For the Record: I missed out on life (and gained nothing as a teen) - General

<3 for OP...

[QUOTE=MIPS;28873485] HOW? HOW?! I can barely fucking afford gas to get across town, I have to save up for a month just so I can afford the gas to see my parents four hours away. How can I do something I like when I can't afford to travel around or get to said places to do shit I like?[/QUOTE] [img_thumb]http://jeffmcnair.com/Biblelessons/walk.jpg[/img_thumb] I mean you do it anyway when you're mopey, so go and find something to do.

[QUOTE=Paramud;28813228]I'd rather be homeless and doing what I love than rich in a job I absolutely hate.[/QUOTE] I'd rather be in a job I hate and make millions, because at the end of the day, I'd go home in my Shelby Cobra to see my nice, big mansion and my ten thousand dollar gaming setup/theater so I could sit back and play with the mates from Facepunch.

[QUOTE=No Party Hats;28878286]I'd rather be in a job I hate and make millions, because at the end of the day, I'd go home in my Shelby Cobra to see my nice, big mansion and my ten thousand dollar gaming setup/theater so I could sit back and play with the mates from Facepunch.[/QUOTE] I predict that you will lead a very shallow life You're at work for 8 hours a day, if you're miserable for eight of the fourteen hours you're awake you're not really living life

OP, if you can save up enough money to buy a cheap musical instrument, come down to the music section make a thread and I'm sure we'll help you.

I'm normally up for 18 - 20 hours, and if I'm making Millions, I'm pretty sure I'm not working anywhere that I have to do strenuous physical work. If I've gotta do something I dislike for 8 hours a day so I can support my way of life, then so be it. I'm happy with the end result.

[QUOTE=No Party Hats;28879566]I'm normally up for 18 - 20 hours, and if I'm making Millions, I'm pretty sure I'm not working anywhere that I have to do strenuous physical work. If I've gotta do something I dislike for 8 hours a day so I can support my way of life, then so be it. I'm happy with the end result.[/QUOTE] I suppose if you only think of work as a means to an end that's fine but it's no way I want to live my life

[QUOTE=Zeke129;28879643]I suppose if you only think of work as a means to an end that's fine but it's no way I want to live my life[/QUOTE] mate not everyone has a choice

I don't look down on work as something bad and stupid, it's the same way how I am with school. If it pays off in the long run, don't complain, just let it happen. I'd rather do EVERYTHING I need to and be all set than just sit around fucking off with some friends and potentially stop myself from earning what I want in life. Of course, I'm not trying to say that's what you're saying either, I'm just sharing my views on it all :v: [editline]29th March 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Roo-kie;28879713]mate not everyone has a choice[/QUOTE] Everyone with a mind has the choice, just some people put themselves in the rut of "I can never be anything" and just give up all hope. Look at Steven Hawking. He's got a pretty severe physical disability, yet he's one of the most credited theorists of the Century. [editline]29th March 2011[/editline] Bill Gates started out as a kid who broke into an office nearby his school and just tinkered with the PC's. No one really hung out with him, he had a really small group of friends and pretty much no social life. Now look at him.

[QUOTE=Roo-kie;28879713]mate not everyone has a choice[/QUOTE] You consider bailing overseas without a plan to be a viable option. What makes that easier than finding a fun job?

Hell if he was really that bad off to the point where he thinks that's a viable option, I'd have to say that that's a good plan. If you've got literally nothing to live for, then I say go stock up on some guns, go join the Taliban, and eventually hunt down Osama.

[QUOTE=Zeke129;28879995]You consider bailing overseas without a plan to be a viable option. What makes that easier than finding a fun job?[/QUOTE] fuckin oath i would, you don't have to live your life according to how everyone else does i have my dream job and plenty of hobbies (most of them cost nothing) it's not gonna be my dream job forever, that's why i think people that refuse to work in any other industry than that of their choice are dumb not everyone gets to work in an avenue of their choice, especially if they're limited or live in some hick town and feel so sorry for themself they won't pursue another completely different industry I still consider bailing overseas to be a totally viable option; i tried living homelessly for 8 days here and had a fucking ball, i'm not currently forced to do it so i don't need to, but it's always good to know it can be done. if you're smart, you can live hobo deluxe, i even managed to go to work (albeit a little smelly sometimes) i lived off less than $9 a day, with most of the money i spent was on the train to work. that's a fuckload less than your average street beggar earns a day, and the govt. gives them shit. most people are so caught in in feeling sorry for themselves, thinking they deserve to be happy, you need to make something of yourself, you don't have it tough, someone else does if you have nothing to live for you have the most to gain.

