• Mental Illness and Disorders Megathread
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I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 8 after my mother died of cancer. Now I'm beginning to worry about my behavior. I've never been violent, abusive or mean spirited but in the past few weeks I've been having more outbursts of violence. Tonight it was toward my cat, who wouldn't stop scratching at my door. Two nights ago I yelled at my grandma because I was angry, and cried for the rest of the night because I felt like absolute shit for doing so. A week ago I wanted to kill my neighbors for being obnoxious assholes. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm not a violent person in my nature. In fact I used to be the biggest pacifist around. But now I can't stop thinking about hurting myself or others on a near daily basis. During my moments I'll be fully aware of what I'm doing, but afterwards I'll immediately feel remorse often too extreme for the offense. IE, becoming depressed after verbal argument with my grandma. But that's not the part that gets my attention. It's the fact that I'll be 100% happy and positive one day, and terribly depressed and anxious another day. Am I a psychopath? Or just letting my depression and anxiety fuck me over? If it helps, I've been off my antidepressants for 3 years, and I noticed during the time I was taking them I'd get violent for short amounts of time but cool off relatively quickly. Tell me, FP. What should I do?
[QUOTE=Roll_Program;41276723]Is that diagnosed?[/QUOTE] Nope
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To be honest I don't know if I actually have a disorder, or if I was just "being a teenager". I was never officially diagnosed with anything but I've heard my parents drop hints to other people that the teachers thought I was messed up or something, but that they rubbed it off because I was eventually labeled a "gifted" kid and that makes everything better even though I got mediocre grades in that gifted class and was probably the least interesting kid there: other students were doing like, advanced science projects and learning calculus in grade five, and all I could do was get nosebleeds too easily. In a regular high-school I got mostly 90s and stuff so I don't know. Maybe I'm only partially gifted. Anyway I've always been slow to make friends and I've always been depressed and I've always been thought off by some people as cold and emotionless (apparently I talk like a robot) and sometimes I don't really know what to say or do in social situations. I thought I might have aspergers, or clinical depression, or schizoid personality disorder, or some sort of social thing, but I can read others emotions just fine and I'm not totally apathetic about things. When it comes to certain types of people I can even hold a good conversation. I don't really know if it's me or other people but when someone comes up to me and talks in some sort of slang I don't know about and they talk about drugs or pop stars I don't know about - when that happens I really have no idea what to say or how to respond. I just get anxious and tense. I probably shouldn't worry about this too much. It's not like they're terminal illnesses or anything. I'm going to university in September and hopefully by then things will look up and I'll be more "normal".
I have been diagnosed with ADHD but im also starting to think i may have aspergers too
Every time I'm involved in a social situation, instead of just speaking or making friend, I just can't manage to speak with a clear voice, like if I had grater rubbing my throat or something. What could it possibly be ?
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I have social anxiety, really. That's about it. It makes it hell to summon up the courage to apply for jobs and talk to people I don't know. I'm a little slow to make friends, but after that I'm usually pretty comfortable and extroverted. My social anxiety seems to stem from a fear of judgement, as it's hard for me to try new things because I have an overhanging suspicion that I'll be ridiculed for doing something wrong. Even when talking to a stranger, like a cashier or something like that, I'll find myself tongue-tied and beat myself up for it later for not saying the right things.
Should I consider seeing a psychologist or something ? This thing is ruining my life.
Anxiety, Hallucinogenic Persisting Perception Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Clinical Depression, Substance Use The combination is probably building up into some form psychosis.
When I was in a psych ward, there was a patient who was very smart and very delusional. Sometimes she believed that she was one of the staff (doctor, nurse, tech, janitor, she thought she was all these things at different times.) Once when all the staff were busy and not paying attention to her, she answered the staff phone and it turned out it was the supervisor calling. It was bizarre.
