Facepunch Anonymous Confessional v7 - General

Why do you guys have such fucked up childhoods. When I stayed at a friends house we just ate junk food and played on the old PS2 or something. So many 'I stayed over and then we had sex' or 'when I was asleep he sucked my dick' things. Strange how there's so many.

[QUOTE=OogalaBoogal;33291053]Not really. Hezzy had a blog that he posted all the confessions on. It wasn't successful as the threads because it doesn't have the visibility of being in the center of the GD. Not as many people read them over there.[/QUOTE] Well, let me break my anon self and stand up here like a man. :v: Oh well, if you say that it won't be successful as like Hezzy did, well, I wasn't planning to make a blog or a joomla website with normal users having power to post their own confessions but instead a custom made (my own homemade) confession system (or better said, comment system with threading) in which anyone can make a confession and edit their own confessions. Their IP/Username will be anonymous unless they check that they don't want to, however you must make your account in order to make your confession (because this will prevent spam and as well you can get your confessions saved aswell) BUT your personal info will get hashed and salted (to slightly prevent mysql attacks and spoil the fun for everyone). But whatever, I'll still continue the small project and if it isn't successful, I'll publish the source instead.

[QUOTE]Aight yo here's mah confession. I. Fucking. Hate. Psychopaths and sociopaths. To the degree that it is probably unhealthy. Does this make me a hypocrite? eh maybe I don't know. Point being I fucking hate them. I can't stand their bitching of their split personalities and their compassion to murder people. I hate how they treat people like shit. I hate their self-destructive tendencies. One of my friends is sociopathic (or psychopathic I'm not too keen on the definitions). He maintains it pretty well and he's pretty nerdy and fucked up but hey he's a likable guy. But jesus fucking christ when he starts telling me his problems of how he has split personalities and how he wants so bad just to feel the feeling of murdering or raping someone it just pisses me off to the highest degree. I seriously don't know why but god damnit I hate their bitching to the point I want to hit them. I know it's childish and I know nothing good will [i]ever[/i] come from hitting someone with a mental disorder but that doesn't stop the thoughts from entering my mind. It's fucked up, I know. It's irrational, illogical, and frankly violent but god knows I hate them. I mean people pull the excuse that it's not their fault they have this mental disorder and sure, that's fine and justifiable, but the thing is, is it really anyone's fault for how they act period? A person is going to act how they are going to act. Personalities are determined by genes and situations. If you were to put a person in a scenario and make them choose between two things let's say they choose the latter option. If you were to reverse time they'd make that choice again and again because that's just how their brains are wired. I know this sounds pretty over-analyitcal and pretty angsty on my part but still, is it really anyone's fault for being the way they are? And so therefore when the justification is used that "it's not their fault" I just put them in the same boat as the rest of us. I know I should forgive them and pardon them of their actions because they have a disability but I can't. So yeah sure call me fucked up or a hypocrite or whatever but that's my confession. Also if I've offended anyone keep in mind that this is my opinion not something to feel bad about or anything.[/QUOTE] [QUOTE]I think I have Autism. I talked to my friends about it, and they agree, but I don't have the heard to tell my parents. I'm pretty weird to some people, and i've had the same friends since i moved here about 6 years ago. I shake my hands constantly, and sometimes I have trouble speaking out loud. It's been bugging me for over a year now, but I don't really know how to tell my parents "I think i've got a mental disorder, let's go get tested."[/QUOTE] "I think i've got a mental disorder, let's go get tested." is an easy way to do it. You are a natural! [QUOTE]I saw that The thread was starting to get to page 2, so thougfht I'd send some emergency confessions. Well, one big thing is for some reason, I feel like I throw away everything good that I have going for me. I have an amazing finacee, but I always feel like I want more. Granted, my fiancee was my first gf. Bit of a back story I guess, She's one of my friends cousins. I met her at the beach and i like her and she liked me I found out. I called her once or twice and saw her once after that, but I was young and didn't know what the hell I was doing. Long story short, I meet her on FB years later, she's hot. We date for a year, and due to my job (I'm away from home a lot) I decided to get engaged because I really feel like this can work. When ever I think about it though, I really think. This is the only girl I've been with, and will be with for the rest of my life. I will have only had sex and fell in love with one woman. Every time I start thinking like that I feel like a pile of shit because I love her more than anything and she loves me just as much, and there's hundreds of people that would kill for what I have. She's really nice too. not some dumb bimbo or anything like that. Smart, loving, and faithful Aside from that, right now, I have a pretty well paying job compared to a lot of other people I know (I'm in the Millitary). I'm making close to $1,000 bi weekly. I know people that are busting their asses for half that back home. The thing is I fucking hate my job. I live in a completely different country, and every fucking day we're treated like 12 year olds, we don't have any freedom. I can't wake up to my fiancee in the morning, drive my truck, see my parents, nothing. I get to work with a bunch of scumbags who I hate. Due to this, I don't give a fuck at work. ( A bunch of this is due to our command and how shitty they run things on top of everything else) I put in the bare minimum, I do what I have to, get home and get drunk. After I have been in for a few years (I joined right after highschool) I realized I threw all of my post highschool/ collage days. This is the time I should be going to parties hooking up with random whores who I'll never talk to again, getting drunk, ect... Nope. It was basicially, here's your diploma, there's the plane. Get on it and get ready for training. Hell, I olny had my drivers license for like 6 months before I left home. 3 1/2 more years, then I'm out of here. Also, I jacked off in the guy that me and my roommate share our bathroom with's bodywash container because he's a jackass[/QUOTE] More confessional posts have to end like this one. [IMG]http://suptg.thisisnotatrueending.com/archive/12457067/images/1287192458795.jpg[/IMG]

