Having to stay awake for at least 6 hours into the night, anyone got any tips for staying awake?
The only stimulants I have access to is a single cigarette and loads of juice, I have a little money left, maybe enough for an energy drink, should I buy one and drink it?
So starts the end of the pshyc drugs for me. All of the stuff they have put me on has cause feeling more unstable then when I'm with out them. The first stuff they had me on made me suicidal, then next stuff cause more problems like that. Now with the respirdone I'm numb to everything except violent things which give me a massive rush of euphoria. I guess its mostly just because pain is something I can still feel sorta.
I really am starting to hate mental health services they just keep ending up making me worse then when I am off the the things.
[QUOTE=Joscpe;46222437]We have bottles all over town with burnt holes in them because people make those disposable bongs. We call them poppers.
There's a variation where you cut a bit of a cig off, and the chunk fits snug in the tube, then you tap the tube over the weed to get that in there. Those have a different term than popper, but I can't think of it.
They are everywhere, if I walk to the front of the forest behind my house, I'll find them scattered everywhere, they're under the bridge, all along the line of the river, under the train bridge, corners of the school lots... They look disgusting when they've been used with tobacco, and not emptied.
The convenience in town sells all kinds of stems/tubes.[/QUOTE]
When you put a joint in a bottle like that around here we call it a "rochet"
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Am I the only one without a TV in their room? I've been offered one, but I feel like it's such an inhibitor of imagination.
[QUOTE=DELL;46224815]So starts the end of the pshyc drugs for me. All of the stuff they have put me on has cause feeling more unstable then when I'm with out them. The first stuff they had me on made me suicidal, then next stuff cause more problems like that. Now with the respirdone I'm numb to everything except violent things which give me a massive rush of euphoria. I guess its mostly just because pain is something I can still feel sorta.
I really am starting to hate mental health services they just keep ending up making me worse then when I am off the the things.[/QUOTE]
I think I read on wikipedia that the chance of your brain recovering from schizophrenia is bigger if you're not on any drugs for it, so if you can stay without them do so
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What were the early symptoms of it? I'd really like to know
Waiting for my friends to come back from Christiania, hopefully they won't get caught.
Highly unlikely when its night, the cops need to sleep too, you know.
[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;46224246]fuck mephedrone
if you're desperate enough not gonna shell out the exta £10 per gram for some MD with effectively the same experience for a longer duration that ain't gonna fuck you up as bad then there's an issue that needs to be adressed
[editline]13th October 2014[/editline]
i have done it too many times to want to do it again[/QUOTE]
I agree with you but I just don't do either, neither do nice things to me.
Ket and green exclusive for now. I drink sometimes but honestly I'm scared alcohol would be the one thing I'd get hooked on.
NeverGoWest, no access to any coffee? Does actually work wonders, energy drinks I've never been sure of.
[QUOTE=cody8295;46225053]
Am I the only one without a TV in their room? I've been offered one, but I feel like it's such an inhibitor of imagination.[/QUOTE]
I don't have one either, but I watch a lot of TV shows on my laptop, if that counts.
[QUOTE=cody8295;46225053]
Am I the only one without a TV in their room? I've been offered one, but I feel like it's such an inhibitor of imagination.[/QUOTE]
I have a tv in my room but i rarely use it. Figures.
[QUOTE=KillerTele;46225229]I think I read on wikipedia that the chance of your brain recovering from schizophrenia is bigger if you're not on any drugs for it, so if you can stay without them do so
[editline]13th October 2014[/editline]
What were the early symptoms of it? I'd really like to know[/QUOTE]
It started way back in high school the first symptom I had was withdrawal from social activity's. Which lead to me being isolated for most of it. Fast forward to 18, I started drinking which help with the social stuff. After constantly going around people I started having manic episodes. I would not be able to stop laughing, talking, acting really weird. During these I could not be alone because I would go into a psychosis bad trip if I was. I wasn't working so I wasn't under much stress. Once I started working it was night shift job. Which I started smoking a lot of weed because I would never leave the house because I was getting up at about 10PM at night. Which I would hear things that weren't real constantly I just thought it was part of weed trip. After about 6 months my stress level went way up because of changes around my house.
Which then lead to the voices appearing when I was sober. At work I was getting paranoid people were talking about me/out to get me sorta deal. Started hearing and seeing things like shadow people constantly. Started having episodes at work were I would beat the crap out of myself/didn't really want to be around people at all. The worst one I ended up cutting my arm up with my box cutter at work. I was also very depressed were walking to work I would think about throwing myself in front of cars. Finally got to the point were I had to quit.
