• Gay Chat V12 - Even More Optimistic
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[QUOTE=Roll_Program;46963922]Is this because of your ex?[/QUOTE] yeah. beating on a dead horse I know haha, trying not to bring it up too much. its hard not to feel like shit when you were going to hang out with friends tonight playing games then suddenly you-know-who shows up and comes with us, then soon after announces on twitter how things are official between the two of them as they play footsie I could have started a big war right there and likely gotten so many people to turn on him (or at least distrust him) as justice. but after spending the past hour talking with my ex's mom who is like family to me I was reminded to give peace a chance and that starting wars just causes more hurt This would be so much easier if my ex was a totally dishonest person or your average "eh we didn't really jive with each other" situation. But hes not at all, he still really cares for me and i consider him family just as he does to me. This would be so much easier if the other guy involved was super honest and caring and was not being manipulative this whole time, then I could feel good about the two of them instead of feeling betrayed. I just have to deal with my situation until things correct one way or another or I just move very far away
That has to hurt to see your ex in a relationship again, while you're dealing with all that. Maybe cutting him out of your life would be for the best in the long run? Lonelier for a while but you'll make new friends and not have to deal with all that history. Just leave the people who'd rather be on the other side behind, as painful as that would be, remember how much it hurts now. You wouldn't have to move far away u less you're scared of running into him on the street or something.
The breaks in my car have literally frozen, got to wait for the mechanic to show up, going to end up like two hours late for work if he can fix it.
The other apprentice is really pissing me off atm. Hes 18 and this is his first job. He keeps on just not showing up for work, and when we do our college course, he just turns up late and doesnt go to half of the lessons he should do.
The mechanic tapped the break disks with a hammer and I was good to go :v: and the meeting got put back to 1300, so everything's ok.
[QUOTE=KorJax;46964155]yeah. beating on a dead horse I know haha, trying not to bring it up too much. its hard not to feel like shit when you were going to hang out with friends tonight playing games then suddenly you-know-who shows up and comes with us, then soon after announces on twitter how things are official between the two of them as they play footsie I could have started a big war right there and likely gotten so many people to turn on him (or at least distrust him) as justice. but after spending the past hour talking with my ex's mom who is like family to me I was reminded to give peace a chance and that starting wars just causes more hurt This would be so much easier if my ex was a totally dishonest person or your average "eh we didn't really jive with each other" situation. But hes not at all, he still really cares for me and i consider him family just as he does to me. This would be so much easier if the other guy involved was super honest and caring and was not being manipulative this whole time, then I could feel good about the two of them instead of feeling betrayed. I just have to deal with my situation until things correct one way or another or I just move very far away[/QUOTE] Bro, Doesn't it just hurt a lot when you think you could just fall away from your past only to realize that it's following you? Hmm, well, nobody said it was gonna be easy. But honestly Jax, it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all…trust me. I know things seem like the darkest now but it will get easier. And as far as getting back at him/them, you were mature and correct not to do so! Idk you, I know, but I'm actually proud of you for not doing that, man. Getting back at someone purely for the sake of revenge—either to bring them down to your level or try to bring yourself up above them—is not the best thing to do. Always remember that "two wrongs don't make a right—and as much as we try to rationalize that it does, the wrong thing done for the 'right' reason will always be the wrong thing." Take your time to take time to be alone—this is when and where your wounds will heal. I don't wanna sound preachy or anything like that because you might know all of this already and you might have gone through this before enough times or even just once—but if you take nothing else from this long parable, realize that you have friends here and you're not alone in your heartache. We go through the same crap time and time again. You can talk to us anytime. …Though I would say it will be better to heal yourself on your own, you don't have to. You're not alone, buddy. Pick yourself up and try to try again. Move on without him; learn a lesson or two from being with the wrong person so that it might help you be a better partner when the next "right guy" comes along for you. Try not to become cynical in your isolation but try, also, one of two things: 1) to get back out there, if that's how you roll, and get with the moving on, or; 2) to take this time to just be alone—to learn how to trust all over again. Sometimes becoming a recluse isn't such a bad thing as it's made out to seem. —Alright, I definitely didn't wanna make this very long because I don't like reallyyy long snippets from one person. Just seems excessive but I just felt like you could use some healing words. ~End long parable.
