Crossdressing & Transgender & A̲L̲L̲I̲E̲S̲ Discussion v. Thread Reassignment Surgery - General

Hi I'm Alex and I'm getting increasingly confident that I am a trans woman (I dunno if it's weird to call myself a woman at 19 but 'girl' almost feels like putting myself down in this context) Also I told some old friends about it and they were wonderfully supportive for the most part and made me cry in relief now return to your regularly scheduled programming

hi i'm ram i've known im trans for a year and a half and been on hrt for 3 and a half months and yet i still have yet to come out to my brothers

damn i wanna fuckin wear skirts and dresses

[QUOTE=ZnT00;53053609]damn i wanna fuckin wear skirts and dresses[/QUOTE] I do that and it looks like crap but I do it anyway

Hi i'm me and I like skirts and girls in skirts

Hai, I am me and I like games.

I'm a pervert

hi im sara and im a 16yo trans girl whos been on hormones for almost exactly a year now?

Hi I'm Chloe, and these introductions are actually really cute and I like them, we should just randomly do them more often

Hi i'm Gwen and i've been out online since early 2016 and been out to my family since mid last year. Gonna start looking into HRT when we have more money for that kind of thing! Exciting!

Hi I'm Candy, one of the few cis men here, been here basically since the beginning, what, 6-7 years ago, if not more? I'm trying to get my girlfriend to go to the therapist and start on HRT, but she's not. Also I'm jealous of women's fashion choices compared to men.

[QUOTE=Clovis;53054183]Maybe ill paint everyone elses nails here :o[/QUOTE] do my nails please

Hey I'm Laura and I like dogs

I'm Hailey and I've been on t blockers for 3 months and e for about 1 year, (altho the first like 6 didn't really count), I still get really embarrassed and nervous when in fem

I'm Emily and I can see why kids love cinnamon toast crunch. Also I guess I'm a girl and like girly things.

my name's gill and i can't stop listening to marina and the diamonds

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My name is Conner. I've never really talked about any of this out loud, except maybe a few "jokes" to friends, but at one point I had considered the trans life. I'm a little fuzzy on the why, but I do remember when I was younger I found everything different from myself fascinating. I even recall telling my dad I wished I was black. Back then there really was no public support to fall on like there kind of is now, at least none in front of me. This could've been like 2009-12. But I don't think that's why I eventually fell away from the thought, more likely just why I didn't have any reinforcement for it. When I was even younger I'd always flirted with the idea playing along with girly things. At (7?) I was at a party for my parent's friends and their kids were hanging out. On their suggestion some of the girls they wanted to put me in one of their cheetah leotards and have me be like a pet lion to walk around and later for their gladiator game or something. I went along with it. I also never objected to having makeup put on me, even today. At maybe 10 I was at my brother's lessons and the in-home teacher had two daughters my age and they had an idea to put a dress on me and makeup and to pretend to trick their mother into thinking I was someone else. I gladly played along. I think the ultimate reason I never went through with anything was mostly cowardice. Scars, chipped teeth, lost teeth etc. I'm deathly afraid of irreversible change. I think my fear of permanence may have stemmed from losing Beachhead in the ocean one day on vacation very young. I used to get very mortally afraid of losing teeth, thinking "what if this isn't a baby one and I'm really losing this tooth forever". So the idea of operations and drugs to alter the body permanently, or at least being certain and committed to wanting to, I suppose from my point of view takes a lot of bravery. I think it's why I have a newfound fascination/respect for some people when I learn they are trans. I don't think I could do it. I'm scared to even bleach dye my hair. I know it's normal to be afraid of what people will think, but these days I don't believe I care about what people think of my life choices. I'm confident I steered away because of a fear of doing something I can't undo. Maybe if gene editing and changing the body becomes as simple and reversible as a character editor like we seem to be somewhat on the way to, I'll try all kinds of new identities. But that could be long after I'm gone. Sometimes I wonder if (TMI?) [sp]a sexual obsession with castration fantasy[/sp] stems from those old thoughts psychologically. I don't think I'd ever go through with it for real though. I've grown to feel a lot better about myself, and I think I want kids some day. I love my nephew. I've become in touch with my femininity and I feel like I'm doing well now. When I was a small child I used to be inbetween when there was "boys vs girls" "wars" on the playground. I'd hang out with the girls team and talk to them and would often try to be friends with both sides. I didn't fully agree with either "side", and I just wanted everyone to get along. So I kind of feel comfortable being a cis friend to the trans community, even though I've seen anti-cis (extremists?) that seem to want me to be uncomfortable in my skin, as well as to feel unwelcome in the community. Sorry for the long post, it's weighed on my mind for a long time. I figured as long as we were talking about ourselves now was a decent time. Forgive me if I'm mistaken of anything. Since my path diverged, I don't expect to fully understand since almost experiencing something isn't exactly experiencing something. [editline]15th January 2018[/editline] [QUOTE=Clovis;53054695]alright but im picking the colour, that goes for everyone[/QUOTE] that's fine as long as its purple

