• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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[QUOTE=-z-e-m-i-;46666495]Stayed home from school today. Better get all of my assignments done.[/QUOTE] school isn't important anyways, right?.. right??? :v: [editline]8th December 2014[/editline] actually you should drop out and start playing cs:go with me and animoz. we're going to be the new world order, i swear!
[QUOTE=/B/rother;46666965]school isn't important anyways, right?.. right??? :v: [editline]8th December 2014[/editline] actually you should drop out and start playing cs:go with me and animoz. we're going to be the new world order, i swear![/QUOTE] One week before dropping out, I'm down!
[QUOTE=cody8295;46666884]to smoke or not to smoke, that is the question[/QUOTE] I often ask myself this, a simple logic process usually gives me a solid outcome Do I have weed? Do I have papers? Do I have 30 minutes to myself? if the answer to all three is yes, you know what to do
The only reason i stayed home today was because of my assignments, also felling a little ill. Im not gonna drop out at any time im afraid. Playing CS:GO wouldnt be very enjoyable anyways ;) Now WoW is something i could spend my time on. [editline]8th December 2014[/editline] Or Heartstone
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46660136]Howd the hallucinations treat ya if you had any? Meth was like that for me The shadow army was perhaps the most profound hallucination i ever experienced. My entire conscious field of perception turned into little shadow people that essentially built themselves out of nothing and they started running at me. Like i was stuck in a plane of hell with all the lost souls coming to destroy me.. it was loud and chaotic as they got closer but they pretty much just ran through/past me. I could make out entire beings, facial expressions, hear them screaming and shit It was, very short lived as i realized they were nothing to be afraid of and embraced the experience it quickly went away But ill be fucked if i didnt think 'well, this is it, ive died and gone to hell' for a bit there A lot of gear + sleep deprivation can do some funny things to the mind. I also saw the world going through apocalypses of sorts in every moment, things falling apart, exploding, etc.etc all around me with my 'focus' holding it all together and keeping me alive. Very delusional states, i really dont miss it[/QUOTE] I'm used to shadow people. And I guess after a week of my "heavy use" I quit noticing the hallucinations and delusions. I was a pale, skinny sunken in mother fucker, usually carrying around a weapon or 4 other dudes, and wearing sunglasses at like 3 am. It was like I was "supposed to be doing something" at all times. I was never home, I was out and about slanging all day, and eventually it just made me sick after doing it so much :v: Smoke some, get tired and feel like shit. It made me feel like Trevor off GTA V. Psychotic, Emotional, Depressed, and emotionless all at the same time. When someone pissed me off or owed me something, they got the wrath of hell. I loved it so much because it's like I didn't give one single fuck (which was the downfall of it all) Fuck me, I still do it lol. Just did a fatty line last night, Been up all night for once since July :o And when I say "Bad on speed" I mean BAAAD. Imagine 8 months wasted to the daily scheme of "gotta get more, gotta sell more, gotta *ect*" Then the depression and thoughts of how your life became the way it is. To me the hell on meth was the fiending part. I kind of seen it like a good and evil thing. And Meth is hell'a evil. The words that came to mind when I thought of it was "Greed, Lust, Gluttony, Sloth, Envy, Pride, and Wrath" the seven deadly sins :v: I don't believe in a physical hell, but more of a mental hell. Derived through chemicals.
[QUOTE=ljonny;46667102] The words that came to mind when I thought of it was "Greed, Lust, Gluttony, Sloth, Envy, Pride, and Wrath" the seven deadly sins :v:[/QUOTE] i don't know why, but reading this really made me want to go pick some amph up with my next piece of hash.
Is it bad people give you free drugs because of who you are? LOL. I mean hey I'm not complaining. [QUOTE=/B/rother;46667147]i don't know why, but reading this really made me want to go pick some amph up with my next piece of hash.[/QUOTE] Same here. Oh wait it's in my pocket. Just ate a meal, I feel ready for the day. Well physically at least. let's see how this sleep deprived high goes this time.
