Crossdressing & Transgender & A̲L̲L̲I̲E̲S̲ Discussion v. Thread Reassignment Surgery

[Judas]

super depressed after yesterday so i got a tattoo, im a demon irl

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[Mister Sandman]

[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;48714192]holy shit I'm going to he meeting now I'm so nervous
let's hope that I come back living as a girl openly[/QUOTE]

Just got back, things went better than expected
I've got the clearance to transition but it's all going to fall on me and my mom's not open to me being open about it until I have a job. But I have the clearance to start transition pretty much. It won't be tomorrow, but, as soon as I get myself a job it can begin. So wOOooOoo

[shxwxrs]

[QUOTE=Judas;48714386]super depressed after yesterday so i got a tattoo, im a demon irl

[t]https://scontent-iad3-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpf1/v/t35.0-12/12011452_550704921752971_870705652_o.jpg?oh=9d560a2cb3a5677586b7d3802e6919dc&oe=55FF43CA[/t][/QUOTE]

lets go to a death grips concert together

[Judas]

yes (also pic taken in my car, RARE)

[:3c]

I don't want body hair. u.u

[Kaiwren]

[QUOTE=Judas;48714386]super depressed after yesterday so i got a tattoo, im a demon irl

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Lookin' cute, girl.

Also, to all those saying that their hormones are hella cheap - where are you buying from?

[Zero_]

[QUOTE=Kaiwren;48717015]

Also, to all those saying that their hormones are hella cheap - where are you buying from?[/QUOTE]
I'm currently on prescription, but I know that many use Alldaychemist
It is like $100 every 3-4 months, if I remember correctly.

[Gray001]

Judas has a cool looking car. Is that a vinyl player in the back?

[Ms. Gyroscope]

[QUOTE=Gray001;48717568]Judas has a cool looking car. Is that a vinyl player in the back?[/QUOTE]

Thats really not possible in a moving vehicle. Its just some speakers. God I love her car.

[Judas]

[QUOTE=Gray001;48717568]Judas has a cool looking car. Is that a vinyl player in the back?[/QUOTE]

nah its my ghetto as fuck homemade speaker system

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ive been doing weird custom stuff to it on and off since I got it a year and a half ago :v:

[Shark Bones]

[QUOTE=Judas;48718381]nah its my ghetto as fuck homemade speaker system

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ive been doing weird custom stuff to it on and off since I got it a year and a half ago :v:[/QUOTE]

That car is beautiful I am so jealous ;o;

I have a boring little four-door from 1997. It's kinda beat up but it runs faithfully, albeit without working windows and air conditioning. It's my first car, typically you don't get hooked up with something so swanky and awesome for a first car.

When I can though I want to get my hands on an old Buick Skylark, maybe 1962 or '64. That's my dream car. -u-

[Chickens!]

Thats a pretty sick car.

[Gray001]

Look at all that chrome! It's so [i]shiny[/i]

[Judas]

[QUOTE=Gray001;48718917]Look at all that chrome! It's so [i]shiny[/i][/QUOTE]

speaking of shiny and chrome, this was painted on the back for a few months until I had to take it off to paint the tailgate

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[rozzachu]

Hey I kinda disappeared off of fp again. Well I told dad I need to be in full role and he isn't having any of it whatsoever. I've spent the past 3 days looking for a job like a waitress or something and I'm hoping I can balance that and education. Hopefully I get to save a lot of money and show my dad I'm independent and move out. If this can all happen within the next month or two then I'll be ok for hormones. I told my brother how much of an asshole he was and he cried a lot because he realised he's a bad person and doesn't contribute enough to this whole thing and yet he doesn't do anything to change that. I dunno, but hey I'm trying to get out there for some money and hopefully I can get moving out. Wish me luck guys and gals imma need a lot of it.

[Sharkle_Bunwich]

[QUOTE=Chickens!;48718397]Thats a pretty sick car.[/QUOTE]

I agree it reminds me of those Chevrolet El Caminos. Even though a crossover between a pick up and a car is strange it's weirdly pleasing to the eye.

And since we've started let's all post pics of our rides.

[img]http://i.imgur.com/XLaOWuB.jpg[/img]

[Gray001]

.. I ride a bike. I'm sure not feeling like a pleb right now.

[Zero_]

I'm done. I can't compete with her best friend.
She's prettier, smarter, and more interesting than me.
I don't have a chance. There's no reason she would notice me over her, or everyone else.

[Chickens!]

I dont even have a bike.
I have nice blue shoes.

[Shotz]

[QUOTE=Chickens!;48725281]I dont even have a bike.
I have nice blue shoes.[/QUOTE]

I just have okay socks :(

[Judas]

[QUOTE=T-Sonar.0;48725095]I agree it reminds me of those Chevrolet El Caminos. Even though a crossover between a pick up and a car is strange it's weirdly pleasing to the eye.

And since we've started let's all post pics of our rides.

[img]http://i.imgur.com/XLaOWuB.jpg[/img][/QUOTE]

... It is one of those Chevrolet El Caminos. :v:

[Rowtree]

[QUOTE=Chickens!;48725281]I dont even have a bike.
I have nice blue shoes.[/QUOTE]

Are they blue suede shoes?