[QUOTE=pie_is_good;41280254]To be honest I don't know if I actually have a disorder, or if I was just "being a teenager". I was never officially diagnosed with anything but I've heard my parents drop hints to other people that the teachers thought I was messed up or something, but that they rubbed it off because I was eventually labeled a "gifted" kid and that makes everything better even though I got mediocre grades in that gifted class and was probably the least interesting kid there: other students were doing like, advanced science projects and learning calculus in grade five, and all I could do was get nosebleeds too easily. In a regular high-school I got mostly 90s and stuff so I don't know. Maybe I'm only partially gifted. Anyway I've always been slow to make friends and I've always been depressed and I've always been thought off by some people as cold and emotionless (apparently I talk like a robot) and sometimes I don't really know what to say or do in social situations. I thought I might have aspergers, or clinical depression, or schizoid personality disorder, or some sort of social thing, but I can read others emotions just fine and I'm not totally apathetic about things. When it comes to certain types of people I can even hold a good conversation. I don't really know if it's me or other people but when someone comes up to me and talks in some sort of slang I don't know about and they talk about drugs or pop stars I don't know about - when that happens I really have no idea what to say or how to respond. I just get anxious and tense. I probably shouldn't worry about this too much. It's not like they're terminal illnesses or anything. I'm going to university in September and hopefully by then things will look up and I'll be more "normal".[/QUOTE]Sounds like you worry too much about you worrying too much.
I have adhd and im able to control it with no meds
I had pretty severe ADHD when I was a kid, but it's pretty nonexistant now.
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Severe depression, anxiety and suspected Aspergers, I have also had paranoia, delusional thoughts that are so bad that I feel like the person behind me is going to kill me and visual hallucinations, the hallucinations are not that bad yet, just seeing things move that are not moving. I heard that schizophrenics present symptoms of Aspergers so I might be going crazy! Yay!
[QUOTE=Lebowski;41283938]Anxiety, Hallucinogenic Persisting Perception Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Clinical Depression, Substance Use The combination is probably building up into some form psychosis.[/QUOTE] Have you done psychadelics before/could that be the cause?
I have GAD and I'm suspected of having ADHD and depression. Took Celexa for a few months, but it didn't do anything but make me lose weight.
Thanks for all the information on the sleep related stuff. I think I may have a combination of a few sleep disorders listed.
I got put on fluoxetine this morning (20mg a day) for depression. I'm not really sure what to expect to be honest. [editline]3rd July 2013[/editline] i also dont know if that's relevant to this thread, sorry, i assumed it was
I've got Paruresis, fear of peeing in the presence of others [editline]3rd July 2013[/editline] And some anxiety. Not as bad as it used to be, i guess. still. i get anxiety attacks. the first month after i quit smoking (cold turkey) was terrible.
[QUOTE=Lebowski;41283938]Anxiety, Hallucinogenic Persisting Perception Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Clinical Depression, Substance Use The combination is probably building up into some form psychosis.[/QUOTE] Did you self diagnose?
For the longest time I never really believed in "mental illness" I was always depressed since before I was a teen even, always had these sorts of "bipolar" issues but I always thought labeling it as a disease or illness was stupid and makes it look like a serious thing that needs medication, etc. when people should treat it as a normal thing that everyone should expect and respect each other for. Same thing with ADHD. Well, a long while ago, a year or over ago, I began to have some serious mental issues. I felt really really uncomfortable all the time, really paranoid, felt like everything and everyone wanted to kill me, out in public I was hearing whispering of my name and like everyone was talking shit about me, I'm sure I even approached people about it and they thought I was crazy at some point. I began thinking my food was poisoned and I checked to make sure all my food was COMPLETELY sealed, scared people poisoned it. I was terrified of eating food made by other people, even at restaurants with a flawless history. Whenever I ate it I thought in my mind "oh no this is it, I ate it, I'm going to die now" and then afterwards I must have played on this show in my head that I was poisoned and weak and getting sick and was in the process of dying. It sometimes even made me want to kill out of revenge for my inevitable death. My delusions and ever hallucinations got worse and I began to accept it as reality, even as the internet and common sense told me otherwise. The fact that I didn't believe in mental illness made things worse for myself. I began to look up issues I'm having and seeing if other people were getting their food poisoned and what not, of course paranoid that the government is tracking the stuff I type, in fact I'm paranoid to this day knowing my whole history of the stuff I post like this is on there. I saw stuff about schizophrenia and other issues related to delusions but I was in denial. It didn't even really hit me that I was being stupidly irrational until I was closing all the shutters and everything I could in the house, and taking down picture frames and stuff that hidden cameras could have been behind. I finally took myself to the psychiatrist and when he was trying to talk to me about my issues he kept trying to tell me all these pills I can take, I began to cry because I felt like nobody could help me, I didn't want to take no pills I just wanted to go back to the way things used to be, you know? I left and never came back, I never took anything and slowly began to feel a bit better by trying to calm down and look at situations realistically. I was fine for months but a few days or weeks ago, I don't remember, I suddenly had a slight mental breakdown and was hearing things and paranoid. Same things happened the next night. Feeling fine now and I would like to think things are over and don't really want to hear anyone tell me otherwise. It might be stupid of me to admit this and post this online but I think it will feel good to get it out. I'm really sorry for any of you that have issues in life and hope you can get them worked out to lead a productive normal life. I still don't want to believe in these mental "illnesses" and like to just think of it as an issue everyone has as a result of past incidents or whatever causes them.
