Crossdressing & Transgender & A̲L̲L̲I̲E̲S̲ Discussion v. Thread Reassignment Surgery - General

Well, my mom found my pictures of me cross dressing. She thought she could get me to stop by telling me she didn't want me in the house if I continued to do it. Jokes on her though, because I already have an apartment to move into this Friday, with all my furniture already bought and ready to be moved in that day, as well as already having all my worldly possessions packed away and in my car.

Somedays I think I don't even want to transition. Because if I do I lose my family and I really don't want to, even though they're complete cunts and bad people sometimes I think I'd rather live a lie and keep them in my life, because I know if I do transition they won't ever love and will abandon me. Really do hate this trans stuff, I started out being happy with self acceptance and my mental state depression has gotten worse each day and continues to get worse. Eugh.

[QUOTE=DeathBacon;48837248]Well, my mom found my pictures of me cross dressing. She thought she could get me to stop by telling me she didn't want me in the house if I continued to do it. Jokes on her though, because I already have an apartment to move into this Friday, with all my furniture already bought and ready to be moved in that day, as well as already having all my worldly possessions packed away and in my car.[/QUOTE] at least you're prepared!

update: ive expressed that I kinda wanna cut my hair short and ive been told by literally everyone I know including friends and family that i'd either look ugly and no one would like me or "real" trans girls dont cut their hair short and having a boyish haircut means im not True Trans and its a fucking nightmare needing to keep up with the bullshit status quo that everyone expects, I actually get insulted for not liking my hair when others do and it fucking hurts

I'm just not a fan of short cuts myself. Can't stand pixie cuts and the like. About shoulder-length is what I like and where I try to keep mine. Tends to be what I like with other people regardless of sex and gender.

[QUOTE=Judas;48838528]update: ive expressed that I kinda wanna cut my hair short and ive been told by literally everyone I know including friends and family that i'd either look ugly and no one would like me or "real" trans girls dont cut their hair short and having a boyish haircut means im not True Trans and its a fucking nightmare needing to keep up with the bullshit status quo that everyone expects, I actually get insulted for not liking my hair when others do and it fucking hurts[/QUOTE] "True Trans"? is that like Vegeta going around saying he's a true saiyan? either way do what you want, fuck them. they sound like shitty people if they're gonna give you shit for cutting your hair. yeah, this sounds dumb and "looking outside in"-ish, but why hold yourself back when other people are naysaying?

you am no real super sand

Tell 'em to go fuck themselves. Your identity is more important to you than it is to others. Or go half and half and do the little side shave doodleydoo. [img]https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/f3/49/2e/f3492ebb39eda66382b2814aaf8fe6f0.jpg[/img]

My sister has that half shavey hair and it looks great, she has a lotus (i think) tattoo on the part thats shaven it looks neat.

If it wouldn't be a reasonable criticism levied at cis women, it's not reasonable when aimed at trans women.

[t]https://scontent-ord1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpa1/v/t1.0-9/12105860_503366909834801_8015456728655632413_n.jpg?oh=dc18e34daa23898757afd1f56e400902&oe=569663D7[/t] Im a real witch now.

[QUOTE=Ms. Gyroscope;48845566][t]https://scontent-ord1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpa1/v/t1.0-9/12105860_503366909834801_8015456728655632413_n.jpg?oh=dc18e34daa23898757afd1f56e400902&oe=569663D7[/t] Im a real witch now.[/QUOTE] you look like a howard stern in HRT

[QUOTE=Ms. Gyroscope;48845566][t]https://scontent-ord1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpa1/v/t1.0-9/12105860_503366909834801_8015456728655632413_n.jpg?oh=dc18e34daa23898757afd1f56e400902&oe=569663D7[/t] Im a real witch now.[/QUOTE] yay we can be coven buddies/girlfriends now!!

[QUOTE=Judas;48846053]yay we can be coven buddies/girlfriends now!![/QUOTE] I couldn't be happier. [img]https://facepunch.com/image.php?u=406889&dateline=1444182561[/img][img]https://facepunch.com/image.php?u=255328&dateline=1444182584[/img]

Best FP couple????

nah

no thats garry + garrys ego

[QUOTE=Judas;48846188]no thats garry + garrys ego[/QUOTE] dont forget the rust forum

[img_thumb] http://i.imgur.com/NcLZfHN.png[/img_thumb] I got my eyebrows did so they aren't those caterpillars in this pic anymore... but I can't get my jawline trimmed can I? Was messing about with my new front-facing camera in the Security office now that I can do an okay ponytail and not hate myself that much. :v:

