Crossdressing & Transgender & A̲L̲L̲I̲E̲S̲ Discussion v. Thread Reassignment Surgery - General

heres hoping to a brighter a future. reserve your name on the list of the future. the facepunch time capsule 2027 is about to be sent on a one way trip to the future [url]https://facepunch.com/showthread.php?t=1582082[/url]

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;52871777]Hmm, why?[/QUOTE] Because that's more shit to deal with. I'm already feeling like I have way more than I can deal with, just by trying to struggle through figuring out my gender all alone. Add my family to that and I can't even fathom dealing with that by myself. And I have tons of extended family, much of which wouldn't appreciate me transitioning. As much as I love my direct family, if I can't deal with involving them in my life then I won't, because I can't.

What the fuck am I supposed to do? I'm so lost

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;52883605]What the fuck am I supposed to do? I'm so lost[/QUOTE] experiment where you can and with what you feel most comfortable trying, It can be frustrating going through this while still in a house with other people, but doing small stuff can help you get a feel for things

[QUOTE=The golden;52883992] It could be trying out various bits of clothing, trialing new pronouns online, trying a new name for a bit, shaving your body hair, etc.[/QUOTE] For me shaving body hair feels absolutely amazing, really feels good.

Sweet Christmas. It's been two years since I last posted here.. wtf. Haiii again. [img_thumb]https://i.imgur.com/1QzzSOA.jpg[/img_thumb]

I don't know if the link is broken or if you removed the picture, all I see is an error sign [QUOTE=TonyStark123;52887857]Sweet Christmas. It's been two years since I last posted here.. wtf. Haiii again. [IMG]https://gyazo.com/159bf6320b044fb2cd810728b50de361.png[/IMG][/QUOTE]

painting nails has got to feel like the most empowering thing i have ever done

[QUOTE=Bordellimies;52888062]I don't know if the link is broken or if you removed the picture, all I see is an error sign[/QUOTE] Its because its hotlinked from google files, can't do that. They kill access after a few minutes or depending on how much bandwidth it uses.

I fixed it, never had it happen before so never noticed. I assume it probably used a lot of bandwidth.

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;52888351]You look extremely huggable.[/QUOTE] My partner would agree with this haha.

Lately I've been very self conscious of my voice Would it be okay to upload a clip and get some feedback? I'd like to know if I have a snowball's chance in hell of ever sounding like a girl if I decide to transition.

I gave up on my voice, I can probably make it sound more 'girly' if I tried for long enough, but I hate the tone I always end up with. I've just been slowly adjusting it for 3 years and not given a crap if someone misgenders me, I'm not someone who gets triggered. I even stream on Twitch these days with zero care about my voice, I'm just being me. tl;dr: voices are a pain in the ass and you can only do what you wan do.

[QUOTE=Thomo;52891628]So I got something back from the GIC, it could be roughly 30 months to be seen apparently. That's just soul crushing and it kind of has done that.[/QUOTE] Not gonna like me saying that the wait gets worse after the first appointment. Not gonna enjoy going back onto the list once finished with the degree and sorted out my living situation a bit more because even though I'll go in on priority, it can be anything from 2 months to a year again.

I've been on hormones for around 11 months now and I haven't felt any changes in the softness of my skin at all until in the last two weeks I don't understand

in the last few months, definitely since before September, they've been much lower than a regular female's. my spiro dosage went from 200mg to 100mg because of that, around a month and a half ago.

I don't remember any of my exact levels. all that my therapist has said has been about lowering or raising my spiro dosage. also, I didn't go up to 200mg from 100mg - I'm currently only on 100mg.

OMG OMG OMG I told my mom and she said she will always love me and she is their for me I'm so freaking happy.

Ahhh so I got a couple pairs of knee socks, which I've never worn before..... One is actually wool over-knee socks, and they're so cozy I want to wear them all the time! It's hard to find them being sold in my foot size though. Especially not online.

I got word from my GP today that I have a referral to see an endocrinologist in July. Bit of a while to wait, but I can be happy to know that it's going to happen eventually.

I have noticed that the transgender groups/communities, most of them student groups I have joined have some seriously fucked ideas. I just don't really take part in them now. Got plenty of chill friends.

I lost two really close friends from telling them about what I've been struggling with. It sucks, I was pretty sure they were chill with this stuff too. I think the biggest sting was my second friend saying "I'm ungrateful". It hurts, and I feel like shit for even feeling these things.

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;52899773]Care to share? I'm interested.[/QUOTE] A lot of it is intimidating barring cis people from events, saying people who don't pass should be forced to stay and present as their assigned gender, typical 'you are cis scum' bullshit. Crowning jewel has to be when they encouraged violence against this religious group on campus who didn't even do anything to them. [editline]17th November 2017[/editline] I am not involved with them anymore and just chill with other people. I am sure other communities are chill but that is just my personal anecdote

[QUOTE=Dazzgrace;52899829]I lost two really close friends from telling them about what I've been struggling with. It sucks, I was pretty sure they were chill with this stuff too. I think the biggest sting was my second friend saying "I'm ungrateful". It hurts, and I feel like shit for even feeling these things.[/QUOTE] i know how that feels. my best friend for a few years who i talked to all day every day, just kinda stopped talking to me after i came out. later learned he said some pretty transphobic shit in the past, as well as personally trying to discourage me from transitioning. sometimes people are just shit. it can be hard to move on, but youre better off without them.

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;52899336]I'm not saying you should or anyone else should stop posting about having supportive parents. By all means it makes me happy that some of you peeps have supportive families and we all strive for that. Just wanna say that while i'm happy for people having supportive parents it feels like a punch to my face when someone posts about having supportive parents. Not your fault whatsoever. We must strive for all parents to be supportive and not dinguses to their kids who just want to be happy.[/QUOTE] I'm not saying you or anyone else shouldn't post this, but this has to be one of the most incredibly selfish things I've ever seen in a post. We should all try to be supportive of others posting habits though because they just want to be happy.

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;52904265]Did you even read my posts tho? I just wanted to express how much I despise my situation and even made not one but three posts saying that I appreciate people posting about being accepted by their parents and peers. I think you’re trying to stir up a situation here otherwise you wouldn’t have commented on my posts. [editline]19th November 2017[/editline] I’m genuinely offended you thought I wanted to make anyone stop posting about having supportive parents too.[/QUOTE] You're just being passive aggressive. There is no reason to include the entire first two sentences of the post unless you wanted them to feel bad about having a positive experience and sharing it on here.

Please everyone this isn't what I wanted I just wanted to share my experience just stop fighting it is worse then any post that any of you could have made I hate fighting.

People post positive stories experiences here to share their happiness or as a form of relief. Telling people to stop sharing those stories because it upsets you is unhelpful, discouraging, and mildly selfish. Furthermore pulling out previous selflessness does not negate a singular act of selfishness. Taking offense to such a mild post also discourages people from posting here so can we all not do thst please?

This above I kinda agree because to be honest if the fighting continued/s after I made my post I was just gonna kinda stop coming here to post

I'm not gonna lie. Every single time I've ever made an effort to actually join an LGBT-centric community it's been an absolutely horrible experience. My freshman year, I attended a small presentation from the main campus LGBT group during my freshman orientation. As we were doing the normal go-around-the-circle, give-us-your-name-and-pronouns-and-your-orientation-if-you're-comfortable-with-that icebreaker thing and the guy leading it gave me shit for being bi, saying I "wasn't committing" or something like that, which puts them on my shit list immediately There's a more trans-centric group on campus that I would like to silently sit in the corner on their meetings or something and just listen to some stories and experiences but I strongly suspect they would not take kindly to my being cis sigh