Addicts Lounge v17 - "Think of this, Eating fucking cactusses"

[Mac2468]

:bahgawd:

[editline]12th June 2011[/editline]

[QUOTE=super_yurtle;30416455]i wanna trip and watch a movie[/QUOTE]

That's what I did yesterday, and what I'm doing tonight.

[Cypher_09]

im having a fucking episode or something i need to go quickly goodnight all

[Stormcharger]

[QUOTE=Cypher_09;30416734]im having a fucking episode or something i need to go quickly goodnight all[/QUOTE]

:ohdear: I hope you'll be ok man!

[luck_or_loss]

[img]http://w-hat.com/images/emoticons/emot-w-hat.gif?1202358596[/img]

I am eating [i]two[/i] hot pockets

[Superginger]

[QUOTE=Glitch360;30414852]Adventure Time may be awesome while high, but on DXM it's a whole other story[/QUOTE]

I laughed at this out of experience.

[luck_or_loss]

Just spilled my drink all over my shirt

[Werem00se]

[QUOTE=Superginger;30417291]I laughed at this out of experience.[/QUOTE]

I know of this, but replace Adventure Time with Flapjack.

[Shustriyvich]

I don't even know why it's scary, it just is. I think its that blob princess thing that scared me the most, though

[h4ngman]

I am bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddddddddddddddddddddddddd
right now.

truely am.

I wanted to say somthing clever now, but I can't quite think of something. Also, the 't' kinda looks like an'r'

[Teal Moose]

[QUOTE=Cypher_09;30416734]im having a fucking episode or something i need to go quickly goodnight all[/QUOTE]

Tell me how you are when you wake up. I've also been through some trouble and I'm worried for you.

[DrPompo]

Is there any difference between a common pipe and a glass spoon?

[Kite_shugo]

[QUOTE=DrPompo;30420777]Is there any difference between a common pipe and a glass spoon?[/QUOTE]
The fact that a glass spoon usually has a carb, most likely, and preference, since they are different in how they taste and feel on hits.

[wait, what?]

My dealer said he'd be getting some dank shit on monday for me. I hit him up on monday. "Busy working, hit me up later in the week." I texted him on thursday. "I'll be good and won't be working on saturday, hit me up then." I texted him twice on saturday and no answer. Same today.

Fuck people.

[Rediscover]

[QUOTE=CjienX;30402427]God damn, Wiz Khalifa is fucking amazing[/QUOTE]

i only like wiz when i'm high

[editline]13th June 2011[/editline]

[QUOTE=IlikeHL2;30405422]2mg lorazepam later... oh man im god[/QUOTE]

lorazepam sucks dick

[Hmn30]

well i love you phillip morris was as gay as fuck

[editline]12th June 2011[/editline]

lol i always appear thumbs upping people in party photos

[Arid]

The biggest problem for me is not spending all of my money on weed. I can get it and smoke it whenever I want, and sometimes, that's not a good thing (tolerance breaks).

Do those of you who smoke at least a gram of chronic a day, and know my pain, have any tricks to lowering tolerance/getting higher, or even enjoying being high more? Maybe some easy baking/cooking methods that won't smell up my house? *allergic to peanuts*

Also, a couple questions to the same demographic;
How do you personally think smoking this much is effecting your personality, perception of life & goals, cognitive development, and daily activities?
How do you choose to place your smoke sessions throughout the day? Do you smoke hit-by-hit throughout the day to stay elevated, or do you smoke just a couple times a day but in larger quantities? Which one do you like more?

[CjienX]

Ugh, I wanna go see Matt and Kim this tuesday, but I don't think I can afford it until New Jersey gives me the $180 they fucking owe me. Found a guy that'll give me one for $20, two for $35. Might try to get 2 and sell one off

[mikerocks]

Been very high all week, it's starting to feel weird waking up sober before the wake & bake.

[Shustriyvich]

Just wait till you're constantly high for 2-3 months, after that being sober will feel unreal and you'll be spacey and feeling down for weeks

[luck_or_loss]

[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGOaXphpT7w[/media]

Cannot stop listening aaag

[Euphorium]

I went half in with a friend on some Mango Kush, we're gonna try it tomorrow.

[CjienX]

I hate when a gay guy acts like I'm homophobic just because I don't want him to keep hitting on me, it seriously makes no fucking sense. I don't give a shit if you like men or not, but I don't, it really is that simple.

[bethanygrace]

mushroomy mushroom mushroooooooooooooom
grin

[CreativeName]

Getting some weed this week hopefully, then I'm gonna ask after some MDMA, acid, and maybe some shrooms. I'm also going to get my mom to get me some DXM gelcaps since I have a cold. I dunno if anyone has shrooms or LSD in this town...I do know someone, somewhere has MDMA.