[QUOTE=Nifae;48847083]I can't get my jawline trimmed can I?[/QUOTE] [URL="http://www.facialfeminizationsurgery.info/ffs_jaw_shave.html"]Yes, you can.[/URL] [editline]7th October 2015[/editline] also that ponytail is a++ wish i had hair lke yours

[QUOTE=Qaus;48850162][URL="http://www.facialfeminizationsurgery.info/ffs_jaw_shave.html"]Yes, you can.[/URL] [editline]7th October 2015[/editline] also that ponytail is a++ wish i had hair lke yours[/QUOTE] I realize there's surgeries but any possibility of that is years down the line and I haven't even started HRT yet. Not sure I even want to as I don't really have a feminine face and if I look like a male with tits I'm going to be even more spiteful towards myself for my failure than if I just don't even try. I don't even take good care of my hair... but thanks. I wish I had an avatar as cute as yours. Maybe we could be Steam friends.

HRT could give you a fuller face which could hide a jawline. I don't suggest surgery until you know you need it. [editline]7th October 2015[/editline] also potential progress with my mom: i walked out of my room in leggings and she stopped to talk to me about something completely unrelated, when she was finished she glanced down and asked where i got them and i told her "amazon" and all she said was "oh". it was a very sincerely casual "oh" without a hint of anything else and it made me so happy.

I'm moving into the gender-inclusive dorm soon. The first floor is the gender-inclusive floor and they only had space on the third floor, but I'll make it work, whatever. There's a unisex bathroom which is nice.

i got a surprise phone call yesterday from the gender and sexual health clinic and i had my first appointment today, next appointment is in January 14th weeeeeee progressss. Also does anyone know if that means I'll have my blood tested next appointment or if I'll need to have further appointments?

Since I've had to put my HRT on hold my libido has been going fucking nuts. Pun halfway intended.

I knew another transgirl, really cool person, but the hormones made her unbearably rude to me, she would talk shit about me behind my back and say that I had "no clue what I was talking about" then come to me for help when she had a problem with the Source Engine, it was pretty infuriating, so I asked her why she was shit talking me behind my back and she called me a "faggot" and then removed me, then asked her girlfriend to remove me too...I don't understand. Whatever though, it's not like anything of value was lost except a friendship, I'm smart enough to figure out anything they would've told me on my own, I've been doing that for quite a period of time now anyway. I've stopped asking other people for help because it makes me feel like a leech, and being able to find/fix anything I run into is teaching me a lot.

It wasn't because of the hormones

[QUOTE=bitches;48860374]It wasn't because of the hormones[/QUOTE] Maybe they just got an ego overtime, it happens to a lot of people when they actually become decent programmers, and this person (back when I met them) wasn't really a great programmer, nor were they on hormones, so I guess both of them (being on hormones and starting to program) probably confused me into thinking it was hormones instead of just them having an ego about being a (half) decent programmer. EDIT: Holy goodness I fixed a stupid spelling mistake.

[QUOTE=Reyjr43;48860808]Maybe they just got an ego overtime, it happens to a lot of people when they actually become decent programmers, and this person (back when I met them) wasn't really a great programmer, nor were they on hormones, so I guess both of them (being on hormones and starting to program) probably confused me into thinking it was hormones instead of just them having an ego about being a (half) decent programmer. EDIT: Holy goodness I fixed a stupid spelling mistake.[/QUOTE] At least you know what kind of person they really are. You're better off if thats the attitude they're going to have towards you.

[QUOTE=Nifae;48847083][img_thumb] http://i.imgur.com/NcLZfHN.png[/img_thumb] I got my eyebrows did so they aren't those caterpillars in this pic anymore... but I can't get my jawline trimmed can I? Was messing about with my new front-facing camera in the Security office now that I can do an okay ponytail and not hate myself that much. :v:[/QUOTE] Take this picture up here. Do you guys and gals think I'd do well on HRT? My main fear, now that my time draws near to begin if I get some cash, is that I won't pass and I will just look like a male with breasts. That is not what I want to happen, but then again I can't just keep avoiding my gender. I can't even have my friends on Steam use male pronouns anymore as it just sends me into a bad place. Today in Writing the teacher was discussing heros in film and someone brought up PowerPuff Girls and I said "I barely remember them!" because it was so long ago, and she said "that's because you aren't a girl" and I made a Max Payne face and felt like shit for the rest of the hour. She didn't know, of course, but still. Anyway, tell me if you think my face has potential. I can get more angles later. I'm 5'2' and 45kg/100lb, so I have that going for me. My voice is kinda deep but I'm not concerned about the voice.