[QUOTE=/B/rother;46562081]a few months ago we had a falling out in my groups of friends and a kid ended up getting kicked out of our social circle. we found out he had psychopathic traits, was manipulating, tried to fuck some of us over about money and started having sex with someones girlfriend. we confronted the kid and he has pretty much went into hiding since then; not really going to parties, doesn't walk around on the streets around here and doesn't hang with ANYONE from around here, because he doesn't want to run into some of us. in short, he's a motherfucking snake. i just woke up from a dream, wherein i had a party going on. i called jones up and asked if he wouldn't come over for a talk, and when he finally arrived we jumped him, beat him and stomped him before i woke up. i can't help but to look for him whenever i walk around the streets around here, take the train or walk around the area where his parents live. some day i'm going to do something stupid, but i'm not sure i'll be regretting it. i wish i could let it go, though.[/QUOTE] i spotted him in the local supermarket yesterday, but i was with my girlfriend and her little brother, so i didn't approach him. some other time maybe.
So I know I post rarely. It's because my mom actually has an account and looks for my post in the lounge. So yeah.
uhm... fuck i did it again this is bad week off me thinks I am very confused now about this all and i'm hitting points of depression considering what the future has in store i don't know if I can handle my life anymore, it's spiraling out, im feeling really lost part of me wants to go into complete seclusion for an extended period, but i don't want to be alone i don't feel as though I really have any friends anymore, the ones I do have get on my nerves because, honestly, they're all pretty much dicks I don't have it in me to try to make any new ones, i wouldn't even know where to begin i miss having love, but I don't feel worthy of ever finding it again, i don't want to hurt anyone by being this thing that I am I hate the idea of pickup and hook ups, but it seems to be all that anyone here is interested in 'gaming' eachother i feel fucking trapped in where things are at right now i don't know what to do, i don't know where to go but honestly, at this point, i'm heavily considering a fresh start somewhere new i wish I could hit rewind on everything, make different choices i feel like i've completely fucked my life up, and along with that the one person i truly cared for my best friend, my significant other, she's long gone now, and i don't see the light in life without that someone else in it. fuck man this is... fucked might as well call me the ice king, cause that's probably what i'll end up like at this rate
I feel like someone needs to say this. Get off Ritalin bro. Your mind is racing at a million miles per hour and it's wrecking you.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46668073]uhm... fuck i did it again this is bad week off me thinks I am very confused now about this all and i'm hitting points of depression considering what the future has in store i don't know if I can handle my life anymore, it's spiraling out, im feeling really lost part of me wants to go into complete seclusion for an extended period, but i don't want to be alone i don't feel as though I really have any friends anymore, the ones I do have get on my nerves because, honestly, they're all pretty much dicks I don't have it in me to try to make any new ones, i wouldn't even know where to begin i miss having love, but I don't feel worthy of ever finding it again, i don't want to hurt anyone by being this thing that I am I hate the idea of pickup and hook ups, but it seems to be all that anyone here is interested in 'gaming' eachother i feel fucking trapped in where things are at right now i don't know what to do, i don't know where to go but honestly, at this point, i'm heavily considering a fresh start somewhere new i wish I could hit rewind on everything, make different choices i feel like i've completely fucked my life up, and along with that the one person i truly cared for my best friend, my significant other, she's long gone now, and i don't see the light in life without that someone else in it. fuck man this is... fucked might as well call me the ice king, cause that's probably what i'll end up like at this rate[/QUOTE] If you want to fix things, go find places cool people hang out at. Go to the bar, find someone. "Hook up" and then tell them that you hate hooking up and if you genuinely like the person you picked up ask her to defy society with you.
if you can at all stop taking factory made prescription pills for any reason (ritalin, xanax, klonopin) DO IT. my fucking therapist wanted to give me xanax the last time i was in there and thank god i said no because that conversation is what propelled me into getting my medical marijuana card. prescription pills are so fucking bad for you and your brain.