[editline]13th June 2011[/editline]

And it's gonna be mine.

[Stormcharger]

[QUOTE=CreativeName;30424189]Getting some weed this week hopefully, then I'm gonna ask after some MDMA, acid, and maybe some shrooms. I'm also going to get my mom to get me some DXM gelcaps since I have a cold. I dunno if anyone has shrooms or LSD in this town...I do know someone, somewhere has MDMA.

[editline]13th June 2011[/editline]

And it's gonna be mine.[/QUOTE]

You sure itll be proper mdma?

[Cypher_09]

[QUOTE=Stormcharger;30417110]:ohdear: I hope you'll be ok man![/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=Teal Moose;30419316]Tell me how you are when you wake up. I've also been through some trouble and I'm worried for you.[/QUOTE]

Yesterday was just so fucked up...

My psychiatrist's said to me that I probably might be going into what's called a mania. He also told me a list of things I can do to try and maintain it. One of those things was to get plenty of sleep, otherwise it's really exacerbated.

So after the bike ride I went on, I was absolutely exhausted. No energy at all. I rang my mum up begging me for help (Pick me up in [b]my[/b] car, it's only a minute away literally) to get up this really huge hill I have to walk up to get home, and she declined with a bullshit reason so I put the phone down on her.

Then I get home and I'm trying to rest on the sofa when my mum and dad walks in and says that I'm looking after Oscar for the night. Okay then, I don't mind.

Oscar is my dog, he's really ill and unfortunately has cancer in more than one places. We don't have the strength to put him down, because we just love him so much. So I can't say no, because I'd do anything for him. My mum and dad are going to a house party.

So they leave, and Oscar needs my undivided attention. Because at home he can't control his bladder, so he urinates and defecates everywhere. I needed to look for the signs that he may want to "go", luckily for me, he can control his bladder (eh...) and he tells me everytime. He comes up to me and gives me his paw and a soft little growl and I let him out. all is well.

Night time comes. He isn't settling with being in this strange home, so I, feeling bad for him, decide to sleep downstairs with him (He can't get upstairs) with my quilt and pillows. I remember being awake 'til 5 in the morning letting him out, trying to settle him down, stroking him, giving him water, etcetc. Then I slept from 5-8.30. I'm so tired at this point, especially after the (I did too much) exercise I got yesterday.

I send my mum a text at 10.30 asking when she was coming home and saying that oscar had been well behaved (in dutch, for a laugh), no reply. so I send her another text at 11.30, this time in german, just saying when are you coming home? No reply...It gets to 1am and there's no sign of them. Cutting the story short they get here at 7.30pm! So I've had a damn tiring weekend and I'm falling asleep stood up.

I send them angry texts saying I can't remember fully but the first one was damn reasonable. granted it had some swearing in, but it was reasonable. then my mum sends back this fucking hugely angry response and then i just get everything off my chest about how im angry she refused to pick me up yesterday for the worst reason ever when i needed her and how the took me for granted today and lastnight because she knows id do anything for him. i said what i needed to say and then i went upstairs to wait for them coming hime, because i didn't want to see them (i'd just get angry).

they come home, and then i go downstairs saying "go on then we might aswell get everything off our chests" then my mum fucking lays into me saying how they are right and i am wrong (stupid fucking bullshit reasons like "oh the car was misfiring" "oh it was raining so we had to stick to 40mph" "we went mcdonalds" "how do you know there werent any roadworks or diversions?" so i have no room to think at this point.

shes just shouting firing these words at me and sooner or later i get to a point hwere i just cant understand them and try to just act all cool because im shaking and shit

then when she leaves she shouts to me "and i get no help!!"

after how much effort i've put into giving oscar my 100% attention...i neglected myself completely to care for him...

all the shakiness inside my body, all the mess inside my head just cleared up, but not in the "im suddenly calm :keke:" way. i mean everything was released.

i screamed "NO HELP?!?! WELL YOU CAN FUCK OFF!!!"

i run upstairs as fast as i can, blinded by so many fucking emotions and feelings. anger, tiredness, energy, sadness. i grab the nearest ornament i can find, pick it up and absolutely full on fucking smash it into the wall, pieces everywhere. im sat there crying like a baby

skipping on: i calm down somewhat after they go and start getting high

ive never fucking hallucinated so much in my life.

it was just

i wanted to die, im serious, it made me want to die, sitting there.

it first started when i was happilly sitting there when something happened. i dont know what happened, but it was kind of like the feeling you get when you know you're being watched, but magnified 1000000x and located to my rear-left. i whip around as fast as i can and let out a frightened "hello?"

obviously nothing.

