• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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Lets see if i can keep things stabalized now that ive found the will power to stave off and stay away from cigarettes Im not expecting too much from my self, the odd lapse isnt going to kill me but i defs need to keep the habits under control for my mental health's sake
Spent my $100 bday giftcard on presents for my neices and nephew. Got my nephew a 1:14 scale RC Mclaren P1, my neice a little-tikes coupe, and a couple doc mcstuffins figures for my other niece. And I got a Formula SAE book full of automotive calculations and theory for me to absorb for my drawings. I have about 150mg of DXM as well as a line of about 100mg mdma. Is it safe to combine them? Is it more enjoyable than taking them separately?
[QUOTE=CoilingTesla;46616488]Spent my $100 bday giftcard on presents for my neices and nephew. Got my nephew a 1:14 scale RC Mclaren P1, my neice a little-tikes coupe, and a couple doc mcstuffins figures for my other niece. And I got a Formula SAE book full of automotive calculations and theory for me to absorb for my drawings. I have about 150mg of DXM as well as a line of about 100mg mdma. Is it safe to combine them?[/QUOTE] Combined, I've read that they can be deadly.
long fucking day at school then got called into work till almost 9pm, fuck that shit :words: :smoking:
I'm Conflicted. My best friend who I've known for five years has recently been cheated on by his bitch-now-ex-girlfriend and hasn't been taking it well. Trying to console him on FB has proven useless. At first he kept going on about how he would like to collect this third cigarettes limbs and giblets and mail it to her house. After some reasoning I finally got it through to him that that was insane. Yet he still goes on about how he's become this overnight sociopath who takes pleasure in watching the life draining out of small puppies and shit like being fascinated by watching a fly being slowly wrapped in silk only to be promptly eaten by a spider. Fuck off, okay? I'm supposed to believe that the same dude who took me in while I was down and out and let be bum countless beers, tokes, and smokes without question is suddenly a heartless stone cold hard-ass who doesn't afraid of anything?? Holy shit did that confuse me at first. How can tell this guy to stop being a betafag edgelord who can't handle rejection?
maybe he's really a sociopath and can't fake being really nice anymore, I'd stay far away [editline]1st December 2014[/editline] Why is there no MDMA thread in this subsection? /b/rother should start one
damn I never saw the dark knight rises until just now, holy fuck that was awesome
I need a t-break, but I also can't stop cold turkey because it's the only way I can keep anorexia/insomnia/ADHD at bay Maybe if I stop chasing highs during the day and stick to taking small doses throughout the day, and let my body adjust to that amount. I don't think that will affect my tolerance too badly, because I won't be pushing it higher constantly, just sitting a bit higher than the baseline
[QUOTE=cody8295;46616861]maybe he's really a sociopath and can't fake being really nice anymore, I'd stay far away[/QUOTE] I guess I've been conveniently overlooking that possibility. But five years??? How can somebody keep that up for that long? He was the only person I knew in these times who I related to... The only bro who I could vent to whenever I felt insecure or depressed. Those conversations.. that was all manufactured... hallmark card copypasta...? That's soooo fucked up.... fuck . But... it all makes sense now... Christ.
[QUOTE=D:\;46616643]Combined, I've read that they can be deadly.[/QUOTE] I doubt that they would be deadly at the amounts I'd take, I'll just take the DXM and save the mdma for a more special occasion. No need to skullfuck my seratonin balance, I suppose.
[QUOTE=Number7Reds;46617068]I guess I've been conveniently been overlooking that possibility. But five years??? How can somebody keep that up for that long? He was the only person I knew in these times who I related to... The only bro who I could vent to whenever I felt insecure or depressed. Those conversations.. that was all manufactured... hallmark card copypasta...? That's soooo fucked up.... fuck . But... it all makes sense now... Christ.[/QUOTE] Well, being a sociopath - which he may aswell be - hiding it for years isn't that much of problem, main characteristic of sociopathy is lack of moral responsabilities, so fooling people about your personality is kind of natural in this case. [I]But chances are that he's probably overreacting and even though he [/I]can[I] watch this kind of shit, doesn't mean he's actually enjoying.[/I] Be frank and tell him you'll be there when he gets over this fucked up act. [editline]2nd December 2014[/editline] [QUOTE=Faren;46616979]damn I never saw the dark knight rises until just now, holy fuck that was awesome[/QUOTE] gotta tell you I was a little confused on seeing bahman' on the streets in broad daylight, but the overall idea got my respect
I've never taken such a low dose of dxm. This is weird. Like tramdol, but with a wave of disassociation whenever lighting or setting changes. I like how NSRI, NSSRI, SSRI, and SNRI affect me at low doses, I'm calm , just like how sobriety felt years ago. [editline]2nd December 2014[/editline] Suddenly, I am incredibly gassy and the heat waves coming off the tea kettle are tripping me out. Just realised that I haven't snoked for atleast 8 hours, which is a pretty big deal to me, I usually have the urge to smoke every hour at least. Not smoking before bed last night definitely helped.
