhale;41725999]here's a step by step guide:
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I've just been copy pasting words into my Google bar, fuck man this is life changing.
But I don't even have a real insomnia problem, why give me seroquel?
[QUOTE=Kel|oggs;41727424]But I don't even have a real insomnia problem, why give me seroquel?[/QUOTE]
Seroquel is an anti-psychotic. It's not supposed to be given out for sleep problems though it commonly is.
From what I can tell, you're aware of the disturbances which, believe it or not, is a very good sign. The nausea and head pain could possibly be somatization, a physical reaction and reflection to the emotional anguish you feel. Bi-polar type and other mood disorders are characterized by swings between depression and mania with intermittent "normal" mood cycles. These can last months or hours, if you're a rapid cycler.
Reading about it online is going to make it worse. The power of suggestion can make you sicker than you could ever imagine. If you're really concerned, please go and seek help. I did. I've been seeing a psych and a therapist for three years. My medication helps me.
Now as a reluctant armchair psychiatrist I'd have to agree with an above poster and say that this is a possible manic episode. Fear and pain reactions to loud noises are also listed in the DSM-IV and V for autism spectrum disorders. Occasionally, ASDs (autistm) will go hand in hand with other conditions.
I've been through the wringer with this shit. I'm diagnosed ASD, major depressive, generalized anxiety, and Bi-polar type II. Trust me, you can live with these conditions. You can live well and thrive, you just a little patience and faith.
[editline]5th August 2013[/editline]
[QUOTE=Kel|oggs;41718281]They narrowed it down to "Cyclothymia" upon further testing.
[editline]5th August 2013[/editline]
Thanks for the support guys :)
[editline]5th August 2013[/editline]
Got prescribed 25mg of seroquel a day. Just to start off.[/QUOTE]
Oh, I didn't read the second page haha. I was overzealous to post my piece, I'm a bit wrung up at the moment. But I'm glad for you. Now you can know exactly what you need to in order to cope! Hang in there brother, it gets better.
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;41728022]
[editline]5th August 2013[/editline]
Oh, I didn't read the second page haha. I was overzealous to post my piece, I'm a bit wrung up at the moment. But I'm glad for you. Now you can know exactly what you need to in order to cope! Hang in there brother, it gets better.[/QUOTE]
:')
[QUOTE=Kel|oggs;41728111]:')[/QUOTE]
Let me know your experience with seroquel once you get leveled out. I'm considering augmenting my treatment with it, SSRI ain't cutting it haha.
[QUOTE=TehWhale;41725999]here's a step by step guide:
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this would be a lot easier
[url]http://bit.ly/1bamgf6[/url]
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;41728133]Let me know your experience with seroquel once you get leveled out. I'm considering augmenting my treatment with it, SSRI ain't cutting it haha.[/QUOTE]
I feel like a zombie. I'm slurring my words, and speaking seems like it takes a lot more effort. I'm sleeping better though. Getting out of bed is a cunt. I'm assuming Ill adjust do it though.
I know most of you aren't pharmacologists but, do you think taking 25-50mg of Seroquel and 40-80mg of 5-HTP daily be a bad idea? I miss how motivated and energetic 5-htp made me. I do not however, miss the manic rage... Seroquel is making me feel really run down and I even see some social anxiety coming up that I never had before. I might ask to be taken off it if this trial period sucks.
Seroquel literally just makes you a zombie who sleeps 14 hours a day, doesn't care about anything, and has no energy whatsoever. It's not worth it. Take it from a guy who has seen three friends take it for "sleeping problems"
[QUOTE=TehWhale;41815809]Seroquel literally just makes you a zombie who sleeps 14 hours a day, doesn't care about anything, and has no energy whatsoever. It's not worth it. Take it from a guy who has seen three friends take it for "sleeping problems"[/QUOTE]
I popped 50mg of 5-htp. My energy came right back in a matter of minutes. I tried so many things to make me feel awake and alert. As soon as I took a 5-htp everything feels just delightful haha.
I stopped taking 5-htp for a couple of weeks now Im using it again for sure. 10 minutes after swallowing the pill and I get a rush of body euphoria, the best feeling of wakefulness and drive. Went into my gym calm focused and energized. It made me manic when I was taking it with st.johns wort, but now my stack looks like this:
25mg seroquel 1:30 hours before bed
50-80mg 5-htp with lunch.
Omega 3s
ZMA(Zinc Magnesium B100)Right before I feel like Im gonna fall asleep
5grams Creatine
3grams L-Carntine
150-300mg Ginko Biloba
So Ive done a bit of research and it looks like this is a safe combo as long as the dose isnt high for either drugs. I feel great.
[QUOTE=Kel|oggs;41815229]I know most of you aren't pharmacologists but, do you think taking 25-50mg of Seroquel and 40-80mg of 5-HTP daily be a bad idea? I miss how motivated and energetic 5-htp made me. I do not however, miss the manic rage... Seroquel is making me feel really run down and I even see some social anxiety coming up that I never had before. I might ask to be taken off it if this trial period sucks.[/QUOTE]
Seroquel is an antipsychotic and thus is inherently awful to endure. I would only recommend taking these medications if you have a specific medical requirement.
You are probably just developing down's syndrome
That's like saying I developed albinism.
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