then all of a sudden, (oh fuck)

i feel like some fucking HUGE earmuffs are put over my ears. i duck and cower in fear. i can't hear properly. except for a deafening buzzing noise

so now i just want it all to stop and i dont know whats going out

then faces start appearing. you like like those sunspots where if you look at a light for a long while and look away its in the same spot wherever you look? it was like that, but with faces. some of you might remember me posting here about 3-6 months ago that i saw faces that looked like a mixture of this

[img]http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3fUtXHmakPE/TI4WMbmCmMI/AAAAAAAAAbE/mPLt613pP24/s320/Shivers_Screaming_Face.jpg[/img]

and this

[img]http://www.zhippo.com/ManakinTattooHOSTED/images/gallery/charles%20anderson.jpg[/img]

then i start getting terrified that aliens are coming to abduct me

really terrified, to the point where im getting tearful writing about this

im scared to look at the door (glass) incase i see a tall thin alien walk up to it and come inside

im paralyzed by fear

i think that if i make a single noise it will alert them to my presence

moments pass and i think "hey! i could go get daisy (my nans dog) and bring her in here, then if i have company it wont be as bad"

so i bring her in here and things are pretty ok for a moment

then i look at her, and she's looking at me. not just looking, full on fucking staring me out. and it looked scary. so moments pass and she's still staring at me. i look up at her and her tail starts wagging, then all of a sudden theres this huge fucking loud creak outside my door

i flip the fuck out thinking that daisy is something to do with the aliens i dunno what i thought but for some reason i thought they were connected

it happens again two more times

i dont know what to do

so i decide to go to bed and try end the night

i think "i need to put my bong away or people will see it in the morning if they come in (my nan gets visitors at fucking 9am -it's 9.33 and already one of her friends is here) but im scared of moving incase i get heard but eventually i do it really slowly

i go to bed. it took me ages to sleep because i was still in the same state of mind

then i got to sleep finally at about 2.30 and woke up at 8.00

i slept with the light on

thats basically it. im avoiding my mum

[Stormcharger]

[QUOTE=Cypher_09;30424716]Yesterday was just so fucked up...

My psychiatrist's said to me that I probably might be going into what's called a mania. He also told me a list of things I can do to try and maintain it. One of those things was to get plenty of sleep, otherwise it's really exacerbated.

So after the bike ride I went on, I was absolutely exhausted. No energy at all. I rang my mum up begging me for help (Pick me up in [b]my[/b] car, it's only a minute away literally) to get up this really huge hill I have to walk up to get home, and she declined with a bullshit reason so I put the phone down on her.

Then I get home and I'm trying to rest on the sofa when my mum and dad walks in and says that I'm looking after Oscar for the night. Okay then, I don't mind.

Oscar is my dog, he's really ill and unfortunately has cancer in more than one places. We don't have the strength to put him down, because we just love him so much. So I can't say no, because I'd do anything for him. My mum and dad are going to a house party.

So they leave, and Oscar needs my undivided attention. Because at home he can't control his bladder, so he urinates and defecates everywhere. I needed to look for the signs that he may want to "go", luckily for me, he can control his bladder (eh...) and he tells me everytime. He comes up to me and gives me his paw and a soft little growl and I let him out. all is well.

Night time comes. He isn't settling with being in this strange home, so I, feeling bad for him, decide to sleep downstairs with him (He can't get upstairs) with my quilt and pillows. I remember being awake 'til 5 in the morning letting him out, trying to settle him down, stroking him, giving him water, etcetc. Then I slept from 5-8.30. I'm so tired at this point, especially after the (I did too much) exercise I got yesterday.

I send my mum a text at 10.30 asking when she was coming home and saying that oscar had been well behaved (in dutch, for a laugh), no reply. so I send her another text at 11.30, this time in german, just saying when are you coming home? No reply...It gets to 1am and there's no sign of them. Cutting the story short they get here at 7.30pm! So I've had a damn tiring weekend and I'm falling asleep stood up.

I send them angry texts saying I can't remember fully but the first one was damn reasonable. granted it had some swearing in, but it was reasonable. then my mum sends back this fucking hugely angry response and then i just get everything off my chest about how im angry she refused to pick me up yesterday for the worst reason ever when i needed her and how the took me for granted today and lastnight because she knows id do anything for him. i said what i needed to say and then i went upstairs to wait for them coming hime, because i didn't want to see them (i'd just get angry).

they come home, and then i go downstairs saying "go on then we might aswell get everything off our chests" then my mum fucking lays into me saying how they are right and i am wrong (stupid fucking bullshit reasons like "oh the car was misfiring" "oh it was raining so we had to stick to 40mph" "we went mcdonalds" "how do you know there werent any roadworks or diversions?" so i have no room to think at this point.