[Chickens!]

None of your fuckin' business

[Sharkle_Bunwich]

[QUOTE=Judas;48727311]... It is one of those Chevrolet El Caminos. :v:[/QUOTE]

I thought El Caminos had the front of an old school camero?

[editline]20th September 2015[/editline]

Oh, you have a 5th generation. That would explain it.

I'm so used to these.

[img_thumb]https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/d/d0/1968_El_Camino.jpg[/img_thumb]

[Judas]

I like my front more. Mine's an '80

[Amber902]

8 weeks on hormones. When I went to see my psychologist today he said he could tell I was on estrogen immediately c:

[Shark Bones]

Of course Skype isn't working after a horrible night's sleep. I want to put my head through a fucking car window.

[AlvyP]

You know that something is wrong when I saw a post on facebook about suicide awareness being this month and I instantly thought "Huh, suicide awareness month is this month? Maybe killing myself will help raise awareness."

Why do I hate myself so much? I'm not even a terrible person, I'm a very nice person and I brush off my own problems to help people, I'm rather intelligent and I really enjoy helping people if I can, but I just fucking hate myself and I don't get it.

Why can I be motivated to hate myself, but I can't get motivation to put toward something else, like becoming a decent reverse engineer, or making a new project, or even learning how a new programming language? Something, anything but hating myself or others.

I live a life feeling like I have some terrible physical addiction, I wake up hungry because I never feed myself enough, I force myself to eat only as much as I need for survival because I feel like I'm going to get fat otherwise, then I go on to constantly live in physical pain because I'm so stressed out, and with how low my blood sugar is I get awful physical symptoms, terrible headaches constantly, everything is pain, passing out randomly when standing up. I hate it, I can't continue on like this, it's just a matter of time. A ticking time bomb is what I am, and I'm shutting everyone out so I don't take them with me.

[Shark Bones]

[QUOTE=Reyjr43;48731547]You know that something is wrong when I saw a post on facebook about suicide awareness being this month and I instantly thought "Huh, suicide awareness month is this month? Maybe killing myself will help raise awareness."

Why do I hate myself so much? I'm not even a terrible person, I'm a very nice person and I brush off my own problems to help people, I'm rather intelligent and I really enjoy helping people if I can, but I just fucking hate myself and I don't get it.

Why can I be motivated to hate myself, but I can't get motivation to put toward something else, like becoming a decent reverse engineer, or making a new project, or even learning how a new programming language? Something, anything but hating myself or others.

I live a life feeling like I have some terrible physical addiction, I wake up hungry because I never feed myself enough, I force myself to eat only as much as I need for survival because I feel like I'm going to get fat otherwise, then I go on to constantly live in physical pain because I'm so stressed out, and with how low my blood sugar is I get awful physical symptoms, terrible headaches constantly, everything is pain, passing out randomly when standing up. I hate it, I can't continue on like this, it's just a matter of time. A ticking time bomb is what I am, and I'm shutting everyone out so I don't take them with me.[/QUOTE]

I wish I could help but sadly I'm in the same boat and I have utterly no clue how to beat it.

[Vaught]

[QUOTE=Reyjr43;48731547]You know that something is wrong when I saw a post on facebook about suicide awareness being this month and I instantly thought "Huh, suicide awareness month is this month? Maybe killing myself will help raise awareness."

Why do I hate myself so much? I'm not even a terrible person, I'm a very nice person and I brush off my own problems to help people, I'm rather intelligent and I really enjoy helping people if I can, but I just fucking hate myself and I don't get it.

Why can I be motivated to hate myself, but I can't get motivation to put toward something else, like becoming a decent reverse engineer, or making a new project, or even learning how a new programming language? Something, anything but hating myself or others.

I live a life feeling like I have some terrible physical addiction, I wake up hungry because I never feed myself enough, I force myself to eat only as much as I need for survival because I feel like I'm going to get fat otherwise, then I go on to constantly live in physical pain because I'm so stressed out, and with how low my blood sugar is I get awful physical symptoms, terrible headaches constantly, everything is pain, passing out randomly when standing up. I hate it, I can't continue on like this, it's just a matter of time. A ticking time bomb is what I am, and I'm shutting everyone out so I don't take them with me.[/QUOTE]

Because the depression has a nasty kick to it: the desire to prevent others from feeling what you feel, which is sadness. Depressed people are, strangely, one of the more empathetic people when others are upset. It's the self-loathing and general sadness that is the drawback.

You should eat enough in a day that you feel satisfied after a meal, not full. You don't have to be a glutton, just make sure you are fed well. Your body is no joke. If you do nothing to take care of it, it will hurt you in the end. No one likes to see others in pain, especially when they can amend it themselves. You're stressed about a lot of things, but you don't have to feel that way all the time. You don't have to result to a slow torture of yourself. Life sucks, yeah, but you can make it not suck. Why not take up on one of those subjects, for example? Read on about how to become a decent reverse engineer. I won't imply you haven't, but the faster you distance yourself from the stress and anxiety, the better off you'll be. I understand we all have low points in our lives, especially with depression/anxiety, and if you need to vent, you can go to friends as long as they're fine with you unloading on them.

/hug <3