Last year, I was an emotionally unstable wreck- no self-esteem whatsoever, avoiding any social behavior whatsoever, typical emo teenager mindset. I also was just average- hated school, listened to music, etc. I had no idea where I was going to go or what I was going to do with my life.
Now, I'm almost overly self-confident, have a heap of good friends, can deal with life's normal bullshit much more effectively. Still hate school, still listen to music, but am learning how to code in Java, have built my own computer, fell in love with Star Trek, and I've joined in on the Magic The Gathering craze that's going on at my school. I realize that I want to work with the hardware side of Computer Science, because I loved building my computer and I love learning how basic electric circuits work in Discrete Math. I love working with my hands, and turning on that computer to hear a successful BIOS beep was an amazing moment- I want more of those "It LIIIVES!" moments.
Before: Schoolwork
Now: Dota
I stole from and lied to my family, ignored schoolwork, yet somehow managed to spend most days feeling sorry for myself.
Though he may not know this, a relatively new friend changed my view of life over the course of last year. I've now told everyone the truth, repaid them to the best of my ability, and graduated. Things are certainly looking up. :)
Was hell bored and depressed.
Take drugs and am the same when I don't have them.
Same weight: :suicide:
Still drink frequently: :suicide:
Better at maths: :eng101:
It's sad that I can't think of much more.
I haven't really met anyone new.. haven't ventured any avenues.
It's been a really non-productive year in everything but my studies.
Still a virgin
If I ever run into me from a year ago, I'll punch the faggot.
Last year, had no idea what I wanted to do with my life
Now I'm in college, have made way more friends, and I'm studying to become a sign language interpreter.
Still super lazy, still getting good grades in spite of that, still slowly maturing, still terrible at self-motivation.
I've improved significantly, I'm a lot more confident and outgoing now, even my studies have become better.
For better or worse, I decided to try out having emotions (I used repress any and all of them, making me the emotional equivalent of an automaton)
I sort of regret it, and sort of don't. it definitely made things more interesting though.
I still got some ways to go though
[QUOTE=da space core;44335360]For better or worse, I decided to try out having emotions (I used repress any and all of them, making me the emotional equivalent of an automaton)
I sort of regret it, and sort of don't. it definitely made things more interesting though.
I still got some ways to go though[/QUOTE]
Depends on what the emotions are, really. Bad emotions, you want to bottle up. Good ones though, they're awesome.
I have nicer clothes now.
I actually am recording scientific data when I am herping in the field this year, compared to doing field work as a hobby last year. I have a job on my college campus so I have more cash than last year. I drink more now, not a ridiculous amount but a lot more often than last year. Other than that things are pretty much the same.
A year ago I exclusively wore a genuine point and shoot on all my characters in tf2. Nowadays I wear something far more suiting my caliber of skill - an australium-painted ghastly gibus.
Last year at this time I was a sobbing mess. Having lost my mother on Christmas, I was bursting into tears at the drop of a hat and depressed 24/7. Now a days I'm still kind of down about that, but I can at least function without getting sad at a moments notice.
Last year, I was lazy, fat, and anti-social
This year, I'm still lazy, but I've lost weight, and I've joined some groups around town to keep my busy on the weekend. Still a fatass on the weekdays, though.
Then - Normal fat kid playing videogames too much. Enjoying life
Now - A exercised man, a caring person that helps out people in need and "healthy".
[sp]These points are probably present because I was sent to a psychiatrist and now I'm probably bipolar because of that. Struggling to stay alive, and I'm still not able to love the girl that made me fall into this trap.[/sp]
I was happier but less confident then, and was starting to smoke weed regularly.
I'm not as happy now, stopped smoking, and I'm a lot smarter and confident now.
Was a recovering drug addict and severe alcoholic with a girlfriend who was just with me for the sex while her main man was living in Toronto.
Now I'm a clean young man, without even cigarettes in my life, I moved to the city and I'm training to become a fully licensed security guard and hopefully that will bud into a duel license as a private investigator which will in turn bloom into many more career opportunities.
Don't screw up your life when you're in highschool. You might think those days last forever but damn they end quick and you wind up in a downward spiral before you know it. Stay safe and stay smart. I'm not saying don't have fun but there's better, more rewarding things you can do for fun when you're young.
Physical and mental health went to shit. Had huge plans for this year, now they'll have to wait until I can get some energy back into me. Hopefully before this year is up.
[editline]24th March 2014[/editline]
But I did figure out some fun music-related things (for the better).
I was in piss-poor state, started experimenting with certain drugs, and overall just went back and forth with the consideration of killing myself for the sheer fuck of it.
Now I'm in a slightly better state, getting myself off any/all drugs, and working with my depression.
im cooler now I guess
Still the same old shithead.
everything is the same only slightly better...
i still have no housing for next semester, i still have to make up a class i failed, and i still can't get a fucking internship/coop, and my dad is unemployed again
but on the bright side i'm doing better in classes especially math
Everyone in Facepunch seems to be depressed babies
Used to enjoy playing games i have in steam, Not so much nowadays.
I was 1 year younger, a year ago.
[QUOTE=Heftymadbobby;44341519]Everyone in Facepunch seems to be depressed babies[/QUOTE]
we probably all wouldn't post here if we had actual friends and happy lives
I've been more open, and less depressed than I was. I met my best friend exactly one year ago and she has changed my life ever since.
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