Addicts Lounge v17 - "Think of this, Eating fucking cactusses"

[Bradmastah]

250mg of DXM down because I'm a pussy and couldn't drink more of that satan concoction referred to as "Cough syrup"
T-1:00....

[Rediscover]

pussy

[Oboeshoes]

Why does it take so much alcohol to get drunk?
FUCK YOU LIVER! STOP BEING SO HEALTHY!

[Rediscover]

so i'm scraping some resin right

how the fuck do i get it together

i get a little bit, and then it just sticks to the little thing i'm putting it in

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it keeps sticking to everything oh my goooodd

[Oboeshoes]

Make a tin foil screen and scrape it directly onto that. then use the screen on what ever you use to smoke.

[Teal Moose]

[QUOTE=Cypher_09;30424716]Yesterday was just so fucked up... *Post*[/QUOTE]

I feel you man. Same thing almost happened to me. My mom came over to our office building I was at, on the internet, which I'm posting from now. I come here to isolate myself, when I'm depressed usually. To be depressed until it passes. I was feeling good and then she comes over ranting about some English homework she found after she fucking went through all my shit which pissed me off. I get in a yelling match with her and she leaves. I got up and near punched my hand through the glass on our door. But I'd done that like twice before so I decided against it.

She came back for a second time and I lost it. I tried to argue but all thought just broke down and my voice trembled so I ran home, said something jumbled and delusional to my dad about keeping her away from me (I thought she wanted to hurt me or something, I really just don't know) and ran up to my room, bursting inexplicably into absolutely fucking hysterics.

I came down and got some tylenol for a splitting headache and my mom didn't say shit to me, just glared at me with all the animosity and discontent it seemed she could muster, then I started thinking she hated me and I flipped shit again. Ran outside, still in hysterics and sat under a tree for what felt like hours, bawling like a child. I went and stood at my dog's grave for a while, having really bad flashbacks to finding him in the car. Anxious, delusional, and in a state of full mental breakdown I sat and grieved, and dealt the best I could with the flashbacks. I heard my mother screaming in hysterics, I could smell death, I remember keenly the denial and anger.

I then proceeded to curl into a ball and lay down in my yard for some reason until my dad came out, I couldn't face him like this. He started rambling about how life is hard and he has panic attacks too, some half drunk bullshit, but that he was worried about me. I come inside, dry my eyes and attempt to sleep. Being in my room is agonizing. The hypervigiliance associated with anxiety was making me wonky. I set about readjusting everything so it was right for me to feel safe but could not. I couldn't shake the overwhelming fear of something brooding, plotting against me. So I went down and talked to my dad about how I was doing with anxiety and whatever else for a few hours until I could finally sleep.

The next week, might've been last week, my memory has gone to shit with what I'm dealing with, I dealt with crippling depression, and mood swings, mood swings you would not think possible. God it was terrible, I considered taking my dad's clonazepam and drinking, which would have likely killed me. The suicidal thoughts didn't last long thankfully. It's persisted up until now. Today in school I felt uncomfortable all over. Just itching and churning in my stomach. Again, severe mood swings. Then once fifth period rolled around I was okay.

I'm just coming off being in an insanely manic state. It was like I was using stimulants, just couldn't shut up and everything was just fucked up and out of order. It's been fucking tough.

The hallucinations were minimal, I mostly saw shadows and figures out of the corner of my eye. I thought something about spirits in my house trying to possess me or some crazy fucking shit, god i really thought about killing myself, it was too much.

[Rediscover]

fuck

[Werem00se]

[QUOTE=Rediscover;30440945]so i'm scraping some resin right

how the fuck do i get it together

i get a little bit, and then it just sticks to the little thing i'm putting it in

[editline]14th June 2011[/editline]

it keeps sticking to everything oh my goooodd[/QUOTE]

I'm doing the same thing. You just learn how to... Not get it to stick so much. I dunno, after doing it for a year it's just gotten easier. For the past while errytime I do it the resin is pretty flexible, and doesn't stick so badly.

[Teal Moose]

Well guys I may have found a dealer for medical grade marijuana. Ecstasy as well, possibly acid. Also maybe getting shrooms sometime in the next few weeks.