So how do I get seen about possibly being depressed in Canada. Every doctor I've tried to go through is completely useless.
[QUOTE=DoctorSalt;41286904]Have you done psychadelics before/could that be the cause?[/QUOTE] Well, psychedelics never caused it themselves until I did the RC chem 2ci-nbome which is widely known for doing a buncha bad shit to people randomly because it affects everyone VERY differently in some cases. Which I took knowing this despite my good experienced friend's advice because it was during a rather common depressive phase where I didn't give a fuck about my current state of well being. After becoming heavily mentally unhinged from a horrible 14 hour trip from that nbome, it sent me through a two week cocaine binge where I also consumed a large amount of mushrooms afterwards for two-three consecutive days without giving my brain any time to recover to a state of normalcy. I did this conscious of the repercussions that could very possibly, and did well follow. While I haven't been driven entirely crazy or entirely emotionless and schizophrenic because I do have month or two long periods where I don't do anything to give myself time to recover, but my habitual use causes me to crave a drug of some sort eventually and I go through another one of these binges. It's a self-feeding cycle of depression stemming from traumatic shit in my past, and depression stemming from having to deal with my borderline personality disorder. I'm constantly very low on dopamine, or my brain doesn't quite know when to release it as a reward for something healthy because my habitual drug use has rewired that part of my brain. I've slowed down recently but without a doubt it seriously worsened all of my prevalent conditions and exposed the possibility if I keep going in this particularly bad direction I will eventually end up getting caught because of my drug use from some sort of induced psychosis.
[QUOTE=matt000024;41287421]Thanks for all the information on the sleep related stuff. I think I may have a combination of a few sleep disorders listed.[/QUOTE] i can nearly guarantee you don't have a sleep disorder (no more than anyone else who uses the internet at least), you just have an issue with using your comp late at night. please read my post and download flux if you think it suits you.
I get £150 a month for having barely noticeable ADHD, could be worse [editline]3rd July 2013[/editline] I stopped taking medication 2 years ago and everything is going way smoother than it was before, pretty funny.
[QUOTE=oakman26;41292190]I bet the most of you are just making it up as an excuse for yourself to be the way you are.[/QUOTE] Ya I know I totally agree. Only a serious physical disability or illness is really an excuse to sort of "drop out of life" in certain aspects in my opinion. Sort of annoying how people act like it's impossible to change their situation so let's just talk about it and down some more meds. People should focus on what is causing the problem rather then trying to justify it as an illness that they can control with medication. Maybe it's the doctor or psychologist or psychiatrist convincing them. Also, you are no doubt going to get crap for being that one person to finally say that.
having a mental illness like a lower form of ADHD in the UK is pretty good if anything, tons of benefits for something that you barely notice extra time on exams, DLA etc. [editline]3rd July 2013[/editline] fully blown ADHD or even aspergers would suck regardless of how much money you get, though
[QUOTE=bobbert4ever;41292518]Ya I know I totally agree. Only a serious physical disability or illness is really an excuse to sort of "drop out of life" in certain aspects in my opinion. Sort of annoying how people act like it's impossible to change their situation so let's just talk about it and down some more meds. People should focus on what is causing the problem rather then trying to justify it as an illness that they can control with medication. Maybe it's the doctor or psychologist or psychiatrist convincing them. Also, you are no doubt going to get crap for being that one person to finally say that.[/QUOTE] That's what psychotherapy is, trying to find the root of the problem. More often than not it's a neurotransmitter issue and the only reliable way to fix that is with medication. I do think more people could benefit from some exercise and eating better though. Obviously your body and mind are going to shit if you're just sitting on your ass all day eating pizza rolls. So many people don't even try to stimulate themselves and just want a quick fix to continue their stagnant lifestyle comfortably.
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