After that my now ex came into the picture. Which was actually pretty nice up until I found a new job. Then I was constantly stressed out because my parents were getting into the relationship/job stress. Symptoms then came back real bad due to the constant stress. Reality made no sense started some real bad cutting. Which one gave me the best painkiller high I've ever had, ended up working a 10Hr shift as well. I drank about 12 cups of coffee to stop me from blacking out and falling on the floor in that 10 hour span. This is around when my now ex made me go see a doctor. Which started my what in the fuck do I have thing. Then lead to all the bullshit with the doctors which just in the end made my life worse.
The symptoms came in this order.
Social withdrawal
My thoughts became voices
Anxiety got really bad
Started having episodes of mania
Depression
Reality started falling apart
Delusions
Mutilation
Couldn't function around people anymore
The things I found that actually help it. Psycho therapy with drugs to explore into my thoughts. Cognitive behavior therapy which is mindful meditation. Talking to people about it. Not giving a fuck what anyone thinks. Making all my voice/thought things say my name before it says anything. Being around positive people. Eating healthy and exercise. Only drug that I've had that outright takes out all the symptoms is magic mushrooms. Even if I'm having a bad trip I don't hear voices its as if my mind is one. The only thing that really triggers it anymore is my anxiety goes out of control. If you would like to see a picture of what my arm looks like now just let me know. Damn I wrote out a lot.
[video=youtube;f4K6ZxDwi34]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4K6ZxDwi34[/video]
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This song is amazing
[editline]13th October 2014[/editline]
Traded a friend a pellet gun for 6 gs of some homegrown shit, it's hella dank too.
just had a fuckin huge conversation to my friend about the politics driving weed prohibition and a bunch of other stuff, hoping you guys might find it an interesting read because i enjoyed writing that shit
[url]http://pastebin.com/kTJ4GJaM[/url]
Speaking of, can someone identify the strain? He wasn't quite sure himself when he traded me.
[t]http://i.imgur.com/dBeOJ0v.jpg[/t]
Pardon the shit photo, I am VERY high off this fine bud. It has a VERY pungent, citrus/garbage-y kind of smell, really stinky. MAJOR head high after smoking a little of it. Tastes earthy and kind of fruity. Whole surface is covered in large crystals.
Looks like it was harvested about 2 months early
So I got the job that had me panicking over the UA, $1400/mo roughly.
Still blazin errday
[QUOTE=cody8295;46226512]Looks like it was harvested about 2 months early[/QUOTE]
I thought the same thing, but it's excellent weed, I have a very high tolerance right now, and yet only smoking a tiny bit got me really high.
[QUOTE=Entraik;46225414]I agree with you but I just don't do either, neither do nice things to me.
Ket and green exclusive for now. I drink sometimes but honestly I'm scared alcohol would be the one thing I'd get hooked on.
NeverGoWest, no access to any coffee? Does actually work wonders, energy drinks I've never been sure of.[/QUOTE]
Oh yeah I could drink some coffee but I hate the taste of it.
The energy drink worked wonders. Called one of my friends, they are on their way back with a nice little bag of the nicest hash they could find, I can't wait to smoke it on my filthy, sorta broken bong.
[editline]14th October 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=DELL;46226094]It started way back in high school the first symptom I had was withdrawal from social activity's. Which lead to me being isolated for most of it. Fast forward to 18, I started drinking which help with the social stuff. After constantly going around people I started having manic episodes. I would not be able to stop laughing, talking, acting really weird. During these I could not be alone because I would go into a psychosis bad trip if I was. I wasn't working so I wasn't under much stress. Once I started working it was night shift job. Which I started smoking a lot of weed because I would never leave the house because I was getting up at about 10PM at night. Which I would hear things that weren't real constantly I just thought it was part of weed trip. After about 6 months my stress level went way up because of changes around my house.
Which then lead to the voices appearing when I was sober. At work I was getting paranoid people were talking about me/out to get me sorta deal. Started hearing and seeing things like shadow people constantly. Started having episodes at work were I would beat the crap out of myself/didn't really want to be around people at all. The worst one I ended up cutting my arm up with my box cutter at work. I was also very depressed were walking to work I would think about throwing myself in front of cars. Finally got to the point were I had to quit.
