• Crossdressing/Transgender Megathread v. Socks are both a running gag and mandatory
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[QUOTE=Tomo Takino;37920640]You cant have it! Stop asking or ill put all your socks.... uhhh.... in your underwear draw! Yeah, dont mess with me.[/QUOTE] I'm sorry :c Please don't hurt me.
[QUOTE=xxfalconxx;37918497]I suppose I should start at the beginning then, as it seems to be the root of this entire dictation. I am, what many would call, a loser. Perhaps, even moreso in that It appears to be impossible to obtain the one item that would perhaps, validate my existence: Happiness. True happiness. Not the kind of happiness that makes you cheerful on your birthday, or the kind that gives you shivers when you're about to enter disneyworld for the first time, i'm talking about the kind of happiness that makes you want to get out of bed in the morning. The kind of happiness that makes you drink a warm cup of tea while reading the newspaper because you enjoy it and it's relaxing, and, in such a fashion, you achieve true happiness. The kind that would give your life a purpose, a reason besides your career goal. This is the item I cannot obtain, but I cannot be blamed for not trying. My quest began when I was a kid, around middle school. I was always the short person. and I mean short. Kindergardener short. Midget, even by midget standards short. And by the gods I was tormented about it, year after year. Their heckles sunk into my soul like hooks, and made me bitter. I couldn't make it past 4th grade. I was pulled out because the problem was too bad, and homeschooled up to high school. I had never seen social interaction, save for parties and going to the store with my parents for years. My brother was the social butterfly, and I was the caterpillar cast to the side and stuck in the dark while he did all the fun things, had all the friends. I was alone, and, in those childhood years, I lost my happiness somewhere I couldn't find. Then came high school. My first entry back into the social world after it cast me aside like a rag. My height had not changed. I was still the size of a middle schooler in a school full of giants. I was heckled on again. It was middle school all over again, and I was sick of it. For those next 4 years, I would take Human Growth Hormone, a daily injection that would boost my height up to 'normal'. I thought such an alteration would make me happy. Perhaps, acceptance, would give me peace. And after a school change for my junior year (there was a new school built), I had finally shot up to normal size, and was being accepted. but it wasn't enough. I wasn't happy, and it tore me apart trying to figure out why. For those 4 years in high school, I went through ROTC, thinking maybe I just needed self-confidence. Even when I was a commander though, it wasn't enough, and it wasn't making me truly happy. I felt soulless. Senior year. I came to a realization after spending time with my one friend (it was the librarian and his aid, so I guess two, though I was an aid too), that my only source of self-enjoyment was to be someone else. It shocked me really; The realization that I enjoy more time being someone else than being me was a blow to what little ego I had. One day though, I had learned that perhaps, there was a solution to my problems. A permanent way to alter myself to be that someone else, to be someone I can enjoy being. And I looked up this thread, and read up over the year on the subject. I've been having some intense debates with myself as to whether or not transgenderism would give me what I've desired my whole life, but it just feels like I was born in the wrong skin. Like, I was a wayward soul stuffed into the body of something it wasn't meant to be. My soul searching over the years found out a lot of things about me and sparked serious feelings of wanting to change inside and out, but I'm missing that push. I guess, that psychological validation to say that this is a solution. 2 years I've been pondering this. Two birthdays spent wondering, and a year lurking on the outskirts of this thread, trying to work up the courage to type this. I know spilling my whole life story isn't a proper way to say hello, but, well, I'm frankly, out of options. I've talked to everyone I know about this sort of thing, and while they're supportive, I don't know how my family will react. My brother's already told me back when I was first checking this out that if I 'ever come out as a woman, I will punch you in your face'. Dad's always(sometimes) saying how proud he is of me being a good son, but the compliment just doesn't resonate with me. I don't feel like a son at all. I just think I'd feel happier as a woman. I just... want to be someone I don't have to pretend to be, and be happy being them. A girlfriend's out of the question (seriously my attempts get shot down like the hindenburgh. even my first date stood me up and never talked to me again), so... I dunno. Help, I guess. TL;DR: unsatisfied with my incredibly shitty life as a male social outcast, considering transgenderism to give me confidence and a body I'd be happy living in, family is a huge grey area. jesus that was a long speech. sorry for stretching your page.[/QUOTE] This resonates way too much with me, good luck. Have you talked to any therapists though? Maybe there's another solution than becoming a female? It doesn't sound like you particularly want to be female specifically from your post, just a different person. Becoming more female could end up making you extremely depressed you know, it's not to be taken lightly.