I think I'll do that. I'm gonna eventually live homeless for a week or so, and I'm gonna record everything. That'd be interesting.

The Japan proposition would sound a lot better than what you have going, but it seems like the second-coming of Godzilla is going on over there, so hold off until you know what's what. Then again, you may already know what's what. If things are clear over there, at least in the city you'd be going to, I can guarantee that you will probably be better off than now, as long as you can deal with entirely new surroundings. A lot of people are so fixed on their surroundings, that new things scare them. If you're like that, it would be the same over there since you'd never go do anything anyway. If you can get past that, it's an entirely new environment, you have a guaranteed housing unit and job, and you will be better off or the same as you are now. I'd take it if the city isn't being swallowed by the earth or something (seems to be the trend in Japan recently).

Stop being such a pussy, OP. Seriously, you suffer from analysis paralysis. You have plenty of time left to do things that will give you happiness, but the first step is doing something instead of just sitting around thinking and weighing the pros and cons. I'm your age, OP, 21, and about to deal with cancer for the second time around and it very well may kill me on this particular occasion. I am not unhappy, though at times I consider myself very unlucky. Things could be a lot worse for you, OP, so don't squander your life. It's both an opportunity and a priviledge to live, don't fucking waste it. I'm serious, though. To appease people in my situation, quit complaining and for the love of god just live and satisfy yourself. Living is something you will never understand the value of until the prospect of it being taken away is brought upon you. Don't you dare squander that treasure or your last moments will inevitably be filled with regret. edit: typo

[QUOTE=GrickleGrass;28883341]Stop being such a pussy, OP. Seriously, you suffer from analysis paralysis. You have plenty of time left to do things that will give you happiness, but the first step is doing something instead of just sitting around thinking and weighing the pros and cons. I'm your age, OP, 21, and about to deal with cancer for the second time around and it very well may kill me on this particular occasion. I am not unhappy, though at times I consider myself very unlucky. Things could be a lot worse for you, OP, so don't squander your life. It's both an opportunity and a priviledge to live, don't fucking waste it. I'm serious, though. To appease people in my situation, quit complaining and for the love of god just live and satisfy yourself. Living is something you will never understand the value of until the prospect of it being taken away is brought upon you. Don't you dare squander that treasure or your last moments will inevitably be filled with regret. edit: typo[/QUOTE] Agreed. There are many people in worse situations than you, OP. My advice is to try to apply to a job where you're around computers a lot. Maybe you should try a local tech support office. If you do well, you might get promoted, and who knows, you might end up making upwards of $65,000 if it all turns out correctly. While I'm no optimist, I find thinking optimistically helps you trudge your way through the unfairness of life. Good luck to you, sir.

[QUOTE=Roo-kie;28880601]i tried living homelessly for 8 days here and had a fucking ball, i'm not currently forced to do it so i don't need to, but it's always good to know it can be done. if you're smart, you can live hobo deluxe, i even managed to go to work (albeit a little smelly sometimes) i lived off less than $9 a day, with most of the money i spent was on the train to work. that's a fuckload less than your average street beggar earns a day, and the govt. gives them shit.[/QUOTE] You should absolutely make a thread about this sometime, I'd love to read more.

[QUOTE=GrickleGrass;28883341]Stop being such a pussy, OP. Seriously, you suffer from analysis paralysis. You have plenty of time left to do things that will give you happiness, but the first step is doing something instead of just sitting around thinking and weighing the pros and cons. I'm your age, OP, 21, and about to deal with cancer for the second time around and it very well may kill me on this particular occasion. I am not unhappy, though at times I consider myself very unlucky. Things could be a lot worse for you, OP, so don't squander your life. It's both an opportunity and a priviledge to live, don't fucking waste it. I'm serious, though. To appease people in my situation, quit complaining and for the love of god just live and satisfy yourself. Living is something you will never understand the value of until the prospect of it being taken away is brought upon you. Don't you dare squander that treasure or your last moments will inevitably be filled with regret. edit: typo[/QUOTE] couldn't have said it better. I'm sure you all remember the thread where this one autistic guy or something was asking Facepunch to get him a job and file his resume? He didn't get anywhere, got ridiculed (and permabanned) due to him doing the same things MIPS is doing here - nothing. Doing absolutely nothing. Not even trying, not wanting to try. So get off your ass OP! Even if it's hard, I know, just try a little thing and then try more stuff and more stuff until you find something. Hell, I was depressed for about two months when I just had the best day of my life which snapped me out of it just by waking up early. Little things matter.

