Crossdressing & Transgender & A̲L̲L̲I̲E̲S̲ Discussion v. Thread Reassignment Surgery - General

ever since i upped my progynova from 2mg to 4mg im feeling much more emotional and girl-like how quaint

I sort of wish I never started looking into all this stuff, I felt bad before but this is a whole new level of feeling like garbage. I thought getting back into school would distract me, but it really hasn't. It's like the universe is doing everything in its power to remind me about all this business. First I learn that there's (probably) a transgirl in my trig class. Then my comp professor, while giving the introduction to her class, mentions that she wants to hear about our own interpretations of the stuff we read and all that jazz. While listing examples, she states that "Hills Like White Elephants" could be about a transsexual man if you interpreted it one way. I don't think I've ever felt [I]depressed[/I] before, but I do now, and it sucks. My parents were away for a while and I started drinking in their absence. Turns out, I'm an emotional drinker, it made things worse, and I just started crying excessively. :v: On the bright side, I've talked to both of my parents now, and they don't want to destroy me. And! I'm supposed to get a therapist (or at least sign up for one) next week. (Sorry if this is too bloggy. I gotta vent)

I'm so glad that your parents want to play a positive role for you on this issue. I know how it feels to suddenly go from not knowing to not being able to stop thinking about it. I made it all the way to age 22 without seriously questioning, and it was only because of an unrelated health issue that I had abnormally high anxiety. While trying to find the route cause, I decided to explore /r/asktransgender, which I did in a private browser because I (embarrassingly) considered the subject taboo until I started educating myself. I haven't had a day since where I haven't been thinking about it. It gets easier as time goes on, I think. For me, my dysphoria fell off significantly after I started HRT in November last year, even though I'm on a low dose and haven't seen much in the way of results. One piece of advice to anyone stressing out because they've just realized they're trans, which helped me hugely when I was trying to figure myself out. Don't be afraid to explore your gender; exploration doesn't mean committing to anything. [I]It's about picking a direction, not choosing a destination.[/I]

i remember back several months ago, i got called ma'am at a restaurant it made me so happy at the time, but i wasn't sure why seems obvious, thinking back on it :v:

went to dinner with my family the other night at this kind of dumpy hibachi place. employee came by and asked if I wanted something, looked me dead in the face, and called me "ma'am". he only tried to correct himself when I said "What?". considering I still haven't had the opportunity to start on HRT and wasn't making any particular effort to pass yet, it was a fuckin' hell of a confidence booster. thanks, random steakhouse employee. you honestly made my day.

So far I've mostly gotten "ma'am"d from the side (due to my hair, most likely) but the few times when it's straight on and serious are a real mood booster.

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[QUOTE=DiscoInferno;51602263]It's been a while since I've posted here, but I think I've severely fucked up. I was so sure I had an appointment in January at the [URL="http://www.wlmht.nhs.uk/gi/gender-identity-clinic/"]West London GIC[/URL] but when looking for the letter to confirm the time, it turns out I somehow misread September as January. With the four week time limit long gone I'm not sure what to do. Should I call the regular number on the 2nd? Call the emergency number tomorrow? Call my GP or make an appointment? Each time I misread a date it's like a hard slap in the face...[/QUOTE] Got a letter telling me an appointment in January was cancelled because the person I was meant to be seeing was going to be unavailable, I've finally found the moxie to call the place to find out what I need to do. Turns out I need to wait for another letter, but that means I've got an unknown sot-of deadline to make some steps towards transitioning before I can move on to hormones. Namely, changing my name and being open about my preferred gender identity and all that jazz.

After a bit of waiting to ward off weird peeps from dating sites that somehow obtained a invite and a poll in the server we opening the cd/tg discord back up to the public: -Check the OP for new invite link- jump in if ya want :ok: (also note: we have a anti-raid system on our server. if for some reason you join and instantly get thrown out, come back later! We are also set to verification level 1 discord, which means you need to verify a email to join in. Feel free to anon your username if you dont want people to see who you are on FP!)

[QUOTE=Wii60;51701444]After a bit of waiting to ward off weird peeps from dating sites that somehow obtained a invite and a poll in the server we opening the cd/tg discord back up to the public: [url]https://discord.gg/YFnCJCg[/url] jump in if ya want :ok:[/QUOTE] Come join in on the fun!

[QUOTE=Wii60;51701444]After a bit of waiting to ward off weird peeps from dating sites that somehow obtained a invite and a poll in the server we opening the cd/tg discord back up to the public: [url]https://discord.gg/YFnCJCg[/url] jump in if ya want :ok: (also note: we have a anti-raid system on our server. if for some reason you join and instantly get thrown out, come back later! We are also set to verification level 1 discord, which means you need to verify a email to join in. Feel free to anon your username if you dont want people to see who you are on FP!)[/QUOTE] It's cool, I guess.

i got kind of tired of all the flirting and sexual tension during my time there

[QUOTE=lintz;51701590]i got kind of tired of all the flirting and sexual tension during my time there[/QUOTE] theres less of that now so its all good :ok: lewd is not allowed on cd/tg discord anymore since we split that part of the server off into another invite-only one.