Been a good two days. Been hanging out with those friends I mentioned on page 3 that refer to me as a girl now. Though, apparently, one kid I barely even know joined us last night and they informed me that he really dislikes me. I'm not sure why, I never even spoken directly to him. I tried being nice a few times, like opening the door to the car for him on two occasion and both times he completely ignored me. He didn't even look me in the eye once. Apparently, 3 months ago when I was absent for the first day of a new month of classes the teacher was doing attendance from the school's online platform. At the time, I only came out as trans to one other person who I hanged out with quite a bit. On the platform, I had set my nickname as "Jennifer," the original name I chose and the teacher called me using my girl's name. Welp, that so called friend apparently just blurted out, "OH I KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS BUT I'M NOT GOING TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT!" Apparently mostly everyone put 2 and 2 together, it's just that they kept quiet about it until I was ready to come out myself. Makes me think that kid who dislikes me probably does solely on the fact I'm transgender. Kinda saddens me but, then again, he's a douchebag. Now excuse me as I go deck my loud mouth "friend."
[QUOTE=Jennifer...;37921026]This resonates way too much with me, good luck. Have you talked to any therapists though? Maybe there's another solution than becoming a female? It doesn't sound like you particularly want to be female specifically from your post, just a different person. Becoming more female could end up making you extremely depressed you know, it's not to be taken lightly.[/QUOTE] I have seen a therapist somewhat, not as heavily as some might suggest, but yeah, I have been taking that into consideration. I've been considering just waiting till I'm 21. The brain supposedly stops it's crazy whatnot at that age, so i'd be in my permanent state of mind when making a decision. Thing is, If i do that, I'm missing out on 2 years of my life I could be using.
Disliking people because they are trans is like hating cats because they have 4 legs.
[QUOTE=xxfalconxx;37921267]I have seen a therapist somewhat, not as heavily as some might suggest, but yeah, I have been taking that into consideration. I've been considering just waiting till I'm 21. The brain supposedly stops it's crazy whatnot at that age, so i'd be in my permanent state of mind when making a decision. Thing is, If i do that, I'm missing out on 2 years of my life I could be using.[/QUOTE] I doubt you'll feel any differently when you're 21. Sooner is most likely better.
[QUOTE=xxfalconxx;37921267]I have seen a therapist somewhat, not as heavily as some might suggest, but yeah, I have been taking that into consideration. I've been considering just waiting till I'm 21. The brain supposedly stops it's crazy whatnot at that age, so i'd be in my permanent state of mind when making a decision. Thing is, If i do that, I'm missing out on 2 years of my life I could be using.[/QUOTE] My therapist has been helping many men and women transition over the past 14 years. His advice? Even if you're only 50% sure do it, because no matter what there's always going to be doubt in you. Once you've started on HRT, he said that in a span of about 6 months or less you'll know 100% for sure whether or not this is what you want. And if it isn't, that's ok. It's perfectly reversible that early.
doing my nails~<3
What are your opinions on japanese school girl uniforms? [IMG]http://i.imgur.com/4Zfln.jpg[/IMG]
[QUOTE=SilverDragon619;37922184]What are your opinions on japanese school girl uniforms? [IMG]http://i.imgur.com/4Zfln.jpg[/IMG][/QUOTE] lol is that you [editline]5th October 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=KvdV96;37921701]Disliking people because they are trans is like hating cats because they have 4 legs.[/QUOTE] no. people sometimes just literally don't understand the concept. There is a difference between hating it and not understanding it.
[QUOTE=SilverDragon619;37922184]What are your opinions on japanese school girl uniforms? [IMG]http://i.imgur.com/4Zfln.jpg[/IMG][/QUOTE] :D! [editline]6th October 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=T-Sonar.0;37921947]My therapist has been helping many men and women transition over the past 14 years. His advice? Even if you're only 50% sure do it, because no matter what there's always going to be doubt in you. Once you've started on HRT, he said that in a span of about 6 months or less you'll know 100% for sure whether or not this is what you want. And if it isn't, that's ok. It's perfectly reversible that early.[/QUOTE] What if someone did do HRT for ~6 months and was still unsure?