[QUOTE=OogalaBoogal;33366704]When ever I think about it though, I really think. This is the only girl I've been with, and will be with for the rest of my life. I will have only had sex and fell in love with one woman. Every time I start thinking like that I feel like a pile of shit because I love her more than anything and she loves me just as much, and there's hundreds of people that would kill for what I have.[/QUOTE] Maybe I'm just weird but I don't really see a problem having had sex with only one woman your entire life if you're with her your entire life.

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hmERF.png[/IMG] hezzy had a nostalgia moment...

[QUOTE=Alien_23;33371903][IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hmERF.png[/IMG] hezzy had a nostalgia moment...[/QUOTE] :(

[QUOTE=Alien_23;33371903][IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hmERF.png[/IMG] hezzy had a nostalgia moment...[/QUOTE] this actually touched me :/

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If you read closely, he states that he jacked off in the bodywash container that belongs to "the guy that me and my roommate share our bathroom with"

Since the start of school (the first time) I hated people so bad, that I decided that when I grew up I would become a terorist and blow up a mall in Sweden. I mean, what the fuck is wrong with me?

[QUOTE=ptown2;33356712]Well, let me break my anon self and stand up here like a man. :v: Oh well, if you say that it won't be successful as like Hezzy did, well, I wasn't planning to make a blog or a joomla website with normal users having power to post their own confessions but instead a custom made (my own homemade) confession system (or better said, comment system with threading) in which anyone can make a confession and edit their own confessions. Their IP/Username will be anonymous unless they check that they don't want to, however you must make your account in order to make your confession (because this will prevent spam and as well you can get your confessions saved aswell) BUT your personal info will get hashed and salted (to slightly prevent mysql attacks and spoil the fun for everyone). But whatever, I'll still continue the small project and if it isn't successful, I'll publish the source instead.[/QUOTE] already exists in various forms

[QUOTE=Callius;33389611]already exists in various forms[/QUOTE] Well, not to be a general asshole, but can I see any examples other than blogs or joomla. :smile: Please not the 4chan boards, it isn't even closely counted to be anon. Same goes with anontalk engine.

[QUOTE=Doome;33384775]Since the start of school (the first time) I hated people so bad, that I decided that when I grew up I would become a terorist and blow up a mall in Sweden. I mean, what the fuck is wrong with me?[/QUOTE] It's genetic. You're actually a viking. Grow your beard long, and be proud to be a man!

