• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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I thought over and over when I was twelve and beyond, if I'm not happy by the age of 25, I should just end it. But 25 is looking like a farce these days. I don't know guys, I've been treading the thought increasingly over the last year or so. I would find ways to talk myself out of the situation, but I'm running out of the power to persuade myself. My friend offered me to move in with him. Maybe that will help, I don't know, seems like quite the leap to me.
Sometimes change is the right thing to do. I feel as though I romanticize change in my life too much because it never happens, but it's worth thinking about.
[QUOTE=The Aussie;46398302]I think shrooms may have actually changed my life for the better, permanently. I had a really bad shroom trip about 6 months ago, bad stuff. I felt so empty and i spent the entire time combing over my attitudes and actions, violently criticizing myself and considering suicide a few times. As bad as that was, the lasting affects have been incredible. I've been more motivated, i've lost pretty much all of my social anxieties, and i'm much happier. I'm not longer floating through life on an apathetic cloud, and i'm actively enjoying and participating in life. I wonder if i could have come to the solutions to these problems if i hadn't taken shrooms. One of the more extreme examples is my fear of public speaking. Pretty standard stuff. I used to do orals and such at school, and i'd be shaking so hard it'd be difficult to read my notes. I'd feel like vomiting days in advance. Pretty standard stuff though. However, since that trip, it's been easy. Easy to speak my mind, easy to talk infront of audiences, and easy to improvise and keep a cool head when shit fucks up. Anyway, the reason i'm speaking about all this is because i'm curious if drugs have affected you positively or negatively. I know a few people here have struggled with some very dark demons, and fought the spectre of addiction. A lot of people tend to say that they learned a lot about themselves on psychs, but what i'm interested in is their lasting affects.[/QUOTE] My experience was similar. Depression, thoughts of suicide, etc, but afterwards I have this new found appreciation for social workings. I've been able to see groups of people as just that: individuals making up a whole. Shrooms made me realize that power and status are nothing but people thinking highly of another person, and that anyone can get to that level if they take the initiative. Other people's opinions started to mean less to me, because it was the first time in my life that I'd seen them as equals. Shrooms broke down a lot of social barriers for me, and I'd say that it almost completely eradicated my ego, or at least bolstered my sense of id. Overall, very positive life choice. I will definitely try them again given the chance, but I'm hoping for a higher dosage next time. [editline]3rd November 2014[/editline] [QUOTE=Joscpe;46399597]I thought over and over when I was twelve and beyond, if I'm not happy by the age of 25, I should just end it. But 25 is looking like a farce these days. I don't know guys, I've been treading the thought increasingly over the last year or so. I would find ways to talk myself out of the situation, but I'm running out of the power to persuade myself. My friend offered me to move in with him. Maybe that will help, I don't know, seems like quite the leap to me.[/QUOTE] Life isn't something that you should force yourself through. At the same time, ending your life at 25 because you aren't happy yet is shortsighted man. I hate to say live just because you are alive, but honestly, things can change. In you is the potential for anything. Starting tomorrow, you are a baby. You are zero years old. From that point forward, live like a new person. Do things that are risky, but calculated. Meet up with people you wouldn't. Write a book, create a new style of writing, learn a language, create a thousand new phrases for putting ketchup on a burger. The temperature, wind index and atmospheric pressure tomorrow is different from any day prior and any day that will come. It is distinct and unrepeatable, just like you. You have to believe in that man. If there is one thing that depression has taught me it's that, above all else, humans need something to believe in. Whether it is other people or religion or themselves, they need something to put faith in. Find that something, even if it is a fantastical dream, and then go chase after that phantasm like your life depends upon it. You've got this.
Jomt is a cool guy
Gonna reserve weed for the weekend now. I think I've taken the fun out of smoking by just being high whenever I have free time, it feels too normal. I remember when I used to be able to get fucked up and have a great time but now I just get a buzz on that doesn't feel that great. Gotten good at rolling skinny joints, which is nice because I don't have to use tobacco to keep it lit. Tobacco just seems to make me feel nauseous.
I've got a cold and a cough, gonna take a single DayQuil cap I'm on a low dose of Wellbutrin compared to most people who had bad interactions taking recreational doses of DXM This will only be 10mg DXM, so I *should* be fine
Weed tea is delicious oh my god
So, my friend bought a 3 litre bottle of Jack Daniels. [t]http://i.imgur.com/A3bXEYc.jpg[/t] Pictured next to completely normal sized Jager knockoff. Good party is all I can say.
amphetamine is a good drug
So I'm in a restaurant, and I'm the only one there other than these two people off in a nook, and I order my food and get it and it's the best shit I've ever had in my life. But then I look up to an exit and this mind fuck awaits: [IMG]http://i58.tinypic.com/33u3gnc.jpg[/IMG] So I eat, eyeing the... demon before me with wild eyes. Then I got up after finishing and took a while framing my shot and capturing it for all time in a photograph. Then I heard the guys behind the counter commenting on how fucking stoned I must have been and I realized I had stayed to long. The jig was up! The game was afoot! So I dashed my jolly rump straight out the main door and into the moonlight.
Yo can someone get high and play outland for me? Like, in spirit [img]http://uk.playstation.com/media/7ufApHkS/Outland_Hero_vf1.JPG[/img] you know you wanna
for those of you who think you lack the talent to pursue things: [img]http://i.cubeupload.com/oMF7mX.jpg[/img] I made this after a month of weekly painting classes, and having never made art before that
[QUOTE=Lick;46403939]for those of you who think you lack the talent to pursue things: [img]http://i.cubeupload.com/oMF7mX.jpg[/img] I made this after a month of weekly painting classes, and having never made art before that[/QUOTE] Dude if you made that after a month of weekly classes and no prior experience, you must be the next Picasso Like there is finesse and technique in that painting that countless artists strive for years to accomplish
Thanks man but I really don't think so. Just used a grid and a reference image. Anyway, definitely blew my own mind, just trying to see where this takes me.
[QUOTE=Lick;46404215]Thanks man but I really don't think so. Just used a grid and a reference image. Anyway, definitely blew my own mind, just trying to see where this takes me.[/QUOTE] Yeah I figured that, I was just really high and wanted to write a flamboyant/sarcastic comment Really though, that's still pretty good for using the grid process [editline]3rd November 2014[/editline] You'll go far with this if you put in the effort
[QUOTE=Joscpe;46396381]Life's a fucking joke, and I just don't have the energy to laugh along anymore. Well, DD. If I suddenly stop posting for over a couple weeks anytime soon, you know where I am![/QUOTE] come one man we already had tittles kill himself, we dont need to lose another dd bro :(
been toking of course, just took a last hit for today. got Fallout:NV for 2.50 yesterday.
[QUOTE=Lick;46403939]for those of you who think you lack the talent to pursue things: [img]http://i.cubeupload.com/oMF7mX.jpg[/img] I made this after a month of weekly painting classes, and having never made art before that[/QUOTE] Lol i've been an artist for nearly 6 years now and I still don't do giant pieces like that. That's really, really fucking good for someone not having priar art experience. It lacks a bit of detail in the helmet area towards the bottom left and the shading on the visor(?) were it transitions from grey to white is odd but other then that, that's fucking good
[QUOTE=bacardimaster;46404368]come one man we already had tittles kill himself, we dont need to lose another dd bro :([/QUOTE] How was that found out exactly? I thought he just got perma'd?
I can't wait to be sober again.
[QUOTE=Lick;46403939]for those of you who think you lack the talent to pursue things: [img]http://i.cubeupload.com/oMF7mX.jpg[/img] I made this after a month of weekly painting classes, and having never made art before that[/QUOTE] wow that's really nice dude!
Mindmuncher would be proud of that painting.
[QUOTE=bacardimaster;46404368]come one man we already had tittles kill himself, we dont need to lose another dd bro :([/QUOTE] Tittles was on tinychat the other day, unless we're talking about another tittles.
4:20am [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xWMNLoJtmyc[/media] [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbHWJrtH_3U[/media] [img]http://images.mzzt.net/smilies/emot-2bong.png[/img]
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Holy hell I've never felt so patriotic before moving to china. I'm not even kidding, I want to read a bible and hunt deer. What is going on in my life.
[QUOTE=explodingape;46407239]Holy hell I've never felt so patriotic before moving to china. I'm not even kidding, I want to read a bible and hunt deer. What is going on in my life.[/QUOTE] Then grab yourself some fried grasshopper on a stick and ride a bike to the Mogao caves. Drugs are optional. [editline]4th November 2014[/editline] as a matter a fact, [URL="http://www.smh.com.au/world/australians-facing-the-death-penalty-in-china-for-drug-offences-20140911-10fqki.html"]nevermind the drugs[/URL].
[QUOTE=KillerTele;46401243]Jomt is a cool guy[/QUOTE] What have I done now
[QUOTE=Lick;46403939]for those of you who think you lack the talent to pursue things: [img]http://i.cubeupload.com/oMF7mX.jpg[/img] I made this after a month of weekly painting classes, and having never made art before that[/QUOTE] That's seriously neat, dude. What was your reference image? First I saw I thought it was Alien Isolation [IMG]http://www.destructoid.com/ul/267206-/h2-620x.jpg[/IMG]
I'm baked as fuck guys haha
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