To be totally honest I think I'm only trans because when I was a kid I wanted to grow up to be a dump truck and now I'm making up for that

My mom always told me I had aspergers but I never believed it. Thank you Clovis this post has given me a bit to think about and is really constructive.

hi i'm lyn and i like boobs and let me tell you sometimes the juxtaposition between my desire for boobs in all things and that alignment with a typical straight cis male sexuality tears me apart in a way that i might as well be called lisa

Oh, uhh Hi, I'm June. I think. I'm the most indecisive person in the world so maybe I'll have a different name later.

I'm indecisive about my name too. My birth name is Alexander and I've been called Xander my entire life by everyone I've known. I picked Alex because it's gender neutral but it kind of feels like low-hanging fruit being a derivative of my birth name? I don't know. I legitimately like it but something about it feels wrong. I've been considering April. It's a really nice name.

Hey, I'm Micah (pronounced Mii-Ka although spelling suggests it's pronounced My-Ka. Iunno, blame my mom :v:) I've known I was trans for 10 years or so or since middle school, although I was not brave enough to do anything about it up until recently. I'm 23 now. I don't know why I was always so scared when my parents have several good trans friends from college and have shown no signs of transphobia aside from the occasional harmless joke here and there. I guess I've just been afraid of the social transition and being the black sheep of the family. My mother gave me a reassuring talk (being that she's the only one I'm out to) that if I choose to come out, the only people that matter are me, her, and my dad. Screw everyone else. So that certainly brightened my mood! Oh and uhhhh, I like spending time with my dogs and I study animation in university. AKA: future Starbucks barista.

G'day, I'm Larry, and I've been around since the start pretty much, mostly lurking in the shadows. That's just how it goes.

Hi, I'm Oliver, my partner is a transman and has been out for the last 3 years (we celebrated our 6 year anniversary last year). I'm playful with my own gender but I still identify & present as a cisgender male.

hey, i'm... also... here i lurk here a lot, mostly because, even as a 24 year old who's been questioning their gender for over half a decade, i still don't know where i stand. i'm amab, but i've NEVER felt 100% male, even before i even knew it was a thing to Not Be Your Assigned Gender or whatever, and i've definitely had months where i've been [B]certain[/B] that i'm female, to the point of talking to close friends about it in confidence n that. but then i'll have long stretches of time where i don't feel any significant pull or push either way, male or female. i think the one moment in my life that really drove home that i wasn't 100% a guy was when i was giving a presentation on a short film i'd made with another person in my class, and we were supposed to talk about our partner's role in the production, and my partner was talking about me, and they used male pronouns, and this is no word of a lie, it genuinely hurt hearing "he" being used to describe me. like i don't know why but every time they said "he" it was like they were poking me with a fiery stick. like, you know how a deep anger literally burns you inside, or how you can get so sad that it genuinely feels like there's a void in your chest? it was like that, a sharp pain whenever they referred to me with male pronouns. i was so fucking confused at that moment and it's stuck with me for years. obv there are other indicators other than pronouns n that, but that was the one that i felt was easiest to describe. thing is i've always been ridiculously scared of doing anything that could be considered to be outside of the ~gender~norms~ besides having long hair (mine reaches the small of my back atm, i love my hair and if anything happened to it i'd probably off myself), but i guess in a nutshell if i could just wish myself into having a female body and not have to deal with having to go through the gauntlet of family shit and social shit and social media shit and chemical shit and nhs shit and surgery shit, then hell yeah i'd do it. but fuck me if it doesn't feel terrifying as hell every second i think about it. also yes i know that typing in almost entirely lower case drives some people crazy but consider this: i'm sorry