Picked up a quarter of dankity dank, guy said it's called animal cracker. Any guesses what I'm listening to when I smoke it? [T]http://i.imgur.com/fWxjGdMh.jpg[/t]
i'm probably gonna have to spend a good deal of time readjusting to baseline sober, what better place to 'start fresh' than being basically drug free perhaps i should get a dog
I wish VA would legalize for medicinal use. I'm not trying to be put on antidepressants or mood stabilizers.
My friend just offered me a free nug. How kind. I turned him down though, having schizophrenia + weed is a big no. [editline]December 8th, 2014[/editline] (research chemicals is where it's at)
[QUOTE=Creid;46668355]My friend just offered me a free nug. How kind. I turned him down though, having schizophrenia + weed is a big no. [editline]December 8th, 2014[/editline] (research chemicals is where it's at)[/QUOTE] I have a very close friend who is schizophrenic, he smokes more weed than I do, and I'm high a ton lol
I spent the past 20 minutes trying to figure out why my music doesnt sound amazing right now. Then I realized I had the surround sound switch off on my headset. If you dont already, you [I]gotta[/I] get a 5.1 or 7.1 surround sound headset. You will never regret.
Welp there goes my sleeping pattern again Hope withdrawal phase doesnt last too long, ive gotten through the worst state in terms of acute effects, Not as neurotic, just anxious and quite restless now, readjusting to baseline is gonna be bothersome but ill be alright with time. Suppose i can try quitting cigarettes again while im at it, i ironically have an easier time staying off them when unmedicated so might as well put one and two together and put an end to two bad habits at the same time. IIll probably spend the next week or so just watching tv, playing video games and eating heaps, when i feel up to it, hopefully sooner than later, maybe even today if i dont crash to early in the morning, ill go sort out the rest of the steps towards getting back on my learners permit, hopefully it doesnt cost too much(as in more than i currently have) but i dont want to wait around any longer really
[QUOTE=jonnymad;46668341]Picked up a quarter of dankity dank, guy said it's called animal cracker. Any guesses what I'm listening to when I smoke it? [T]http://i.imgur.com/fWxjGdMh.jpg[/t][/QUOTE] [img]http://oi57.tinypic.com/2yjwwuq.jpg[/img] [img]http://iyouboushi.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/emot-c00lbert.gif[/img]
I'm nearly dankrupt, I've got maybe 2-3 bowls left It's okay though, gonna pick up a quarter of the dankest dank around soon
Sheeeiiit, had a tole-brake of 8 days and about to blaze off my fucking skull. [editline]8th December 2014[/editline] Then play XCOM or see a movie with muh broda, maybe the Nightcrawler.
"Yeah man like 147 states have just legalized it" my dealer man
[QUOTE=Creid;46668355] (research chemicals is where it's at)[/QUOTE] Are you talking about those powders and herbs you can get behind the counter in headshops
[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;46669219]Are you talking about those powders and herbs you can get behind the counter in headshops[/QUOTE] Oh, those are awful. You should mainly get them from webshops when they don't sell weirdly named shit without specyfying what is in them. Also since they are [I]research[/I] chemicals you don't even know their side effects on health fully, what they do in the long term (other than they don't do anything good :v:)
Let's not jump to conclusions, one of these research chems might just cure cancer
[QUOTE=Creid;46668071]So I know I post rarely. It's because my mom actually has an account and looks for my post in the lounge. So yeah.[/QUOTE] hey dreids mother, go suck a dick.
[QUOTE=cody8295;46669524]Let's not jump to conclusions, one of these research chems might just cure cancer[/QUOTE] Shit, well time to do some reasearch then.[bump]
[QUOTE=jonnymad;46668488]I have a very close friend who is schizophrenic, he smokes more weed than I do, and I'm high a ton lol[/QUOTE] well shit, i turned down a free nug. BUT OH WELL my mom would find out now anyway facepunch should screen users to prevent moms
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