For some reason, the opening to the mr bean series.
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I'm apprehensive about beginning my career as a writer.
I fear becoming a writer whose works fill the dusty, baron, untouched shelves of the nasty, run-down Goodwill across the block. I fear that I'll end up the author of some mediocre book that some snot-nosed kid writes half-assed reading log entries about each night when he comes home from middle school.
I suppose it's comforting to know I'm just seriously kidding myself. No one is likely to read an amateur book anyway.
Other people being sad and hearing someone talk about something bad in their life.
Seriously, sometimes I just feel like I could give those sad people a big hug or at least try to say something along the lines of "You can do it, I believe in you" without feeling they see me as some sort of creep that looks like he hasn't slept for a decade or so.
Here on Facepunch too, when I see a post that tells how shitty their life is, I just want to come over at their place through the monitor or something crazy like that, give big hug and say something empowering so that they can continue their life happily ever after, even if for a sliver of time.
i have a brother that died of cancer at the age of 2, before i was even born.
Fast Threads.
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This video.
It's a .webm so I can't embed it.
I don't have a lot of friends and one of my friends (my used to be best friend) has slowly over the past 2 years turned from my great (but sometimes temperamental) friend to someone who smokes weed all the time, says "Nigga" a lot and doesn't hang out anymore because I won't smoke weed with him. He's more bigoted than ever and has overall changed dramatically and he denys it. And not too long ago it finally ended, he called me racist for supporting the Ferguson cop and removed me from everything. I only have a couple friends left in the circle of friends we started back in middle school. Everyones changing so much, and sadly not for the better. It's hard to find people like me or my friends. So making friends is tough, i'm either too offensive (omg holocaust joeks are meen!1), different interests, etc.
My other friend that i've been friends with for just as long is now my new best friend but he never does anything but sit at home. I just want new best friend like I had.
I need some more friends.
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This song hits me every fucking time.
[QUOTE=HWECQI;46597160]I get sad when I get hit with some major lonelies.
I mean I'm fine with being single cuz I know I'm not really in a good position for a relationship, but when you're surrounded by people who are dating, married, engaged, etc., you feel kinda like you're missing something big[/QUOTE] That's kinda similar to my situation. I want to sometimes hang out with my friend but he always has something going on with his GF. ALWAYS. So pretty much the way I look at it is, people invest way too much time into their partner. You gotta have a tiny bit of time away.
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that last paragraph ;_;7
No matter how hard I try, I keep fucking up in chemistry and math somehow. Parents keep telling me "oh, you're smart, and this is all really easy, why are you having problems?" Well maybe I'm not smart. Maybe I can't handle all honors classes, maybe I'm not that person with a brilliant career and shining future that you envisioned. Maybe all I want is normalcy, to not constantly struggle and then find myself giving up on school more with each passing day.
Early this year I finished university/college and had to face the reality of getting a full-time job. That's turned out to be the least of my problems but I still feel like a complete ass for complaining about my life of luxury compared to people living in poverty or third world countries.
What I'm missing is something no amount of money can buy. After finishing college all my friends moved on and I moved back to my home town that I haven't been in for years, and suddenly I had no local friends. It took a while to sink in but I eventually realised how much I miss the times playing splitscreen multiplayer with the friends from college. As a consequence I became much closer to numerous friends of mine on Steam as they were all I had left...
Then I started losing them too.
Sometimes there was no reason, sometimes it was as simple as "you don't send me messages" or saying one thing out of line without even meaning any offense, but within the space of about a month I lost all but one of those friends to such reasons. I've tried catching up with people that had been friendly in the past but I hadn't gotten tot know, but none of them were returning any efforts to get to know them better or get closer. Most days the only people I interact with are my colleagues/teammates at work and my parents (that I honestly can't wait to get away from).
Now I know that when your social life goes down the shitter that fast, it's easy to start second-guessing yourself. Thinking things like "if I were actually an at all appealing person, why does everyone I interact with only have problems with me?", and it seems to have become a catch-22 as I find myself becoming ever more grumpy or moody. Why bother trying if everyone is going to avoid you regardless, right?
As a person of many hobbies I just have no motivation for anything anymore. Work is partially responsible for making me too tired to have energy for anything. But now many a night, I just sit at my PC scrolling through the "friends" list hoping for someone to say something, 96% the people of which I haven't said a word to in years or have already tried to make my situation clear with. I didn't ever think loneliness could be such agony, it started catching up with me halfway through last year but now it's unbearable and I have come close to breaking down at fucking work a couple of days.
I don't want to tell anyone because I know there is nothing anyone can do about it, but I'm 22 now and I feel like a failure because no one besides my parents has ever looked me in the eyes and said "I love you" besides my parents. Even now I don't feel close to my parents, my workaholic Dad gets on my nerves, wasn't there for my entire childhood and my Mum while helpful is difficult to talk to because her mood is unpredictable and she can snap. Both insist on me taking fucking driving lessons that I don't feel ready for which just adds to the stress and seems pointless when I'll be moving somewhere within easily commutable distance to work.
People are starting to notice I'm not myself though, despite going to lengths to hide it constantly. I ache so badly for someone I can love and trust or at least just be friends but I'm tired of it all and feel like any new friends are just a liability; another chance to lose someone and get upset again.
The last friend I lost was particularly close and swore not to leave me, but I snapped at him and it happened anyway despite my regrets. I lost my ability to think rationally and hurt myself, but I won't deny I've also started having occasional thoughts of ways I could easily just end it all.
Thinking about ex-girlfriend's boobies
It wasn't that big but that thing was pretty good place to put my head on.
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