I spend about 90% of my romance thinking about my best friend who used to love me (now I love him and he doesn't ) and he always comes up in conversation when I go on dates and puts other people off. The logical, sensible thing to do (because he consumes me at times) is to cut him off, if not permanently then for a very long time. I don't because he is my best friend and I am one of his and we both care about each other a lot. And it just hurts. I don't have the courage to let him go. And he lacks the mercy to do it for me. So I languish. If you can do it you should stop contact. It's probably better in the long run. I can't and it just gets worse for me.
I had my first lesbian sexual experience. Though it was with a pre-op transgirl like me so I still dunno what pussy tastes like. :c
[QUOTE=Roll_Program;46964218]That has to hurt to see your ex in a relationship again, while you're dealing with all that. Maybe cutting him out of your life would be for the best in the long run? Lonelier for a while but you'll make new friends and not have to deal with all that history. Just leave the people who'd rather be on the other side behind, as painful as that would be, remember how much it hurts now. You wouldn't have to move far away u less you're scared of running into him on the street or something.[/QUOTE] Its less about that but I just associate everything in my town and my friends with what we do together. I'd run into not only things I connect with us but our friends, I wouldn't feel like I could branch out and make my own path. I'd have to leave the state, ideally around some good people I know out west (where I kind of dream of moving to eventually anyways). The next city over doesn't work since that is where this guy lives and where most of my friends live too. Thats the biggest thing that bothers me though. I'd be honestly super happy if my ex was in a relationship again, with someone totally uninvolved and who looks like he is an honest person that deserves him. It is the fact that it is with a dishonest "he should probably be a lawyer with how good of a snake-oil-salesman he is" type of person that was engineering our split up for a good year, moved cross country to seal the deal, and actually got his prize. The fact that the bad guys won. I am simplifying things a little bit, but thats the overall story arc and what makes a healing wound fester far longer than it should be. [editline]19th January 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Nipslip;46965261]Bro, Doesn't it just hurt a lot when you think you could just fall away from your past only to realize that it's following you? Hmm, well, nobody said it was gonna be easy. But honestly Jax, it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all…trust me. I know things seem like the darkest now but it will get easier. And as far as getting back at him/them, you were mature and correct not to do so! Idk you, I know, but I'm actually proud of you for not doing that, man. Getting back at someone purely for the sake of revenge—either to bring them down to your level or try to bring yourself up above them—is not the best thing to do. Always remember that "two wrongs don't make a right—and as much as we try to rationalize that it does, the wrong thing done for the 'right' reason will always be the wrong thing." Take your time to take time to be alone—this is when and where your wounds will heal. I don't wanna sound preachy or anything like that because you might know all of this already and you might have gone through this before enough times or even just once—but if you take nothing else from this long parable, realize that you have friends here and you're not alone in your heartache. We go through the same crap time and time again. You can talk to us anytime. …Though I would say it will be better to heal yourself on your own, you don't have to. You're not alone, buddy. Pick yourself up and try to try again. Move on without him; learn a lesson or two from being with the wrong person so that it might help you be a better partner when the next "right guy" comes along for you. Try not to become cynical in your isolation but try, also, one of two things: 1) to get back out there, if that's how you roll, and get with the moving on, or; 2) to take this time to just be alone—to learn how to trust all over again. Sometimes becoming a recluse isn't such a bad thing as it's made out to seem. —Alright, I definitely didn't wanna make this very long because I don't like reallyyy long snippets from one person. Just seems excessive but I just felt like you could use some healing words. ~End long parable.[/QUOTE] I really appreciate your kind words This thread is truly therapy