After that my now ex came into the picture. Which was actually pretty nice up until I found a new job. Then I was constantly stressed out because my parents were getting into the relationship/job stress. Symptoms then came back real bad due to the constant stress. Reality made no sense started some real bad cutting. Which one gave me the best painkiller high I've ever had, ended up working a 10Hr shift as well. I drank about 12 cups of coffee to stop me from blacking out and falling on the floor in that 10 hour span. This is around when my now ex made me go see a doctor. Which started my what in the fuck do I have thing. Then lead to all the bullshit with the doctors which just in the end made my life worse.
The symptoms came in this order.
Social withdrawal
My thoughts became voices
Anxiety got really bad
Started having episodes of mania
Depression
Reality started falling apart
Delusions
Mutilation
Couldn't function around people anymore
The things I found that actually help it. Psycho therapy with drugs to explore into my thoughts. Cognitive behavior therapy which is mindful meditation. Talking to people about it. Not giving a fuck what anyone thinks. Making all my voice/thought things say my name before it says anything. Being around positive people. Eating healthy and exercise. Only drug that I've had that outright takes out all the symptoms is magic mushrooms. Even if I'm having a bad trip I don't hear voices its as if my mind is one. The only thing that really triggers it anymore is my anxiety goes out of control. If you would like to see a picture of what my arm looks like now just let me know. Damn I wrote out a lot.[/QUOTE]
I feel you man, schizo here too.
lemon teking some shroom tincture. Going to see how much that potentiates it and how much my tolerance diminishes the effect.
also plenty of weed to go along with it ofc
[QUOTE=cody8295;46225053]
Am I the only one without a TV in their room? I've been offered one, but I feel like it's such an inhibitor of imagination.[/QUOTE]
I have a old CRT TV. It doesn't work. I think at the moment it's just there for decoration but I shit a brick every time it creaks :v:
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No wait, I have 2, the other one doesn't work either. I keep it behind something
[QUOTE=NeverGoWest;46224350]Having to stay awake for at least 6 hours into the night, anyone got any tips for staying awake?
The only stimulants I have access to is a single cigarette and loads of juice, I have a little money left, maybe enough for an energy drink, should I buy one and drink it?[/QUOTE]
I don't know how to sleep, so if you could help me with that... I'd suggest for you, maybe some coffee/caffeine. Eat some food; fruit will give you energy.
[QUOTE=cody8295;46225053]When you put a joint in a bottle like that around here we call it a "rochet"
[editline]13th October 2014[/editline]
Am I the only one without a TV in their room? I've been offered one, but I feel like it's such an inhibitor of imagination.[/QUOTE]
I don't watch cable television. But I have a TV for watching shit on my computer. I have my main monitor, my scripting/programming monitor, and my television for watching shit from my bed. I guess I also have another little TV next to my bed, it's set up for plugging my phone into. So if I want to lay on my side and get a bigger view of my screen, or play video from it.
The only time I really watch TV is when Jeopardy! or some cool historical show is on
I've just got a laptop, but it still didn't stop me from getting through three seasons of game of thrones in two weeks.
I smoked earlier and took 15mg of Focalin, now my eyes are hella red, I put in eye drops with no significant results
And it suck because I really have to pee
[editline]13th October 2014[/editline]
God damn they're still red as ever
On the other hand, I think I might still be high but it's getting covered up by the Focalin. It's like a deep high, instead of a head high or body high
And I'm having flashbacks to a year ago, feeling the same way I did then. I think it's all the Focalin because it was around this time that I started on 25mg after a few months off. It's made me realize that there's a certain dose where my brain quiets down so significantly that I have trouble forming complex original concepts, like I can still do math really well, but I can't do game design or write about anything or analyze text critically.
And it's only now that I'm on 15mg that I'm below that dosage that I can think clearly again
But overall this would be really nice if I didn't have to analyze text right now
Lorem Ipsum Sit Dolor Somethingsomething
I just watched The Manchurian Candidate, excellent film
I think I just pissed for a solid minute
Also now that I've got that out of the way, I've been drawing and having really good flow/creativity
I might have also hit another technique milestone. My grasp of how line relates to form has significantly improved, probably thanks to inktober
There's something terribly wrong with my psychological state and I don't seem to mind. Pun intended
wiki how has some of the silliest pictures
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smoked the last of my bud in my grinder, time to start smoking some resin/grinder scrapings till my next bag :(
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