[QUOTE=The golden;53055393]There is definitely a link between Asperger's and being transgender. I don't know what it is but there is something there and I would love more study done on it. More than 3/4 of the trans girls I personally know are either on the spectrum or think they might be. Of that group of people - over half of them have very similar sexual interests despite me meeting them in very different places.[/QUOTE] I don't mean to stir up shit and I know very little about either spectrum-related or transgender-related topics but I wonder if it has anything to do with transgender children often feeling very repressed and 'othered' in their childhoods?

Do some individuals in this thread feel genderless instead of feeling like a certain gender in the wrong body?

[QUOTE=evlbzltyr;53055973]hey, i'm... also... here i lurk here a lot, mostly because, even as a 24 year old who's been questioning their gender for over half a decade, i still don't know where i stand. i'm amab, but i've NEVER felt 100% male, even before i even knew it was a thing to Not Be Your Assigned Gender or whatever, and i've definitely had months where i've been [B]certain[/B] that i'm female, to the point of talking to close friends about it in confidence n that. but then i'll have long stretches of time where i don't feel any significant pull or push either way, male or female. i think the one moment in my life that really drove home that i wasn't 100% a guy was when i was giving a presentation on a short film i'd made with another person in my class, and we were supposed to talk about our partner's role in the production, and my partner was talking about me, and they used male pronouns, and this is no word of a lie, it genuinely hurt hearing "he" being used to describe me. like i don't know why but every time they said "he" it was like they were poking me with a fiery stick. like, you know how a deep anger literally burns you inside, or how you can get so sad that it genuinely feels like there's a void in your chest? it was like that, a sharp pain whenever they referred to me with male pronouns. i was so fucking confused at that moment and it's stuck with me for years. obv there are other indicators other than pronouns n that, but that was the one that i felt was easiest to describe. thing is i've always been ridiculously scared of doing anything that could be considered to be outside of the ~gender~norms~ besides having long hair (mine reaches the small of my back atm, i love my hair and if anything happened to it i'd probably off myself), but i guess in a nutshell if i could just wish myself into having a female body and not have to deal with having to go through the gauntlet of family shit and social shit and social media shit and chemical shit and nhs shit and surgery shit, then hell yeah i'd do it. but fuck me if it doesn't feel terrifying as hell every second i think about it. also yes i know that typing in almost entirely lower case drives some people crazy but consider this: i'm sorry[/QUOTE] hey, you sound pretty darn trans... I can sympathise with some of the stuff you wrote as well, I remember one time my girlfriend called me a "bloke" and my brain was like ?????!?!?!?, it was viscerally alarming for reasons I didn't understand at the time. on the topic of presentations, I remember the first time I had to give one I was 11 or 12 and I broke down crying almost instantly, I have no idea why haha. ever since then, giving presentations has been kind of excruciating for me for unknown reasons, particularly practicing them and repeating my name again and again always gave me a strong urge to lie down and weep, haha. have you considered getting a referral to a gender clinic from your GP? the waiting lists are long as hell, but it might be good to get the ball rolling on at least talking to a clinician about this. thinking about this stuff seriously at all takes an absolute tonne of strength and introspection, and you're damn right that it's terrifying, so go you. lower case is just how the cool kids type lol [editline]16th January 2018[/editline] [QUOTE=genkaz92;53056099]Do some individuals in this thread feel genderless instead of feeling like a certain gender in the wrong body?[/QUOTE] totally, when I'm programming or something I'm wholly absorbed in the code and then I'm just a bunch of neurons doing a task also I have a bunch of residual male mannerisms and it makes me feel "male" and it fucks me off lol. I am slowly learning to change them. [editline]16th January 2018[/editline] [img]https://pbs.twimg.com/media/DHxdIizVwAAPDW2.jpg:large[/img]