My father's a severe alcoholic, to the point of drinking enough booze to keep him drunk until the afternoon the next day, daily. I've also seen and experienced some terrible shit that has left me distrusting, bitter and generally angry.
Aspergers sucks a lot and I'm a conservative in a very liberal place so no one actually talks to me except for sending me hostile messages on facebook like [QUOTE]So I just unfriended you because I don't need someone with as much hateful negativitiy anywhere near my life, but I just wanted to say how fucking dare you tell someone they don't face injustice you cannot speak for anyone but yourself and honestly at this point maybe take a break from that until you've stepped back and taken a better look at the world you live in and decide what sort of example you want to set. I'm Jewish too and I'm ashamed that you've put such a bigoted and oppressive face on it. Please rethink your life.[/QUOTE]
this was over an argument about the wage gap when I said it didn't exist and that women make less because they have more time off. Since then I am just not willing to talk to anyone about anything. Parents are disappointed that I spend all my time playing video games and browsing facepunch. I really don't care about school and just go through the motions to please my parents, in junior year of high school and no idea what I want to do. My anxieties are also coming back quickly with the "fun" additions of panic attacks randomly. I'm addicted to Coca Cola and I'm just lonely with only a few online friends and one real friend who is often gone. I don't think I'll be able to get a girlfriend anytime soon. I also want to be a writer and have written some stories that people say are good (I don't know if they are actually good or just that people wanted to be nice to me) but I can't motivate myself to do anything. People make fun of me often for being Jewish and Israeli which makes me overcompensate and interject my religion and nationality almost everyone in order to show people that jews can be normal but it just makes me weird. I'm just sad and anxious almost all the time now.
the fact my little brothers and sister will never have a mom or a dad
[editline]30th November 2014[/editline]
well my brothers have a dad, but me and my sister are both without a dad and we all don't have a mom
not that I care or anything I'm 22 years old.
Getting dumped by someone who I thought loved me.
I've been trying to rebuild myself as a person the last couple years. Wasn't a good person when I was in high school, hung with a really bad crowd. Cut most of those friends out of my life, save a few. I've been struggling with a lot lately and I feel like no one is there to support me. Try to talk to my mom, she only brings up "having a strong relationship with god" and I don't even talk to my father. The guy I used to think was my best friend thinks he is such an intelligent human being and that I'm some sort of moron, therefore I'm wasting my time by enrolling in college. There is only one girl that I feel like she cares, but shes engaged to someone else so I think it's better if I just stay away from her for my sake, I keep on dreaming about her though. I'm just not sure what to do anymore, I feel kinda trapped about the whole situation.
My grandmother passed away to cancer in 2009, my mom thought I took it well but a while ago I had a dream where my Grandma in it, and I told her everything I accomplished so far in life and she told me how proud she was of me.
I cried the night I graduated because my Grandma never got to see me walk the stage.
[QUOTE=165your4;46602109]Old people eating alone at restaurants.[/QUOTE]
We had this set of twins in our neighborhood. Both women, both considerably old, always seen together, and always wore the same clothes in the fashion of the early 1900s. Obviously, they were a sight, and became a local celebrity in the city. They did everything together, and always showed up for lunch in the same restaurant, ordering the same thing, and sitting in the same window seat, where people would sometimes wave to and take pictures of the eccentric duo.
One day recently, however, one of them died, and the other one had to cope with the loss.
Something died in every familiar passerby when you looked in that window and seeing the lonely old woman eating her lunch at the front table.
Something that personally gets me sad? When I think about things too much and realize I'm not going to contribute to society so I'm better off killing myself now to save the world the burden. That and the fact that I have few positive qualities to speak of.
Got dumped exactly 30 days and 2 hours ago. Been in a downward spiral ever since.
What got me really sad is that one night I dreamed that I won her back. But that won't happen.
When my sister is always being rude to my parents and bringing my mom to tears....
Losing a pair of good friends because of circumstances that were, ultimately, beyond my control. Even worse knowing that things will probably never go back to normal no matter what I do.
Split up with my girlfriend a while back and now it seems like girls just aren't even remotely interested in me anymore.
Also I miss my dog.
Shit that makes me sad? Animal abuse. Animal abuse is the worst thing ever and if someone on my facebook or twitter shares something on their timeline about animal abuse, where I watch it without knowing it's something bad, I literally start to cry and get 'nightmares' / can't sleep because I keep thinking about it. Forexample a dog, if you cut its ear off, what can he do other than just suffer. Just by thinking of this, brings bad stuff to my mind.
When I see a friend like 3 times in one day and we don't say a word to eachother throughout it
it's like, I feel like I'm definitely doing something to offend them and it makes me feel kinda shit until at some point we actually do have a conversation
Having to live with the fact I can never realize my dreams.
My life currently. Everything is so fucked up and chaotic these past few months
Seeing other people's suffering and having practically no frame of reference because my life has been pretty fucking easy ever since I was born. Like, everyone else has real problems and here I am where my biggest issue with my life is having to hide a part of who I am from a family who literally wouldn't treat me any worse if I let them know.