It's all about gaining the confidence to just go out and talk to people, I use to stay in constantly playing games but I thought hey what's the point so I met some people and as hard as it was I spoke to them and now life is better. You really need to do what you want to do, go meet some people just get talking, maybe try a therapy because it can work and you have a lot of support from all of us and don't end your life at 39 it's the wrong thing to do, you need to say to your mind fuck you I'm doing what I want to do you're not holding me back!. You need to fight this and get out there. If you need a chat I'm available for one whenever.

where the fuck is mips anyway for a thread about how his life is fucked up and about how he's thinking of killing himself you'd expect him to be here more often

[QUOTE=Dachande;28897251]where the fuck is mips anyway for a thread about how his life is fucked up and about how he's thinking of killing himself you'd expect him to be here more often[/QUOTE] Maybe he killed himself.

[QUOTE=Wealth + Taste;28897399]Maybe he killed himself.[/QUOTE] hope not if anything he needs to soak up his tears and try something new, try yoga, change his routine not end his life on a frivolous streak of downs The man foremost known as MIPS is on an elongated period of depression, of which causes a demeanor in which he arbitrarily comments and, especially, pertinaciously threatens to die by his own hand for un-imaginable reasons, of which are announced to all in the original post. He deliberately refuses any optimistic opinions, suggestions an the like and regards them as inadmissible. He often takes turns at elongating cantankerous comments at even the most opuscule of such suggestions. The explanation for this is usually a lack of funds or similar. He often appears despondant, and refuses to change his outlook for any reason.

[QUOTE=Zeke129;28878712]I predict that you will lead a very shallow life You're at work for 8 hours a day, if you're miserable for eight of the fourteen hours you're awake you're not really living life[/QUOTE] Tell that to high school students.

MIPS, AFAIK there are still jobs for working with Unix systems if thats what you're into. You could be a FreeBSD or Solaris admin. Not sure what it is about Linux that you aren't understanding, but in my experience with BSD it's more retro than Linux even though they're both pretty much the same Unix.

[QUOTE=Dachande;28897620] The man foremost known as MIPS is on an elongated period of depression, of which causes a demeanor in which he arbitrarily comments and, especially, pertinaciously threatens to die by his own hand for un-imaginable reasons, of which are announced to all in the original post. He deliberately refuses any optimistic opinions, suggestions an the like and regards them as inadmissible. He often takes turns at elongating cantankerous comments at even the most opuscule of such suggestions. The explanation for this is usually a lack of funds or similar. He often appears despondant, and refuses to change his outlook for any reason.[/QUOTE] Bought a new thesaurus I see. I know exactly where MIPS is coming from here, trying to figure out what to do with life is extremely hard when it feels like life wants nothing to do with you. All I can say is best of luck to you MIPS. You don't have to take the suggestions to change who you are to be successful, you will find something that allows you to keep doing what you love. A vast wealth of knowledge on anything can come in handy eventually.

[QUOTE=David Tennant;28813206]That is honestly the best advice you can ever follow, I've been to my fair share of parties and.. partly I enjoy them, but I'd much rather spend a night in with friends playing Garry's mod or building something spectacular in Minecraft.[/QUOTE] Once the party is over, you'll say, "I am glad I developed better relationships with my peers and had fun at the same time instead of creating something that disappeared after I went to sleep"...

[QUOTE=Inception;28899892]Once the party is over, you'll say, "I am glad I developed better relationships with my peers and had fun at the same time instead of creating something that disappeared after I went to sleep"...[/QUOTE] What you build in minecraft doesn't disappear after you fall asleep.

