For the Record: I missed out on life (and gained nothing as a teen) - General

what was this mythical "pizza incident" mips [editline]27th March 2011[/editline] sounds like a barrel of laughs and a fun story about how you went to a pizzeria and you got pizza on your nose! or you know something dark about how pizza got thrown at you or something [editline]27th March 2011[/editline] and then afterwards you got depressed and started printing out pictures of bombs and taping them to the parent's cars of kids you don't like [editline]27th March 2011[/editline] [img]http://gyazo.com/2a79bf9f78be8b7afaa4b2f40307d4d4.png[/img] mips what the fuck is wrong with you, i mean honestly here don't off yourself jesus christ

Yeah MIPS don't kill yourself over sex, good sex is about as satisfying as a really good movie, so just go watch Inception or something

[QUOTE=Zeke129;28815062]I feel the same way with bigots Except I don't like them when they're far away from me either[/QUOTE] i love you

[QUOTE=Zeke129;28838164]Yeah MIPS don't kill yourself over sex, good sex is about as satisfying as a really good movie, so just go watch Inception or something[/QUOTE] i don't know about you, but i can't recall a movie that made me shoot a load before

[QUOTE=Dachande;28838388]i don't know about you, but i can't recall a movie that made me shoot a load before[/QUOTE] If the act of ejaculation is what makes sex good then I guess masturbation is just as good as sex right

[QUOTE=Zeke129;28838445]If the act of ejaculation is what makes sex good then I guess masturbation is just as good as sex right[/QUOTE] Wisdom.

[QUOTE=windwakr;28838720]Aren't you that guy who was gonna move to a furry farm?[/QUOTE] They... have farms?

Wait if you can hardly afford food, how the fuck can you afford Internet?

OCD keeps him eating .5th of his food a day as he calculated that is how much he needs to survive buys in bulk, eats a little bit

Hey, you went to Kamloops? I had to briefly talk about it in an English assignment for school, because of George Manuel, an indian-american activist.

[QUOTE=BackOnCrack;28813131]Whats with the influx of "I got bullied" and feel bad for me threads lately?[/QUOTE] Depressing time of the year i suppose!

[QUOTE=Murkat;28839259]Wait if you can hardly afford food, how the fuck can you afford Internet?[/QUOTE] Priorities man, internet first.

[QUOTE=MIPS;28830155] 2: I tried working out. I gained ten pounds and gave up because I doubt I'll be showing anything off. [/QUOTE] Now this is the wrong attitude. After a two months of working out at a gym, I grew some proper muscles, like ones that I can actually show. Giving up because you don't see anything straight away is pathetic. I mean your situation is really sad and I feel for you, but you can't just give up, everything in life takes time. For exercise, you just have to make a plan and keep at it, always tell yourself that there will be results.

Ah well.

[QUOTE=cdrw5;28828773]Is it really that expensive to go to college in America? I am now in a electrical engineering course and the government pays me 1000 euros for it when it only costs about 500.[/QUOTE] The amount your government pays you wouldn't even cover a fifth of the room and board down in America for your average university. Be grateful you live in whatever country you live in.

Face it, we live on a shitty planet full of shitty people.

OP, I have the same feelings that you have at times. I was professionally diagnosed with mild autism at around 2 years of age or so. I have a strong love for computers (currently attending CCNA, and took a A+ course last year), and I simply adore the English language and politics to near obsessive levels. But there are times when I feel like absolute shit and I feel like that I'm an absolute failure (middle school was absolute hell for me, but I am fairing out much better in high school - I was bulled constantly). I am also extremely paranoid at times. If you want to communicate with me on Steam, go ahead.

i recently started watching the TV show Oz maybe i'm easily pleased but i just appreciate that my life doesn't consist entirely of being raped in prison

It's hard growing up after you've gone to the digital world. [editline]27th March 2011[/editline] Have you met any new digimon by the way?

[QUOTE=Kontradaz;28828963]Aww, Facepunch's personal military recruiter. "Join the military! What can go wrong? You'll see the world! You'll get skills!" You give the same damn spiel they give to those deadbeat high school kids, w/ all the pretty bells and whistles yet conveniently leaving out some of the more questionable aspects.[/QUOTE] uh you pretty much do get to see some parts of the world and get skills and training and actually might end up becoming a better person in the long run if by 'questionable aspects', you mean getting shot at and dying or getting shit that was promised to you that ended up being left out of your contract? because there are ways to work around those things to fit someone's needs

[QUOTE=Esteam;28838774]They... have farms?[/QUOTE] To avoid the persecution they bring on themselves, or for the betterment of humanity. Your choice.