[QUOTE=Terminutter;33390060]It's genetic. You're actually a viking. Grow your beard long, and be proud to be a man![/QUOTE] That's my second plan

There is this guy who keeps on pretending to be gaben in my mailbox, sending me all these scandalous secrets from Valve. I know it's fake. [QUOTE]I'm 17, and last summer (summer going into Senior year) I got a DUI, which caused me to lose my license for 6 months, do 80 hours of community service, attend 2 DUI related classes (all of which are filled with people that are no where near my age), obey a curfew of 6 pm, visit my probation officer every 2 weeks, and spend lots of money I don't have. I do good in school, have a good social life, it was just this one thing I really fucked up. I drank a lot over summer with my friends, and went to a highschool party almost everyday, and one night near he end of summer I met up with my bestfriend I haven't seen in a couple years. We drank, and a girl I have been talking to for like 3 months wanted to see me and we REALLY liked each other, even loved each other. As I left, I drove just fine but I stopped infront of a crosswalk a wee bit too far, got caught and just admitted I was drunk as fuck. It took like 3 months for my first court date to occur, and I was in there for 5 minutes, but waited for 4 hours, making my mom miss work (she has to be with me, I'm not 18 yet), then m y2nd court date revealed the punishment. What hit me real hard was the money, cuz my mom payed for stuff and I have a really big guilt problem when it comes to my mom's money, since we've never been rich or anything. This guilt literally hit me harder than anything, I've been in trouble for quite a bit of things but this really made life hard. I ended up cutting myself, cuz the pain in my arm/wrist made me think "dayum this shit hurts" instead of "fuck I feel fucking bad". As well as self harm, I had serious thoughts of suicide, I put a gun to my head and tried to pull the trigger while no one was home, but was scared that that was way too much for my family to see, so I tried to hang myself, but no prevail. I have about 40 scars on my forearm, all of which that are about an inch long, go vertical and horizontal. Some that are red and are really noticeable and it's kind of embarrassing. I seriously have THAT much guilt when it comes to money in my family, I can't stand making my mom pay for anything for me. Also, that girl doesn't talk to me anymore, I got over her somewhat easily cuz of my friends, luckily I got to basically be in a relationship with her before all this happened. Bottom line is, Facepunch, Don't get a fucking DUI, it sucks a fat dick not being able to drive or do anything[/QUOTE] That's a good story. Don't feel too bad. It was a mistake. We all make them. The most important part is recovering from them and learning from them. You can do that. [QUOTE]So, I don't have a lot of secrets or anything and reading some of these confessions this one may be pretty tame but I wanted to give it to. Basically, I have this really intense fascination with 9-11 and more specifically the World Trade Center aspect. Like, I go on little expeditions through the internet, posting on 4chan and so on looking for things and sharing my information and resources. I've got an extensive collection of gore pics from WTC and a lot of the stuff is pretty rare because of how graphic it is, they tried to censor some of it as it happened because they knew if it was leaked out that people would go out and lynch Muslims in the street the same day but it's out there. Alot of it is still really hard to find, but I have pictures of limbs and body parts strewn across the street, chard bodies, Jumpers landed and so on. I've spent time reading up on the graphic parts through stories too, burning people in the lobby, the remains they found in the wreckage and so on. I've seen a lot of really bad things from the WTC that most people don't even know exist. Most people think "It was two buildings falling down, get over it" but it was more than that. There was naked terror on that day, a day where two planes slammed into office buildings at hundreds of miles an hour, ejecting thousands of pieces of people across the usually clean streets of Manhattan. Where people fell from the sky and there were bodies literally blocking the streets and the fact it was in a modernized American city is just mind blowing. I don't believe in conspiracy theories, all the things I've seen and read all fit into the official story perfectly. Some things conspiracy theorists speculate to be the "smoking gun" are actually really gruesome things that they don't understand. I don't get off and having these pictures or anything, I just think it's like a piece of history that's slowing disappearing because one day, the pictures and stories will all be gone and no one will remember 9-11 for anything more than two buildings collapsing rather than the sheer barbaric slaughter it was to innocent people across several acres of office space from hundreds of stories up to the basement and lobby below it was a nightmare and no one will remember it in another few years.[/QUOTE] Trust me, the government of the United States will make sure that no one forgets it. [QUOTE]Greetings! I'll keep this as short as possible. -I'm a closeted bisexual furry with a slight preference for guys. Yeah yeah, I know this is common, but my problem is I can't come out to anybody in my family or else I'd get kicked out and exiled. It makes trying to find a boyfriend very tough, and it puts a lot of stress on me keeping it a secret. -A few years ago, I felt like I killed a really good friend of mine. He pinned a suicide attempt on me because I didn't want to be his friend anymore (it's a long story). He poisoned himself and survived it. He's got minor brain damage from his attempt and was immediately hospitalized, and we've not been friends ever since. It's horrible feeling like you've killed someone, I was chronically depressed as well as having panic attacks left and right for a good year until I was finally over it. That whole time frame feels like a blink of an eye. I of course now know I didn't actually kill him, but it took me ages to finally realize that fact. -I seem to attract crazy people. As if the above wasn't a clear enough example, my last girlfriend was suicidal. I no longer affiliate with suicidal people if they tell me because I can't deal with the drama they always bring anymore. -I have very few friends right now in my life, and things are very complicated with one of them. He tried giving me a blowjob in the woods, but I didn't let him as I wasn't feeling comfortable with it because it was all way too sudden, and now he's pissed off at me about it. Life is weird. The friend in question is kind of an asshole all the time anyway, so good riddance if I don't see him again. -I was a hell of a thief when I was a boy. To make it clear, this was around age 5-7, I didn't know stealing was wrong at these times. I stole toys from stores, hundred dollar bills out of adult's pockets, lots of things. Nobody ever knew I did these things and I never got caught. I stopped myself after I finally realized stealing is wrong, although I don't feel bad about what I did whatsoever as it was just childhood innocence. -I can't recall the origins of this, but I have a "bad place" in my mind. This isn't very juicy confession wise, but I feel I need to tell someone so they don't brand me as crazy. When I think about "the bad place" I'm getting out of a bed in a smallish room, like one in a hospital. There's a TV on a shelf, and it has 3 faces of bloody, mangled children coming out of the screen. All I can hear is a demented child's echoing laughing in the same way over and over from somewhere downstairs, and this place is filled with crazed people wearing white attacking and killing each other. It makes me cry every time thinking or remembering about it. The thing that bothers me the most is the feeling that overwhelms me every time I recall this, and how vivid I'm able to. -Last and probably least, this is something I can actually use some advice on. I have a past full of being bullied and beaten by douchebags, and when I was finally old enough to stick up for myself and fight (around middle school) all I managed to do was get the bullies to leave me alone. Nobody wanted to be my friend, nor did anyone even want to talk to me. This escalated into High School, and I was actually forced around 11th grade to drop out and get a GED because I was tired of being threatened all the time and the school administration not giving a fuck about me. I'm a good looking and confident guy who deserved none of that nonsense, but because of this past I feel like I can't be myself at all even to this day (I'm 20 now.) I want to be social, I know I'm a good person, I'm confident in myself massively, but I just always feel like I'm going to get mistreated if I try to talk to people so I always lock up and don't bother. As I said, this is something I could actually use advice on, do you or anyone else know of a way I can let the real me out and overcome this feeling? Thank you for your time.[/QUOTE] Its always worth a try talking to people. Always.

[quote]-I can't recall the origins of this, but I have a "bad place" in my mind. This isn't very juicy confession wise, but I feel I need to tell someone so they don't brand me as crazy. When I think about "the bad place" I'm getting out of a bed in a smallish room, like one in a hospital. There's a TV on a shelf, and it has 3 faces of bloody, mangled children coming out of the screen. All I can hear is a demented child's echoing laughing in the same way over and over from somewhere downstairs, and this place is filled with crazed people wearing white attacking and killing each other. It makes me cry every time thinking or remembering about it. The thing that bothers me the most is the feeling that overwhelms me every time I recall this, and how vivid I'm able to.[/quote] Okay I think that's the creepiest shit I read in this entire thread. Mostly because of the fact he says he can imagine that in detail, just try and think how fucking scary imagining every detail of what that guy described there can be. Also regarding the part you wanted advice on. So if you're as you say (confident, good-looking,good person) then just go and talk to people, and I'm sure you'll eventually manage to make some good friends. And spending time near them would make you stop thinking that every person you'll talk to would mistreat you

I love these.

[QUOTE] -Last and probably least, this is something I can actually use some advice on. I have a past full of being bullied and beaten by douchebags, and when I was finally old enough to stick up for myself and fight (around middle school) all I managed to do was get the bullies to leave me alone. Nobody wanted to be my friend, nor did anyone even want to talk to me. This escalated into High School, and I was actually forced around 11th grade to drop out and get a GED because I was tired of being threatened all the time and the school administration not giving a fuck about me. I'm a good looking and confident guy who deserved none of that nonsense, but because of this past I feel like I can't be myself at all even to this day (I'm 20 now.) I want to be social, I know I'm a good person, I'm confident in myself massively, but I just always feel like I'm going to get mistreated if I try to talk to people so I always lock up and don't bother. As I said, this is something I could actually use advice on, do you or anyone else know of a way I can let the real me out and overcome this feeling?[/QUOTE] Just be yourself and fuck anyone who doesn't like you. If you were REALLY confident you'd know that anyone who pulled that bullshit on you isn't worth your time. I'm not saying man up, just change your modus operandi and eventually friends will come rolling in. I was in your same place, man.

[QUOTE=Alien_23;33371903][IMG]http://i.imgur.com/hmERF.png[/IMG] hezzy had a nostalgia moment...[/QUOTE] That is a US IP, since when did Hezzy live in America? I have a few confessions to send, will write them up now!!

[QUOTE=OogalaBoogal;33395564]-story about drunk driving and suicide attempt-[/QUOTE] Just imagine you live in a country where the minimum driving age is 18, then you wouldn't be able to drive anyway :wink: About the money and the guilt, just forget about it. I'm sure your mother will forgive you.

[QUOTE]I'm 17, and last summer (summer going into Senior year) I got a DUI, which caused me to lose my license for 6 months, do 80 hours of community service, attend 2 DUI related classes (all of which are filled with people that are no where near my age), obey a curfew of 6 pm, visit my probation officer every 2 weeks, and spend lots of money I don't have. I do good in school, have a good social life, it was just this one thing I really fucked up. I drank a lot over summer with my friends, and went to a highschool party almost everyday, and one night near he end of summer I met up with my bestfriend I haven't seen in a couple years. We drank, and a girl I have been talking to for like 3 months wanted to see me and we REALLY liked each other, even loved each other. As I left, I drove just fine but I stopped infront of a crosswalk a wee bit too far, got caught and just admitted I was drunk as fuck. It took like 3 months for my first court date to occur, and I was in there for 5 minutes, but waited for 4 hours, making my mom miss work (she has to be with me, I'm not 18 yet), then m y2nd court date revealed the punishment. What hit me real hard was the money, cuz my mom payed for stuff and I have a really big guilt problem when it comes to my mom's money, since we've never been rich or anything. This guilt literally hit me harder than anything, I've been in trouble for quite a bit of things but this really made life hard. I ended up cutting myself, cuz the pain in my arm/wrist made me think "dayum this shit hurts" instead of "fuck I feel fucking bad". As well as self harm, I had serious thoughts of suicide, I put a gun to my head and tried to pull the trigger while no one was home, but was scared that that was way too much for my family to see, so I tried to hang myself, but no prevail. I have about 40 scars on my forearm, all of which that are about an inch long, go vertical and horizontal. Some that are red and are really noticeable and it's kind of embarrassing. I seriously have THAT much guilt when it comes to money in my family, I can't stand making my mom pay for anything for me. Also, that girl doesn't talk to me anymore, I got over her somewhat easily cuz of my friends, luckily I got to basically be in a relationship with her before all this happened. Bottom line is, Facepunch, Don't get a fucking DUI, it sucks a fat dick not being able to drive or do anything[/QUOTE] Fucking wow, you contemplated/attempted suicide because you got a stupid DUI?? Seriously? That's weak dude. That is not the end of the world and its sad you attempted to end your life because you simply couldn't drive for a few months. You cost your mom money boo hoo. Parents who are worth their shit love their kids no matter what, you don't go into parenting expecting NOT to have to clean up your kids' shit. They do it when you are a baby changing your diaper and they do it when you are a teenager and make mistakes and you can't pay for it. Making a mistake like that is nothing in the long run and is no reason you should end your life.

[QUOTE=Djentleman;33396701]Just be yourself and fuck anyone who doesn't like you. If you were REALLY confident you'd know that anyone who pulled that bullshit on you isn't worth your time. I'm not saying man up, just change your modus operandi and eventually friends will come rolling in. I was in your same place, man.[/QUOTE] No, that's awful advice. It's all about whether they're right in not liking you or not. Either prove them wrong or better yourself. Seriously, that "fuck da haterzzz" mentality baffles me.

There's a difference between being yourself and HURRR DURRRR I AM AWESOME FUCK DA H8RZ [editline]23rd November 2011[/editline] Seriously, the best thing you can do in those situations is just don't give those faggots the time of day and don't let them get to you.

[QUOTE=luverofJ!93;33401839]Fucking wow, you contemplated/attempted suicide because you got a stupid DUI?? Seriously? That's weak dude. That is not the end of the world and its sad you attempted to end your life because you simply couldn't drive for a few months. You cost your mom money boo hoo. Parents who are worth their shit love their kids no matter what, you don't go into parenting expecting NOT to have to clean up your kids' shit. They do it when you are a baby changing your diaper and they do it when you are a teenager and make mistakes and you can't pay for it. Making a mistake like that is nothing in the long run and is no reason you should end your life.[/QUOTE] Yeah, about this, your mom just payed for you (normally a sign of that she is at least somewhat fond of you), and you think about killing yourself? That's not a way to make up for what you have done - if you want to do that, do people who love you a favour and keep on living.

[QUOTE=luverofJ!93;33401839]Fucking wow, you contemplated/attempted suicide because you got a stupid DUI?? Seriously? That's weak dude. That is not the end of the world and its sad you attempted to end your life because you simply couldn't drive for a few months.[/QUOTE] Ever felt really guilty over something? It kinda has this whole effect of making people really depressed. I know, it's amazing, huh?

[QUOTE=Onyx3173;33406838]Ever felt really guilty over something? It kinda has this whole effect of making people really depressed. I know, it's amazing, huh?[/QUOTE] Yes, but this is just disproportionate.

[quote][B]This guilt literally hit me harder than anything, I've been in trouble for quite a bit of things but this really made life hard. I ended up cutting myself, cuz the pain in my arm/wrist made me think "dayum this shit hurts" instead of "fuck I feel fucking bad". As well as self harm, I had serious thoughts of suicide, I put a gun to my head and tried to pull the trigger while no one was home, but was scared that that was way too much for my family to see, so I tried to hang myself, but no prevail. I have about 40 scars on my forearm, all of which that are about an inch long, go vertical and horizontal. Some that are red and are really noticeable and it's kind of embarrassing. I seriously have THAT much guilt when it comes to money in my family, I can't stand making my mom pay for anything for me.[/quote] Killing yourself because your mother spent money on you? Killing yourself would cause even more fucking money, burial etc. And then comes the mental part, everyone who cares about you (Especially the mother you'd be killing yourself over) would be in a panic if they really did care about you. Those cuts, you fuck up you need to go to the hospital. Depending on where you live, bam, that costs more money. How about work to get her the money back instead of acting all depressed? Oh, yeah, and if you killed yourself that money she spent would be wasted.

[QUOTE=Artyom;33409556]Killing yourself because your mother spent money on you? Killing yourself would cause even more fucking money, burial etc.[/QUOTE] Ignoring all else, this is true. A friend of mine died recently (natural causes) and his funeral + burial cost 7k.

Jesus christ this isnt the I got mommy love problems so I cut myself thread

[QUOTE=JDB;33413380]Jesus christ this isnt the I got mommy love problems so I cut myself thread[/QUOTE] No, but it's relevant to one of the confessions, thus relevant.