[QUOTE=The Worm;46625813]Seeing other people's suffering and having practically no frame of reference because my life has been pretty fucking easy ever since I was born. Like, everyone else has real problems and here I am where my biggest issue with my life is having to hide a part of who I am from a family who literally wouldn't treat me any worse if I let them know.[/QUOTE]
You shouldn't feel bad that you haven't experienced that kind of thing. It's honestly really lucky you haven't.
I understand what you mean though, it really sucks when you can't really compare the kind of things you've been through to what someone else has gone through. Makes you feel a little useless at that point, or like you don't really deserve what you have
[QUOTE=IAreLegend;46616914]Split up with my girlfriend a while back and now it seems like girls just aren't even remotely interested in me anymore.
Also I miss my dog.[/QUOTE]
I miss your dog too.
The existence of this thread and the stuff people post on it
[editline]28th November 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=Tmaxx;46597119] my dad's a dick and my moms childish as fuck, i'll never have a united family.[/QUOTE]
p much this
I hope to move far from here with a group of friends in America or one close friend I know some day, but I know that day is far from now.
along with one that you rarely talk to because people are ignorant, selfish, inconsiderate and closed minded. What sucks is if that persons your own blood because you have to deal with them [B]every single day.[/B] :v:
i always like to remember that fear and nervousness is merely just an emotion, but danger is a real thing. It's more beneficial that way.
Another thing that makes me sad is that Tanuki's (Japanese Raccoon Dogs) along with many animals are being literally skinned alive for their fur coats to made into clothing and sold to the public. It's disgusting to think about but we humans are truly evil.
Realizing that I've never actually been in love before and that nobody has ever loved me back
Birthdays. I don't know why but they do.
that my best friends have changed and they are assholes now
being lonely
like right now
My dad wants a divorce with my mom and he's saying he's going to kick her out of the house. Nobody wants to deal with her because she gets psychotic when she drinks so nobody in my family would take her in. She probably lost her job today because she was too drunk to work. She will have nothing and nobody to help her if they go through with this divorce as she will become homeless.
My dad has never given me a hug, or told me he loved me, or proud on me, or anything. I spend half of all my weekends with him as long as I can remember, but it still doesn't feel like i am his son.
Dude that I graduated with died. Overdosed on some kind of party drug. His stupid decision to poison himself like that, but he's leaving behind his 3 year old daughter with no father.
My life since I was dumped has fallen apart and now I'm dragging my family into the downward spiral. My family is worried sick that I'm going to hurt myself and they have good reason to. Perhaps the only reason I don't kill myself is that it will rip my family to shreds...
[QUOTE=JoeSkylynx;46598909]Just recently I was diagnosed with aspergers and schizophrenia. For my twenty years of life, this all went undiagnosed and it was always stated that I had attention deficit disorder, and because of this I was shoveled with tons of medications which were ultimately useless and incredibly harmful to my body. Some actually caused me to have liver and kidney problems which persist to this day, and at the time caused me to have random periods of weight loss going from 100 to 70 pounds in mere weeks.
As time went on, my problems in school got worse and I ended up getting arrested twice, and being constantly held back, but still kept in the same grade. This was never seen as a problem with the district I was in, but it later came to bite me on the ass, where I was unable to do much math or science related work in school, and evidently tried to look for an escape in highschool to avoid being shamed and scolded by my fellow classmates for being mentally retarded.
With the current point in time, I am unemployed, have no driver license, and lack a GED. My aspirations for life have fallen through my hands like water after realizing that my hallucinations are getting worse with time, and therefore defeating any chances of myself becoming a Game Warden or Pilot... Two of my dreams since childhood. Not to mention that schizophrenia may also lead to the outright removal of my other hobbies that made me want to be a Game Warden in the first place.
Even while trying to fix these problems, I'm constantly hitting walls due to years of lack of self confidence, education, and just want of self-preservation. It has become a point know where I have considered going to Oregon, living their for three months out on the streets, and then requesting to be legally euthanized for being such subhuman trash.[/QUOTE]
And another thing to add to the shit-stew: Right when I was starting to get things organized and setup, my psychologist gets sick, and now I have to wait a month till I can even possibly get medicated. I understand illness, and such, but they have everything on file now, why can they not call the doctor and ask her what she can medicate me?? Seriously, I have been on this emotional roller coaster for five months, and all they have done is diagnose me, and keep having me say very blankly, "I hate myself, I lack self-confidence, I have a fucked up personality, and I want to be euthanized" over and over again.
[editline]4th December 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=Medevila;46623696]Google Cardboard for the oblivious is cell phone + cardboard headset = nice cheap VR
Can use it to view photospheres. Feels like you're actually there.
I have some photospheres of meaningful places, some with family and etc. Being far from home, putting on the headset and looking at them is an easy way to indulge in being homesick.[/QUOTE]
With how technology is advancing, I plan on eventually making a few videos for Google Cardboard, and having videos for each one of my family members and friends, telling them how much I love them, and how much I'm sorry for the shit I have done in the past to them. Talking about memories and such, and just hopefully letting it be a good note for any chance I might die in an accident.
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