shes just shouting firing these words at me and sooner or later i get to a point hwere i just cant understand them and try to just act all cool because im shaking and shit

then when she leaves she shouts to me "and i get no help!!"

after how much effort i've put into giving oscar my 100% attention...i neglected myself completely to care for him...

all the shakiness inside my body, all the mess inside my head just cleared up, but not in the "im suddenly calm :keke:" way. i mean everything was released.

i screamed "NO HELP?!?! WELL YOU CAN FUCK OFF!!!"

i run upstairs as fast as i can, blinded by so many fucking emotions and feelings. anger, tiredness, energy, sadness. i grab the nearest ornament i can find, pick it up and absolutely full on fucking smash it into the wall, pieces everywhere. im sat there crying like a baby

skipping on: i calm down somewhat after they go and start getting high

ive never fucking hallucinated so much in my life.

it was just

i wanted to die, im serious, it made me want to die, sitting there.

it first started when i was happilly sitting there when something happened. i dont know what happened, but it was kind of like the feeling you get when you know you're being watched, but magnified 1000000x and located to my rear-left. i whip around as fast as i can and let out a frightened "hello?"

obviously nothing.

then all of a sudden, (oh fuck)

i feel like some fucking HUGE earmuffs are put over my ears. i duck and cower in fear. i can't hear properly. except for a deafening buzzing noise

so now i just want it all to stop and i dont know whats going out

then faces start appearing. you like like those sunspots where if you look at a light for a long while and look away its in the same spot wherever you look? it was like that, but with faces. some of you might remember me posting here about 3-6 months ago that i saw faces that looked like a mixture of this

[img]http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_3fUtXHmakPE/TI4WMbmCmMI/AAAAAAAAAbE/mPLt613pP24/s320/Shivers_Screaming_Face.jpg[/img]

and this

[img]http://www.zhippo.com/ManakinTattooHOSTED/images/gallery/charles%20anderson.jpg[/img]

then i start getting terrified that aliens are coming to abduct me

really terrified, to the point where im getting tearful writing about this

im scared to look at the door (glass) incase i see a tall thin alien walk up to it and come inside

im paralyzed by fear

i think that if i make a single noise it will alert them to my presence

moments pass and i think "hey! i could go get daisy (my nans dog) and bring her in here, then if i have company it wont be as bad"

so i bring her in here and things are pretty ok for a moment

then i look at her, and she's looking at me. not just looking, full on fucking staring me out. and it looked scary. so moments pass and she's still staring at me. i look up at her and her tail starts wagging, then all of a sudden theres this huge fucking loud creak outside my door

i flip the fuck out thinking that daisy is something to do with the aliens i dunno what i thought but for some reason i thought they were connected

it happens again two more times

i dont know what to do

so i decide to go to bed and try end the night

i think "i need to put my bong away or people will see it in the morning if they come in (my nan gets visitors at fucking 9am -it's 9.33 and already one of her friends is here) but im scared of moving incase i get heard but eventually i do it really slowly

i go to bed. it took me ages to sleep because i was still in the same state of mind

then i got to sleep finally at about 2.30 and woke up at 8.00

i slept with the light on

thats basically it. im avoiding my mum[/QUOTE]

Woah man thats so intense! Your definetly in the right being angry at your parents though, they could of at least texted you and stuff. Hope you don't have another hallucination episode man, that sounds scary as fuck.

[Cypher_09]

yeah it was, im worried though because i know that im right

but i might only know that im right because im thinking illogically. it helps though that you say im right to be angry

i dont trust my own thoughts...texting my psychiatrist now to get an earlier appointment (was going to wait a week)

[Stormcharger]

[QUOTE=Cypher_09;30424922]yeah it was, im worried though because i know that im right

but i might only know that im right because im thinking illogically. it helps though that you say im right to be angry

i dont trust my own thoughts...texting my psychiatrist now to get an earlier appointment (was going to wait a week)[/QUOTE]

Well if they definetly did what you said they did, it is not illogical at all to get angry, especially when your mum said she never gets any help.

[editline]13th June 2011[/editline]

hehehe check out a tattoo someone I know is getting
[img]http://a5.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc6/248199_10150202125926021_716606020_7581591_456759_n.jpg[/img]

Before anyone gets angry its the peace version of the swastika or whatever because its the reverse version of it.

[editline]13th June 2011[/editline]

But its still kinda funny cause of how upset people would get about it.

[Cypher_09]

i just sent my psychiatrist a text saying "Hi Patrick is there any chance you can come sooner than a week?" and he replied "Yes. Will ring you about six today"

oh fuck im terrible at phone conversations i just speed up and crash :v: