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Excessive stimulants confirmed for not mixing with my brain very well I can't function at all. My brain is frozen again
[QUOTE=ZenX2;46228887]Excessive stimulants confirmed for not mixing with my brain very well I can't function at all. My brain is frozen again[/QUOTE] i've slept many hours and I still feel like i'm on stimulants, my focus is on lock mode and I have that "frozen' feeling with the brain goin the thing is I don't particularly mind this state at the moment, I kind of like it? feels very present(to the moment, anyway), compared to what i'm used too i'm a weird human being
[QUOTE=DELL;46226094]It started way back in high school the first symptom I had was withdrawal from social activity's. Which lead to me being isolated for most of it. Fast forward to 18, I started drinking which help with the social stuff. After constantly going around people I started having manic episodes. I would not be able to stop laughing, talking, acting really weird. During these I could not be alone because I would go into a psychosis bad trip if I was. I wasn't working so I wasn't under much stress. Once I started working it was night shift job. Which I started smoking a lot of weed because I would never leave the house because I was getting up at about 10PM at night. Which I would hear things that weren't real constantly I just thought it was part of weed trip. After about 6 months my stress level went way up because of changes around my house. Which then lead to the voices appearing when I was sober. At work I was getting paranoid people were talking about me/out to get me sorta deal. Started hearing and seeing things like shadow people constantly. Started having episodes at work were I would beat the crap out of myself/didn't really want to be around people at all. The worst one I ended up cutting my arm up with my box cutter at work. I was also very depressed were walking to work I would think about throwing myself in front of cars. Finally got to the point were I had to quit. After that my now ex came into the picture. Which was actually pretty nice up until I found a new job. Then I was constantly stressed out because my parents were getting into the relationship/job stress. Symptoms then came back real bad due to the constant stress. Reality made no sense started some real bad cutting. Which one gave me the best painkiller high I've ever had, ended up working a 10Hr shift as well. I drank about 12 cups of coffee to stop me from blacking out and falling on the floor in that 10 hour span. This is around when my now ex made me go see a doctor. Which started my what in the fuck do I have thing. Then lead to all the bullshit with the doctors which just in the end made my life worse. The symptoms came in this order. Social withdrawal My thoughts became voices Anxiety got really bad Started having episodes of mania Depression Reality started falling apart Delusions Mutilation Couldn't function around people anymore The things I found that actually help it. Psycho therapy with drugs to explore into my thoughts. Cognitive behavior therapy which is mindful meditation. Talking to people about it. Not giving a fuck what anyone thinks. Making all my voice/thought things say my name before it says anything. Being around positive people. Eating healthy and exercise. Only drug that I've had that outright takes out all the symptoms is magic mushrooms. Even if I'm having a bad trip I don't hear voices its as if my mind is one. The only thing that really triggers it anymore is my anxiety goes out of control. If you would like to see a picture of what my arm looks like now just let me know. Damn I wrote out a lot.[/QUOTE] Very interesting read, I imagine living with it is difficult and I can only hope that it gets better for you. Disorders of the mind really are scary In other news I've got a job now, got a phone call from a friend a few minutes after I woke up and now it seems I'm going to Stockholm to help lay fiber cables. Woo, money!
I had the first dream of mine that made actual sense in relation to my real life tonight. There's this red male cat in my neighborhood and its owner passed away a few months ago. Since noone in the neighborhood or his family has bothered with taking his cat to the vet for putting down of something it has just been terrorizing our neighborhood by breaking and entering everywhere to get that delicious dry food for cats. The neighborhood responded with one way locked cat-doors(kattelem in danish, anyone know what they're called?) the red cat responded with eating 2 of our dwarf hen. Last night we hadn't seen the red cat for 3 weeks or so so we decided to make our cats life easier by unlocking the cat-door. I go to sleep and what do I dream about? Me coming home trough the cellar door, only to see that fucking red cat with 4 kittens living in my home. Also bought me some DMT(1g of some yellow jungle ish stuff) because my brother is gonna make the 500kr he owes me into 7grams of mexican shrooms, which I must admit I find fair since that could have taken me some time to find by my own. Then I'm gonna wait until it's friday where my friend, and another friend of mine and his girlfriend will go to the girlfriends place and trip balls, then trip more balls when I tell them I brought some DMT :v: They say you can't get addicted to psychedelics but a successful trip after a long hiatus really does stimulates the appetite for more. Also a question: last time I funnied around with physchedelics I didn't do combos because I wanted to get a feel for them all alone, is DMT and shrooms even a good idea?
last night was strange lessons learned: tolerance is a bitch
DMT and shrooms is a fine idea.
Holy fuck i'm lucky, i was eating wrapped lollies after coming back from a sesh and being cooked, i put away the lolly wrapper and thew my baggies half full of weed to the paper wastebasket i have next to my desk. It sat there for a day in plain sight before i found it tonight. Lucky as fuck man.
So, I don't know about you guys, but I totally [b]hate[/b] stoner culture as a whole.
That sounds to me like hipster talk you heathen, social boundaries are but a myth as a stoner, everyone is simply "man" Like "hey...man" :v:
Woop, another DDer in Stockholm :dance:
Guys! Guess what! My doctor prescribed a new antipsychotic on top of the ones I'm taking and now I don't hear voices all the time anymore. I'm so happy and relieved. Just thought I'd share. Fuck yeah quiet days for once.
[QUOTE=cheetahben;46230899]So, I don't know about you guys, but I totally [b]hate[/b] stoner culture as a whole.[/QUOTE] I hate the half wit, douchebag, backward hat wearin', yolo swaggin', mother fuckers, and some of them are stoners. So I hate those stoners just as much as the straight douches. But that has nothing to do with pot or it's culture. What is there to hate about non-aggressive, creatively inclined, excitable, hungry people, who will only try and calm you down at any moment. They love their plant, as a happy man loves his wife.
so i am pretty sure i can just go to a pharmacy here and buy codeine. mexico owns
[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;46231317]so i am pretty sure i can just go to a pharmacy here and buy codeine. mexico owns[/QUOTE] To bad you'll get a stomach bug using a cold water extraction down there haha
not sure if going insane or just down from the molly
[QUOTE=Bleach Qeef;46231626]not sure if going insane or just down from the molly[/QUOTE] It's the molly. It'll pass. Give it a few days. [editline]October 14th 2014[/editline] and don't do anything stupid.
I've had vertigo for 3 days, man this shit is fucking dumb.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46228920]i've slept many hours and I still feel like i'm on stimulants, my focus is on lock mode and I have that "frozen' feeling with the brain goin the thing is I don't particularly mind this state at the moment, I kind of like it? feels very present(to the moment, anyway), compared to what i'm used too i'm a weird human being[/QUOTE] Usually when I get to that state (where I lived for about 1.5 years), the "present" state loses it's charm when you realize that for the past few months all you've done is watch the clock magically jump from 2pm to 12pm, you never go outside, you never talk to anyone, and it's inflicted you with permanent depression Gah putting it in perspective like that makes me think that there really needs to be better education on stimulant dosing and warning signs For now I'm just loading up on CBD to ease the aftermath from yesterday. It's much more effective when it's vaped instead of taken through overpriced edibles
old guy called police on me, they told me not to come near that park again didn't search me though
Invited KillerTele over for dinner, finished it off with some weed :D
[QUOTE=zach1193;46231622]To bad you'll get a stomach bug using a cold water extraction down there haha[/QUOTE] lucky me they filter the water in this resort. i think tomorrow i might go find that pharmacy that had a big sign with a bunch or different fun pharmaceuticals on it
buy distilled water in pharmacies
[QUOTE=geogzm;46232404]old guy called police on me, they told me not to come near that park again didn't search me though[/QUOTE] you are one lucky motherfucker
turned my back on ollie gave her no sympathy seen't her just the other day but she look the other way! to talk to her i think i should but i dont think she understood my intentions right from the start were not to break her fragile heart
happily crossfaded
Picked up my first two grams of oil, giving it a shot tomorrow once I buy something to smoke/vape it with.
[QUOTE=jonnymad;46234406]Picked up my first two grams of oil, giving it a shot tomorrow once I buy something to smoke/vape it with.[/QUOTE] How much did the 2gs cost?
$40, here's a shot. [t]http://i.imgur.com/6JIADFr.jpg[/t]
Shit, CBD is great. I vaped some Cannatonic ~40 minutes before class, and I managed to have a conversation with hot girl and generally be part of the class discussion with only mild discomfort (which was mostly physiological, and I have propranolol which can 100% take care of that)
[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;46233694]you are one lucky motherfucker[/QUOTE] cops were so cool about it
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