[QUOTE=Inception;28899892]Once the party is over, you'll say, "I am glad I developed better relationships with my peers and had fun at the same time instead of creating something that disappeared after I went to sleep"...[/QUOTE] I've never been to a party in my life, and play Minecraft & the such with FPers on a daily basis, yet you're trying to say that you can't develop relationships with people and have fun, while also maintaining a good social life? I'm friends with basically everyone I talk to, and I'm also good friends with most FPers, or at least on speaking terms. Now look at me, giving advice to people who're in a rut, and you're trying to say that doing something you love is going to impact your social life. :colbert:

[QUOTE=No Party Hats;28879774]I Bill Gates started out as a kid who broke into an office nearby his school and just tinkered with the PC's. No one really hung out with him, he had a really small group of friends and pretty much no social life. Now look at him.[/QUOTE] I break into my office on a regular basis to use the bench and salvage parts of recycled electronics we get in. Bill however developed comething that was a cornerstone in modern computers. In terms of software you can't really make anything now as you confined to one of the three main OS's that people use. I would have to design something in terms of hardware so revolutionary, people would not think twice about the decision to get it. Something along the lines of what Miles Dyson was doing. [QUOTE=GrickleGrass;28883341]Stop being such a pussy, OP. Seriously, you suffer from analysis paralysis. You have plenty of time left to do things that will give you happiness, but the first step is doing something instead of just sitting around thinking and weighing the pros and cons. I'm your age, OP, 21, and about to deal with cancer for the second time around and it very well may kill me on this particular occasion. I am not unhappy, though at times I consider myself very unlucky. Things could be a lot worse for you, OP, so don't squander your life. It's both an opportunity and a priviledge to live, don't fucking waste it. I'm serious, though. To appease people in my situation, quit complaining and for the love of god just live and satisfy yourself. Living is something you will never understand the value of until the prospect of it being taken away is brought upon you. Don't you dare squander that treasure or your last moments will inevitably be filled with regret. edit: typo[/QUOTE] You implying I should go to bars every night and come home with a hooker on Saturday nights? I already try to spend my Saturdays downtownbut I have yet to see any reason why I'm wasting $25 for transit, beer and a burger. Also, forget about doing shit for my resume. I have been able to manage my own paperwork for a while. That's jsut being super lazy. [quote]where the fuck is mips anyway for a thread about how his life is fucked up and about how he's thinking of killing himself you'd expect him to be here more often[/quote] Working off the clock late to fix shit and get stuff ready for tomorrow. The only variable in my income is the 10% commission I get on all my ebay sales each month so the more I list and sell, the more I make. when that's over, I go home, try to catch up on mail and FP, then go to bed so I can get up at 7 the next morning. I ahve contemplated setting up a hammoc to sleep in because I spend so much extra time at the office. I'm also trying to avoid this thread from turning into a total "boo-hoo, I'm useless. Please make me feel good as if you were IRL friends I don't have T_T" crap. As people have stated before, it is a good idea for em to try and get out more. In related finance news, I finished paying off all my due bills, rent, and insurance and crap. Food, gas, transit, and "luxury" spending for things like junk food or fast food for the next two weeks all have to fit into a $125.11 budget. This sucks. My car needs parts and I can't afford them. It's worthing noting that just a few days ago I had about $900 in my account.

[QUOTE=MIPS;28905656]You implying I should go to bars every night and come home with a hooker on Saturday nights? I already try to spend my Saturdays downtownbut I have yet to see any reason why I'm wasting $25 for transit, beer and a burger. Also, forget about doing shit for my resume. I have been able to manage my own paperwork for a while. That's jsut being super lazy.[/QUOTE] I said nothing about bars or hookers. My suggestion for you to begin enjoying life and appreciating it for what it is was intended to be interpreted a little deeper than flesh and intoxicants. But if all you're having troubles with is finding a way to enjoy yourself, then you're even more of an insufferable mouthbreather. It's called get off your aspie ass and do something for the sake of doing it. Did you enjoy yourself? No? Try something else next time. Yes? Maybe you've found yourself something new, fun and exciting. Apathetic? Stop being a cynical overanalytical prick and realize that the way you feel is almost entirely dependent upon your perception. Because of that, only you can help yourself. But that's okay. If you want to continue being a sulking puss, by all means continue. If you want to genuinely better your life and the way you feel about yourself then know that only you possess the tools to do so, and that some of it is hard work and some of it is as easy as just seeing things from a different perspective.