[QUOTE='Rain [Amber];37922311']:D! [editline]6th October 2012[/editline] What if someone did do HRT for ~6 months and was still unsure?[/QUOTE] Doubt that would happen. [editline]5th October 2012[/editline] In which case though you would probably be fine either way.
[QUOTE=zerothefallen;37922260]lol is that you [/QUOTE] no, that is not me.
[QUOTE=SilverDragon619;37922184]What are your opinions on japanese school girl uniforms? [IMG]http://i.imgur.com/4Zfln.jpg[/IMG][/QUOTE] I want to be her
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[QUOTE=Liamhailhail2.0;37922584]I love it. By 'it' I mean you. I also love your hair. and the uniform. did I mention you?[/QUOTE] again, not me.
Sorry
[QUOTE=Liamhailhail2.0;37922650]Sorry[/QUOTE] No worries, we are all sisterly brothers to eachother afterall.
[QUOTE='Rain [Amber];37922311']What if someone did do HRT for ~6 months and was still unsure?[/QUOTE] If I'm not mistaking you're female to male right? If so, FtM has a lot of irreversible changes that would better be stopped before 6 months. When it comes to male-to-female, everything is practically reversible except for sterility. Sure, the HRT will leave the mark on MtFs if you quit late on. You'll end up looking like a more feminine male.
Hey guys I'm pretty much in the same boat as Sir Bubbles. My parents know I'm bisexual and are fine with it, when I came out my mum said "whatever makes you happy". I don't class myself as transgender or a cross dresser, but I have kinda wanted to wear skirts/tights/long socks before, I've wandered what it was like to be a girl recently. It's not a big thing, I don't want to be a woman, I'm just curious about clothing and stuff Mostly I'm just going to be lurking like I did last thread, but I thought it was better to introduce myself ya know.
[QUOTE=SilverDragon619;37922679]No worries, we are all sisterly brothers to eachother afterall.[/QUOTE] I am not one of u gays [editline]5th October 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=T-Sonar.0;37922735]If I'm not mistaking you're female to male right? If so, FtM has a lot of irreversible changes that would better be stopped before 6 months. When it comes to male-to-female, everything is practically reversible except for sterility. Sure, the HRT will leave the mark on MtFs if you quit late on. You'll end up looking like a more feminine male.[/QUOTE] Amber is a tomboy
[QUOTE=zerothefallen;37923245]I am not one of u gays [/QUOTE] As long as you spend time in this thread, as long you are one of us "gays" as you say.
[QUOTE=SilverDragon619;37923266]As long as you spend time in this thread, as long you are one of us "gays" as you say.[/QUOTE] Eew fags
[QUOTE=zerothefallen;37923301]Eew fags[/QUOTE] I don't like cigarette's either.
I ordered a bunch of thigh high socks and hope to stay warm and comfortable in those until winter passes - I think they would look really cute with my skirt too. Time to annoy my brother with that horrible hair removal cream smell in the bathroom again.
[QUOTE=Chopstick;37923838]until winter passes[/QUOTE] I'm already looking forward to this, I mean for it to get warm again. I wish i had more cute winter clothing.
[QUOTE=ultradr3mer;37924122]I'm already looking forward to this, I mean for it to get warm again. I wish i had more cute winter clothing.[/QUOTE] It's still warm...
[QUOTE=VIOLATION_SNG;37924181]It's still warm...[/QUOTE] That probably depends on where you live, I'm from Germany and it has been raining all day. I feel happy for you though.
[QUOTE=ultradr3mer;37924283]That probably depends on where you live, I'm from Germany and it has been raining all day. I feel happy for you though.[/QUOTE] It's been raining for the past three days and it's still warm where I live.
[QUOTE=T-Sonar.0;37922735]If I'm not mistaking you're female to male right? If so, FtM has a lot of irreversible changes that would better be stopped before 6 months. When it comes to male-to-female, everything is practically reversible except for sterility. Sure, the HRT will leave the mark on MtFs if you quit late on. You'll end up looking like a more feminine male.[/QUOTE] Yup! While I'm personally not trans I'm just curious. Like I imagine if you went through the irreversible things then thought "Oh I guess I don't really want this" it'd really suck :L [editline]6th October 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=alien_guy;37922409]Doubt that would happen. [/QUOTE] I know. I'm asking what if.
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