[QUOTE=Number7Reds;46616683]I'm Conflicted. My best friend who I've known for five years has recently been cheated on by his bitch-now-ex-girlfriend and hasn't been taking it well. Trying to console him on FB has proven useless. At first he kept going on about how he would like to collect this third cigarettes limbs and giblets and mail it to her house. After some reasoning I finally got it through to him that that was insane. Yet he still goes on about how he's become this overnight sociopath who takes pleasure in watching the life draining out of small puppies and shit like being fascinated by watching a fly being slowly wrapped in silk only to be promptly eaten by a spider. Fuck off, okay? I'm supposed to believe that the same dude who took me in while I was down and out and let be bum countless beers, tokes, and smokes without question is suddenly a heartless stone cold hard-ass who doesn't afraid of anything?? Holy shit did that confuse me at first. How can tell this guy to stop being a betafag edgelord who can't handle rejection?[/QUOTE] Betrayal of trust can do funny things to a person especially when the trust is fully invested. I got pretty edgelord after my ex cheated on me, vowed to destroy her reputation and what not and pretty much did everything i could to spite her for a while, im all good now and quite happy by comparison, wouldnt even think of doing the kinds of things i had in my contemplative brain at the time. Yeah, its not a good look, but hes clearly been seriously hurt and this is the kind of thing that turns a lot of desperados that are otherwise stone cold motherfuckers into weird funky assholes for a while. my question is if it was his first serious relationship, chances are he idealized what he was in for and had ridiculously high expectations, in other words he has a lot of personal things to work through and if he learns from this, without holding onto the grudge for too long, he'll come out of it a better person, it will take time though, he'll likely be bitter towards woman and friendships for some time because that sort of thing, sadly, does a whole world of emotional and mental damage to a person. Its heartbreaking, and id argue he's probably definitely not a sociopath if he's getting a reaction like this out of it but just hasnt worked out how to be in control of how he reacts to his feelings yet. You cant expect anyone that gets cheated on to take it lightly and brush it off like it was nothing, especially not the first time it happens and if it was a serious relationship. The fact that hes thinking he might be a sociopath for these kind of reactions is the same as the narcassist parable; if you legitimately consider the possibility of it, youre likely not. Most sociopaths have no idea that what theyre doing is 'out of order' because they believe it is right and just, he claims to have turned into one overnight, he knows theres something weird about his behaviour but he hasnt worked out why hes driven to such contemplative thoughts and dark parabols of behavior just yet, can almost say for certain he's over reacting to himself which makes it seem all the worse when he reflects. Be supportive, 'its natural to feel how youre feeling given the circumstances but dont make yourself feel worse by doing anything youd regret, if youre not sure about something, just wait until your sure and ask me if need be prior to going through with anything' for example. He's stuck in irrational thinking because of his severly hurt feelings,but he'll work it out in the end with the right kind of support
no joke Consciousness you're a smart dude, that's some nice wisdom there
fuck making sure I eat enough is a chore when i'm on meds I always think it's my meds being ineffective but then I realize no, that pit in my stomach feeling which I can't help but focus on is because I haven't eaten a decent meal for the duration of my last dose doesn't help that when i'm trying to eat people are usually talking shit at me which makes it more difficult to down; but at least it's still down able just realized over the past few days or so though that my meds are far more effective when i'm actually making sure to keep my self well nourished, like the first dose of every day is usually fan fucking tastic and full of productivity because I have breakfast ~half an hour after my dose
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46618586]fuck making sure I eat enough is a chore when i'm on meds I always think it's my meds being ineffective but then I realize no, that pit in my stomach feeling is because I haven't eaten a decent meal for the duration of my last dose doesn't help that when i'm trying to eat people are usually talking shit at me which makes it more difficult to down; but at least it's still down able just realized over the past few days or so though that my meds are far more effective when i'm actually making sure to keep my self well nourished, like the first dose of every day is usually fan fucking tastic and full of productivity because I have breakfast ~half an hour after my dose[/QUOTE] Dude eating on those meds is so important, sadly they've rendered me almost incapable of keeping food down until the late evening Maybe that's why I've been able to think so much better since I started smoking daily. I (usually) eat three meals a day now