[QUOTE=MIPS;28830155]I don't think I can work against the fact that I'm always fearing I won't make next month's rent while another person I know is equally as autistic, never finished highschool, and is originally american and has never worked a real job, yet receives $1300 disability cheques twice a month just because he's autistic. Son of a bitch. No anti-depressants. I was on medication for three quarters of my life and I am NOT going back. I also already take walks from my place on 35th out to the end of the airport and back. That's normally about a six hour walk.[/QUOTE] there are plenty of free hobby and interest groups out there. trust me. if you keep trying, if you keep [B]looking[/B], you [B]WILL[/B] find someone.

You're putting yourself up against other's accomplishments. Don't do that, seriously you're in control of your life and the deciding factor in what you do. If you really wanted, you could pick yourself up and change everything you're going through right now, It's all mental. Pick up a guitar, teach yourself the new technology, your only limit is your own will. Now for the killing yourself at 40, seriously? That's bullshit bro, suppose you find someone within now and then? will this mopey attitude still be around? Fuck Einstein and that kid challenging his theories. You're trying to live up to some weird standards and not realizing that you are the one in charge of what goes on in your life. You're too negative, you're countering what people say with a negative attitude. Remember you're never alone, when you least expect it, your life will turn around. If you ever need anyone to talk to pm me.

Fuck the world. Be whoever you want to be and don't try and live up to any one else's expectations. About the "being stuck on one subject" shit: You just need the willpower to do something. Want to learn music? Pick up a shitty guitar, learn a few chords, and find some online tutorials or an old lesson book. Want to learn about newer technology? Go on and teach yourself about newer technology. Want to be social? Go out and [I]be social[/I]. If you have the drive to do it, you'll be able to do it. [editline]27th March 2011[/editline] Look, if you need somebody to talk to, I'm here. I've already added you as a friend on Steam, and if you'd prefer some other messaging program, you can tell me.

Hey, me too!

Guess what? Man up. No one pities a whiner. Seriously just pick yourself up and go on with life. [editline]28th March 2011[/editline] after reading your whole story though it did make me a little sad :frown:

[QUOTE=Kontradaz;28828963]Aww, Facepunch's personal military recruiter. "Join the military! What can go wrong? You'll see the world! You'll get skills!" You give the same damn spiel they give to those deadbeat high school kids, w/ all the pretty bells and whistles yet conveniently leaving out some of the more questionable aspects.[/QUOTE] ROTC/Air Force is nothing like the Army in the steriotypical sense. Half of my HS friends joined the ROTC/Air Force and they are really awesome people because of it. The people who join the AF tend to be pretty big geeks too as its a much more technical field. I.E. one of said friends has his own group of folks he hangs out with from the AF where they do LAN parties and such all the time. While you might not be working with old computers from the 80's, or maybe not computers at all, it's still a technical field and someone with a geekier nature will be accepted much more than in some place like the Army. ESPECIALLY if you are the kind of person who wants to apply themselves to improve their life. And don't live in Alabama (though I'm pretty sure people who join the AF don't stick around in their home state). And the tech aspect might find appeal in you too - I'd really like to do game design for example, but am currently studying graphic design in school. It's not directly related, and theres aspects of graphic design I REALLY don't care about but the general principles of design are useful skills to know. Plus it relates to my true interest just enough for me to be interested and fulfilled by my studies as well.

Eh, I thought of joining the military when I was a kid once, but I'd rather not fight someone else's war. They set you up to fight, and they reap the profits. And it's not like they care that much about you, so you wear no body armor.

This "deal with it" talk is not helping at all. I dealt with being bullied for about fifteen years of my life and it has nearly driven me insane. It's painful enough to suffer a mental breakdown in front of my own boss, then try to man it up and answer the phone with a straight voice. I don't want to sell my computers. They are literally all I have. There are also no vintage computer groups in northwestern north america. You have to hit San Diego or Ottawa before you find anything and even then it's all mid-lifers. Kids these days don't care about shit like this ebcause it can't run crysis. I also still see suicide as a neutral event so long as you have set aside several thousand dollars in funds to cover your own funeral before hand. In my case it's not like I'll be paying for a large funeral, six people at most, that includes my parents and family who are still alive.

why not radically change your life/lifestyle? sell your shit bail overseas