[lolita la vida]

[QUOTE=Ultra Violence;30431330]Maybe he's really fucked up and hallucinating.

[editline]13th June 2011[/editline]

Hallucinating that he stole from a 7-11[/QUOTE]
Nah man just high :v:

I did however fetch me a mars bar at 7Eleven

[Bradmastah]

Huston. We have liftoff.

[TehWhale]

[QUOTE=Teal Moose;30441485]Well guys I may have found a dealer for medical grade marijuana. Ecstasy as well, possibly acid. Also maybe getting shrooms sometime in the next few weeks.[/QUOTE]

lucky fucker

[Teal Moose]

[QUOTE=TehWhale;30441761]lucky fucker[/QUOTE]
I know almost for sure I can get medical grade marijuana, probably E, maybe acid. Don't know the potency of either or if the E is cut with anything too bad.

[wait, what?]

Been sober for two weeks. I finally have some money for some bud, but noone answers their phone.

[CjienX]

Got my Matt and Kim tickets for tomorrow night, the guy that sold me weed last time was working though, so now I'm dry and I don't feel like driving another 20 minutes to get it.

I probably shouldn't be spending more on weed anyway, hopefully my roommates friend gives me the fucking 20bag he owes me

[TehWhale]

I can't even find a dealer who sells Mexican-grade weed

[Bradmastah]

[quote]Brad:
DXM usage
I think he PMed everyone in the DXM thread
omg
have you ever done a braingasm on dxm

Luke:
no and i wont

Brad:
it
is
[B]intesne

[/B][/quote]
[h2]intesne[/h2]

For some reason I can't stop laughing at this

[Rediscover]

hey thats me

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i am luke

huehuehuehuehuehue

[editline]14th June 2011[/editline]

anyways i have a ball of resin about the size of half of my pinky finger, is this gonna even get me high?

[SilverHammer]

[QUOTE=Rediscover;30442051]

anyways i have a ball of resin about the size of half of my pinky finger, is this gonna even get me high?[/QUOTE]

It should

[Rediscover]

i am moderately high you're right

but only so

[editline]14th June 2011[/editline]

does it like

take longer to kick in or something because this is dissapointing

[SilverHammer]

No, it's just that you're smoking resin. That's worse than shake haha

[Rediscover]

can someone post that highness chart plz plz plz

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[QUOTE=SilverHammer;30442245]No, it's just that you're smoking resin. That's worse than shake haha[/QUOTE]

understandable, just felt like i had to smoke something haha

[Shustriyvich]

[QUOTE=Bradmastah;30440800]250mg of DXM down because I'm a pussy and couldn't drink more of that satan concoction referred to as "Cough syrup"
T-1:00....[/QUOTE]Damn, it only takes like 30-40 minutes for it to hit me. It hits me uncomfortably fast though

[Rediscover]

donut dpig

fuck it i five up typing

[Kite_shugo]

[QUOTE=Glitch360;30442508]Damn, it only takes like 30-40 minutes for it to hit me. It hits me uncomfortably fast though[/QUOTE]

First time on delsym, first time ever DXM, come up took a whopping, 3-4 HOURS

[Tomaster]

Well, I've been up for 36 hours with the help of Adderall. And I'm not going to bed tonight, and then I'm going to Six Flags later today. Fuck yea.

[Kurtzund]

I saw a girl with a pot leaf necklace working at IHOP today, I love this town!

[CjienX]

So I was working up the balls to ask out a girl from Rocky Horror next time I see her, go on facebook, and she's "fucking awful" because "somebody asked her out and that fucked everything up"

I mean shit, I've dealt with rejection before but this is a boat I don't think I even want to fucking touch. I have enough on my plate between school and the job I need to eventually get

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:sigh: some feelings just can't be dealt with by any means aside from music and cigarettes

[JakeIsWin]

Resin bamp.

[Tomaster]

[QUOTE=CjienX;30444222]:sigh: some feelings just can't be dealt with by any means aside from music and cigarettes[/QUOTE]

Alternatively, alcohol, weed, and music is an excellent combination. But only if you smoke then drink.