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[QUOTE=ZenX2;46618612]Dude eating on those meds is so important, sadly they've rendered me almost incapable of keeping food down until the late evening Maybe that's why I've been able to think so much better since I started smoking daily. I (usually) eat three meals a day now[/QUOTE] the flip side to the lack of appetite is that they're making me very in tune with my own body and thought processes in general, like when unmedicated, I wont even notice i'm actually hungry and skip meals, oversleep and stay up super late, generally just completely out of order; because i'm so heavily distracted (hyper focused on distractions/external stimulus without even feeling focused) or simply 'not wanting too', but my appetite by comparison is quite good, as such eating is a lot easier when I do finally get around to it, but i'll binge eat and a lot of shit food at that when the time comes i'd say that it's getting more and more certain that I do indeed have ADHD, simply because the medication is putting me into this position of being able to take adequate care of myself the more I get accustomed to it, the sort of care that I should always be taking when medicated or not; I figure if I continue on working these things out progressively improving my lifestyle as such I should be golden it just sucks a little bit cause when I do eat on the meds it's like I have to have a bottle of water nearby so I can effectively down it
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46618645]the flip side to the lack of appetite is that they're making me very in tune with my own body and thought processes in general, like when unmedicated, I wont even notice i'm actually hungry and skip meals, oversleep and stay up super late, generally just completely out of order; because i'm so heavily distracted (hyper focused on distractions/external stimulus without even feeling focused) or simply 'not wanting too', but my appetite by comparison is quite good, as such eating is a lot easier when I do finally get around to it, but i'll binge eat and a lot of shit food at that when the time comes i'd say that it's getting more and more certain that I do indeed have ADHD, simply because the medication is putting me into this position of being able to take adequate care of myself the more I get accustomed to it, the sort of care that I should always be taking when medicated or not; I figure if I continue on working these things out progressively improving my lifestyle as such I should be golden it just sucks a little bit cause when I do eat on the meds it's like I have to have a bottle of water nearby so I can effectively down it[/QUOTE] I totally get that, when I stopped taking it for a month in the summer I completely lost the ability to take care of myself And speaking of water, even that was giving me some trouble this morning On the bright side, my theory of everything made some leaps and bounds tonight. I've now defined the purpose of and relations between all the layered generative processes of the world, and how something meaningful can come from a system so complex and with so many branching possibilities over time that you'd expect to get nothing but noise from it.
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Just had a mess of a recovery day after downing about a liter of hard alcohol. That's all the drinking for this week folks!
It's only Tuesday, plenty of opportunity to get smashed yet.
Gonna be living by myself in a caravan/trailer this winter. I suddenly feel old, the day has finally come where (at least temporarily) I'll be fending for myself.
Did you hit anything last night?
Note to self Dont substitute eating with coffee Just makes the stomach pangs and shitty feelings worse while further decreasing appetite Better off not eating until i can as opposed to doing that one
I heard speed does the same thing ^ How's everyone been.
[QUOTE=mrmr;46619375]Did you hit anything last night?[/QUOTE] Thankfully no, I mostly watched TV all night :v: My snap if anyone wants to add me, I need company during the night shifts: Krutponken
Odd. Im able to eat fine now and have been feasting a bit but my stomach isnt particularly feeling any better, it almost feels numb to food if that makes sense? Was churning quite a bit and i did eat throughout the day (allbeit not a huge deal) I sincerely hope i havent gotten a tape worm or something like that and its just odd sensations with a bit of overconcern on my own behalf
my friends keep giving me drugs [editline]2nd December 2014[/editline] oh no what do i do
[QUOTE=ljonny;46619729]I heard speed does the same thing ^ How's everyone been.[/QUOTE] Meds are ritalin, similar to amphetamines but not quite the same, still stimulants
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