[QUOTE=KorJax;46966159]Its less about that but I just associate everything in my town and my friends with what we do together. I'd run into not only things I connect with us but our friends, I wouldn't feel like I could branch out and make my own path. I'd have to leave the state, ideally around some good people I know out west (where I kind of dream of moving to eventually anyways). The next city over doesn't work since that is where this guy lives and where most of my friends live too. Thats the biggest thing that bothers me though. I'd be honestly super happy if my ex was in a relationship again, with someone totally uninvolved and who looks like he is an honest person that deserves him. It is the fact that it is with a dishonest "he should probably be a lawyer with how good of a snake-oil-salesman he is" type of person that was engineering our split up for a good year, moved cross country to seal the deal, and actually got his prize. The fact that the bad guys won. I am simplifying things a little bit, but thats the overall story arc and what makes a healing wound fester far longer than it should be. [editline]19th January 2015[/editline] I really appreciate your kind words This thread is truly therapy[/QUOTE] Ah, I guess I didn't understand the full story and was a bit harsh about what I thought needed to be done. Still, you can't control who your ex gets into a relationship with, and if you talk to him about it then you'll come off as clingy or not over him and might make things weird, tough situation. I hope hope this ends with bright side to it, could be what begins your dream move out West. [editline]19th January 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Nipslip;46965261] learn a lesson or two from being with the wrong person so that it might help you be a better partner when the next "right guy" comes along for you. [/QUOTE] He wasn't with the wrong guy, his ex is now with the wrong guy and it's messing up his life and his ex doesn't know or doesn't care. [editline]19th January 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Viva;46964152]I'm actually exactly like this.[/QUOTE] What makes you dislike eating? Not good at making tasty food, think you'll get fat, hurts after you eat? Just curious since I'm one of those people who has to stop myself eating too much.
[QUOTE=Roll_Program;46967565]Ah, I guess I didn't understand the full story and was a bit harsh about what I thought needed to be done. Still, you can't control who your ex gets into a relationship with, and if you talk to him about it then you'll come off as clingy or not over him and might make things weird, tough situation. I hope hope this ends with bright side to it, could be what begins your dream move out West. [editline]19th January 2015[/editline] He wasn't with the wrong guy, his ex is now with the wrong guy and it's messing up his life and his ex doesn't know or doesn't care. [editline]19th January 2015[/editline] What makes you dislike eating? Not good at making tasty food, think you'll get fat, hurts after you eat? Just curious since I'm one of those people who has to stop myself eating too much.[/QUOTE] Yeah, my spidey senses were tingling after I posted that I might have misread something and posted something wrong. But I was busy so pennies, nickels, and quarters
Guys, I am so fucking confused it is almost as I don't know my identity.., I like girls, I like boys, and sometimes I want to fuck girls so bad other times they are total turnoff, same for man. And not to mention I can love both, and people see me as homosexual yet I like girls more than man. What the fuck really??
You are bisexual with a seemingly more heterosexual bias. Don't worry about it :)
[QUOTE=Fourier;46968812]Guys, I am so fucking confused it is almost as I don't know my identity.., I like girls, I like boys, and sometimes I want to fuck girls so bad other times they are total turnoff, same for man. And not to mention I can love both, and people see me as homosexual yet I like girls more than man. What the fuck really??[/QUOTE] What matters is what you feel. If you like boys and girls then you do, some people just don't think people can be bi-sexual which is pretty stupid to think.
Putting a name and a label on your sexuality isn't too important. Just like whoever you like.
My brother wants to prove me that I'm not bi. I kinda regret that I made a fb post admitting that I am bi. Only my brother seem to know that fortunately, but wtf. What reason does he have to change my sexuality?
[QUOTE=Davidn64;46969329]My brother wants to prove me that I'm not bi. I kinda regret that I made a fb post admitting that I am bi. Only my brother seem to know that fortunately, but wtf. What reason does he have to change my sexuality?[/QUOTE] He doesn't have a reason and he can't change who you are, he just has to live to accept it. I don't understand how your brother can "prove" to you that you're not a certain sexuality, that doesn't make sense to me.
[QUOTE=GhostProject;46969538]He doesn't have a reason and he can't change who you are, he just has to live to accept it. I don't understand how your brother can "prove" to you that you're not a certain sexuality, that doesn't make sense to me.[/QUOTE] My bad, I accidentally meant it differently. He wanted to change my mind by comming with excuses that I don't have a girlfriend and do nothing else then browse on my Internet. It was months ago and he hasn't told anyone about this and thank god for that. My parents are soo against gays and bi's. I felt like posting it now, because guests can't browse the threads on FP. Even then, he probably wouldn't care.