[QUOTE=lintz;51701590]i got kind of tired of all the flirting and sexual tension during my time there[/QUOTE] thats why i left too. lewd room was a mistake

Where do y'all get your shoes because I'm in need of some tall boots but finding a size 12 is so impossible if you want anything remotely interesting, and I'm running out of shoe stores to look on.

Everybody needs to quit bein' so Lawful and Chaotic and just come to the sweet sweet blandness of the Neutral side.

So something happened last night that I'd like to share. One of my biggest insecurities is that I've been suffering from thinning hair at my crown and at the front of my hairline, giving me a really obvious widow's peak. At the time I began questioning last year, I had been buzzing it all off to improve my appearance, but even though other people said I looked better, I was really, really heartbroken about the situation for reasons that are now obvious. So, over the summer and fall of last year, I worked to get myself on finasteride and minoxodil treatments and to start growing my hair back. I also learned proper haircare techniques to control my hair better so that what I have left would look better. Of course, going on HRT in November is also helping things. So my brother visited to have dinner with us and so I went and cleaned myself up, conditioned my hair and all that, and then went and sat at the kitchen table while they were all standing around talking. All of a sudden, in the middle of their conversation, my mom looks over at me (and because I was sitting she got a good look at the top of my head for the first time in a few weeks) stops what she was saying to tell me, "wow, you really are growing your hair back." And my brother and father stopped to take a look, and they both agreed that there's been major improvement. The "bald spot" on my head used to be about 3 inches long at its widest, and was covered in a thin patch of whispy hairs that didn't help to hide my scalp at all. I used to reach up and pinch the hair on the back of my head, where it's healthy and thick, and compare it to the bald spot. I remember barely being able to grab any hair, and how weak it felt. Now, it's a "thin spot." It's 2 inches at most, about half-covered with hair that feels stronger and healthier. It feels like the hair covering the rest of my head. I've also spotted some improvement at the front of my hairline, slowly counteracting the receding I experienced as a teenager. I can't express how happy I am that they took a moment to tell me that things are improving. Over the last couple of months, I kept thinking that I was seeing signs that my hair was returning, but my parents always seemed a bit skeptical that it would all come back, but for the first time I actually feel like it's all going to be better, and before the end of the year. For the first time in my life I'll know how to take care of it, too. I'll finally have the chance to have long, styled hair like I've always wanted.

*cough cOUGH HACK HEUWHDIU* Hey everyone what's up

[QUOTE=Sega Saturn;51708220]So something happened last night that I'd like to share. *Hair Thing!!!*[/QUOTE] Yuhhh I've read about that kind of thing happening on HRT, I somewhat have the same problem and I hope it slowly gets better.

[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;51710497]Sleep 😴[/QUOTE] -tucks in- nini

Is there an actual way to tell if your hip bone plates have fused or is it just "well they're not getting any wider"?

I think you need an x-ray for that. I remember getting one when I was a teenager and a doctor was able to point to the bones in my arm and show some detail which meant the bone had fused and I was "done growing" (as in height) although I've heard that hips don't typically fuse until your early to mid 20s so it might be a case-by-case thing.

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;51734480]It pretty much depends on your genetics. Some people have their hip bone plates fused at 21 some at 25.[/QUOTE] Ugh, I really hope mine fuse at 25 then :( Although I did start puberty pretty late so hopefully there's some amount of correlation there...

i bought anime pajamas today ive lost control of my heckin life

[QUOTE=HAKKAR!!!;51734809]i bought anime pajamas today ive lost control of my heckin life[/QUOTE] What type of anime?

Gender app went ok, my next one is in April and is a phone one (hip hooray I don't have to travel half-way across the country) fertility app got pushed back until the 6th of feb which has annoyed me and I'm currently in a shit place mentally and emotionally, and might lose my job at work over some stuff but oh well. Just taking it a day at the time. Also the hairdresser fucked my haircut up and gave me a boys cut. Good job hair grows back isn't it?

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;51731043] [t]http://i.imgur.com/x08hSbO.jpg[/t] Awesome brit girl that just got her documends changed on the left, me in the middle and gf on the right(fourth girl didn't like being in pics :C)[/QUOTE] Woah, you know Lissy? I talk to her in a Discord I go to. Small world.

london bois 4th mystery person

pornhub made a new sex ed site and they have a entire article about the bare basics of transgenderism its surprisingly well done. no nsfw images either as far as i know so unless people check your urls your safe. [url]http://www.pornhub.com/sex/trans-101/[/url]

[QUOTE=Wii60;51765290]pornhub made a new sex ed site and they have a entire article about the bare basics of transgenderism its surprisingly well done. no nsfw images either as far as i know so unless people check your urls your safe. [url]http://www.pornhub.com/sex/trans-101/[/url][/QUOTE] In just 5 minutes of reading that site I learned more about the woman's vagina than I did in High School.