[QUOTE=Roll_Program;46967565] What makes you dislike eating? Not good at making tasty food, think you'll get fat, hurts after you eat? Just curious since I'm one of those people who has to stop myself eating too much.[/QUOTE] I thought i had actually told you this once before. I just have no appetite on top of from years of lack of eating i suppose i can only stomach small amounts. I always had a very small appetite where a bowl of soup was too much even. But after all those years if i have a large meal or actually anything that isn't really small, i feel sick after. Nauseated, bloated, uncomfortable, shitty ect. Yeah ive asked the docs about it and all they had to offer was "eating disorder otherwise not specificed" to use proper medical jargon. AKA "we know there's a problem but we have no idea what it is" I still enjoy the taste of food and will also admit i can be picky but only in terms of, i gotta be in the mood to eat it, to eat it. I actually have a really good palette and could pick out individual seasonings used in dishes, sometimes even those used in tiny amounts. [editline]20th January 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Davidn64;46969329]My brother wants to prove me that I'm not bi. I kinda regret that I made a fb post admitting that I am bi. Only my brother seem to know that fortunately, but wtf. What reason does he have to change my sexuality?[/QUOTE] most likely for personal gain in terms of, you being gay challenges his own beliefs, so he can't have that. Religious family? or maybe just parents mindset influenced him as well.
[QUOTE=krix;46968850]You are bisexual with a seemingly more heterosexual bias. Don't worry about it :)[/QUOTE] Ok thanks.., I am still confused - when I sense relationship with woman I start to think all shitty stuff "i can't be with man now?", and same opposite with man, when I sense relationship I get thoughs like "I can't be with woman now wtf". Maybe relationships just stink and I will be forever alone/free bird. [editline]20th January 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Shark Bones;46968887]Putting a name and a label on your sexuality isn't too important. Just like whoever you like.[/QUOTE] Agree with this one! Thanks :).
Safety inspection happening at work, which means I can't get anything done until they're finished. So I'm getting paid to shitpost on twitter right now.
I get paid to basically come on this forum and wait for phone calls.
"I'm gonna wake up at 6:30 and it's gonna be awesome" *goes to bed at 9:15* *wakes up at 7:10* How do I fix this
I don't even need an alarm, because I wake up faster then my alarm does. It's like it became so routine in my life, that I have to wake up at 7am.
[QUOTE=Viva;46971813]I thought i had actually told you this once before. I just have no appetite on top of from years of lack of eating i suppose i can only stomach small amounts. I always had a very small appetite where a bowl of soup was too much even. But after all those years if i have a large meal or actually anything that isn't really small, i feel sick after. Nauseated, bloated, uncomfortable, shitty ect. Yeah ive asked the docs about it and all they had to offer was "eating disorder otherwise not specificed" to use proper medical jargon. AKA "we know there's a problem but we have no idea what it is" I still enjoy the taste of food and will also admit i can be picky but only in terms of, i gotta be in the mood to eat it, to eat it. I actually have a really good palette and could pick out individual seasonings used in dishes, sometimes even those used in tiny amounts. [editline]20th January 2015[/editline] most likely for personal gain in terms of, you being gay challenges his own beliefs, so he can't have that. Religious family? or maybe just parents mindset influenced him as well.[/QUOTE] Oh right, so you still enjoy it, just in tiny amounts. I couldn't believe such a fan of Anthony Bourdain could dislike eating!
7 am? That's really late.
Got an offer to work at a film studio in may - so till then it's filming and such c:
[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;46972354]"I'm gonna wake up at 6:30 and it's gonna be awesome" *goes to bed at 9:15* *wakes up at 7:10* How do I fix this[/QUOTE] Go to bed at 8:05pm
Oh shit didn't see the 30 you're gay
[QUOTE=redback3;46973887]Got an offer to work at a film studio in may - so till then it's filming and such c:[/QUOTE] whatwhatwhat How did you get offered? And where?
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